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abuse-related behaviors, 164–200

abusive sexual fantasies or pornography, 174–76, 185

acting in sexually demanding or exploitive ways, 178–79

avoiding sex, 169–70

breaking free of, 179–200

checklist of, 166–67

combining sex and emotional or physical abuse, 172–73

compulsive masturbation, 176–77

faking sexual enjoyment, 170–71

having sex when not fully alert, 173–74

having sex when you don’t want to, 171–72

promiscuous sex, 177–78

relating to past abuse, 165–79

sex outside primary relationship, 178

acceptance of triggers, 160–61

accepting fact of sexual abuse, 206–9

acknowledging pain of abuse, 208–9

building trust, 209

resolving feelings from disclosure, 206–8

acknowledging past sexual abuse, 28–56

importance of, 28–30

overcoming blocks to, 34–44

remembering abuse, 4, 29, 44–49

telling others, 49–56, 162–63

understanding sexual abuse, 30–34

acquaintance rape, defined, 31

acting-out sexual behaviors, 110–12

active awareness, 249–51, 285

active role in sex, 197–98

adopting out the automatic reaction, 162–63

“adopting the role,” 122–23

affairs

as abuse-related behavior, 178

intimate partners and, 22, 24, 111, 178

affirmations, 126, 127, 157

aggression (aggressive behaviors), 144, 178–79

AIDS, 22, 178, 196

Alcoholics Anonymous, 26, 26n, 49–50, 155, 185

alcohol use, 168, 281n

alert, having sex when not fully, 173–74

altering triggers, 158–60

American Association of Sex Educators, Counselors, and Therapists (AASECT), 281n

amnesia, traumatic, 45

anger

at partner’s request for sex, 19

about sexual abuse, 8, 24

anxiety

creating unnecessary, 309

of intimate partners, 23

sexual functioning problems and, 66, 282–83, 293, 298–99

as trigger for sexual response, 42

as triggers to automatic reactions, 141–42

arousal difficulties, xix–xx, 290–94

assertiveness, 128–29, 286

asthma, 4

attitudes about sex

changing, 100–104

new, 236–37

sexual abuse mind-set. See sexual abuse mind-set

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 60–61

audiotapes, resources, 333–34

automatic reactions, 135–63, 291

avoiding and defusing triggers of, 154–55, 221, 296

experiencing, 140–44

handling, 155–63, 237

identifying triggers of, 147–54

nature of, 135–36

recognizing, 136–40

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 61–62

understanding relationship to past abuse, 144–47

avoiding sex, 169–70

awareness of sexual issues, 15–27

“I’m acting in strange ways that don’t make sense,” 17–20

“My partner is hurting,” 22–24

“My sexual problem isn’t getting any better,” 20–22

“New circumstances have made me more aware,” 24–27

badness, feelings of, 107–12

Baker, Joyce, 256n

Bass, Ellen, 5, 49, 211n, 236n, 304

Baur, Karla, 132n, 248n, 295n

Bear, Euan, 105

being in your body, 129–33

betrayal of a trusted relationship, 33

biases, holding onto, 40–44

biological sex drive, 95–96

blaming the victim, 4, 43–44

Blank, Joani, 297n

blinders, to sex roles, 193–94

blocks to recognizing sexual abuse, 34–44

confusion about special nature of abuse, 36–40

personal biases and discounts as, 40–44

sharing with others, 49–56

unsureness of how to evaluate experiences, 35–36

body

awareness exercises. See body awareness exercises

fears of viewing, 130–31

“My body responded,” 42, 110, 123–24, 146–47

reclaiming your, 129–33

body awareness exercises, 268–73

cleansing, 269

genital exploration, with partner, 273

getting to know your genitals, 271–72, 292–93

reclaiming your body, 270

shampooing hair, 268

body massage with partner exercise, 274–75

books, recommended, 317–27

Boss, Suzie, 94n, 139n, 159n

boundaries

developing sense of, 133

moral, 93–94

breasts, 131–32

breaths (breathing), 157, 247

bribery, 91–92

Bridges, Todd, 52

bridging technique, 252–54

Briere, John, 139n

Brown, Scott, 52

Buechner, Frederick, 96n

building safety exercises, 260–64

hand-to-heart, 263–64

safe embrace, 261

safe embrace to touching, 262

safe nest, 260

Burke, Cheryl, 52

calming down, 157

CERTS (consent, equality, respect, trust, and safety), 86, 86n

chain of automatic reactions, 140–44

