A Vigil

—Your shadow came to the wall one last time,

as the lioness comes to the stone gate of heaven.

It was the female ego, fueled by desire.

And you asked: our love, will he always

be with us? Dawn came in,

weak around the edges, a whorl of parafin.

So you waited, in your creatureliness, crouched

like an attic rat, you waited till spring,

you loved its glorious imitations

of being alive, young sparrows, their orange scribbles.

Then you asked again: our love,

will he always be with us?

and the voice behind the voice replied:

Always. Like yours, his fate was to exist

even against your wall of hope.

So you got up. The islands winked

red, blue, white, in patriotic

disagreement. Commuters began their orderly

bright care. Then, E E E,

chiff chiff. Notes from the cypress,

from one who did not doubt: a jay

sat on top as if he caused the tree to be there—