SEVEN

FOR A LONG TIME I could not drive the streets of St. Paul without a heaviness in my stomach. They all seemed to lead to landmarks of death. “Hey, that building over there, that’s where we found Harley who had his penis cut off and stuffed into his mouth by his homosexual lover, and that park we just passed, Sally was found raped and murdered over there, right under the monkey bars …”

That changed during the years after I left the department; gradually time had removed the stink of death from my clothes, my hair, my nostrils, my brain. The faces of the killers, the dealers, the pimps, the pros, the gang-bangers and their victims, all those wonderful people who filled my life with such happy memories, faded like the World Series ticket stubs I thought might be a collector’s item someday.

Then I killed four men and it all came back. The cops, the county attorney and a review board called it self-defense and I wasn’t about to argue with them. But I haven’t had more than a few consecutive nights of uninterrupted sleep since.

And I stopped carrying a gun, vowing that I would never kill another human being again.

“Goddamn it!” I screamed at the traffic on Rice Street. I did not want to deal with this. I was tired of taking dead people home with me. I preferred the simple life now, a life apart from the suffering of others. Chasing credit card thieves suited me fine. Sifting for secrets in someone’s trash, conducting surveillance on suspected embezzlers, running skip traces with my computer—that’s what I wanted to do.

Only, Death seems to follow me. And try as I might, I cannot shake him.

I parked directly in front of C. C. Monroe’s campaign headquarters and walked inside, making as much noise as possible. Marion Senske didn’t want anyone to know I was working for her? Well, screw that! Unfortunately, only one person seemed interested in my act—the receptionist. Everyone else was talking earnestly in small groups of three or four. The receptionist said Ms. Senske was expecting me, please have a seat; Representative Monroe and Ms. Senske were in conference and would see me presently.

I glanced toward the office in back. The door was slightly ajar and I could see a sliver of light.

The telephone rang and the young woman answered it, making notes on a pink message pad as she spoke. When she had finished with the first caller, the phone rang again and then a third time. She asked the second caller, “Could you hold, please?” and switched to the third line before the second caller could reply. I slipped away and headed toward the office. As I approached, I heard voices. They belonged to C. C. Monroe and Marion Senske. The two of them spoke as if no one in the world could hear them. I paused outside and listened.

“Look at your clothes! How dare you wear clothes like that?” Marion wanted to know.

“What’s wrong with my outfit?”

“Nothing if you’re a nightclub singer.”

“The media love what I wear,” C. C. said in her own defense.

“The media don’t vote,” Marion reminded her. “Dammit, Carol Catherine. We had this discussion last week after you frosted your hair …”

“And you made me change it back,” C. C. whined. “I only wanted to see how it looked; I never had it done before.”

Marion’s voice dropped a few octaves. She spoke slowly. “We’ve discussed this a hundred times during the past six years, Carol Catherine, and you just don’t seem to get it. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve served in the House or how many elections you’ve won. There are people out there who won’t vote for you simply because you’re a woman. There are people who won’t vote for you because you’re young. There are people who won’t vote for you because you’re not married, because you don’t have a family. And now here you are reinforcing their greatest fears, showing off your legs, showing off your chest, dressing like some chippy.”

“What’s a chippy?”

“Carol Catherine!” Marion was shouting now. “Look. We don’t have time for this. We have to be at the studio in thirty minutes. That’s barely enough time to take you home and change.”

“I don’t want to change,” the younger woman whined some more.

“I don’t give a shit what you want!” Marion screamed.

I decided I’d heard enough and walked into the room.

“Taylor,” Marion said, obviously startled by my presence. C. C. didn’t say anything. She turned to me and smiled, bringing a hand to her bare throat. She was wearing a black, one-button tuxedo jacket with a satin-trimmed collar that was fitted to show off her narrow waist; a short black skirt with a wide satin stripe; black nylons patterned with flowers; black heels and nothing else that I could see and believe me, I looked hard. Marion was right; it probably was inappropriate for a gubernatorial candidate. But it certainly won my vote.

“Did you get the tape?” Marion demanded to know after she caught her breath.

“We need to talk about that.”

“Did you get the tape?” she repeated.

“Not so you’d notice.”

“What does he want, more money?”

“It’s a little more complicated than that.”

“We haven’t got time,” Marion announced. “Meet us here after the debate.”

“This won’t wait,” I said.

“It’ll have to.”

“I insist,” I told Marion.

“No, I insist!” she shouted in reply. “I am in charge here, make no mistake!” And with that declaration, she pulled C. C. by the hand from the room like an unwilling child.

“Aww, Marion,” C. C. whined.

“Let’s go, dammit!” Marion barked. Three people—two men and the former female anchor—disengaged from their huddles and met her at the door. Marion shouted a few instructions to the receptionist and herded the gubernatorial candidate and her entourage outside to the black Buick Regal parked directly in front of the doors. Conan held the car doors open, then shut them all after everyone slid in. He rounded the car, squeezed behind the wheel and drove off while the receptionist and I watched.

“Ms. Senske said I was supposed to take care of you,” the receptionist informed me.

