Patience Worth
Before I can recount the story of my daughter’s possession by demonic entities in 2001, I need to take you back to New Orleans circa 1974. It was there that I met the spirit of a Puritan woman named Patience Worth who had died over three hundred years earlier. The Patience Worth/Pearl Curran phenomenon may very well have been the most famous paranormal/literary case of the early twentieth century. I became involved when I became a friend of the Curran family. This was my first real experience with the paranormal.
I was a graduate student at the University of New Orleans and living in the married dorms with my first wife. I was in the master’s program in theatre, but I was about to be exposed to a universe and spiritual construct that had nothing to do with acting and directing. Though I had been very interested in what most folks called “the supernatural” back then ever since I was a kid, I’d never had any real experience with the paranormal. Spooky movies, ghost stories, and reading a few books on the subject hadn’t prepared me for what I was about to encounter. From a spiritual and metaphysical standpoint, my life was about to be irreversibly changed—although the process would still take over thirty more years.
My wife Sherree and I had become friends with the couple who lived next door to us in the dorm. Ronny was an undergrad student and his wife Joan worked as a secretary. During a conversation over dinner one evening, I off-handedly mentioned my interest in the paranormal. We’d been talking about a paper I’d just written for a film class I was taking where I compared the novel The Exorcist to the recently released movie version. Then Joan mentioned that Ronny had an aunt, Eileen, whose mother had been an internationally famous psychic back in the early twentieth century. She suggested that I might be interested in meeting Eileen. Any break from reading books about Stanislavsky’s acting theories or seventeenth-century costumes, modes, and manners sounded like a worthwhile diversion to me—so I enthusiastically agreed.
We all got together one Sunday afternoon in the spring of 1974. The atmosphere of my first encounter with the spirit of Patience Worth was imminently un-spooky and non-supernatural. In broad daylight, with no flickering candles and the TV droning in the next room, Sherree and I were introduced to Eileen, a perky and intelligent woman in her fifties. Eileen was an artist (a talented painter) with a wry sense of humor and an intense curiosity about all things spiritual and metaphysical. She described to me how her mother, Pearl Curran, had been a prominent psychic, channeling the spirit of Patience Worth for twenty-four years. Pearl first contacted the spirit of Patience over the Ouija board in 1913. It started as a game, a lark, when Pearl and a friend asked questions of the board as they lightly touched the planchette with their fingers. It didn’t take long for the two women to start getting answers, with neither of them feeling they were the source of the planchette’s movement. Patience communicated in perfect Early Modern English (the language of Shakespeare and the King James Bible). During that time, Patience authored six novels, several books of poetry, and two plays. Her work was acclaimed by critics and sold quite well.
Pearl was a housewife who never went to college and should have had no knowledge of Early Modern English. However, her writings were analyzed by linguistics experts of the day who concluded the syntax and structure was indeed genuine and authentic to the early 1600s. Patience claimed she had always wanted to be a storyteller during her time on earth but was not given the education. Using Pearl as her medium, Patience intended to fulfill her dream.
Eileen told me that at first the women would have to stop frequently to write down the board’s communications. Sometimes Pearl’s husband would act as scribe to speed things along, but even that was a slow and tedious process. But then after several months of meticulously taking Patience’s dictation via the Ouija board, Pearl switched to automatic writing—almost mindlessly letting her pen go wherever it wanted without her conscious participation. She would usually start by simply making doodles with her pen. The trick, Eileen said, was to let your mind go blank while doodling. Eventually, the doodles became words and sentences—but even then, it was important to keep your mind blank.
Pearl could actually have a conversation with you about a totally unrelated subject at the same time Patience was guiding the more modern woman’s pen, weaving tales set centuries earlier.
To help me catch up on the saga of Patience Worth/Pearl Curran, Eileen recommended I read a book that had just been published about her mother and her adventures with Patience. She said Singer in the Shadows by Irving Litvag was the most current, up-to-date, authoritative book on the subject. There were also a number of older books written about the verbose, red-haired Puritan and her twentieth-century secretary, both by literary scholars and parapsychologists. I hurried out to a bookstore the next day and scooped up a copy, which I found to be quite well written and highly informative.
