COMPROMISE

Donika Kelly

 

I.

They tied it to the land like a dog,

the idea: compromise—which

the land alone is incapable of exacting

absent, on the one white hand, the North,

on the other white hand, the South;

incapable, absent the parchment

declarations and debate, all of which,

alongside the hoe the shovel the plow

the whip, broke the land open like skin.

A latitude welled with blood.

II.

To tell right it, refuse the theory

offered: the promise of property futures

masquerading as balance, the premise

of nearly, but not quite, a person. Refuse.

Hear instead Maria Stewart: And such is the powerful

force of prejudice. Let our girls possess

what amiable qualities of soul they may…

it is impossible for scarce an individual of them

to rise above the condition of servants.

Hear Bethany Veney: I have imagined myself

with a young girl’s ambition, working hard…

getting a little home with a garden…bringing

my sisters and brothers to share with me

these blessings of freedom.

Hear Mattie J. Jackson: The days of sadness

for mistress were days of joy for us.

We shouted and laughed

to the top of our voices.

Hear Lucy Anne Delaney: “You have no business

to whip me. I don’t belong to you”…

I rebelled against such government.

III.

Say the compromise is between a woman

who feels pain and another woman who feels

pain. Say both women are torn after giving birth

and from both arise a smell like rot, a pain

from being rotted inside. Say fistula.

Say only one woman is whole. Say the other

is ⅗ths. Which one do you sew with silver,

with pig gut, with lead? Whoever says, sews.

Whoever’s sewn gets no laudanum. Say cure.

Call it technique. Call it science. Whoever

calls it, keeps it, no matter Anarcha,

who took, after thirty procedures, the needle

and silk. A new compromise: take down

the statue, hooded and noosed, put into storage.

Concede: still only one woman is whole.

IV.

Concede in favor of balance.

Let the state petition for statehood.

Let the state say who is free.

Let the state enslave.

Let the state set the terms

for enslavement: three years.

The Lash Law.

Let the state set the clock for exile

once the term is complete.

Let the state call it grace:

three years for women,

two years for men.

Let the state refuse to ratify

the amendments: 14th and 15th.

Let the state Jim Crow before Jim Crow:

whites-only on every border.

Let the state keep its balance

in 1959 and ’73,

on campus in 1988,

or on the light rail in 2017:

a bat in its hand, a knife

in its hand, blood on its hand.

V.

They set the terms, rigged

the clock, the ship, colonized

the land. They would see us

free but gone.

Compromise.

But we convened,

decided the land that held

our blood, our kin—

decided we would stay,

show that one way

could be another.

VI.

Track the fissure of the first compromise,

then the second, then another running

fugitive through the foundation.

Follow it one century

to my great-grandmother’s birth.

A century more: just past her death.

It wasn’t that long ago

I was sitting on her porch swing,

hoping for a breeze.

It wasn’t that long ago

we were in the twenty-fourth state,

our bodies undoing the roads.

It wasn’t that long ago,

the latitude migrated, anchored

to the southern border: history looped.

This isn’t America.

It’s nothing else.