The light that escaped from under the pale yellow lampshade seemed magical to Johnny Masterson. He was hypnotized by the glow and couldn’t help but run his hand under it to see if he could feel the illumination. It was a strange idea, but strange ideas often occurred to him when he was in the tutor’s house. He would think thoughts that he would never tell anyone else.
Sometimes he would feel like a little boy again, imagining wild things. This was something that had been growing ever since he began with the tutor. It happened tonight when he was walking to the tutor’s house and he turned around quickly to look at the moon because he thought it was following him. He dodged behind Mr. Lorner’s old maple tree and peered up at it. Afterward, he felt like a jerk and looked around to be sure no one had seen him.
But on cold fall nights like this one, there was rarely anyone on the streets. Walking through Centerville after dark was like walking through some movie set. Most of the houses had their shades and curtains closed. The glow of illumination behind them seemed to come from stage lights. People, silhouetted, looked like puppets. Even when he looked through uncovered windows, the inhabitants moved like figures on a television screen.
There was a standing joke about upstate hamlets like his: “At night, they pull in the sidewalks.” It was a funny exaggeration, but there was also a sense of truth to it. In the evening everyone wrapped his home around him and withdrew like turtles and snails. It was just as Mr. Lucy had told him when they were studying his history lesson: “It’s the Middle Ages again. Men, fearing the darkness, retreated into their walled towns and forts.”
He was right. Mr. Lucy was always right. There had never been anyone in his life as intelligent and as perceptive as Mr. Lucy. He dreamt of becoming as intelligent as Mr. Lucy because he sensed that the tutor’s intelligence gave him a power over people and a confidence that made him invulnerable. There were few adults Johnny cared to be like, but Mr. Lucy had to be one of them. Pleasing him had quickly become just as important, if not more important, as pleasing himself.
“What are you doing, John?”
Johnny pulled his hand out of the lamplight quickly. Mr. Lucy stood in the doorway, his face in shadows. So silhouetted, he seemed taller, broader, even more powerful than Johnny imagined.
“Nothing, I…”
“Did you finish all the examples?”
“Not yet. I’ve got two more.”
“Then you better get at it, buddy. We don’t want to disappoint your parents, do we?”
The tutor stepped forward. The light lifted the darkness away as one would remove a mask. Johnny saw the wry smile on his face. It formed at the corners of his mouth and rippled through his cheeks. He winked. Unsaid sentences passed between them. Johnny felt as though he and Mr. Lucy were part of a conspiracy, the object of which was simply to fool and defeat his parents. So far, they were succeeding very nicely. His grades had improved dramatically during the short period he had been working with the tutor.
Johnny began working on his remaining math problems. While he concentrated, he sensed the tutor’s movements around him and he felt him looking down at his paper. It made him work faster, harder. Finished, he sat back in anticipation.
Mr. Lucy sat down at the desk. The magical, yellow light seemed like an X-ray. Johnny thought it was probably just another one of his wild thoughts, but Mr. Lucy’s face became skeletonlike, the high cheekbones exposed, his eye sockets deep. When he smiled, his lips disappeared and his teeth glittered. He held the worksheet in fingers of bone.
“This is good,” Mr. Lucy said. “You’re improving. Your mother will cut back on her Valium this week.”
Johnny laughed. If someone in school had said such a thing, he would have become embarrassed and angry, but it was he who told Mr. Lucy about his mother’s pill-popping and his father’s martinis. He hadn’t talked as much to a teacher about his private life since he was in grade school. But right from the beginning, Mr. Lucy understood; he understood and he cared.
“Should I start on the next page?”
“No, that’s enough for tonight. You’ve grasped the concepts. Now it’s a matter of some drill and that’s something you can do anytime. If you do everything here, you won’t be able to impress your parents with your work at home.”
“My father came into my room last night. He thought since the music was off, I was up to no good. He snuck up to the door and then turned the handle quickly and charged in. I bet he thought I was smoking a joint or something.”
“What happened?”
“I did just what you said to do when something like that happens—I turned from my book and as nonchalantly as possible I said, Hi, Dad.”