As I poured over Litvag’s fascinating story about Pearl and Patience, the part that really caught my attention was concerned with a prophesy about the psychic abilities of Pearl’s daughter, Eileen. Like many children, Eileen rebelled against the lifestyle of her parent and was determined to have absolutely nothing to do with anything paranormal. However, Litvag mentioned that Patience had predicted that, after Pearl died, she would be able to continue her writing through Eileen. I saw that as an important point, a eureka moment, in fact. Oddly, it was something Eileen hadn’t bothered to mention to me at our meeting. Naturally, I got on the phone and set up another meeting with Eileen. She was familiar with the prophecy of her psychic gifts but had never taken any of that seriously. However, she humored me and said she’d be willing to give it a try.
The next day I rushed off to a Woolworth’s and paid about four dollars for a Parker Brothers Ouija board. Sherree, Joan, and I met with Eileen and her teenaged daughter, Tara, at their apartment in Metairie, a suburb of New Orleans. Eileen’s husband, Ron, an artist himself who made his living as a bartender in the French Quarter, was at work. Although a jovial enough guy, Ron wasn’t much interested in the Patience Worth lore. Eileen was friendly and talkative but obviously nervous about testing the theory she might pick up where her mother left off way back in 1937.
Again, there were no spooky, dimly flickering candles. Bored with the whole affair, Tara watched TV nearby as Eileen and I touched our fingers to the planchette on the Ouija board. Although I hadn’t expected any immediate response, the planchette rapidly danced about the board in all directions—more than a bit hard to keep up with. It didn’t spell anything out initially, but rather seemed simply to be getting its bearings or flexing its muscles as it dashed frantically across the board. Naturally, Eileen and I both disavowed instigating the motion. After a while, it slowed down and went repeatedly from the P to the W—back and forth, back and forth. Excitedly, I asked if we had contacted Patience. The reply follows:
“A wench I was, a wench I am. Patience Worth, my name.”
Eileen asked, rather skeptically, “Why come to me now after all these years?”
Without hesitation, the board spelled out: “My harp hath never left thee. P. W., P. W. Grasp a hope, hold a thought. Thee, I see. P. W.”
To see if the entity would communicate with anyone else, Eileen and I turned over the planchette to Sherree and Joan. Now the entity seemed to struggle, and the planchette moved much more slowly from letter to letter. However, finally it spelled out: “Leave thee alone. Leave thee alone. Now quit. The tabby sleepeth. P. W.”
We took that to mean that Patience would rather talk to Eileen and I, so we switched back, asking why Patience preferred to communicate with us. Patience quickly replied:
“All grapes grow slow ’pon the vine. Sting not the bud afore it blooms, P. W.”
Eileen then inquired about her daughter, Tara. Apparently, the typical teen angst had reared its ugly head in their mother-daughter relationship.
“She doth love thee weel but fears for thee and knoweth not why. P. W.”
Eileen then asked why (after all these years) Patience had decided to start communicating again.
“No rappin’ ’pon the gate, and thee doth hold the rust o’ time. Now the need, the need. P. W.”
It was getting late, and I could sense that everyone but Eileen and I was getting a little sleepy, so I told Patience we’d see her again soon.
“Aye, take thy hearts wi’ thy loves, P. W.”
And that’s how it all started.
Although Eileen took our communications with a woman who had been dead for three hundred years in stride, I was beside myself. She’d never personally chatted with Patience before, but she’d grown up with her. It was all old hat to Eileen. But to me, all this paranormal stuff was simply astounding. I was ready to jump in with both feet. I wanted to do more sessions. I started keeping a journal. I wrote everything down. I even wrote the author of Singer in the Shadows a letter telling him all about Eileen and our experiences.
But, of course, Eileen regarded the incident much more calmly. In fact, regardless of the evidence of Patience’s existence that we were getting over the Ouija board, she was keeping everything at arm’s length. She had resisted the idea of psychic phenomena throughout her childhood, for the same reason many children resist being like their parents. Peer pressure. The other kids she knew at school had parents who went to work, went to church, maybe worked in the yard or puttered around the house. They weren’t internationally famous psychics touring the world, lecturing, giving demonstrations, or writing books that were reviewed by famous critics. The entire Patience Worth episode had truly been Eileen’s own Puritan dilemma.
