I really want to tell you more about what Heaven’s actually like. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to fully put into words how amazing it is here, but I’m going to give it my best.
As I got to explore and know my surroundings more and more in my early days as a spirit, like I mentioned before, I came to realize that “landscapes” in Heaven look a lot like those on Earth, just sort of . . . more. Like they’re amplified. Sometimes the meadows, forests, mountains, beaches, deserts, coastlines, and stuff are created collectively by a bunch of spirits, like in the case of that snow slope, but I can create my own private landscapes too. I don’t always like to make them the same as the ones I used to see on Earth. There, when I saw a tree, I’d just see the tree. When I create a tree here, I make it so that I not only see it but I can hear it and smell it too. I can be and feel one with the tree. Sometimes I don’t create any form at all. Then I’m just hanging out in this beautiful heavenly white light.
Besides nature, there are cities here too. I’ve never been much of a city person, but these are nothing like the ones on Earth. Imagine a city of light that has these beautiful, ornate spires reaching to the sky. The most beautiful buildings on Earth look really unimpressive in comparison. Heaven’s buildings look almost crystalline, but they’re not made of anything you might call solid. They’re made of pure light.
The cities are central places where everybody can go. It’s weird. All the spirits that go there are actually part of the cities’ structure but separate at the same time. Think of it like this: Every cell in your body combines to make up your whole body, right? They’re separate, but they also make up the whole. So the buildings are actually made of little pieces of light that are individual spirits who can still be free to do anything they want at the same time. It has something to do with our interconnectedness and ability to split off into several “us’s.” (I’ll get into that a little later too.)
Like I said, we have buildings, but they’re only for specific activities like learning, listening to music, holding meetings, problem solving, and a hell of a lot more. There are a lot of big-ass lecture halls where groups of spirits learn all sorts of things, like how to travel to different dimensions, how to manifest shit, and how to become effective spirit guides, to name a few.
We have libraries, too, and they’re amazing! They have books filled with so much fucking wisdom, it’s unreal—books where I can pretty much learn about anything and everything in the Universe—other dimensions, other planets and the beings that live in and on them, whatever I’m curious about. All knowledge can be found in those books, and all I have to do is merge with the energy of the book to get its information, and if I want to learn about something but the book containing the knowledge doesn’t exist in the library, I can will it into being. I love walking into the libraries here, thinking about what I want to learn and absorbing it into me. It’s a lot like downloading information onto a computer. I wish I could have done it when I was in school back on Earth. Man, I hated reading.
There are some things we don’t have that are important to humans. For instance, there are no grocery stores, malls, restaurants, and things like that. Of course, we can create these things if we want to, but why do it when we don’t fucking eat, we don’t really sleep, and we don’t need to shop? Yeah, there are some spirits who like to play the role of a chef or a grocer, and there are spirits who want to sit at a table and pretend to eat or push carts down the aisles of a grocery store or sleep on a bed, but they do these things because they enjoy them, not because they need to do them. I didn’t have to build part of my earthlike home manually—hammer, nails, and all. I just enjoyed playing that role.
There aren’t any hospitals here because we don’t really need medical care. Instead, we have healing centers. That’s where energy is mended. It’s pretty much designed for people who’ve crossed over in a traumatic way and need some extra care as they transition. Remember my spiritual car wash? That happened in one of the healing centers.
We don’t have paved streets like on Earth either. It’s not like we have to get into our Volvo and drive to the neighbor’s house or to the gym. We just think of where we want to go and—poof!—we’re there, just like when I had first died and thought about going outside with my body as the paramedics wheeled me outside, and suddenly I was there. We do have paths—like the well-worn ones I saw when I was exploring Heaven for the first time—but they’re more for our visual pleasure than to get us places. They’re placed around the gathering spots, like the libraries and other buildings, but they’re also in the garden areas.
