Holcroft House
After the Feast of the Epiphany to the Ides of February
The year of Our Lord 1406 in the seventh year of the reign of Henry IV
I heard through Captain Stoyan that Tobias and Sir Leander arrived safely in Gascony and, after taking on cargo, sailed to the Mediterranean. Neither would be in English seas for at least another six months. In front of Adam and Saskia, Sir Leander bade me a solemn farewell; the way he pressed my hand and searched my eyes led me to surmise he knew that Tobias and I had argued. That my brother had stormed from the house before I rejoined everyone in the hall made our falling-out obvious, but I was too angry to explain or apologize. Promising to keep my brother safe, Sir Leander kissed my hand slowly and warmly, his eyes lingering on my lips as he raised his head. When he didn’t relinquish my hand but squeezed it involuntarily a few times, I gave him a pretty curtsy, despite my shaking knees. Too tense and anxious to understand that this leave-taking was for a goodly time, I said goodbye. Who was Sir Leander but my brother’s master, anyway? And hadn’t he been the one to bestow on me the awful name that Tobias used in the first place? I was glad to see the last of him, I told myself.
Was I a poor sister if I confessed to feeling relieved that Tobias had left? That I did not have to endure another moment in his company? Well, I was, and I stubbornly refused to accept any blame for our disagreement and pursued my plan to open an alehouse with renewed determination. Not only did I need to pay Lord Rainford, I also had to prove my brother wrong. If I was to earn any reputation, I would tell myself as I scrubbed the soon-to-open alehouse, polished spoons, and cleaned tankards and mazers alongside Iris and Westel, it would be as the efficient and generous manager of an excellent establishment that sold fine ale, beer, and fare.
I didn’t confide in anyone about my fight with Tobias. To tell the truth, as Christmastide drew to a close and we celebrated the Feast of Epiphany with prayer and carousing, I was embarrassed and saddened beyond measure. Then I would remember Tobias’s words. It was tantamount to betrayal. Most of all, I felt utter indignation that he saw fit to forbid me.
While the twins were oblivious to the schism, Adam, Saskia, and Blanche at least knew exactly what had gone on. They didn’t say anything; they didn’t need to—their respectful silence, the additional attention paid to the meals sent to me in the brewery or the way they drew their stools closer at night in the hall spoke of how they felt. I basked in their support, knowing that the alehouse would be the saving of Holcroft House.
Westel was more than usually attentive in the days following the argument. So much so, I became convinced he must have been privy to the words exchanged. This proved to be right when, in an innocent comment, Karel revealed that Westel had followed Tobias out of the hall on St. Stephen’s night.
“He was supposed to be fetching Tobias’s cloak, but he was gone so long, we thought you must have kept him in the office.”
I didn’t explain that I’d neither kept Westel nor been aware of his presence. That little piece of information went a long way to explaining the willing way Westel went about his tasks and more. In what used to be the shopfront and which was slowly transforming into my alehouse, Westel would entertain me by describing the customers we’d have, their manner, their dress, and inventing ways in which they’d laud our ale. He gave me hope, just when I thought there was so little as the pressures of furnishing the alehouse, promoting its forthcoming opening, not to mention increasing the amount of ale and now beer we produced, were taking their toll. Without Westel, Awel, and Delyth, and the quiet cooperation of the twins and the servants, I never would have accomplished it.
I was grateful to them all—but most especially Westel.
* * *
Our original intention to open on Twelfth Night was delayed by over a month. Instead, on a bitterly cold Saturday, just on the ides of February, I announced the Cathaline Alehouse open for business. The name was my choice—I knew it would arouse Tobias’s ire and possibly that of my patron, Lord Rainford, but I wanted to honor my mother. I drew strength from her name.
