MY FINGERS

My fingers stroke my brow and search there

for rhymes which, one day, with their bite, will eat into

my flesh; stroke my brow, skeletal fingers, there

already are my veins, like a bluish bruise,

they circle strangely, my poor weary fingers –

and how those long sickly nails beat

ominously against my temples, tolling,

tolling, my slow and mournful fingers!

You touch what will be verse, my opal fingers,

verse which will, at the graveyard’s witching hour,

sluggishly devour my pale brain,

verse which will devour my dreary boredom

my dreary dreams right up to the thought

which at that hour slowly bends my brow

upon this paper, whose whiteness, wounded with ink,

tenses with the lines of my harsh writing.

And you too, my fingers, you’ll be verse

after the sacraments and forgiveness,

my fingers, when you are stilled and turn green

under the shroud, laid upon my breast, like wires;

my fingers, writing to me this rough winter night,

when you’re knotted – all ten – on my carcass

crushed there beneath a casket of iron,

this bitter carcass, already broken.