“The power of understatement. Never underestimate it. Very few people your age know how to use it. They tend to go overboard.”
“I could see he felt pretty stupid. Then I did the rest—I made him feel guilty. I started talking about the science chapter. He stood there dumbfounded. All he could do was stutter his way out. Later, I heard my mother yelling at him for it.”
“Did you get something?”
“Well…”
Johnny smiled, reached into his pocket, and took out a fifty-dollar bill. He put it on the table. Mr. Lucy nodded his appreciation, stuck it in the textbook, and closed the pages on it as if it were a bookmarker.
“I told them I was thinking of going to the fair down in Middletown this weekend and I might be taking a date. My mother reached into the pocket of her housedress and took it out. She doesn’t know herself how much money she carries around. I could have taken what I wanted anytime.”
“But this way is better, isn’t it? You don’t steal from them; you make them give it to you. That’s what I meant by being in control.”
“Yes,” Johnny said. He was infatuated with the soft yet authoritative tone in the tutor’s voice.
“If they want to blame anyone for it later, they can blame only themselves. You always come out looking good.”
“You always do too, don’t you?” Johnny said. It was forward of him to do so, he knew, but he felt he had earned it and, instinctively, he felt the tutor would not be upset with him. He would be upset with the others, any of the others if any of them did it, but not with him, not now, not since he proved himself. Johnny believed the tutor took a special interest in him and he was proud of that.
“Yes,” Mr. Lucy said. Johnny held his breath. The tutor smiled. “But that’s one of my secrets.”
“Not anymore. Now I know it, too.”
Mr. Lucy laughed. It wasn’t like his usual laugh; it was warmer, friendlier. It made Johnny feel good and he laughed, too, even though he wasn’t sure why Mr. Lucy was laughing. “You’re OK, Johnny. You’re all that I thought you would be.” He stopped laughing and leaned forward, his face growing very serious. “That’s why of all my students, I treat you special, Johnny. You have all sorts of greatness in you, all sorts of potential. It’s important that it doesn’t go to waste, that it doesn’t go unused. Will you help me make sure that doesn’t happen?”
Johnny could hardly speak.
“Yes.”
“Good, because there are other secrets I have that I want you to know and to use.” Mr. Lucy leaned back. “Don’t tell me you didn’t realize that, Johnny Masterson?” Johnny smiled. “See. Don’t try to put one past your tutor.” Johnny laughed.
“I won’t.”
“Because you don’t have to,” Mr. Lucy said quickly and leaned forward again. “If we can’t trust each other, we can’t trust anyone. Am I right?”
“Oh, yes.”
Mr. Lucy stared at him for a moment. Then he smiled again and reached forward to playfully shake Johnny’s head.
“How about a cup of hot chocolate?”
“Sure.”
Mr. Lucy stood up. When Johnny did too, Mr. Lucy put his arm around his shoulders and they started out of the study.
“We have a little more time tonight and I would like to discuss some of the other kids with you.”
“The other kids?”
“My other students. You know all of them, even though you’re not such great friends, right?” Johnny nodded. “Well, I think you can help me with them.”
“I can?”
Johnny sat at the kitchen table while Mr. Lucy prepared the hot chocolate.
“Of course. Lots of times people don’t learn things because of personal reasons, personal problems that block their capacity to understand or even their capacity to care. If a teacher could know these problems and deal with them first, he or she might be a great deal more successful, don’t you think?”
“I suppose so.”
“Well, look at your case, Johnny,” Mr. Lucy said, turning from the stove. “When you told me about your parents and your relationship with them, I began to understand your problems. I’ve helped you a great deal with them, right?”
“Right.”
“And now you’re doing a lot better in school and getting along a lot better at home. See?”
“Uh huh.”
“So,” Mr. Lucy said, turning back to the hot chocolate, “what I want you to do is tell me things about my other students. If necessary, find out things about them and tell these things to me.”
“Like a spy, huh?” Johnny asked. Mr. Lucy poured the two cups.
“No, not like a spy.” He lifted the cups and turned, smiling. “Like an assistant. I want you to be my assistant.” He put the cup down in front of Johnny and sat across from him.