Chase, Loretta, 102n

chemical addiction

of intimate partners, 223–24

as symptom of sexual abuse, 4, 25, 168

child sexual abuse

defined, 31

rates, xix

circulatory problems, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

cleansing exercise, 269

clean-slate philosophy of life, 127–28

clitoris, 131, 271, 284, 290–92

clothing

in bridging technique, 253

cross-dressing, 119–20

comfort zone for sexual activity, 309–13

commodity view of sex, 90–92, 102, 114–15, 229

communication

applying what you learn, 232–35

building trust in, 209

discussing healthy sex with others, 103–4

discussion topics for healing together, 233

in initiating and declining sex exercise, 288–89

with intimate partner, 206–9, 230–35, 306–7

listening to learn, 231–32

recommended books, 324–25

sex as, 99

sharing abuse with others, 162–63, 206–9

talking during sex, 197–98

compensatory behaviors, 120–21

compulsive masturbation, 22, 176–77, 298

compulsive sexuality

as abuse-related behavior, 177–78

lack of sexual interest and, 285–86

as physical reaction, 138

recommended books, 102n, 320–22

as sign of problem, 21–22

confrontations of offender, 236

confusion, about nature of sexual abuse, 36–40

consent, 32–33, 41

consent, equality, respect, trust, and safety (CERTS), 86, 86n

control

to avoid automatic reactions, 144

by others, in sexual abuse, 115

over automatic reactions. See automatic reactions

overcontrol by survivor, 313–14

sex as uncontrollable, 87–89

coping with heightened emotions, 211–18

dilemma of survivor, 216–17

emotional vulnerability of survivor, 212

new challenges for partners, 212–15

personal issues of partners, 215–16

teaming up in, 217–18

courtship, 195–96, 286

creative problem solving, 251–54, 285

bridging technique, 252–54

shift-back technique, 251–52

criminal behavior, as symptom of sexual abuse, 25

Crooks, Robert, 132n, 295n

cross-dressing, 119–20

crystallizing of experience, 145, 291

cultural messages. See also sex role expectations

avoiding harmful, 102–3

biases against homosexuality, 122–25

against direct focus on sexual concerns, 2–3

sexual abuse mind-set and, 86

touch and sexual identity, 228

damaged goods, false label of, 116–18

date rape, defined, 31

dating, 195–96, 286

Davis, Laura, 5, 49, 211n, 236n, 304

declining sex, 287

exercise, 288–89

deep tissue massages, 247, 247n

denial

of feelings, 21

by perpetrator of abuse, 36–38

by survivor of abuse, 40–44, 67, 184

developmental stages, 190

diabetes, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

Dimock, Peter, 105

discovering your triggers exercise, 150–54

dissociation, 142, 145–46, 237. See also automatic reactions

dizziness, 4

double-survivor couples, 209, 216, 219–20, 238

drawing on body exercise, 259

DVDs, resources, 333–34

dyspareunia, 299–303

eating disorders, as symptom of sexual abuse, 4, 25

e-mail messages, obscene, defined, 31

embarrassment, about sexual abuse, 4, 50–51

emotional abuse, combining sex with, 172–73

emotional automatic reactions, 137

emotional vulnerability of survivor, 212

erectile dysfunction, xix–xx, 282–83, 290–94

erotica, positive, 102–3, 102n

ethical responsibilities, 98

euphoria, 138

excitement stage, of sexual response cycle, 284

exercise, for learning to be in your body, 129–33

exercise, practice initiating and declining sex, 288–89

exercises, for relearning touch, 254–79, 285

body awareness, 268–73

building safety, 260–64

initiating and guiding contact, 265–67

playful touch, 256–59

pleasuring, 274–79, 292–93

exhibitionism (or exposure), defined, 31

extramarital affairs, 22, 24, 111, 178

eye makeup, as bridging technique, 253

failure, fear of, 73

fainting, 4

faking sexual enjoyment, 170–71

false beliefs, holding on to biases and discounts, 40–44

false ideas about sex, 87–94

sex has no moral boundaries, 93–94

sex is a commodity, 90–92, 102, 114–15, 229

sex is hurtful, 89–90

sex is secretive, 92–93

sex is uncontrollable, 87–89

false labels for self, 107–18

“I’m a sexual object,” 112–15

“I’m basically bad,” 107–12

“I’m damaged goods,” 116–18

fantasies. See sexual fantasies

fear(s)

