Huff
With my blue backpack slung over my shoulder, I head to my locker with a bounce in my step. I just took my last final. History. It was way too easy, but school always is. At least, when it comes to studying and tests. I never have a problem getting good grades.
My social life, on the other hand? Fucking mess.
One more day. Just one more and summer will be here. All I have to do is clean out my locker and turn in my books tomorrow. Done.
I almost smile, but it’s hard to celebrate the end of something I just want to forget, like getting my ass kicked every day. Not everyone on the football team is bad, but they’re all afraid of Conner, the asshole quarterback. His dad is the mayor and has everyone, right down to the football coach and sheriff, in his back pocket.
Thank fuck Conner is going to college across the country. With any luck, I’ll never see him again after tomorrow’s graduation ceremony. Joy, my older sister, will also be among the graduating class. Like her, I have my mother’s dirty-blonde hair and sky-blue eyes. Unlike her, I’m going nowhere in life. Joy has the biggest heart of anyone I’ve ever met, but she’s ambitious, too. Our older brother, Kyle, twenty-three, is also a go-getter. They have the “fightin’ Ferris” genes, as Dad likes to say.
“Huff!” a sweet voice calls out from among the mob of students pouring into the hallway. It’s River. She’s been my best friend since the second grade, when the teacher thought it would be funny to sit us together. Hudson and River. We’ve been inseparable since.
River’s mom is from Southern Mexico and her dad from Orlando. They met in Spain as exchange students, and River was born nine months later. She has straight black hair, big brown eyes, and olive skin. As for her name, her dad is a huge Duran Duran fan. Her name is Rio…
“Hey, I have that book you loaned me.” I slide my backpack off my shoulder and unzip the side pocket. It’s some corny collection of poetry she’s fallen in love with. I read it to be nice.
“Ohmygod,” River pants, skidding to a halt in front of me. “Huff! You have to come. Fast!”
“What’s wrong?” I can tell from her face that it’s bad. She had the same expression when her cat got caught in the fence last month. It lost its tail. Poor kitty.
“It’s Joy! I just heard Manda and her trolls are planning to kick the shit out of her in the locker room.”
I freeze, and a cold wave of ice rolls down my back. The concrete beneath my feet feels like it’s swaying. I step my legs apart and shove a hand in my jeans pocket. Breathe. Breathe. Don’t fall over.
“Huff! What are you doing? Come on!” River waves frantically.
Why is she waving? I can’t run into the girls’ locker room or fight Manda. I’d have Conner, her boyfriend, on my wimpy ass so fast, I’d probably be dead by dinnertime.
The other students flow past us, oblivious to everything except their phones. End of the school day means it’s time to check out all the important things they missed, like what color shoes Kim Kardashian has on today or whose hamster is trending on TikTok.
The undulations beneath my feet subside, and I start walking in the other direction.
“Where are you going?” River yells.
“To get the principal.”
“I was just in his office. It’s empty! They’re all out on the field doing a run-through for tomorrow night.” River stomps her foot. “Huff! Come on!”
I stop and look over my shoulder at River’s flushed, sweaty face. I’ve never seen her this worried. But they won’t really hurt Joy, will they? I mean, yeah, Manda and her lame bitch-posse always say shit to Joy, but they wouldn’t risk their perfect manicures to fight anyone.
“Fine. You stand there with your dick in your hand. I’m going to help her.” River turns and runs toward the gym.
I stay put with my Converse stuck to the concrete. The thing is, I don’t know how to fight, and I hate confrontation. It’s why I haven’t eaten lunch in over nine months. Conner and his friends always ruined it. Sometimes my sandwich ended up smashed in my face. Other times, they wiped their asses with the bread or hocked loogies in my lunch bag. After a few weeks, I just stopped trying. The lunch went into the trash before first period. Probably why I’m so skinny.
I watch River disappear, weaving against the horde of students heading for the front parking lot. The seniors are all going to the football field for the graduation dry run.
I bet Joy’s there right now, and this is all just another one of Manda’s stupid mind games. They’ve been all over me and Joy since Kyle announced he’d be running against Manda’s mom.
But what if River is right? What if I should be worried? I groan and slide my phone from my pocket to send Joy a text.
Me: Hey, Riv says Manda wants to mess with you. All ok?
No reply. I text again.
Me: U okay? 911!
It’s not like her to ignore one of my 911 texts.
I start walking in the direction of the gym. Something doesn’t feel right. My heart is beating so fast I think it might burst from my chest.
I turn the corner and see teachers sprinting toward the entrance to the gym. Then comes Principal Adams in his maroon polo.
My beating heart urges me on even though my stomach is doing this painful rolling thing.
When I get to the gym’s doorway, I find my math teacher, Ms. Reiner, standing just outside the girls’ locker room. Her eyes are streaming with tears, and she’s cupping a hand over her mouth like she wants to scream.
Something is wrong. The blood drains from my face, arms, everything. I run into the locker room, pushing teachers out of the way. River is standing over someone. Blood is everywhere. The principal is on his cell, calling for an ambulance.
The body on the cold gray concrete floor is wearing Joy’s denim jacket with the heart patch sewn on the sleeve. Joy bought it last year after she and her boyfriend broke up on Valentine’s. She said she didn’t need a guy to make the day feel special. She could make her own heart happy.
But that can’t be Joy’s blood circling the drain. That is not her. That is not her blonde hair covered in red. That is not her sweet face battered to a pulp. That is not my sister lying there not breathing.
The room suddenly feels like a movie set. Not real. My fingers and toes, arms and legs, not real. This is all fake. The sickness in my stomach is an illusion, too.
Isn’t it?
River spots me and runs over, her dark eyes wider than I’ve ever seen them. “Huff! Don’t look. Don’t look!” She turns my body away and wraps her arms around me.
But I can’t feel River touching me. I can’t feel anything.