Now, even though she had separated herself from her mother’s notoriety, Eileen had become more and more interested in spiritual matters, ESP, PSI, psychic phenomena, etc. As they say, “The acorn doesn’t fall far from the tree”—even though Eileen had repeatedly asserted that she wanted nothing to do with her mother’s otherworldly lifestyle.
Pearl Curran was a household name during the 1920s amongst both metaphysical devotees and the literary intelligentsia. But Eileen hadn’t shared her mother’s limelight, and life hadn’t been particularly kind. She was a trained and talented visual artist, but by the time I met her, she had mostly given up on her art and had become a bit of a recluse. Ron was her third husband and was over a decade younger than Eileen—and not especially supportive of his wife’s superior talent. He was also an astrologer and helped make ends meet by doing astrological charts and paintings.
(Ron even did an astrological chart on me, which supposedly indicated I had considerable psychic abilities myself. That came as a complete surprise, because at the ripe age of twenty-three, I had never had any kind of psychic experiences. With age, for better or worse, that would change.)
Eileen’s daughter, Tara, was the bright spot in an otherwise rather dismal existence. She was a pretty typical teenager who didn’t want to be too closely associated with her mom, but any time the subject of Tara came up, Eileen’s eyes always sparkled.
I was totally fired up by our encounters with Patience, and our contact with this long-deceased Puritan seemed to be giving Eileen new hope for her future—perhaps the first in quite a long time.
School at the university was just about to let out for the summer, so I would be having nearly three months off to basically hold sessions with Eileen/Patience, do research on Patience, and begin writing a book about our experiences.
The information we were getting from Patience started snowballing. She began writing poems again, as well as an autobiography of herself as a little girl. Once you adjust to the archaic English, Patience’s prose is quite engaging. Here’s a sample from her autobiography:
And I, too, would ha’e wings to soar. I, too, ha’e a song to sing, but dames sing not here in this time. Red, red is the sky, and late the hour. And still he waits [her father]. Home not shall I go. But where, where to go? Now the grasses are dampin’ my hem, and crushed is the bonnet flung down from the head.
“Patience, Patience!” I hear, I hear, and I do not heed. And the hour passes, and then another hour. “Patience, Patience!” Tis closer … The step is ’pon the stone, and the grass rustles. The shadow looms, and I make me small and tremble.
“Ye urchin thing, ye strange creature art! Thou art not woman; thou art not man. Thou art a stranger to this land. What ails thee? What sic thing possesses thee?
“… What will be when to the home we return? What dark silence will lie between us like the sullen night?”
After forty years, Patience was writing again.
Within a few weeks, the planchette was moving so quickly across the Ouija board that we could barely keep up with it. Plus, there was always the drawback of having Sherree, Joan, or someone transcribe what was being received—and as I’ve mentioned, they weren’t as enthusiastic about the whole endeavor as Eileen and I.
We discovered that Eileen could chat with Patience via the Ouija board without anyone else touching the planchette. However, she didn’t like this method, saying it just made her “feel silly.”
After about a month of these sessions, Eileen suggested we try a different method. She wanted to try the automatic writing her mother had started using after Patience proved so prolific. While terribly exciting, the Ouija board is a cumbersome method of communication. It may score high for atmosphere and ambiance, but it is painfully, frustratingly slow. One day Eileen got out a legal pad and a pen and started making doodle-like drawings that after a while turned into horizontal scribbles that eventually turned into words. Sometimes she actually looked at what she was writing, but just as often she stared out into space as she wrote.
Most of the material we got that summer from Patience was communicated via Eileen’s automatic writing. However, occasionally we would revert back to the Ouija board—especially if I specifically had a question for Patience.
I’ve always been interested in theories about God, ultimate reality, religion, and metaphysics. Since Patience was speaking to us from the other side, I hoped she would be in a position to shed some light on the true makeup of the universe. Based on her published writings via Pearl Curran, I knew Patience was very religious. One evening I asked about the truth concerning God or an ultimate creator. Her personal views on spirituality were surprisingly liberal and open-minded for someone supposedly brought up in the strict, fundamentalist Puritan religion, for example:
PW: “… each way be a river that leadeth to the sea, and the sea takes all things unto it. So then take what river thou wilt, what way thou wilt. They all lead to the sea. If not, find then thin ain river. For each o’ us there be one. I am that I am; thou art what thou art. The word is what thou seeth athin the word. He is the word, an’ what is o’ him is the word … It is the quest o’ the seeker that maketh the holy path.”
