Scarred by a long gone buck’s rubbing,
shoved westward by his develveting grind,
the aspen had always leaned, and I had thought
many times I should stake it up, straighten it out,
but I never did, then last week’s several heavy
feet of snow became rain, and under that weight it split
at the buck’s scar and bent to the ground,
and I was bereft. But in my regret I hauled
through the snow a hundred feet of ropes,
a come-along, a pair of steel pintel hooks,
and a five-gallon bucket of hopeful arborist’s
paraphernalia. I tied it off to a stouter tree,
winched it upright again, braced it with a two-by-four
plank notched and swaddled at the notched end
in innertube ribbons, then guyed it off to the fir
that was the engine of its reascension.
Afterward I plastered black tar around its wound,
wound a bandage of grafting tape over the tar,
and covered the tape in a green vinyl sleeve
against the winter yet to come. And every day
in order to offer such apologies as I can
I visit it. Sometimes, like the other day, I sit with it,
put an arm around it, and describe the motions
of its leaves in spring and summer,
and especially in its glorious fall:
how its gold shimmers, and sometimes how
a leaf will loose itself and fly the ten yards
to the porch of my shack and settle on a chair,
or, in the cold October rains, plaster itself
to a window like a kiss. That day I also explained
the next step in our treatment. How once
it is leafed out and green again, I will,
using the same rope that righted it, fasten
that rope at the height of my knee, at the strong
unbroken butt of it just below the buck’s black scar,
and winch it a bit more upright yet, until,
by high summer, as straight as nearly any tree
around it, it will stand. Soon the seat of my pants
was wet from the snow and I was shivering,
but still I didn’t want to go. I stood
and stroked the dressing around its wound
and resolved to come back from my shack
that afternoon, to read it a poem or two—
not my own, certainly not this one—but maybe
‘The Wellfleet Whale’ or ‘The Trees’,
in which ‘their greenness is a kind of grief’,
though I have not done so yet. ‘Begin afresh,’
I think this afternoon. ‘Last year is dead.’
Larkin, I think, would have thought me a fool,
Kunitz, maybe not so much. Though I notice
in the divot where I’d sat beside it, a puddle
my own face regards me from. I’m empty-handed
and know neither poem, the short nor the long,
by heart. Only end of the Kunitz: ‘like us,’ it goes,
‘disgraced and mortal,’ from the puddle, says my face.