“An assistant?” Johnny felt a surge of excitement. He liked the sound of that, but most of all he liked the implied power.
“Uh huh. Of course, no one will know. This will be another one of those secrets between us. You can understand the reason for that, I’m sure.”
“Sure.”
“And this won’t be a one-way street, Johnny,” he said, and sipped his hot chocolate. “As I told you before, there are other secrets I have that I want you to know and to use.”
“You’ll teach me these other things?”
“That’s right. Things other than your schoolwork.” He leaned toward him again. “Things that will give you power and strength.”
“And make me like you,” Johnny said. He said it as he would state a conclusion. The tutor smiled.
“Exactly, Johnny.”
For a moment Johnny Masterson was silent. He stared ahead, stared past the tutor, stared beyond the house. He stared at an image of himself, a fantasy that could come true. He saw himself in the halls of his school, no longer the quiet, meek outsider, no longer the lonely insecure person he was. Instead, he saw himself walk with the tutor’s strength and confidence. He saw the way the other boys looked up to him and admired him, hoping that he would be their friend and maybe pass on some of the secrets to them. He saw the way the girls competed for his attention and he saw the way he handled it maturely. He saw the new respect his teachers had for him and he saw his parents look at him in awe.
“Johnny,” the tutor said. Johnny blinked and came back to reality. “You’d better start drinking your hot chocolate before it gets cold.”
“Oh.”
Johnny lifted the cup to his lips. The tutor and he considered each other. Johnny formed the smile around his eyes the way the tutor formed his. They nodded ever so slightly at each other, then they both laughed.
With their eyes, they signed a contract between them.
One day, Mr. Lucy had just turned up. None of the neighbors said they saw any moving vans or pickup trucks parked by the old Taylor house. The house itself was a neighborhood joke. It had stood idle a great many years before the tutor came. People called it “turn-of-the-century.” Ordinarily, that would be something of a compliment; old things were quite in style now. But this house was quite decrepit on the outside. The owners, a pair of spinster sisters, had inherited it. They did nothing to restore it and little to keep it in shape.
The wooden shutters, their paint faded and peeled, hung loose. The gray wooden siding was chipped and so badly in need of paint it looked bleached. The eyebrow windows of the attic were grimy and streaked. Sunlight had yellowed the old linen curtains that were draped over the other windows. They hung like limp ghosts of a bygone time when handmade things were common and expected, when houses like this had porches for people to sit on and talk away warm summer nights, when front doors like this one were thick and hand-carved, and when red brick chimneys weren’t a sign of opulence but necessity.
The small, two-story structure with its Queen Anne roof and its tiny patch of lawn stood out like a sepia photograph placed on an album page filled with color photographs. It was distinctive, right down to the small cement squares that made up its short walkway to its three wooden plank front steps.
No one had ever seen the real estate agent or the Stanley sisters come around with a prospective tenant, but a neighbor, Ellen Lorner, looked out of her bedroom window one night and saw there were lights on in the old Taylor house. She called her husband Barton to the window.
“Couldn’t have just happened today,” he said. “They had to have the electric company come and turn the electricity on.”
“No one said anything about a tenant.”
“Well, the block gossips let one slip past them. How could such a thing happen?” he chided kiddingly.
“How could anyone just move into that house? Didn’t it need a lot of work inside? Goodness knows, it’s been an eyesore on this block for as long as I can remember. Why just the other day, Toby Feldman said she was going to get Morris to have the town code enforcement officer see about having it condemned.”
“Why? The structure’s still good. Those houses were built solid. Not like these two-by-fours. Nowadays, everyone’s in a hurry. Why, my father’s house…”
“I wonder who would move into such a house,” Ellen said. If there was one thing she didn’t want to hear any more about, it was Barton’s father and the way things used to be. “Those miserly sisters couldn’t have sold it, could they? They must’ve rented it. If they sold it, we’d all know. With Toby’s husband working in the town hall…we’d know.”
“So it was rented, so what?”
“I just feel sorry for whoever rented it. I’m sure those old Stanley sisters charged too much rent.”
“You’re just dying of curiosity to find out all about the tenants. Think of some excuse tomorrow and go over to say hello. Then call me at the office and tell me how much rent they’re paying.”