A couple of times Sherree and I went back to Nashville for weekend visits, Ouija board in tow. Patience would still come through with Sherree and I manning the planchette, while my mother took dictation. We’d chat with Patience about insignificant things just to keep in practice. But even though Eileen wasn’t present, Patience’s style was consistent with the material we’d received with Eileen—friendly and humorous Early Modern English.
Once during one of these sessions without Eileen, Patience predicted the coming demise of my marriage with Sherree:
“A tabby sleepeth beneath thy feet. [Patience often identified herself as a tabby.] The trees are green with the feel o’ spring, but thy heart is burdened because, as with spring fever, a love thy desire. Thy art not very sure, but thou art true.”
Sherree and I had not been getting along well for some time, and the marriage would only last another six months or so. Sherree returned to Tennessee, and I remained in New Orleans. Unhappy with the curriculum at the University of New Orleans, I transferred to Tulane University, where I finished my master’s in theatre.
My relationship with Eileen/Patience continued throughout my stay at Tulane, and I wrote a book about our experiences with the Puritan woman during two summers off from school. A small publisher accepted my work, and of course I was elated. However, life throws you curveballs sometimes. The publisher wanted to see Eileen and me pen a whole series of books by Patience. But by this time, Eileen’s husband had had enough of this metaphysical nonsense. Ron put his foot down and forbade Eileen’s participation in further contacts with Patience.
When the publisher learned there would only be one Patience Worth book, the project was shelved. Naturally, I was devastated. I planned to make my living in theatre, but I didn’t want to say goodbye to either Eileen or Patience. But Eileen was totally subservient to her husband. Although they were both artists and had lived a Bohemian lifestyle in the French Quarter before Tara came along, Eileen always let Ron run the show. He said no, and that was that. There was no book, and I never saw Eileen again after 1975.
I called Eileen five or six years later just to catch up with her and fill her in on how my life was going. Ron answered the phone and told me that Eileen had died only a couple of years after I’d last seen her. I was shocked because she was only in her fifties and seemed to me to be in good health. I pressed him for details, but he only volunteered that she had not been in good health for some time. To this day, I consider Eileen to have been one of the most influential people in my life.
But that wasn’t the last I would hear of Patience Worth. During one of Eileen’s early automatic writing sessions, Patience had told me that she would be able to communicate with me directly without Eileen.
PW: “I am close with thee, Will [she always called me Will], an’ shall not leave thee, e’en if there should be a time where thou thinketh I ha’e gone.”
I continued to chat with Patience off and on for years whenever I’d get out my old Woolworth’s Ouija board. I never knew what she was going to say, but it was always relatively easy for me to dial up her frequency. It was just a game for many years, and I must admit the Ouija board can be a great pastime at parties. Once during a theatre cast party that had included a bit too much drinking, we’d pulled out Ouija and asked Patience to connect us to William Shakespeare. Here’s our reply:
PW: “Thou wouldst speak unto Will Shakespeare? He’d ha’e none o’ that. There be an unkindness here, Will. Tis o’ the cup, Will, the cup. There be sickness in’t. An’ foul wou’d I be to beg o’ him a presence. Thou art not o’ a comfort o’ this, Will. Yea, I know it.”
It’s true. I thought some of the drinking had gotten out of hand, and I wanted them to take this exercise more seriously.
During another communication, I asked Patience to give me a glimpse of my future—particularly pertaining to my own personal psychic development.
PW: “Trust thou in me and follow me ’pon the path. Wouldst thee find a sticky moss underneath the pebbles, I’d be wi’ thee. Aye, now tis dark, dark, dark an’ more. I’ll say me more anon. But now tis dark past lightin’ o’ it. Anon, Will.”
Patience’s words seemed unclear and somewhat disjointed at the time. However many years later, I would take great comfort from them—making me quite glad I’d always painstakingly written all her utterances down.
Over the next ten years or so, my waking efforts were mostly concentrated on making a living and not chatting with spirits. Nevertheless, I’d occasionally pursue the odd foray into the world of the Ouija board. I saw it as an interesting but harmless game. Later, in the hands of my teenaged daughter, it would take on a more ominous tone.
