Holy Week, the Year of Our Lord 1457
In small niches along the streets of Prato, parishioners festooned their Madonna statuettes with white flowers, and white sashes were cleaned and readied to be hung over church doorways in preparation for the celebration of Easter. Lines from the Gospels rang out in the piazzas at night, where the confraternities mounted passion plays and the long-faced cobbler, chosen to represent the Son this year, dragged a heavy cross supplied, as always, by the Woodworkers’ Guild. The streets leading to the Church of Santo Stefano were turned into the Via Dolorosa, Christ’s road of misery, and despite the short patches of grass that had already begun to grow, the small hill that led to the sheep meadows north of Prato became a terrifying Golgotha.
As she’d done every year since reaching womanhood, Lucrezia attended Mass on Holy Thursday. She’d rarely ventured out of the bottega since her pregnancy had begun to show, but the Mass before the Triduum Sacrum was a treasured ritual she didn’t want to miss. With her head covered by a generous hood, she walked slowly to the Church of Santo Spirito and joined the others who waited on the side of the nave. When there was a free spot at the altar, Lucrezia knelt and began her Ave Maria. She was aware of her belly’s heavy low sling and bent over it protectively. When she had finished she rose slowly, her hands on the low arch of her back. Lost in prayer, she nearly walked into the woman heading toward her. It was Sister Bernadetta from the convent.
“Sister Lucrezia!” the nun exclaimed, gazing at Lucrezia’s belly. “I’ve been praying for you,” the nun said, dropping her eyes.
Although she was startled, Lucrezia was pleased to see the young nun.
“What are you doing here?” she asked.
“I was coming from the ospedale with Sister Simona, and we stopped here to say a prayer,” the nun answered softly.
“Sister, please tell me if Spinetta is all right. She hasn’t written to me.”
“Yes, she’s in fine health.” The nun hesitated. “But your sister’s taken a vow of silence and speaks only in prayer.” Seeing Lucrezia’s confusion, she continued. “She’s pledged to remain silent until she’s taken the full veil.”
At the kind expression in the nun’s eyes, Lucrezia’s own eyes filled. She’d endured much loneliness, and couldn’t bear to have the sisters at the convent think ill of her.
“Look, Sister Bernadetta.” She thrust out her left hand and displayed the golden ring she wore.
“Are you a monna, a married lady?” Sister Bernadetta squeezed Lucrezia’s hand, and the young woman wanted nothing more than to tell her friend that she was properly wed.
“We’re awaiting word from Rome, and pray we’ll hear from His Holiness, Pope Callistus, soon. Until then we’ve exchanged the promise a man and a woman can give one another, and have the blessing of a priest.”
The nun smiled kindly, but Lucrezia could see it was a smile of pity. She didn’t ask any more questions, and Sister Bernadetta seemed eager to go. She saw the nun looking past her, to pale-faced Sister Simona who waited near the narthex.
“I’ll pray for you and the child,” Sister Bernadetta said after she’d kissed Lucrezia’s forehead. “God’s grace to you. And blessed Easter.”
At dawn on Easter morning, Lucrezia knelt at the foot of the bed singing a hymn praising the resurrected Christ, and repeating her Ave Maria.
“Ave Maria Stella, Dei Mater Alma, at que simper virgo, felix coeli porta.”
When she’d finished, she rose slowly and walked into the empty kitchen where a fire already roared. She warmed her hands, arching her back against the pressure of her growing belly. Silently, still lost in the reverie of her chanting, she drew back the curtain that led into the workshop, and gasped.
There was a rainbow of silks in the bottega, the likes of which she hadn’t seen since the heyday of her father’s shop in Florence.
“Oh, Filippo.” Her eyes took in several braccia of the finest blue silk from Lucca, the richest browns and golds, the jewellike purple and red. “They’re beautiful.”
The painter rose from his worktable and crossed to her. His robe was brilliant white amid the color.
“Where did this treasure come from?” she asked.