In my younger days while chasing the women at St. Thomas, I probably would have made something of that remark. But I was well past that. I call it maturity. Others call it old age. “Let’s get something to eat,” I said.

She hesitated, then said, “I’m not allowed to leave the phones unattended.”

“Isn’t there someone who can relieve you?” She inspected me cautiously for a moment. I added, “There’s a Vietnamese restaurant just down the street.”

She didn’t reply.

“It’s a public place and I promise to keep my hands in my pockets.”

She weighed the invitation a moment longer, then called, “Louise!” An older woman answered from across the room. “Could you catch the phones?” the receptionist asked. “I’m going to get something to eat.”

“Of course, dear.”

“I’ll be back before the debate begins.”

“No problem, dear,” Louise said, but from her expression I guessed there must be at least one. She looked at me like she was sighting down the barrel of a rifle.

The receptionist fished a purse from a box under the cafeteria table and moved toward the door. She was about five-three and wore a white blouse with a lace collar and pocket, pleated trousers with a high waist and white sneakers. I didn’t particularly care for the sneakers. I know professional women like to wear them on the job because they’re infinitely more comfortable than traditional heels. Still, they look childish when matched with business clothes and women have enough problems in the workplace as it is.

“My name is Amy Lamb,” she said.

“Hi, Amy,” I replied, holding out my hand in the traditional fashion, proving there was no weapon in it. She gave it a brief squeeze.

“Do you carry a gun?” Amy Lamb asked between mouthfuls of chicken almond ding and fried rice.

“No.”

“Really? I thought all private eyes carried guns.”

“Some do. Usually they lock them away in the trunks of their cars.”

“How much does a private eye make?” she asked, sipping her tea.

“Depends on how much you work. Some of the larger shops charge thirty-five dollars an hour. I get four hundred dollars a day but …”

“Four hundred? No shit?” she said and then clamped her hand hard over her mouth.

“I don’t work every day,” I finished.

She blushed a deep crimson. “I’m sorry.”

“That’s all right.”

“I never cursed before I moved down here.”

“I’ve heard worse.”

“I’m from Starbuck. Starbuck, Minnesota. Ever hear of it?”

“Sure,” I answered. I knew my state map. I could even recite the names of all eighty-seven counties in alphabetic order: Aitkin, Anoka, Becker, Beltrami …

“It’s about two hours’ driving time from here,” Amy volunteered in case I was fooling. She spoke with the sing-song voice of adolescence, each sentence tailing up, ending with a question mark. She was much younger than I had originally guessed, younger perhaps than her professed chronological age of twenty. I found myself comparing her to the girl who’d sat in front of me in high school algebra, who’d scribbled her name, house number, street, town, county, state, country and then—to be exact—continent, hemisphere, planet, solar system, galaxy, and universe into her notebook, indicating exactly where she belonged in the scope of things. Try as I might, I could not picture Amy waging a social revolution with the women at St. Thomas, although it was probably for her that they fought.

“I really liked it,” she said of her hometown.

“Why did you leave?” I asked.

“It was kinda small—not much opportunity, you know? And then, after I was graduated from school, well, my parents, they were concerned about me, wondering when I was gonna get married. We’d be at the dinner table and after Daddy said grace it would begin: ‘When are you going to get married?’ ‘When are you going to settle down?’ My parents were convinced that if I didn’t get married soon all the nice boys would be taken and I’d be stuck with what was left. Y’see, in a small town like Starbuck, you turn eighteen you either go away to school or you get married, and I wasn’t, you know, college material. But I wanted more than just getting married and spending every second Saturday at the Pope County Dairy Association dinner. So, what I did, I went to the community college in Morris and studied to be a legal secretary. I figured I could go to the Cities and get a job. Boy, that freaked ’em—my parents, I mean. My father would cut articles out of the StarTribune, articles about, you know, rape and murder and stuff. Remember when that serial killer was stalking those poor Indian women? My father cut out the articles and taped them to the refrigerator door. ‘See what happens?’ he’d say. But a woman, you know, you gotta be free, so after I got my certificate, I just hopped on that Greyhound. Mom cried, but Dad, Dad was cool; kinda surprised me. He slipped me a whole thousand dollars and said I was to call every other day or he’d come down and get me. I think he might have cried, too.”

“Parents,” I said, as if the word contained all the mysteries of the ages. “So what happens next?”

“I’m going to get a job with the state, once Representative Monroe is elected governor, I mean. When Ms. Senske hired me, she said do a good job and she and Representative Monroe would find a place for me after the election—me and Galen. Are you married?”

“No,” I said, without elaborating. “Who’s Galen?”

“I don’t mean to pry or anything, but you seem so much more mature than most of the men I meet.”

“You mean old,” I corrected her.

“You’re not so old,” she said, flirting now.

“Trust me.”

“I dated an older man before and it was no big deal,” Amy assured me. “I find older men kinda attractive, you know?”

“Who’s Galen?” I asked again.

“You don’t like me,” Amy pouted.

