Sorrow of Matter

The idea that everything is sacrificed to something.

Day after day, this being repeated.

The idea that some things are sacrificed

to vaguer forms

and your job to keep asking where suffering comes from

while you send the children off to school—

between the cries of the hermit thrush

(the ‘pay, pay’)—

carrying their backpacks full of too much stuff

books imagined to be full of strong color, but now

pulling down to make their backs too straight.

And, never mind,

says one thing in this early migration,

the warbler in the rich person’s cypress,

never mind, say the pairs, what we create;

first there was brightness,

then it suffered;

suffering invented shape.

Remember how they taught you to stand

in front of objects? Early on,

in mild cities filled with vanilla, with extra dust,

with curvature; people

had begun to find pulsars at the edge of the universe,

drops of smooth shininess,

—like finding the seeds in an orange—

then they took you to see the huge Christ on the hill,

the god made of broken granite,

and oh how he leaned forward,

you could see it hurt him too,

to be trapped in somethingness, in those tiny mosaics with no blood,

rock eyes without eyelids

and you could offer him only your ability to change

like one of those fast terrified pigeons

that sped to his outstretched arms

and landed, flapping eternally their brief difference,

don’t make us, lord, don’t make us be like you—