Chapter 28

Cealie, get over it, I told myself, tromping down the hall.

In my room I checked out what clean clothes I had left and found few. I chose to go through life lightly now, unfettered by too many things. Things needed to be stored and cleaned and sorted, and often tied a woman down. I had possessed many things, especially as my business gained success and increased profit. But after years of running around, buying and having to find a place for things, I determined I didn’t need most of them. Didn’t actually like lots of them. I’d only thought, at the time, that I wanted and could finally afford them.

Now I no longer chased after all the things I’d thought I needed to possess.

Thus I found few items of clothing hanging in the closet. My clean underwear was also scarce.

I returned to the kitchen, where Stevie was tossing the pizza box. “I need to clean some of my clothes,” I said.

“There’s the washer and dryer.” Chill in her tone, she nodded toward the porch.

I gathered my items and took them to the small utility room that opened off the porch, noting that dusk had dropped away to the dark. I tossed my clothes in the washer with washing powder, turned the knob, and walked toward my room.

Down the hall, Stevie glanced at me, swept into her altar room, slammed the door, and locked it.

I went to my bedroom, slammed my door, and locked it. Immediately felt like a moody child.

Being near my cousin was causing this grumpiness. I needed to take control of my senses and behave like an adult again, even when confronted by her. I needed to learn something definite about the deaths and get the heck away from this town.

Reeling in childish emotions, I grabbed my legal pad and made a list of people I knew who were connected to Pierce Trottier. The police were certainly doing this, and way beyond the investigating I could do. They were also taking care of questioning people connected to the restaurant. I didn’t know anything about Fawn McKenzie, except she was attractive, petite, and sucked straws the last days of her life. Also, she belonged to a group with my cousin and a man who’d died. This was the only place I knew to try to connect whoever might have killed both of them.

I listed members of The Quitters Group, leaving lots of blank lines between names.

I stared at the empty spaces, not knowing what else to write.

My mind blanked. It wouldn’t wrap around those people’s faces and what I’d learned of them. I would have to try again in the morning. I was tired, but my restless mind wasn’t sleepy. I dressed for bed and considered reading material. I opened a dresser drawer, grabbed magazines, and took them to bed.

The first one I flipped through was shocking. My cousin actually bought this stuff? I skimmed the second one and shook my head. Horrible. I opened the third one.

Da-dunt, da-dunt, da-dunt.

I shoved up from the covers and grabbed my phone.

“You sound breathless. Were you running?” Gil asked.

“No.” I noticed my words were high-pitched. And pictured Gil as I’d seen him often, naked, and I knew without a doubt I wanted him.

“I thought you might want to know what’s going on with me.”

“Of course I do.” I got ready to hear that his body was all healed. Then we could do wonderful things with it.

“Tomorrow I’m reopening my restaurants.”

“Great! All of them?”

“Yes. I don’t know if customers will come again, but my hires need to work. I hadn’t considered how many people I employ. Business would hurt more the longer we’d keep the restaurants closed.”

“I think you’ve made a wise decision.”

“Thanks for your vote of confidence.”

I smiled and sat on the bed. “How are your body parts that I mangled?”

“Getting better. Soon I might be able to walk without help.” His voice held cheer so that he wouldn’t make me feel bad. “What were you doing?” he asked.

I glanced at the pile of half-naked men posing. “Getting ready for bed.”

“Need any help?”

“No, thanks, I can do it all by myself.”

“I know you can, Cealie. Sometimes I wish you weren’t quite so independent.”

“And what would you have me be? Totally dependent on a man?”

“No, not totally. Just calm down.”

“I’ve been there, you know, and it doesn’t work.” After we met I’d told him how I’d depended on my husband, Freddy, to be the other half of a person with me. And then he’d died and left me alone, needy, not knowing where to take the next step or who I was any longer.

“I’ll see you later,” Gil said.

I was still huffy when we hung up. I wasn’t angry with him. I fumed at the image of myself as I was back then, back when Freddy was dying and then after he went. I became like a bird with one broken wing, with no idea how I’d ever fly again.

Time, friends, and prayers all helped me stand. And now I was rediscovering Cealie and learning more about what I wanted from my life.

I am woman. I can do anything—alone!

My motto flashed through my brain but not too energetically. I gripped my phone. Stared at it. Envisioned Gil.

He hadn’t hurt me. If anything, he’d renewed my self-image as a desirable woman. Gil enlivened the dormant side of me. How important was he for doing that?