“Sure, I do,” I told her honestly. “You’re a beautiful, desirable young woman. Only I have a high school yearbook that’s older than you. Besides,” I said, leaning in close, whispering, “we’re not allowed to get romantically involved with clients. The state could take my license.”

“Really?” she whispered. “You mean like psychologists?”

I nodded and Amy glanced about the restaurant in case anyone was watching. She raised her hand shoulder high like she was swearing herself to secrecy, looked around some more and said, “Galen? Galen Pivec? You asked about him? He’s with the State Capitol police. He provides security ’n’ stuff for Representative Monroe in his free time; you know, crowd control, drives sometimes. You met him this afternoon.”

“Conan?”

“Huh?”

“Never mind. Are you and Galen friends?”

“I guess. We talk a lot while he’s waiting at the door—you know, waiting for Representative Monroe and Ms. Senske. But we don’t date or anything,” she added quickly, looking into my eyes, hoping I believed her.

I had a thought, but pushed it out of my mind, ashamed of myself.

“How do you get to be a private eye?” Amy asked.

“You have enough hours of experience, you can take out a license. If you don’t, you can apprentice under someone else’s license until you do.”

“Did you apprentice?”

“I was a cop for ten years,” I said and handed her my photostat just in case she thought I was making it all up.

She examined the photograph, looked at me, looked back at the photograph.

“Some people say I look like Alan Ladd,” I said.

“Who’s he?”

“An actor. He was pretty big in the forties and fifties.”

“Louise would know him—if he was an actor in the fifties, I mean.”

“Louise?” I asked.

“The woman who took over the phones? I used to live with her. She was the office administrator at the law firm where Marion—I mean Ms. Senske—used to work. I applied for this job as a legal secretary—that’s what I am, really, a legal secretary, not a receptionist; I told you that, I think …”

I nodded, confirming that she had.

“Anyway, the day I arrived here, I got a copy of the newspaper, the classifieds, and started looking for a job. My first interview was with Louise and I guess she liked me right off, only she said she had to interview two or three more people before making a decision and I should leave my address and phone number and I told her I was staying at this motel near the bus station? Know what she did? She said, ‘That’s outrageous,’ and she made me get my stuff and check out and she moved me into her place. She said it was only temporary and she made me pay room and board, you know, but I had my own bedroom and I could come and go as I pleased and it was pretty okay, until …” Amy Lamb’s mood darkened, her voice along with it. “I just had to leave.”

“I can understand that,” I told her, thinking that I really did.

“Can you?”

“I think everybody should live alone for at least a year. That’s how you find out who you are.”

“Or aren’t,” Amy added.

I shrugged.

“Anyway, Ms. Senske asked Louise if she wanted to work on the campaign and Louise asked me and here we all are.”

“Just one big, happy family.”

“Oh, it is, it really is,” Amy replied and ate another mouthful of fried rice. “It seems everyone is related to somebody, or a friend of somebody. Are you related to Representative Monroe?”

“No.”

“What are you doing for her?”

“This and that.”

“Is it confidential?”

“Yes.”

“Oh,” she said, disappointed.

“But maybe you can help me.”

“Really? Can I?”

“Do you know a man named Dennis Thoreau? He was around the campaign the past couple of weeks.”

“I know him,” she said in a voice that made me think she didn’t care much for him.

“And?”

“We went out once,” Amy confessed. “He was the older man I told you about.”

“What happened?”

Amy lowered her head and picked at her rice with chopsticks. Finally she said, “Let’s just say he didn’t treat me very well and let it go at that.”

“Did he telephone Representative Monroe a couple times Saturday?”

“Not that I know of.”

“Do all the calls go through you?”

“Yes, they do.”

I had to think about that for a minute. “Did you ever meet Joseph Sherman?”

“Him,” Amy answered without hesitation. “No, I never met him but he must have called a hundred times. He wasn’t very nice, either. He used the ‘F’ word a lot. He kept calling and saying he wanted to speak to Miss Monroe but wouldn’t tell me what it was about, so I wouldn’t put him through; I just took his name and number. I’m very careful about that. You’d be surprised how many crank calls Representative Monroe gets.”

“I can imagine. Did Sherman ever get through to C. C.?”

“Oh, yes. Representative Monroe was standing by the desk this one time when he called and she heard me talking to him and she took the phone.”

“Do you remember what was said?”

“I don’t know what he said. I couldn’t hear and, you know, I was trying not to eavesdrop.”

“What did C. C. say?”

“She said a lot of umm’s and uh-huh’s and I see’s and stuff like that and then she said, ‘Go ahead, call the police, call the newspapers, I don’t care,’ and then she gave me the phone and I hung up and I asked, you know, ’cuz I was concerned, I asked if there was a problem, and she said, ‘It seems like every man in the world wants a piece of me,’ and then she left.”

“Was she upset?”

“Not really. She was smiling when she walked away.”

“When did the conversation take place?”

“I don’t know. Thursday, Friday … no, Thursday last week. Is that helpful?”

“Very,” I said, not knowing if it was or not.

“If there is anything else I can do—” Amy offered, excited at the prospect.

I slipped a card out of my wallet and gave it to her. “You never know.”