In the morning the telephones on Highland Avenue formed a chain of chatter, announcing the news and linking the curious. Highland Avenue was a side street of a dozen houses in the hamlet of Centerville, an upstate New York community with a population of just under two thousand. It, plus seven other similar communities, formed the Fallsburg Township. Many of the children were bused to a centralized school system.
The township, like a good part of Sullivan County, a once rich resort area heavily populated by New York City tourists in the summer, had gone into an economic decline during the past two decades. Many bungalow colonies and small hotels went out of business. The successful business people who remained guarded their luxurious homes and styles of life vigorously. They felt threatened in many ways, a principal one being the deterioration of the school system. The line, which had become something of a chant, was “The schools are failing us.”
Within such a view of things, Mr. Lucy had an important place, for he could provide what the schools were unable to provide: individualized, private, and effective instruction. Only a day after he moved to Centerville, he presented himself to the principal of the junior-senior high school and made that quite clear.
The principal’s name was Bill Carman, and like so many of the school administrators Mr. Lucy had met, this one looked harried, confused, and overwhelmed by the start of the school day. Carman was a tall, stout man who unconsciously expressed the heaviness of his thoughts by slouching when he walked and sat. There were dark circles around his dull brown eyes, and his graying light brown hair had thinned considerably over the past few years. He looked more like a man of fifty than one of forty, and he wore the pained look of a man who knew it.
The man and his setting mirrored each other. His desk was a shambles—papers strewn about, family pictures blocked by pads, books and pamphlets open and turned over, and sheets from a message pad stuck in every conceivable spot on his desk. There were some water stains in the ceiling panels overhead where the roof of the school had leaked. Although the walls of his office were done in a rich dark pine, they too looked grimy, worn, and uncared for.
“Oh,” he said, rising and leaning over his desk to shake Mr. Lucy’s hand, “you’re an applicant for a sub position. That’s good. We’re in desperate need of substitute teachers. Teacher absenteeism has become an occupational disease.”
“No, I don’t sub,” Mr. Lucy said. “Not in the sense you mean, even though I have the qualifications.”
“You don’t sub? Well, if you’re looking for a full-time position, you should…”
“No, I’m not interested in a full-time position either. May I sit down?” he asked. Carman was still leaning over his desk.
“Of course, of course. I’m sorry. It’s been one of those hectic mornings. We had a bus breakdown, parents screaming over the phone, two of my English teachers are out, and one of my subs is having a hard time controlling the first-period class. To top it off, my wife just called to tell me our hot water heater is leaking in the basement. How’s that for a start?”
“No rest for the weary,” Mr. Lucy said. He smiled sympathetically, and for the first time, Bill Carman really looked at the man who had asked for an appointment.
Although Mr. Lucy’s posture was correct, it wasn’t stiff. There was an aura of power and authority about him. Dressed in a tweed suit and tie, he looked taller and larger than the principal first thought. Bill Carman felt himself settle back calmly in his chair. The frenzied atmosphere of the morning’s activities began to fade. It was as though he and this intelligent-looking stranger were adrift on a quiet sea. He welcomed the change of pace.
But this slowing down in the tempo of things had another effect, a disconcerting one. It made Bill Carman aware of his own disheveled appearance. The sports jacket he was wearing had long since lost its shape. He had a nervous habit of shoving his hands hard into his jacket pockets, stretching and pulling the material. The bottom button was loose and the dark blue looked as though it had faded a shade or two. He liked to think of it as his work garment, but the sharply and neatly dressed Mr. Lucy made him feel inadequate.
Sitting before a man like this, Carman was also embarrassed by his office. He had been after the custodians for weeks to do something about his malfunctioning venetian blinds. They hung on a slant because of a bad pulley. Carman moved some of the papers on his desk to make for a clearer space and quietly cursed his secretary for letting his paperwork become so slovenly.
“You’ll have to excuse all this,” he said, waving his hand about indefinitely so it would take in everything, “but this is what you might call a working office. Front lines, front lines.” He winked. “Now you can appreciate why principals fight so hard to become superintendents. It’s much quieter and saner in his office, believe me.”
