“NO MORE tears, love. No more talk of being too old. We are here, together. No matter what anyone else thinks, we are the only ones who count,” Ray whispered.
Sebastian dragged the back of his hand across his eyes to wipe away the evidence of his emotions. He nodded, and Ray kissed him again.
“This is awkward,” Sebastian said.
“What is?” Ray frowned.
“This blasted arm of mine. I want to hold you, but I’m afraid I’ll do something to hurt myself or you.”
“Well, can I hold you for now? When the cast comes off, you can catch up.” Ray smiled.
“That’s a deal. Do you mind dimming the lights?”
“Of course not. It is very bright in here.” He got out of bed, padded to the wall, and turned off the overhead light. Then he turned on the light in the adjoining bathroom and pulled the door partly closed, leaving just the right amount of light in the bedroom.
Ray came back to bed, lay down, and settled to his side facing Sebastian. “Until the cast is removed, let me make you feel good.”
“I’d like that.” Sebastian gazed into Ray’s eyes and saw intent and hunger in them. “I like what I see in your eyes.”
“Do you see desire? Lust? Hunger?” Ray ran his hand down Sebastian’s side and over his hip. He cupped Sebastian’s ass and pulled him closer, so their bodies touched. Surprised by the strength in Ray’s arm, Sebastian gave a little gasp of delight.
“Yes, I see it all.” And he did. Ray didn’t hold back showing his emotions, and Sebastian loved that. Ray was unguarded, open, and trusting.
Sebastian was none of those things. “What do you see in my eyes?”
Ray looked deeply. “I see fear, longing, desire, and disbelief.”
“You see it all also. I wish….” Sebastian turned his face away.
“I want to change that, love. Believe that I desire you for more than just your body. Lose your fear; your heart is safe with me.”
“It’s not my heart I’m afraid for.”
“Ah, you fear you will break my heart?” Ray pulled them closer, and Sebastian felt proof of Ray’s desire nudging his belly. “Is there someone else?”
“No!” Sebastian laughed.
“Why is that funny? You are a handsome man. I wanted you the first time I met you.”
“Then you must be the only one.” Sebastian rolled his eyes to the ceiling.
“How much do you get out, love? Do you keep to yourself in your cottage? Are Matt and Lane your only companions?”
“Where would I go? To the clubs? Only the young there. If I went, they’d think I was a dirty old man.” He chuckled. “Lane and Matt are fun. Matt is making a documentary film, and he’s interviewing me for it.” He waved his hand in the air in a grand gesture. “I’m going to be a star!”
“Going to be?” Ray laughed. “Oh, my love, you have always been a star.” He ground himself against Sebastian.
“You’re so good for my ego, Ray.” Sebastian put his arm around Ray and held him tight. Ray kissed along his throat, moving lower, sending shivers of arousal shooting through Sebastian’s body.
Ray gave Sebastian a gentle push, and he rolled onto his back. Watching Ray, Sebastian had to remember to breathe. Between Ray’s kisses and his hand stroking where he wasn’t kissing, Sebastian could barely think.
“Oh, that’s so good.” He sighed.
Ray moved lower, running his fingers under the waistband of the silk pants, pushing them down. Sebastian, half-hard, moaned as Ray’s fingers teased along his sensitive skin. Ray moved lower in the bed, pulling the pants below his knees, until Sebastian lay open and exposed.
“Beautiful,” Ray whispered as he ran his finger along the length of Sebastian’s erection. Then he leaned over and kissed it.
Sebastian moaned, unable to keep the sound inside. When Ray took him in his mouth, Sebastian cried out, clutched Ray’s head with his good hand, and arched into him. This he hadn’t felt in far, far too long. So good. So hot. The way Ray used his tongue, laving the length, teasing the tip, and sucking. Oh dear God, the sucking!
How could he not have missed this? How could he not have needed this? He did need it, he needed it now, and he needed Ray.
Ray glided his hand along Sebastian’s skin to cup his sack. Gentle caresses nearly drove Sebastian out of his mind with pleasure. Ray dipped his head to take in his entire length, and Sebastian rose up on the wave of ecstasy, hung for the briefest moment, and then crashed over the edge.
“Oh sweet Jesus, Ray!” His mind stopped thinking and only his body felt, as the waves of pleasure pulsed through him.
Ray swallowed, taking everything Sebastian gave him, as he petted Sebastian’s hip in a comforting way. At least, it comforted Sebastian, and his heartbeat slowed, his breathing grew calmer.
“If you do that to me again, I might not survive,” he gasped.
“Shhhh. I plan to do that to you many more times. You will get used to it.” Ray smiled.
“I’ll never get used to that,” Sebastian replied.
Ray stretched out next to him and kissed him. “Perhaps not. Perhaps we will always surprise each other.”
Sebastian touched Ray’s cheek, then ran his fingers down his side. He wanted to make Ray happy, to pleasure him also. “Ray, I’d like to….”
“There is no need right now.”
“What do you mean? Don’t you want me to?” Again, doubt crept into Sebastian’s mind. If Ray didn’t want him to touch him, what did he want?
“Of course I do. But when I tasted you, felt your heat in my mouth, and touched you, it took me.” Ray grinned. “I came just before you did.”
“Oh my.” What else could Sebastian say? And as Matt would say, how hot was that?
Ray helped Sebastian put bedclothes to rights, then tucked him under his arm, spooning Sebastian from behind. Sebastian snuggled closer, finding a comfortable place for his shoulder and arm. “Blast this cast,” he muttered as Ray put a pillow under it for support. Ray had to be the most generous, most perfect lover he’d ever had.
“Never mind, love.” Ray yawned. “You can catch up with me in the morning.”
“It’s a date.” Sebastian yawned. “God, we’re old.” He chuckled at their sleepiness.
“Not too old, eh?” Ray kissed him on the nape of his neck, sending tiny echoes of contentment through Sebastian.
“No. Not too old at all.” He closed his eyes and relaxed against Ray’s body.
Good Lord. What would the boys say? Twice in one day!
Sebastian was sure it had to be a gay geriatric record of some sort.