The morning of our opening, I emerged from the brewery as the sun began to peep through the leaden mist. The smell of moisture clung to everything; the tang of salt was there too, if you dared breathe the cold air deeply enough. Crossing through the snow to the kitchen, my heart contracted as, once again, I missed my hounds. Chickens and pigs did not arouse the same degree of affection, and though the slender church cat would wend its way along the wall, sometimes jumping down to weave between my legs, she belonged to Father Clement.
Spying my approach, the twins raced outside, took my hands and pulled me into the warmth of the kitchen. Inside, Blanche and Iris were preparing small loaves of bread to serve in the alehouse while a huge pottage bubbled away on the stove. The smell was comforting, as were the children’s bodies, pressed close to mine we sat on the bench and drank some almond milk.
Blanche and Iris chatted. They were anxious and excited about the alehouse opening. Adam and Saskia had gone to the market to fetch some last-minute supplies; Louisa was busy in the scullery, pressing tablecloths and attending to the dress I was determined to wear that afternoon to greet my first customers, while Will was laying a fire so the room would be warm. I’d left Westel and the Parry sisters in the brewhouse. I admit to enjoying the guilty pleasure of a pause in my otherwise busy day.
“Can we come to the alehouse too?” asked Betje, leaning over the table with a wet finger, daubing the salt that had spilled on the table and bringing it to her mouth. It was satisfying to me that she defined the alehouse as a separate space that required permission to enter. I’d worked hard to maintain the division between commercial and domestic parts of the building as we’d always done.
“Oh, please say aye, Anneke!” begged Karel, widening those big blue eyes.
Ruffling his curls, I shook my head. “I’m afraid my answer today is the same as it’s been every other day you’ve asked that question.”
“Nay, my darlings, you cannot,” said Betje in a perfect imitation of my voice, grinning at me.
I threw back my head and laughed and the others joined in. Karel jumped off the bench and began to strut around the kitchen, giving orders to imaginary staff, adopting my walk and stance with remarkable accuracy.
“I do not look like that,” I objected, as he placed one hand on his hip and shook a finger.
“You do,” said Betje, applauding her brother.
I was about to join the mummery, when Will entered waving a letter.
“Mistress Sheldrake. This just arrived.”
I didn’t recognize the handwriting or the frank. “Thank you, Will.”
“Open it,” said Karel, clambering back up next to me.
“Read it to us,” said Betje, looping her arm through mine, making it difficult for me to break the seal. It was very good quality paper, the ebony ink pronounced against the creamy surface.
“Right Honorable Mistress Sheldrake.”
“Who’s it from?” chimed Karel.
My eyes dropped to the signature at the bottom. My stomach fluttered. It was from Leander Rainford. My cheeks began to pinken.
“Sir Leander,” I said quietly.
Beside me, Blanche and Iris stopped talking. My heart thundering, I slowly rose to my feet. Why would Tobias’s master write to me? I scanned the contents quickly.
I commend myself to you and trust this missive finds you well. I pray you do not think this presumptuous, but I wanted to reassure you about Tobias.
My veins turned to ice. Oh dear God, what’s happened?
“What is it, Anneke? What’s wrong?” asked Betje, crawling along the bench to reach me. She touched my cheek. I pressed her hand against my face. It was warm, solid.
“Nothing, nothing,” I lied and kept reading Sir Leander’s bold, tidy script:
Though Tobias has not been forthcoming about the manner in which he departed Holcroft House the night of St. Stephen’s, I gather there has been a disturbance in your good relations and I wanted to express my sorrow and hope that my unforgivable behavior on first making your acquaintance, never mind the deplorable liberties I took on Christmas Day, have not been in any way responsible.
I burrowed my cheek into Betje’s hand, a small smile tugging the corners of my mouth. If only Sir Leander knew . . .
I further pray that one day, you will find it in your heart to forgive me.
Looking up from the letter, I pulled Betje’s hand away and kissed her palm warmly.
“What’s that for?” She extracted her hand and wiped it on her dress.
“No reason,” I said, and tugged her plait before continuing with the letter.