of change, 100–101

compulsive sexuality and, 22

identifying and taming, 72–74

of reclaiming sexuality, 72–74

of sex, 285–86

of sharing sexual abuse, 4, 53–54

of viewing your body, 130–31

feelings

awareness of, 307

of badness, 107–12

about beginning sexual journey, 3

coping with heightened emotions, 211–18

denial of, 21

about disclosing sexual abuse, 206–8

numbing, 146, 290

about sexual abuse, 4, 8, 191, 236, 307

surrendering to sensation exercise, 311–12

unconscious projections of partners, 222–23

unconscious projections of survivors, 220–22

Fields, Rich, 99n

Finkelhor, David, 5, 122–23

flashbacks, 62, 75, 142–43, 148, 159–60, 237. See also automatic reactions

Fletcher, Lynne Yamaguchi, 51

food addictions, 4

forced sex, 89–90

forcing memories of abuse, 45–47

friendships

of partner with offender, 224

vacation from sex and, 193–95

frigid, use of term, 138n

furthering sexual healing, 305–15

adjusting better to realities of recovery, 306–9

allowing intimate partners more freedom in sex, 313–15

creating new and more pleasurable sexual experiences, 309–13

Gandhi, Mahatma, xvii

gay bashing, defined, 32

gender attacks, defined, 32

gender identity, 118–25

genitals

genital exploration with partner exercise, 273

genital pleasuring with partner exercise, 274–79

genital pleasuring exercises, 274–79, 292–93

getting to know your genitals exercises, 271–72, 292–93

getting to know your genitals exercise, 271–72, 292–93

Gibran, Kahlil, 15

goals, for reclaiming sexuality, 74–77

going along with what is happening, 146–47

gradual sexual abuse, 38

grooming victims, 38

ground rules for sexual encounters, 197–200, 287

giving yourself permission to say no to sex, 198–99

having sex only when you want, 197

taking active role in sex, 197–98

guiding contact exercises. See initiating and guiding contact exercises

guilt, and compulsive sexuality, 22

hallucinations, sensory, 143

hand clapping exercise, 258

hand hug, 272

handling automatic reactions, 155–63, 237

affirming present reality, 157

calming yourself, 157

choosing new response, 157–60

stopping and becoming aware, 156–57

hand-to-heart exercise, 263–64

harmful sex, support for stopping, 183

Hawkins, Paula, 52

healing energy, sex as, 96–97, 101

healing vacation from sex. See vacation from sex

healthy sex, 95–99, 164–200

breaking free of abuse-related behaviors, 179–200

changing sexual abuse mind-set and, 100–104

as conscious and responsible, 98

consent, equality, respect, trust, and safety (CERTS), 86, 86n

discussing with others, 103–4

as expression of love, 98–99

as healing energy, 96–97

learning more about, 104

as mutually desired, 99

as natural biological drive, 95–96

as nonaddictive, 89

as part of life, 97–98

relating present behaviors to past abuse, 165–79

sexual abuse mind-set versus, 84–86

heartbeats, listening to, 249

heart palpitations, 4

helplessness, 43, 88–89, 176

Holman, Beverly, 9n, 86n

home base, 248

homophobia, 122

honesty, 52, 56

Hopper, C. Leon, 95n

hormone deficiencies, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

human sex drive, 95–96

Hunter, Mic, 5

hurtful, 89–90, 116–17

“I am aware . . .” exercise, 249–50

identifying fears, 72–74

identifying sexual impact of abuse, 57–69. See also Sexual Effects Inventory

identifying triggers of automatic reactions, 147–54

identity. See also gender identity; sexual identity

loss of, 113–14

“I don’t want to be seen as a victim,” 50

“I liked it at the time,” 41–42

“I’ll be seen as less of a man,” 51–52

“I’ll lose social status as a woman,” 52–53

“I’m afraid of other people’s reactions,” 53–54

imagery rehearsal, 163

“I’m a sexual object,” 112–15

“I’m basically bad,” 107–12

“I’m damaged goods,” 116–18

“I’m embarrassed and ashamed of the abuse,” 50–51

impotence, 292–93

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 66

impulsivity, 88–89

incest, defined, 31

indirect sexual abuse, 30, 38–39

inhibited desire for sex, 285–90

initiating and declining sex exercise, 288–89

initiating and guiding contact exercises, 265–67

magic pen, 265–66

red light–green light, 267

injuries, physical, 117–18, 172–73

inner child, 126–27

interest, lack of sexual, 285–90

Internet-caused sexual addictions, 102n

Intimate Kisses: Poetry of Sexual Love and Intimate Kisses (Maltz, ed.), xxi, 102n, 236n