Here in Heaven, there are different areas where spirits hang out, other than cities. Remember when I mentioned about how, if a bunch of spirits all liked the concept of a park, they could manifest it collectively and it would stay in place as long as they continued to think its existence? So, there are these locations—I guess you can call them manifested spaces because those are the closest words I can think of—that have been created by thousands of energetic beings who are fully aware of that space on a permanent basis. They don’t exist permanently in the way that buildings and houses on Earth do.
I’ll explain it this way: On Earth, every time a human goes into their living room, they know how the couch is arranged, how the pillows sit on it—these are permanently static until you physically move them. But here, if there are five different spirits, and each of them wants the couch they’ve created to be in different locations, it can shift and relocate to five different places. There are as many different scenarios as there are spirits who create it. The color of the couch might soften or brighten and then become more muted. The pillows might become firmer and then softer. The plant on the side table might be bigger and then smaller. Sometimes these can all happen simultaneously. Here, that room has a life in and of itself that’s constantly being tweaked.
On Earth, humans would describe the room as inanimate and fixed in time and space, while in Heaven, things are never that way. Everything here is as alive as the spirits who create them. I find it really intriguing to visit buildings like a library or a lecture hall with a certain architecture that I helped design, only to find that every time I go in, something’s been reworked or is transforming before my eyes.
The music here also doesn’t come close to what I was used to in my human life. It’s like surround sound, and the way it’s made is freaking amazing. Different beings create their own specific sound, and they do it according to the frequency they vibrate at. If you think of it in terms of an orchestra on Earth, a group of one type of being might vibrate in a way that sounds like the horn section; another group might vibrate to sound like the string section; and another group might do the same for the percussion section. There’re other sections, and each one has more musical sounds than I’ve ever heard on Earth. It’s (you guessed it) hard to describe. But the real cool shit about the music here is that it tunes our energetic bodies; it tunes the soul and touches right to the core of it, like a vibrating tuning fork inside you. It does the same thing to humans. You ever get the shivers or cry because of music? That’s what I’m talking about. But it’s not immediate or as intense as it is here.
I like to go to music concerts here. As for my personal musical stuff, I do play my guitar. That’s why I made sure to manifest a couple of them in my earthlike home: a Les Paul and a Fender Stratocaster. I’ve always been connected to music, but I like more types of music now. Each type balances certain energy patterns, which are really expressions of different emotions. On Earth, I liked music like Rush and AC/DC because it channeled my anger and other negative emotions, but in Heaven, I like all kinds of music, even the Enya-esque type. (Laugh at me if you want, but that shit’s great!) And the other cool thing with music here is I can smell, hear (duh!), see, touch, and taste it all together. In Heaven, all your senses meld together, and that makes everything more intense, but not in a bad way. It’s one of my favorite things about being here. Things that would have been super overwhelming on Earth are just commonplace, and I never feel like it’s too much to take in or handle. As a spirit, I’m built to receive all the sights, sounds, tastes, smells, and textures that Heaven, Earth, and infinite other dimensions have to offer, and it’s never gonna get old.
When I was first getting used to Heaven as my new home, I felt like I was on cloud nine. After those first feelings of uncertainty and even some fear, a feeling of joy surged through me because I knew I was in the right place. I knew I was completely connected to everything around me. It’s hard to explain, but I had to adjust to absorbing all this bliss that I never could find on Earth, where I had to fight to get happiness. Here I don’t have to fight. I also wondered when the contradictions were going to start again. My life was full of them. People would say one thing and do another. They’d promise me things or treat me nicely, only to let me down. As a human, I learned to not have trust in anything or anyone because not only were there a lot of contradictions but also everything good always seemed to come to an end. When I made the best meal I ever had, I ate it, and it was gone. A trip, a TV show, sex, whatever, always had an ending. At first, I reflected on how great it is here, but then I thought, “When is this going to fucking stop? When is the other shoe going to drop?” So here I am in this amazing place, experiencing all these awesome things, and I didn’t want it to end like everything else always did. I remember thinking, “Please be real. Please be real. Oh shit. What if it’s not? What if it goes away?” Now I don’t have those thoughts. The joy hasn’t stopped since I’ve been here. It’s been very consistent, so I’ve accepted it, and I’ll never question it again.