Kai returned a half hour late from her lunch break, and smiling. Officemates noticed the change, and smiled back; she stopped for the first time in weeks to chat about the weather, about Sherry’s granddaughters and the outcome of the ullamal championships in Dresediel Lex now that Zolin was benched. Whatever that meant.
Claude would have Margot in custody by nightfall. Now, she had to figure out how to loop the Order in. How to approach Jace. Which meant deciding what to do about Mara.
After she ran out of small talk, Kai poured herself a cup of rancid coffee from the office kitchen, and retreated to her cubicle. The coffee tasted about as good as the harbor smelled on a hot still day. She’d have stood at the window to watch the ocean while she thought, but some infuriatingly personable officemate might have tried to trap her in conversation. Kai’s burst of post-lunch cheer (not that she’d actually eaten lunch, her stomach growled to remind her) had used up her patience and charity. She needed to think.
Kai walked to one of the cupboard-sized shared offices reserved for the writing of reports and the working of complex math. She closed the door, removed her shoes, sat cross-legged on the desk, shut her eyes, and descended into memory.
Seven Alpha took form around her: lightning skeleton, suggestion of volume in nothingness. Her mind retained Mara’s archives as a waking dream. Easy. Memory was important in the Order’s business of secrets and sacrifices. As an apprentice she’d memorized lists of random numbers, built palaces and cities in her mind, invented whole pantheons, and subjected them to private ragnaroks. Her recollection of Seven Alpha was not perfect, but close enough to serve.
Sliding through time, she searched her dream for the transfers to Margot. One should have been dispensed from the throat chakra, and another here, from the third eye, at six o’clock on a Thirdday morning. Nothing.
This much she expected. Someone, probably Mara, had wiped away all trace of Margot’s theft. The papers Kai had found were the last remaining evidence. She would have called them forgeries but for the perfect watermark, the glyphs, the texture of the ink, the slick fused sheen of records often read by Craft. And, of course, for Margot.
Assume Mara cut the evidence from the original files, leaving a few slips of vellum. Why? To hide the transfers from Ms. Kevarian. But Kevarian found her out anyway—or got the scent. Discrepancies, the Craftswoman had said in last night’s nightmare. A kind version of: you’re lying.
So Mara woke to find Kai in her crèche, and seized the chance to blame her friend for the whole thing.
Possible. Kai couldn’t believe that was Mara’s plan all along. She might have given Kai the papers in desperation. Or as a plea for help.
Too many questions. Too many secrets.
Let’s assume for the sake of argument (Kai thought) that these records scare Mara as much as they scare me. Mara isn’t evil. If I find her, I can convince her to go to Jace, get this fixed before Kevarian finds out. I’ve done the heavy lifting, tracked down Margot, put him in custody. There’s no need for me to be part of the story, even. Mara can present the problem and the solution to Jace at once. Get another promotion.
Which rankled, but this was bigger than Kai’s ambition, bigger than her need to be a hero.
Settled.
Kai opened her eyes. She was not alone.
Twilling stood by the open office door, white robe and prayer beads bowed out by the swell of his stomach. Kai had met her boss a handful of times since she came to the front office: a former prodigy of the pool, long since descended to pilgrim relations, where he became manager of this distasteful cube farm and master of its training binders and role-playing exercises and arcane acronyms. “Thinking?” His pitch rose all through the word, rather than just at the end. “Or napping?”
“Thinking,” she said. “I wanted to review this morning’s exercises.”
“Kai, I thought I’d drop by to tell you how much we appreciate your work.” Twilling sounded genuine and superficial at once, as if he had read books about empathizing with employees and almost understood them. “Working with pilgrims is different, I know, than working in the pool. But it’s so rewarding. But once you’re up to speed, your expertise will help you identify pain points, and build solutions, better than any candidate we’ve had in years.”
She repressed an urge to wince at the jargon. “I’ve learned a lot in the past few weeks. I’m growing every day.” Use their language. It’s easy if you just imagine you’re speaking Iskari. “Can I ask you a question, Twilling?”
He beamed. “Of course.”
“You remade yourself, like I did.” Not polite, but not a secret, either. “Why did you come down here afterward?”
“Why settle for working with clients when I could have had such a bright career up the mountain, you mean?” He laughed, and let the laugh die, and when he spoke next his voice had lost the forced edge of managerial cheer. “Priests stand between worlds. When I was young I thought that meant building idols, praying to them; after a while, I realized that no matter how I prayed, the idols didn’t answer. I was worshipping my own reflection. Not healthy. In this role I stand between Kavekana and the mainland—and the mainland talks back. Every day I wrestle with gods, like the desert prophets of ancient Sind.”
“But everything happens up the mountain.”
“Everything,” Twilling said, “and nothing. The gods’ power used to flow down from Kavekana’ai, out over the waves. Now, power flows in the opposite direction. Speaking of which.” He spun the chair out from the desk and sat in a flaring of robes. “I hoped to talk to you about the Quechal pilgrim, Ms. Batan. How have you found working with her?”
Kai stood and adjusted her clothes to cover the delay while she framed her response. “I think she needs a more experienced guide. We’re not compatible.”
“Is that her fault, or yours?” He said it with a smile so she couldn’t snap back. “She’s ripe, Kai, ripe. I spoke with her during the intake process. She needs what we offer. You’ve rejected her twice now, and still she returns. The woman has a true need.”
“You’ve been talking with her behind my back.”
“We watch all new pilgrims, to ensure the quality of our service.”
Damn. “She doesn’t like me.”
“You don’t like her. I understand. This process would not be a trial of your faith and skill otherwise. And it is meant as a trial.”
She needed out of this conversation, not to mention this department.
“If you want to progress among us,” Twilling said, gentler, “you will need to work with pilgrims. Understand them. Develop them. Consider their needs, and how they may be guided. I know you’re reluctant, but she is a fine young woman. An ideal first project.”
“She complained to you,” Kai said.
“Not at all. She asked if I could assign her another guide. I said you were an excellent fit, and that I’d encourage you to speak with her again. She has nothing but praise for you.”
This was a distraction. She had so much else to worry about. Dying idols. Secret notebooks. Mara. Claude. “Okay.”
“Good, good, good. Thank you. Thank you.” Twilling bobbed his head twice more. If he heard her skepticism, he didn’t mention it. “Jace dropped by to ask me how you were doing, you know.”
“What did you tell him?”
“I told him you were wonderful. Performing far above expectation.”
“Thanks.”
“I’ll leave it to you to arrange your next meeting with Ms. Batan. Go with the gods.” He smiled, and swept out of the room. His words hung on the air after he left, faint but sharp.
“Go with the gods,” she said.