intimate partners, 201–39

accepting fact of sexual abuse, 206–9

adjusting to changes in touch and sexual relating, 187–97, 225–30

affairs and, 22, 24, 178

allowing more freedom in sex, 313–15

challenging unconscious projections, 220–25

changes of, 305

communication with, 206–9, 230–35, 306–7

coping with heightened emotions, 211–18

crisis in intimacy and, 199–204

in double-survivor couples, 209, 216, 219–20, 238

friendship with offender, 224

handling automatic reactions and, 161–63

learning about sexual abuse, 210–11

pain of, 22–24, 208–9, 215–16

reaching out for support, 218–20

recommended books, 324–25

relearning touch exercises with, 258, 259, 261–66, 268, 273, 274–75, 277–79

rewards of working together, 238–39

sexual addiction of, 222–23

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 65, 223n

in sexual healing journey, 5–6, 199, 201–39

unconscious projections and, 222–23

vacation from sex and, 188, 189, 192

working together as active healing team, 235–39

intrusive thoughts, 139–40

inventory. See Sexual Effects Inventory

“I offered no resistance,” 41

isolation, 169–70

“It was my fault,” 43–44

“It was no big deal,” 42–43

Ivory, Judith, 102n

“I was told not to tell,” 53

James, William, 83

Johnson, Don, 28–29, 40

Johnson, Robert, 123

Kaplan, Helen, 298n

Kegel exercises, 295, 300

Kennedy, Jill, 79, 252–53

Kleypas, Lisa, 102n

“knees and head” approach to sex, 1–2

labeling sexual abuse, 36–38

lack of sexual interest, 285–90

language

hard-core sexual, 178–79

using new, 103, 300

Larsen, H., 247n

learning about sexual abuse, 210–11

increasing understanding, 210–11

learning together, 210

legal definitions of sexual abuse, 32

Lemon, Don, 52

LeMond, Greg, 52

Leonard, Sugar Ray, 52

Lew, Mike, 5, 49, 211n

listening, 231–32

Long, Julie Anne, 102n

losing your virginity,” 91

“lost” body parts, 131

Louganis, Greg, 52

love

expressing, 218

offering self sexually for, 114–15

sex as expression of, 98–99

lubrication

lack of vaginal, 290–94

personal lubricants, 276, 276n, 293, 301

lying, 110, 178

magic pen exercise, 265–66

male sexual abuse, 28–29, 40

having sex when you don’t want to, 171

resistance to sharing abuse, 51–52

sexual orientation and, 122–25

“Maltz Hierarchy of Sexual Interaction” (Maltz), 104n

marital rape, defined, 31

massages, 247, 247n

body massage with partner exercise, 274–75

massage vibrators, 297, 297n

masturbation

compulsive, 22, 176–77, 298

during vacation from sex, 229

McCarthy, Barry, 283

McGillis, Kelly, 52

meaning for sex. See new meaning for sex

meditation, 126, 127

memories of abuse, 4, 29, 44–49

exercises to stimulate, 48–49

fears of stimulating, 74

reason for memory loss, 45

sexual healing approaches to, 48–49

stimulating recollection, 45–47

trusting, 47–48

vacation from sex and, 191

Miller, Alice, 178n

mind-set, sexual abuse. See sexual abuse mind-set

minimizing sexual abuse, 40–44

mixed sexual messages, 18

molestation, defined, 31

moral boundaries, 93–94

Mulry, Gregory, 135

multiple sclerosis, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

Mura, David, 94n

muscle stretching, 247, 247n

mutuality

in healthy sex, 99

in sexual healing process, 204–39