Above all, I wanted to reassure you that I will continue to look to Tobias’s health and well-being as I have always done so that you need not cast your mind in our direction but focus on what needs be done at Holcroft House.
There were a few lines about the ports they would be calling upon and the weather they were anticipating before he signed off.
I wish you every good fortune in what is a brave venture for a woman, more so one on her own. With that in mind, I invite you to call upon me for assistance or advice at anytime. May the Holy Trinity have you and your family in their keeping always, yours in blessed Christ’s name, Leander Rainford.
Aware of everyone’s eyes upon me, I folded the letter quickly and tucked it against my breast.
“Anneke! You said you were going to read it to us.” Karel folded his arms and pouted.
“I said no such thing.”
“Is Sir Leander well, mistress?” asked Will, who’d lingered in the hope of news.
“Very, Will.”
“What does he say?” said Betje, her voice demanding.
I spun on the bench and stood, taking a crust of bread from the trencher. “That all is well with him and he sends his best to you.”
“That’s it? What about Tobias?”
A shadow flitted across my mind. “He’s well too.”
I glanced at Blanche and Iris, who both found the dough and pottage very interesting.
The bells for sext sounded. Midday. Adam and Saskia entered, creating a welcome diversion. Flushed from walking quickly, Saskia heaved her basket onto the table, pulling off her mantle, hood, and gloves, brushing bits of snow from the fabric.
“Well, that should be everything,” she said, using the ends of her scarf to wipe her face. Adam hefted two laden sacks onto the table.
“I placed a poster up near the pillory, Mistress Anneke.” He removed his cap and ran his fingers through his hair. “As you can imagine, there’re a few people in the stocks with it approaching Lent, so I figured they would draw a crowd.”
“I told him we didn’t want that sort coming here,” chided Saskia, shaking her head. “But would he listen?”
“All sorts stroll by the pillory, Saskia.” I laughed. “It’s those locked into it whose custom we’d decline, not those who choose to mock or study folk foolish enough to break the law.”
“Ja, well, I hadn’t thought of it like that.” Saskia wrapped an apron around her waist and shot Adam a smile. He winked at me. Saskia began unpacking her basket, while Adam unwrapped the additional candles and haunch of mutton he’d bought.
I stayed a moment longer before deciding it was time to prepare myself. Running up the stairs, I looked at the freshly washed kirtle and tunic draped over my bed. They’d once been Mother’s. One could not serve patrons in the color of death; it was time to cast off our mourning attire. Emerald green and sapphire blue, the latter recalled to me the color of Leander Rainford’s eyes. I reached over and stroked the material. Fancy him writing to me like that. I hadn’t imagined it—he was sorry for what he called me. Recalling the pressure of his fingers, the feel of his lips, was it possible, could it be that . . . I dared to hope again.
Extracting the letter from where I’d folded it against my bosom, I pressed it in my palm then against my mouth, before opening my chest and tucking it beneath my undergarments.
If I could prove to Sir Leander, a man of firm convictions, I was no whore, then how hard would it be to demonstrate the same to others, alehouse or naught?
Dipping a cloth in the water Iris had delivered to the room, I began to wash, pushing thoughts of Tobias and our angry, cruel words aside, my head filled with ocean-blue eyes and a dazzling smile.
* * *
Reluctant though I was to call our first evening as the Cathaline Alehouse an unbridled success, all the evidence confirmed it: the number of customers pouring through the door, their gaiety and goodwill, praise for the ale—and even the beer, which was eagerly tried, though only a few chose to drink it exclusively, preferring the taste of the familiar—never mind the coin that now rattled in the tin. Music, food, laughter, and conversation flowed along with the amber liquid from the moment we officially opened our doors until the last patron left before curfew sounded. Not only did regular buyers of our ale attend, but many curious new customers as well as travelers who had entered through the city gates from the south and encountered us as the first establishment. Pilgrims, monks, hawkers, a troupe of traveling players making their way along the east coast before heading to York, a couple of knights and their squires, even some bargemen and their wives popped in and remained a goodly while. Sitting at the tables or on the window seats, leaning against the wall, or simply standing, it didn’t take long for the room to feel crowded. The strange thing about groups of people is that they attract more, so even when some left, others quickly replaced them. Amidst them were Master Perkyn and Olive, who enveloped me in a huge hug; Hugh the baker; Simon Attenoke; Master Larkspur, briefly; and, much to my surprise, Master Allistair Gretting, the ale-conner. Of Betrix and Master Fortescue there was no sign, but I didn’t expect Betrix to come to an alehouse, even if it was run by me. Master Fortescue couldn’t endorse what the friary did not, so his absence was regrettable but understandable.