“If you’re that aware of the differences, you’ll have the drive and ambition to become one,” Mr. Lucy said. Bill Carman liked that. He smiled widely and folded his hands against his chest.
“I think you’re right, Mr…”
“Lucy, Adam Lucy.”
“Yes. Well then, Adam, how can I help you? You say you don’t want to be a sub and you don’t want to apply for a full-time position?”
“That’s correct. I am a tutor.”
“A tutor?”
“In the traditional sense, yes.”
“Well, any of my subs can be used as tutors. Why don’t you consider…”
“No, you don’t understand. I am a professional tutor. I don’t do other things on the side. I tutor.”
“I see,” Bill Carman said, but he couldn’t hide the skepticism in his voice. He leaned forward. Mr. Lucy’s eyes were intriguing. They were magnetic, demanding. Carman couldn’t get himself to treat this man in a perfunctory manner and dismiss him.
“Because I have made that my primary work, I can tutor in any subject. I can do remedial work and I can help students advance. Today, with so much emphasis on standardized tests, my kind of extra help can be very important. In fact, I prefer working with students who are trying to improve on relatively good scores, students who are ambitious, or…” he smiled. “Whose parents are ambitious for them.”
“I know the type you mean,” Carman said. He smiled, too. It was as though they shared a secret about the world of education. He liked this man’s directness and confidence. What he said made some sense.
“What I would like to do is leave my papers with you. Included in this folder are a number of letters of recommendation from other school officials, teachers, and letters from parents who were satisfied with my work.”
Bill Carman leaned over and took the folder from Mr. Lucy. He opened it and flipped through some pages quickly.
“Impressive,” he said. “You’ve been around a bit, too, I see.”
“I like traveling. There are certain advantages to changing your setting every now and then,” he added. Bill Carman looked up sadly. Mr. Lucy’s smile evinced an inner happiness that he envied. The principal looked about his office again and nodded. “A fresh, new view of things can revitalize you,” the tutor continued. For Carman his words were like nails being pounded into a coffin. In many ways his office had become a kind of tomb. He was stuck; his career had been stymied.
“I guess it’s nice to be able to pick up and go if you don’t like your clientele.”
“Oh, I don’t know. I find kids the same most anywhere,” Mr. Lucy said. “You can’t escape the problems.”
“Maybe not. Anyway, I haven’t.” Bill Carman laughed. It was the first time he had laughed all morning.
“So, if you approve, I would appreciate your placing my name on any bulletin boards or with any parents who might want their children tutored.”
“I’ll give this to my guidance people. They handle such referrals every day.”
“Yes, that would be helpful.”
“But can you really…I don’t want to appear presumptuous…but can you earn enough from this work to make a living?”
“Everywhere I have gone, I usually have,” Mr. Lucy said and smiled. Bill Carman thought it was an odd smile, almost devilish. Again, he had the strange feeling they were sharing some sort of secret.
“And you’ve never considered sub work or full-time positions?”
“I prefer the one-on-one work, a luxury rarely afforded in a traditional classroom setting. It gives me the opportunity to get to know my students, and once I know them, I can direct my attention to them more efficiently. It’s an ideal way to teach.”
“No question about that. I envy you,” Bill Carman said. The intercom on his phone buzzed. He depressed the button on the little speaker. “Yes?”
“Sorry to bother you, Mr. Carman, but Mr. Leshner sent one of his students down to tell you that Miss Robinson’s class is going wild. He says there’s a lot of yelling and some pounding on his walls.”
“I’ll be right there. It’s one of those subs I was telling you about when you first came in. Can’t handle the group. Once kids sense that, they’ll tear the sub apart. They’re like wild animals smelling blood.” Mr. Lucy nodded knowingly and stood up.
“I won’t take any more of your time. Thank you.”
“Not at all, not at all. I’ll forward the information. You’ll get some clients pretty soon.”