“My abuse wasn’t as bad as other people’s,” 43

“My body responded,” 42, 110, 123–24, 146–47

name-calling, 116

new meaning for sex, 83–104

changing attitudes about sex, 100–104

false ideas about sex, 87–94

healthy ideas about sex, 95–99

sexual abuse mind-set versus, 84–86

new sexual attitudes, 236–37

NiCarthy, Ginny, 173n

Nin, Anaïs, 99

“no,” saying, 198–99

numbing, 146, 290

objectification, 112–15

obscene phone calls, defined, 31

online sex offender registries, xix

organizations, resources, 334–41

orgasm, 97–98

in abusive situations, 110

associating with abuse, 46–47

difficulty averting, 298–99

difficulty experiencing, 294–97

faking, 170–71

as goal of sexual activity, 198

as stage of sexual response cycle, 284

Pagaduan-Lopez, J., 247n

pain of abuse

acknowledging, 208–9

partner’s, 22–24, 208–9, 215–16

sex as hurtful, 89–90

panic reactions, 141–42, 237. See also automatic reactions

Parker, Rebecca, 97n

partners. See intimate partners

Partners in Healing (video), xx, 210n, 333

Passionate Hearts (Maltz, ed.), xxi, 102n, 236n

“patchwork survivor,” xvi–xviii

pelvic muscle strength, 295

pelvic pain, 4

penis, 132, 290–94

permanent physical damage, 117–18

personal biases, holding on to, 40–44

personal lubricants, 276, 276n, 293, 301

personal value, beliefs about. See false labels for self

petting, sexual, 198

Phillips, Susan Elizabeth, 102n

physical abuse, combining sex with, 172–73

physical automatic reactions, 137–39

plateau stage, of sexual response cycle, 284

Playboy, 91

playful touch exercises, 256–59

drawing on body, 259

hand clapping, 258

sensory basket, 256–57

pleasure, from stimulation, 41–42

pleasuring exercises, 274–79, 292–93

body massage, with partner, 274–75

genital pleasuring, 276

genital pleasuring, with partner, 277–79

pornography, xxi, 22, 91, 94, 94n, 168

abusive, 22, 174–76

to avoid automatic reactions, 144

avoiding exposure to, 102–3

Porn Trap, The (Maltz), xxi, 94n, 176n, 278n, 321

positive erotica, 102–3, 102n

positive self-talk, 295–96

positive sexual self-concept. See sexual self-concept

post-traumatic stress, 212

power

powerlessness of intimate partner, 212–15

sex as negative, 96–97

premature ejaculation, xix–xx, 298–99

prescription drugs, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

privacy, 31, 133, 260

Private Thoughts (Maltz), xx, 94n, 139n, 159n, 176n, 297n

problems with sex. See specific sexual problems

projections. See unconscious projections

promiscuity

as abuse-related behavior, 177–78

impact on intimate partner, 23

as sign of problem, 21–22

prostitution, 91, 114

rape laws, 52

rape rates, xix

rape trauma syndrome, 210

reactive sexual practices, 111–12

realistic goals, for reclaiming sexuality, 74–77

reclaiming sexuality, 70–79

fears in, 72–74

goals for, 74–77

reasons for, 71–72

for yourself, 77–79

reclaiming your body, 129–33

exercise, 270

recognizing sexual issues. See awareness of sexual issues

red light–green light exercise, 267

relapse prevention, 185–87

relaxation and rest techniques, 246–49, 284–85, 300

finding safe home base, 248

listening to heartbeats, 249

relaxing first, 246–47

resting when needed, 247–48

relearning touch, 243–79, 285

active awareness exercises, 249–51

