Sehnsucht

for my mother

Our family has become a government-in-exile;

visiting you is like paying my respects

to a kindly downhearted minister who

is equally fearful of past, present and future.

Two small rooms to eat and sleep in; only

the essentials escaped being boxed up

while awaiting their destination. Still they wait.

This is home for now – a little town

outside Florence where the streets are lifeless

and the old stick their necks out of windows

like turtles keeping an eye out for vultures.

When apart, we speak only a little:

a pair of talking heads in a penumbra.

I look at you: a housewife without a house,

without a husband too. Pondering it all,

I chew anti-acids with a sovereign indifference.

Your younger son, your adjutant, or aide-de-camp,

shuts himself in his room all day and shoots aliens,

Nazis or terrorists on his console, almost

as if training for a war to reconquer our lives.