I needed to let go of the images of any man. Gil. And those men on my bed.

I shoved the magazines back into a drawer and remembered my clothes were still in the washer. I strode outside and turned on the light. In the small utility room off the porch, I dug my clothes out of the washer and tossed my panties in the dryer. Alarm skittered along my skin. A strong sensation told me someone was watching. I smelled smoke.

I looked at the room’s doorway, heart pounding.

Nobody visible. Had I imagined a person out there?

I shoved the rest of my clothes in the dryer, punched it on, and rushed out of the room so no one could lock me inside.

On the porch I scanned the yard. Lots of bushes a person could hide behind. The gate was shut. The headlights of one car moved past on the road. I spied a tendril of smoke out beyond the fence. Or was that steam off the road? The feeling remained that someone was out there, watching. I rushed in the house, locked the door, and turned off the porch lights.

Stevie was nowhere in sight. Her bedroom door was open. Her altar-room door shut. A sudden guttural chant sounded inside there.

I rushed to my room. Locked my door, switched on a lamp, and turned off the overhead light. Then I paced, jittery, even more fearful when I walked near the widow. The curtains were shut. I checked the window and found it still locked.

You’re making yourself scared. I needed to get to bed and read so I’d quit thinking. I grabbed a new novel from my suitcase and crawled under the covers.

I’d thought the book was a mystery from its cover, but hadn’t read the blurbs. The suspense thriller scared me from paragraph one. This wasn’t what I wanted.

My heart pounded. I heard noise. My arms jerked. I looked at the window, saw nothing different, and determined the sound hadn’t come from outside. It was in the house, probably Stevie going to her bedroom.

I threw the scary book against the wall. I didn’t need more things frightening me. I was jumpy enough.

Digging in my suitcase, I grabbed my old standby sleep aid.

I slid back under the covers and opened my newest cookbook, The Best Recipes of the Year. Baked Chicken Soufflé, which must be made the night before cooking. Coq Au Vin I and II, also great made ahead. The longer they sat, the better they were. Why? Couldn’t cooks get it right the first time? Movarian Sugar Cake. Its recipe included mashed potatoes. Potatoes in a cake? I felt myself drifting off even as I heard my light snores.

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Stevie was gone in the morning. The scent of coffee called me to the kitchen.

I peeped out the back door. The sun was high. A few trucks drove past. The large bald man with the Lab walked by. He didn’t glance at Stevie’s yard.

I rushed to the dryer and pulled out my things. Rushed back inside and locked the door. Then felt ridiculous. Did I actually believe a person went out there last night to watch me on Stevie’s porch—and was still out there, watching?

“Guess what?” I said to Minnie cactus. “I was silly enough to believe some guy stood out there all night, waiting to see me in my nightgown.” I twirled around so my gown skimmed my hips and enjoyed my laugh. Minnie would probably laugh, too.

I checked her out. The pink poufs that reminded me of sponge curlers looked healthy. So did her thick stem. I touched her soil. Dry. “You’re looking good,” I said.

Grabbing coffee, I opened the newspaper. Stared at the headlines.

LOCAL RESTAURANT TO REOPEN.

Beneath the words was a picture. Stevie. Me. Many people in the yard of Gil’s restaurant watching medics rush in with a gurney that would take Fawn away.

The article reminded anyone who might have forgotten that a patron died while eating there. She died of an allergic reaction to shrimp in her chicken gumbo, the reporter announced. Restaurant owner Gil Thurman could not be reached, but manager Jake Bryant said no one knew yet why any shrimp would be in chicken gumbo. The deceased patron, Fawn McKenzie, had known of her severe allergy to seafood.

Restaurateur Gil Thurman had shut down all of his restaurants, the article told, until detectives could learn more about his customer’s death. Little information has been released by the police at this time, but Mr. Thurman has decided to reopen all of his Cajun Delights restaurants. They will open today, even the local one where many customers saw Fawn McKenzie drop dead.

A few quotes were included. One customer felt weird to see a person fall on her plate like that. Another had wanted to help but hadn’t known how. A woman would never walk inside that place again. She’d always picture a woman dead in a bowl.

An article in Section B would tell readers about allergies and what to do if they experienced severe allergic reactions to anything.

I knew where I had to eat lunch. I swallowed hard, hoping for Gil’s sake that I wouldn’t be the only person at his restaurant.