body awareness exercises, 268–73

building safety exercises, 260–64

creative problem solving in, 251–54

critical skills for, 246–54

healthy continuum of touch experiences, 245–46

initiating and guiding contact exercises, 265–67

with intimate partner, 237–38, 258, 259, 261–66, 268, 273, 274–75, 277–79

playful touch exercises, 256–59

pleasuring exercises, 274–79

relationship between sex and touch in, 244–45

relaxation and rest techniques, 246–49

safe home base for, 248

Relearning Touch: Healing Techniques for Couples (video), xx, 254n, 333

remembering sexual abuse. See memories of abuse

repetition compulsion, 167–68

replays, 167–68

repressed memories, xviii–xix

residential treatment centers, 341–42

resistance, lack of, 41

Resnick, Stella, 312

resolution stage, of sexual response cycle, 284

resources, 317–42

rest techniques. See relaxation and rest techniques

ritual abuse, 113–14, 128, 191, 208

role models, finding positive, 133–34

routine situations, unusual reactions to, 17–20

rules for sexual encounters. See ground rules for sexual encounters

Russell, Diana, 5

Ryan, Regina, 97

sadistic sexual abuse

defined, 32

as hurtful, 89–90

safe embrace exercise, 261

safe embrace to touching exercise, 262

safe home base, 248

safe nest exercise, 260

safety exercises. See building safety exercises

“Santa Claus is watching you” phenomenon, 53

satanic rituals, 92

scars, 117–18

secondhand sexual abuse, 38–39

secrecy, 92–93

acknowledging past abuse, 49–50, 52–53

affairs and, 178

self-abusive behaviors, 4, 10, 183

self-awareness

of body. See body awareness exercises

of sexual issues. See awareness of sexual issues

self-denying behaviors, 20–22

self-esteem

healthy sex and, 96–97

problems with, 4, 147

seminars, 210–11

sensation retraining, 290–91

sensory basket exercise, 256–57

sensory hallucinations, 143

Sex Addicts Anonymous, 155

sex drive, 95–96

sex education and enrichment, recommended books, 322–24

“Sex is . . .” exercise, 84

sex role expectations

beliefs about gender and sexual orientation, 118–25

blinders to, 193–94

in masking sexual abuse, 39–40

sharing of female sexual abuse and, 52–53

sharing of male sexual abuse and, 51–52

touch and sexual identity, 228

vacation from sex and, 193–94

sexual abuse

accepting fact of, 206–9

acknowledging past. See acknowledging past sexual abuse

of boys, 28–29, 40, 51–52, 122–25

common types of, 31–32

defined, 30–34

feelings about, 191, 236

impact of, 2, 4, 105–7

information about, 4

labeling past events as, 2

learning about, 210–11

memories of. See memories of abuse

present behaviors relating to, 165–79

prevalence of, xix, 4

recovery from, 4. See also sexual healing journey

symptoms of, 3–5, 25

working definition of, 33–34

sexual abuse mind-set

changing attitudes about sex and, 100–104

false ideas about sex and, 87–94

nature of, 84–86

sexual acting out, 110–12

sexual addiction, 4

of intimate partners, 222–23

recommended books, 320–22

as sign of problem, 21–22

sexual arousal difficulties, 290–94

sexual assault, defined, 31

sexual behavior, and Sexual Effects Inventory, 63–64

Sexual Effects Inventory, 59–69

attitudes about sex, 60–61, 100–104

automatic reactions to touch and sex and, 62–63