Patience, the Bell Witch, Zoroaster, and a Prophesy
I had a musician friend named Dan who enjoyed talking to the spirits. Dan and I wrote songs together and sometimes after an evening of writing, singing, and playing guitars, we’d sit down and crank up the Ouija board. Patience was often eager to talk—as well as a rather motley crew of other spirits. Dan had recently been doing some reading about the ancient religion of Zoroastrianism, and sometimes we’d ask for and receive communications with Zoroaster. The messages usually paralleled Zoroaster’s philosophy of a universal struggle between the forces of light and the forces of evil, so it might have actually been old Zoroaster himself—or it might just as well have been Dan’s subconscious.
Since Dan and I both grew up in Robertson County, Tennessee (adjacent to Metro Nashville/Davidson County), we were both fascinated with the legend of the Bell Witch—probably the most famous case of poltergeist activity in the history of the United States. The Bell Witch (usually referred to as Kate) haunted the Bell farm in Adams, Tennessee, around 1820—about thirty-five miles from where Dan and I grew up in Greenbrier. The so-called “witch” (actually a spirit manifestation capable of moving physical objects, and capable of clearly audible, highly literate speech) is credited with killing John Bell, Sr.—the only case in American history wherein a spirit is truly credited with murder.
There are many theories as to what exactly Kate was: a demon; an elemental nature spirit; the ghost of a Native American; or even possibly poltergeist manifestations caused by the subconscious psychic abilities of John Bell’s thirteen-year-old daughter, Betsy. But whatever the spirit was, 150 years after its brush with infamy in Adams, Tennessee, it (or something claiming to be it) visited me and Dan one evening.
On that occasion, “Kate” seemed eager to talk to Dan and me on the Ouija board. We’d chatted with Patience for a bit, and then Dan asked to speak to Kate. The communication we got was preceded by voluminous profanities and numerous threats. Then a friendlier spirit dropped in.
New Spirit: “I’ll protect thee from Kate. I owe ye that.”
I assumed this was Patience, although I didn’t think she owed me anything. So I asked if this new voice was she. It said, “No.” So I asked to whom we were speaking.
New Spirit: “Zoroaster. We ha’e been friends o’er the ages—afore and anon. So tonight, go in peace. But I’ll not always be wi’ thee. Take care o’ the wee one.”
I tried to get some clarification on that last bit, since I had no children at the time. There was no “wee one” in my life.
New Spirit: “Twenty-five years o’ thy clock. I see it. Look to thy guard o’ the wee one.”
That was all the board had to say—no further clarifications. This new spirit (Zoroaster?) seemed to be predicting something, but I didn’t have the foggiest idea what.
Dan and I were both a bit shaken and decided to call it a night. He lived in an isolated farmhouse on a gravel road, so the thoughts of driving home alone weren’t exactly appealing. But Zoroaster must have ridden shotgun with me as my old VW Beetle chugged along through the night, with neither the Bell Witch nor any other entities bothering me on that lonely country lane.
The entire incident was soon forgotten and would remain so for nearly three decades. When getting messages over the Ouija board, we were usually very careful to write everything down. I kept these communications in a box with all the Patience Worth material I had accumulated. And though I moved numerous times over the years, I kept that box—not because of the various messages from the spiritual “nits” or “ithers” as Patience called them, but because I sensed that Patience Worth’s material was important. Even if I hadn’t been able to publish the book, I still felt that my connections with Patience were significant (including the “nits” and “ithers”).
I only just stumbled across the notes I had kept of my Ouija board adventures all those years ago as I was preparing for this material about Brittany’s possession. I see now that there was definitely a connection, and I’m glad I lugged the box around all this time. “I’ll not always be wi’ thee. Take care o’ the wee one” now seems an ominous foreboding of things to come.
Patience Peeks over My Shoulder
as I Take Care of Business
Eventually I remarried and, naturally, had to be preoccupied with making a living. Dan and I were never able to sell a song, but over the years I did a bit of everything, including shelving books in the public library; selling cars; teaching high school English, speech, and theatre; teaching theatre in several universities; and finally working as a newspaper reporter, editor, and columnist—all the while doing lots of acting and directing in community theatre.
All the while, I retained my interest in the paranormal. But it was mostly limited to reading books or watching movies and the occasional documentary.