I could barely keep up with demand, and every time I checked on the servants, either Iris and Awel were bringing more food from the kitchen or Westel was tapping another barrel. Will served drinks with great cheer and, when able, Westel roamed the tables with a brimming jug, encouraging customers to drink up. When Will brought out his flute and Adam appeared with his gittern, there was clapping, stamping, and calls for songs to be sung, poems to be recited. Lost in the atmosphere, I stood near the table from which we served the drinks, swaying to the melodies.
By the time we closed and tidied, collecting the crushed and dirty rushes and throwing them into the ditch outside, turning over the tablecloths that couldn’t be salvaged for use another night, and taking the dirty mazers, tankards, and goblets (though many patrons had, as was usual, brought their own) to the scullery to be cleaned, I left Westel and Iris to lock the door, staunch the fire, and snuff out the candles. Will was checking the gates, while Adam was ensuring no patrons hovered outside before putting Shelby to bed and ensuring the pigs and chickens were safe. First thanking Saskia and Blanche, the Parry sisters having been escorted home before dark, I then climbed the stairs to look in on the twins. Exhausted, I was also filled with a glow of excitement, the heat of success. The alehouse had operated more smoothly and more successfully than I dreamed. Oh, Tobias, I wish you could have been here. Holding a candle aloft, I entered the nursery.
The rise and fall of the twins’ chests told me they were asleep before their quiet breaths and sweet, dream-sent smell did. I pulled aside the curtain and sat gingerly on the edge of the mattress. Betje rolled toward me and I lifted her back into the center. Snuggling into her brother, they slept face to face, their full, pink mouths slightly open, their silver curls peeping from beneath their sleeping caps. I tugged the furs higher and tucked them around their throats, leaving soft kisses on their cheeks. They stirred briefly, settling back into slumber. I felt the surge of protectiveness that their innocence and trust in me always aroused. It brought tears to my eyes and prayers to my lips.
“How was it, mistress?” asked a sleepy voice from the foot of the bed. Bleary-eyed, Louisa sat up, the ends of her cap falling over one shoulder.
“Sorry to disturb you,” I whispered, rising swiftly. “It went very well. Now, go back to sleep.”
“God bless you, mistress. I’m so happy for you,” said Louisa, beaming at me as she lay back down. “You deserve happiness. As Mary is the Holy Mother, you do.”
With a full heart, I took the candle and tiptoed out. As I shut the nursery door, a hand touched my shoulder. I spun around. It was Will.
“Mis—Mistress Sheldrake! I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.”
“It’s all right, Will,” I said, waiting for my heart to return to normal. “I was . . . lost in imaginings. What is it?” I asked. Will didn’t often come to this part of the house.
“I was wondering, Mistress Sheldrake, may I’ve a word? In private?”
More startled by this than his sudden appearance, I gestured for Will to lead the way. “Let’s go to the solar. There’s no fire, but we won’t be disturbed.”
“Thank you, mistress.”
The solar was cold and dark. Taking a rug from the back of one of the chairs, I first put the candle between us and threw the blanket to Will, urging him to cover himself. Hesitating, he sat in the seat opposite, tucked the blanket around his lap and plucked at his lower lip. I found another cover and wrapped it around my legs.