“Thanks again,” Mr. Lucy said. Bill Carman stood up and reached out to take Mr. Lucy’s extended hand. He found the grip firm, almost too firm. Once again, he took note of Mr. Lucy’s physical characteristics. This man was no dandy, he thought. The strength radiated from him. Too bad he couldn’t have such a man on his staff. Then again, he wondered, would so strong a teacher with such definite ideas somehow be a threat to his authority?
“If you change your mind about subbing, don’t hesitate to call us to have your name placed on the list.”
“I won’t change my mind,” Mr. Lucy said. “But thank you for the invitation.”
As soon as Mr. Lucy left, Carman sat back again. It wasn’t just the man’s appearance that made him feel inadequate, Carman thought; it was his whole demeanor, his control, his quiet but definite authority. That was the way a good school administrator should appear.
Dejected, he looked about his office. What had become of him and his ideals? Talking to this man, even for so short a time, had been like sitting in an air-conditioned room on a hot summer day. Now that the air-conditioner was off, the intensity of the heat became even more emphatic.
The buzzer interrupted his self-pity.
“I hate to keep bothering you, Mr. Carman,” his secretary said, “but that class Miss Robinson is covering…”
“Oh, yes, yes.” He got up quickly, cursed under his breath, and headed out of his office.
Right from the beginning, things went the way the tutor had expected. Such communities were always fruitful for him. With a miserly eye, he guarded his time. Every moment had to be on target. Because of that, he would take great care in choosing where to go, doing the research; quietly learning all that he could about the inhabitants, the area’s physical and economic characteristics, and its schools. For obvious reasons the last was the most important. Such areas, ones that had undergone relatively rapid changes, mostly for the worse, usually had the core of bitterness and fear he expected. It was expressed to him the day after he drove into Centerville when he looked for a place to live.
“We used to have a little prep school here,” Ruth Krepsky, the real estate agent, told him. “I mean it’s always been a public school, but the quality of the students and the nature of the community was such that education was a real priority. Why, do you know that until last year, this school district never voted down a budget? Even during the hardest times, the good people of this community would come out en masse and make sure the children had what they needed.
“I wouldn’t be telling you all this if you hadn’t told me you definitely would not buy property,” she added and patted his hand. He smiled with understanding. He knew that; he had known it before she started talking. “But after you told me what you do, I can assure you, you will have a great deal of business. Why, it’s like a doctor coming into a town where all the people have colds once a week, every week.”
This middle-aged woman with the terribly short haircut and jeweled eyeglass frames was flirting with him. She lingered over coffee, giggled like a schoolgirl, and patted and touched him at every opportunity. He had expected that, too. It was far from the first time.
“Can’t really be as bad as you describe,” he said.
“Believe me, I know.” She widened her eyes dramatically. It was as though she were finding a place for a Broadway producer and not a tutor. “My daughter graduated ten years ago. I know what kind of school system it was. Now my sister’s kids are in high school, and she has her hands full worrying whether they’ll get talked into taking drugs or lose interest in their studies, or…or her daughter getting pregnant. Yes! Why just the other day I found out there have been eight pregnancies in the junior high school this year already. Eight!”
“Those things go on everywhere now.”
“But it’s a shock for us. Ten years ago, you had to fight to get store space in any of these hamlets. Now, you can have your choice of dozens in any community.”
“Better not let that out or you won’t get your prices,” he said.
She giggled and squeezed his forearm. “Prices? They go and build all this low income housing, attracting an element you wouldn’t believe. When I take you to Centerville, we’ll pass one and you won’t believe that it’s only two years old. It looks like someone lifted a slum tenement out of New York and brought it up here.”
“You don’t have to take me to Centerville.”
“Pardon me?”
“It’s not necessary. I’ve seen the house.”
“But how did you…you didn’t go inside, did you?”
“I saw enough to know it’s what I want.”
“But…”
“Why don’t you just write up the deal. It’s OK, believe me.”
She simply sat back and stared at him for a few moments. Then he touched her hand as though to assure her it was all real. She jumped up and went out to tell her secretary to pull the file on the Taylor house.
After his telephone was turned on and he had visited the school, he went home to wait. He didn’t have to wait long. First came the Rosen boy and then Johnny Masterson and the others. It was a good group, as good as any he had had; and, as always, he knew the success it promised.