In 1979, I moved about thirty miles outside of Nashville to the rural county seat of Lebanon, Tennessee. I had secured a job teaching at Cumberland College (soon to become a university). By this time, I was married to my second wife, Linda—an intelligent and urbane woman who had grown up mostly in Europe where her father had been stationed at various army bases.
Linda had no interest in the paranormal, aside from being a fan of Stephen King novels. But she was well aware of my interest in it. My friend Dan came over often and she indulged our dalliances with the Ouija board, but she had no curiosity into the information we were receiving.
I taught at Cumberland for a year, then landed a gig teaching English, theatre, and speech at Lebanon High School (which paid a bit more money). I also became involved in the local Sound & Light community theatre group, so life became quite busy. There just wasn’t much time for paranormal explorations or speculations. Occasionally, Dan and I dusted off the Ouija and talked to Patience and the “ithers,” but that was about it on the paranormal front.
I only taught high school the one year. Moving to secondary education proved to be a mistake. I far preferred the subject matter– based teaching found at the university level to the disciple-based teaching on the high school level.
After the high school debacle, I worked about a year with a Tennessee-based film production company attempting to make a movie about the Bell Witch legend. They had a pretty good screenplay and we came close to making it happen, but close doesn’t win the cigar. It wasn’t meant to be. When my paychecks stopped coming, I had to give up the project.
Marriage number two was also crumbling by this point. Linda and I lacked core common interests, and we grew further and further apart. She had no interest in theatre or the paranormal. There were also personal issues intervening, and before long we divorced.
After a while, I had reconnected with a former fellow teacher from my high school teaching days, Sheila Massey, when we were in a play together. Finally, a woman who shared my passion for theatre! We did countless plays together, and she had a passing interest in the paranormal. We fell in love, dated for five years, and got married by my uncle who was a county magistrate in Robertson County.
After the failed Bell Witch movie venture, I tried my hand at being a social worker for the state of Tennessee for a couple of years. I found the work ultimately too depressing but am most proud of having rescued several small children from physically and sexually abusive parents.
During rehearsals for a play I was in, I became friends with a gentleman named Jack. A successful entrepreneur, Jack was starting a public relations firm and asked me to come work for him as a copywriter. I jumped at the chance to earn money as a writer and worked at his firm for about three years until it finally fizzled. The small town just hadn’t grown to the point where it could support its own PR firm. However, I enjoyed the work, the chance to know Jack (one of life’s real characters)—and, perhaps most importantly, my work with the county historian, which taught me tons about researching Victorian homes, including the home where I saw my first ghost.
Editing a Paranormal Magazine
About this time, I also became friends with a local psychic named Carol who did readings in a nearby town. I had written a freelance newspaper article about her when she published a book about ESP and her experiences with psychic phenomena. Carol wanted to start publishing a monthly newsletter/magazine about the people involved with psychic phenomena in the Nashville area. Nowadays there is an active community of psychics, paranormal investigators, Pagans, pantheists, metaphysical seekers of all kinds, you name it, in the Music City area. But back then, this community was just beginning to come out of the closet. There were actually quite few who would admit to being interested in metaphysical or psychic subjects. But New Age thought was slowly becoming more accepted by the mid-eighties, and Carol felt there would be a market for her newsletter. She wanted me to be the editor. I would be a one-man-show. I’d do all the interviews, write all the stories, do the layouts, and arrange for a printing company to publish it.
I interviewed numerous local psychics, a very metaphysical Unity minister, and several nationally known psychics who came through Nashville. I even did a phone interview with Uri Geller, the Israeli psychic who’s internationally famous for bending small metal objects with his mind. One local psychic I got to know was Laurel. Laurel had already had a career as a writer and by then was middle-aged. But she decided to leave her boring job with a publishing company and “put her shingle out” to go into full-time work as a medium/psychic. I learned later that Laurel had inherited her ability from her mother, who had also been a writer and one of the few female war correspondents during World War II. She had dallied in ESP games with her mom as a little girl, but the gift within her had mushroomed by the time I met her. Now she was ready to take it to a whole different level. I mention Laurel here because she plays a very important role in my daughter’s exorcism-to-come, which would change all our lives within another decade and a half.
I absolutely loved my job as editor of Carol’s monthly metaphysical newsletter, but we were only able to come out with a few issues. Publishing a monthly periodical proved considerably more expensive than Carol had anticipated, and we were forced to close our little operation down before it had a chance to catch on.