He smiled. The effort and promises it had taken were worth it, simply to see the joy on her face. He lifted a piece of blue silk and held it out to her. Her hand grasped his, the silk rippling between them like water.
“I’ve gone to my friends and begged what favors I’m owed,” he said. “My only wish is for you to be happy. For you, and the child.”
“But each piece must have cost many florins—”
“The child will have a proper baptismal gown, Lucrezia, and you will have a silken pillow to rest your head upon when you labor.”
Lucrezia closed her eyes and fingered the blue silk, imagining their child swaddled in a length of seta leale, lying in a cradle lined with rich fabrics and plush pillows.
The painter touched her face. There was a wrinkle on her skin where she’d been lying against the blanket’s fold. He touched the ridge there, put a hand on her shoulder, moved the white cloth of her sleeping gown.
“I did this for you,” Fra Filippo said quietly. “Because I love you.”
He took her face in his hands and turned it this way and that.
“You’ve been very understanding,” he said, desire deepening his voice. “Very patient. Very beautiful.”
He buried his face in her neck and kissed her, fell to his knees and pressed his face against her belly. Lucrezia was startled at the way her body responded, with heat and longing that began between her legs and radiated upward.
“Filippo.” She ran her hands across the top of his head, along the rim of his short hair and the stubble on his cheeks.
He stood and gathered her into his arms. Even with the baby, she was light. He carried her to the bedroom and carefully laid her on the soft bed. The blue silk was still in her hand. He spread it on top of her like a blanket, watching her face come alive at the feel of the silk against her skin, the surprise in her eyes as he worked her gamurra up over her belly and shoulders until all that covered her was the lake of blue silk.
He swiftly unknotted his belt and stripped off his robe. Her belly was the blue sea beneath him and he reached for it, feeling the length of her body, seeing the delicate veins that ran in her arms as she touched him. He stroked her face, touching her above the silk and then sliding his hand below it, across her full breasts, the taut, swollen belly, the brush of hair between her legs, her soft thighs. Gently he pressed her knees apart, using the strength in his arms to protect her from his weight as she opened.
Lucrezia had never felt such desire. She felt her breath grow shallow, her eyes roll back. The painter watched her face. Her lips parted and she began to moan softly. He moved in her, whispering her name, thrusting slowly.
Lucrezia let herself go. She felt herself grow from the single point between her legs to the depth and width of the earth. She cried out. Her moaning turned to deep sighs, and Fra Filippo knew that no matter what other men said of his sins, God had chosen to allow him into heaven.
Lucrezia dressed for Easter Mass in a simple blue gamurra. She could still feel the painter’s hands on her skin, his body’s gentle pressure, the surprise of her desire.
She brushed her hair languidly. It smelled of the chamomile she’d rinsed through it, but also of the smoke from the hearth, and the plaster dust that was always in the painter’s robes. She ran her fingers across her belly’s tight drum, waiting for the child’s kick. When she felt it, she smiled and called out.
“Filippo?”
She went into the kitchen, and heard him folding away the silks in the next room. She pulled aside the curtain at the doorway, looking for the tenderness in his eyes. But before their gazes met, a movement caught her eye and she looked past him, to the window that opened toward the piazza.
A flash of red robe appeared, followed by a hand reaching into the window. Lucrezia screamed. Fra Filippo dropped the stretch of purple silk in his hands and whirled around. He ran to the door and flung it open. As he’d expected, there was no one there.
“Who was that at the window?” Lucrezia asked, shaken and pale, both hands below her belly, as if she could cradle it in her arms.
“I’m sure it was nothing,” Fra Filippo said.
“It was someone,” she insisted. “Someone in a red robe trying to climb up to the window.”
“Whoever it was, he’ll be sorry if I see him here again,” the painter said.
His words hid his growing fear, and replaced the gentle calm that Lucrezia’s body had brought him. It was Easter—surely it wasn’t Inghirami spying at his window on a day when there was so much to do.