Waiting for him to speak, I rested my hands on the arms of the chair, remembering how, for a few weeks, I’d believed these pieces of furniture gone for good until Sir Leander organized their return. The thought made me smile and it was with this expression that I gave my attention to Will, even as I absentmindedly stroked the wood.
“Now, what is it you want to speak to me about?”
In the candlelight, Will’s sandy hair glistened and the freckles that dotted his face blurred into a golden perfection the daylight hours disallowed. “Well, mistress, I don’t like to tell tales, and this may be nothing, but when it happened again, I felt you should know.”
“When what happened?”
Will’s eyes flashed to the door. He wrung his hands together then leaned closer and lowered his voice. “Westel passing notes.”
I stared at him confused. “What do you mean?”
“I first saw it before Christmas. Westel was in the shop, helping sell ale, when a couple of men I’ve never seen before came in. They waited until Westel was free. I was busy fixing Master Larkspur with his ale and Westel was chatting to Olive. I asked him to tap a barrel, and that was when they pulled him aside.”
“That’s not unusual, is it?”
“It ain’t usual either, mistress, not for strangers to take such an interest. I mean, what could they be saying that couldn’t be spoken in front of me? They were whispering and waving their arms about. Anyhow, I didn’t think too much about it until, first, I heard your name mentioned—”
“But I’m the brewster, Will.”
“Nay, not by Westel, by one of these men. Then I saw Westel pass a note. He thought I didn’t see, he waited till I left the room, but I stopped in the corridor, hoping to discover what they were talking about and he did it then.”
“I still don’t see why this is important. I mean, perhaps they were people Westel knew?”
“Oh, he knew ’em, all right. But that’s not why I’m here, not the sole reason. I mentioned it to Adam and he said I was to keep an eye on Westel, and I have been. Until tonight, I saw nothing untoward, unless I count those letters he received . . .”
I let that slide. All the servants received correspondence. With the exception of Adam and Westel, the others required me to read it to them. It vexed Will that Westel didn’t need my services and that his letters remained private. He saw it as a personal slight.
“Did you see those brothers what come in, mistress?”
“I did.” It was hard to miss them with their black robes and heavy crosses. “Well, Awel was serving them when, lo and behold, just as the music starts, I see Westel pass another note. Not in an open way either. He held it beneath the trencher. I wouldn’t have seen it except the monk he gave it to had had too much to drink and it slipped from his fingers. He bent down to pick it up and I saw it clear as the ears on Father Clement’s head.” He tweaked a lobe to emphasize his point.
I wanted to reassure Will there was nothing to be concerned about, but passing a note to monks—especially Benedictines—didn’t sit comfortably with me. What possible reason would Westel have to do that? Having them in my establishment was cause enough for concern and I’d been careful to ensure they were served swiftly. I’d no doubt they were there to spy on me. So why would Westel be passing notes? Mayhap they weren’t from St. Jude’s but were old friends from the friary in Norwich. That must be it.
Will was watching me with wary eyes. “Sometimes, mistress, he also wanders the house at night. I wake and he’s not in our room. I don’t always hear him come back, but when I do, I know he’s been gone a while.” I wasn’t sure what to say. There could be a perfectly reasonable explanation for that as well.
“I didn’t want to worry you, but I thought you should know.”
“Thank you, Will, thank you. I appreciate it.”
“What will you do?”
“Do?” I stood up, folding the blanket and placing it on the seat. “What any rational person does in these situations—seek the truth.”
Will neatly folded his rug and laid it across the stool.
“I’ll ask Westel.”
The expression on Will’s face caught me unawares. There was a flash of what I can only describe as concern before it changed into a mask of obedience.
“Aye, mistress,” he said and, with a small bow, went to leave. As he reached the door, he turned, one hand on the frame. “Only, be careful, won’t you? I don’t think Westel is what you think he is.”
“What do you think he is, Will?”
The darkness between us tightened.
“Dangerous.”