importance of, 59

intimate partners and, 65, 223n

learning from, 67–69

sexual behavior, 63–64

sexual functioning problems, 66

sexual self-concept, 61–62

sexual encounter ground rules. See ground rules for sexual encounters

sexual exploitation, defined, 32

sexual fantasies, xx

abusive, 22, 174–76, 185

to avoid automatic reactions, 144

changing, 158–60

nature of, 161

orgasmic difficulties and, 297

sexual functioning problems, and Sexual Effects Inventory, 66

sexual harassment, defined, 32

sexual healing journey, 1–11

approaches to remembering sexual abuse, 48–49

beginning, 3, 7, 11

breaking free of abuse-related behaviors, 179–200

as dynamic process, 6–7

enjoying sexual experiences and, 304–15

fears in, 72–74

feelings about beginning, 3

general recovery from abuse and, 7–9

goals for, 74–77

with intimate partners, 5–6, 199, 201–39

reclaiming sexuality in, 70–79

relating present behaviors to past abuse, 165–79

sexual issues in, 7–9

for single people, 5, 200

special help for, 9–10

time needed for, 7

using this book for, 10–11

who can go on, 5–6

sexual identity, 105–34

beliefs about gender and sexual orientation, 118–25

beliefs about personal value, 107–18

beliefs and gender and sexual orientation, 118–25

false ideas about sex and, 116, 117

guidelines for improving sexual self-concept, 125–34

impact of sexual abuse on, 105–7

loss of, 113–14

touch and, 228

sexual interest

ambivalent feelings, 17–20

lack of, 285–90

sexual issues

awareness of, 15–27

in general healing from abuse, 7–9

identifying sexual impact of abuse, 57–69. See also Sexual Effects Inventory

“I’m acting in strange ways that don’t make sense,” 17–20

“My partner is hurting,” 22–24

“My sexual problem isn’t getting any better,” 20–22

“New circumstances have made me more aware,” 24–27

unresolved, 15–27

sexual love poems, xx, 102n

sexually transmitted diseases (STDs), xx, 22, 196

sexual objects, 112–15

sexual orientation, 121–25

sexual petting, 198

sexual pleasers, 114–15

sexual problems. See specific sexual problems

sexual response cycle, 284

sexual rights, 34

sexual self-concept, 125–34

adopting clean-slate philosophy of life, 127–28

developing sense of boundaries, 133

finding a voice, 128–29

finding role models, 133–34

improving, 125–34

learning to be in the body, 129–33

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 61–62

sexual violence, defined, 32

sex vacation. See vacation from sex

shame

compulsive sexuality and, 22

about sexual abuse, 50–51

shampooing hair exercise, 268

sharing abuse with others, 49–56, 206–9

adopting out the reaction, 162–63

blocks to, 50–54

sharing in safety and in steps, 54–57

shift-back technique, 251–52

Shrier, Diane, 123

single survivors

dating and, 195–96

friendship and, 193–95

sexual healing journey for, 5, 200

Smolover, Miriam, 70, 256n, 280

social isolation, 169–70

social networking forums, xix

social status, 52–53

spastic colon, 4

specific sexual problems, 280–303

anxiety and, 282–83

difficulty averting orgasm, 298–99

difficulty becoming aroused and feeling sensation, 290–94

difficulty experiencing orgasm, 294–97

difficulty with intercourse, for women survivors, 299–303

finding true cause of, 281–82

lack of sexual interest, 285–90

organic causes of, 281n

stages in sexual response cycle and, 284

spinal cord injuries, as cause of sexual problems, 281n

spirituality, 208, 311

stopping specific unwanted behaviors, 180–87

clarity on reasons for stopping, 182–83

realistic approach to, 183–85

relapse prevention, 185–87

support to stop harmful sex, 183

strange behavior, unexplainable, 17–20

stranger rape, defined, 31

stress

sexual functioning problems and, 66

as trigger for sexual response, 42, 88

Struthers, Sally, 79n

submission, 32–33, 41, 171

support groups. See therapy/support groups

surrender to sensation exercise, 311–12

taming fears, 72–74

therapists

finding certified, 281n

handling automatic reactions and, 161–63

in sexual healing journey, 9–10, 9n

therapy/support groups

couples therapy, 220

for intimate partners, 218–20

sharing abuse with, 54–55

for stopping harmful sex, 183

thoughts, intrusive, 139–40

touch

adjusting to changes in, 187–97, 225–30

automatic reactions to, 140–42

negative reactions to, 19–20

relationship between sex and, 244–45

relearning. See relearning touch

role in sexual abuse, 30

Sexual Effects Inventory and, 61–62

sexual petting, 198

touch continuum, 245–46

vacation from sex and, 191, 192–93, 227–30

when sex continues during healing process, 225–27

traumatic amnesia, 45

Travis, John, 97

trends and patterns in response, 67–68

triggers of automatic reactions

avoiding and defusing, 154–55, 221, 296

chain of automatic reactions and, 140–44

discovering your triggers exercise, 150–54

guidelines for handling, 155–63

identifying, 147–54

trust

building, 209

forced sex and, 90

in memories of abuse, 47–48

trusting memories of abuse, 47–48

Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, 26n

uncertainty

about evaluating specific experiences, 35–36

about nature of sexual abuse, 36–40

Uncle Buck (movie), 184

unconscious projections, 220–25

behaviors that mimic sexual abuse, 221, 223

feelings of survivor, 220–22

feelings of partner, 222–23

nature of, 221

what partners can do, 223–24

what survivor can do, 225

uncontrollable, sex as, 87–89

unusual behavior, unexplainable, 17–20

vacation from sex, 187–97

concluding, 196–97

creating your own, 188–89

healing sexual self in, 189–92

honoring, 228–30

impact of, 196–97

importance of, 187, 189

learning new approaches to relationships and touch in, 192–96

options in planning, 188–89

resolving abuse-related issues in, 192

touch and, 191, 192–93, 227–30

vaginal dilators, 300–303, 301n

vaginal lubrication, lack of, 290–94

vaginismus, 299–303

Van Derbur, Marilyn, 52

vibrators, massage, 297, 297n

victims

blaming, 4, 43–44

blocks to sharing with others, 49–56

combining sex and emotional or physical abuse, 172–73

grooming, 38

reclaiming sexuality for yourself, 77–78

videos, resources, 333–34

virginity, 91, 190

voice, finding your, 128–29

voyeurism, defined, 31

Walters, Barbara, 28–29

web sites, resources, 334–41

Wegscheider-Cruse, Sharon, 230–31

Weiss, Rob, 178n

Wellness Workbook (Travis and Ryan), 97

Wells, Barbara, 95n

West, Mae, 292

Whidden, Ann, 297n

Whitfield, Charles, 126n

Winfrey, Oprah, 52

Wisechild, Louise, 28

workshops, 210–11