In the late 1950s, a pale, skinny young Irish woman named Phyllis Shanley arrived in the United States, her mind ablaze with extravagant daydreams. She had been poor in Ireland, had grown up, the eldest of six, on a back-country farm in which the principal fuel for cooking and even for fighting the omnipresent dampness had been the peat her father and brothers chopped laboriously from bogs behind the house. She had escaped the farm, gone to Dublin to study nursing, learned in the city’s dreary Victorian hospitals how to deliver babies for women who couldn’t afford doctors and how to care for poor sufferers from tuberculosis and other communicable diseases. But her experience and training had not brought her prosperity. Prosperity did not come easily in Ireland.
America was another story. In this new country she might flourish. Become anything she wanted to become. America was the land of opportunity, a place where what mattered was not what people had been in the past but what they made of themselves once they were here. And if they made of themselves something worthy, their children and grandchildren might never know hard times and might even, God willing, become rich and powerful. Even the children and grandchildren of Irish immigrants. By the time she arrived in the United States, people were saying the country might even have its first Irish-Catholic president soon. John Fitzgerald Kennedy, the junior senator from Massachusetts and a man but three generations removed from Ireland’s hardships, was going to run for the office. Learning the ropes in her new country, Phyllis dreamed classic immigrants’ dreams, imagining a golden life for herself and her as yet unborn heirs. And in her dreams she took literally the mythic American promise that on these shores a person could be the equal of any man or woman in the land.
She was not averse to hard work, and she quickly began plying her profession here, taking a job at a large New York hospital and doing private-duty nursing as well while waiting for fortune to smile on her. In three years it did. At a lively dance sponsored by an Irish organization, she met a handsome young man who several times during the evening asked her to be his partner and eventually asked her to be his life’s partner as well.
The young man’s name was Bob Chambers. Members of his Irish-English family had been in America for generations. One of his ancestors had even come before the Revolution. Bob’s parents owned a house in Westchester, a cabin on Lake Placid. They’d raised Bob genteelly and comfortably, sent him to private schools and then to Mitchell College in Connecticut and The American University in Washington, D.C. Four years after Phyllis met him—it was 1965—she married him. A year later she gave birth to her first and only child.
The child, a boy, was beautiful, with sapphire eyes and a delicate pearly-white complexion. Phyllis gave him the first name Robert, after his father, and the middle name Emmet, after the great Irish patriot who had been hanged for plotting against the British.
He was a docile infant, his temperament mild and malleable. And he was responsive, an early babbler and smiler. By the time he was a year and a half and had handily learned to talk and walk, taking his tumbles manfully, Phyllis was head over heels in love with him.
She was not demonstrative. She didn’t hug and kiss him the way other mothers hugged and kissed their little boys. But she read to him and played educational games with him, and by the time he was three, she had taught him many things, among them to shake hands when he was introduced.
They were living at the time in a vast apartment complex in Woodside, Queens. They didn’t have much money. Bob had a good but not especially well-paying job in the credit department of Dun & Bradstreet. Phyllis was still doing part-time nursing. Most of her patients lived on Manhattan’s Upper East Side, in sprawling apartments where the walls were hung with exquisite landscapes and family portraits and the rooms decorated with crystal, silver, and woods so highly polished they shone like gems. Woodside seemed depressing in comparison, and Phyllis dreamed of some day living on the East Side herself. Apartments were cheaper on the bourgeois West Side or in the raffish downtown neighborhoods of Manhattan. But the East Side was patrician and grand, its boulevards lined with palatial apartment buildings, its side streets with opulent town houses and discreet residential hotels. Bob’s grandmother lived in one such hotel. It had a posh dining room, and sometimes the old lady invited Phyllis and little Robert to dine there in splendor with her.
After several years in Woodside, Phyllis and Bob left the area for a better apartment in Jackson Heights. It wasn’t the East Side of Manhattan, but Phyllis was pleased with the move. Husbanding her earnings, she decorated the new apartment tastefully and tended it zealously, often spending hours polishing her handsome dark furniture until it glowed.
She was working at the time not just for the wealthy but for the extremely wealthy. And one day she got a nursing assignment that thoroughly stimulated her dreamy nature. She was hired by her new country’s most famous family to look after the nation’s most famous little boy, John-John Kennedy, while he recovered from a respiratory illness.
The day after she started working for the Kennedys, Bob Chambers noticed that his wife was wearing a new expensive looking pair of sunglasses, and that she was wearing them not over her eyes but perched on top of her head, just the way Jackie Kennedy did.
The job didn’t last—John-John got well—but its effects did. When Robert was four, Phyllis enrolled him in a prestigious Manhattan nursery, the nursery at the St. David’s School on East 89th Street, just off Fifth Avenue. St. David’s was a Catholic school, although it also took children of other faiths, and the Catholic families that placed their offspring at the school and in particular at the nursery were exceedingly prominent. The Hearsts, the Skourases, the Burkes had all sent children to the St. David’s nursery. A few years before Robert entered it, the sons of John F. Kennedy’s sisters, Mrs. Peter Lawford and Mrs. Stephen Smith, had attended. So had John-John Kennedy.
On Long Island that year, two-year-old Jennifer Levin was growing up in a small ranch house in the commuter town of Merrick. Out back was a large tree-studded yard. In front of the TV, an undulating waterbed.
She was the second daughter of Steven Levin and Ellen Domenitz, whose families were Jewish and who had themselves each been raised in green and homogeneous suburban towns, Steve in Massachusetts, Ellen on Long Island.
They’d met in Boston while Ellen was going to a junior college and Steve was attending an acting school. Acting was in Steve’s blood. His grandfather, who’d emigrated to the United States from Russia in the early part of the century, had made his living in the shoe business, just as Steve’s father did after him, but the old man had always wanted to be an actor and toward the end of his life he had even become one, performing with a Yiddish theater group. Steve had his gifts for comedy, could do hilarious imitations, and had consequently set his heart on a theatrical career. But he gave up that ambition after he and Ellen married and went into real estate. By the time Jennifer was born, he and a partner had begun to have some success with a small real estate firm in Manhattan.
Of the two little girls, five-year-old Danielle was the beauty, the neighbors used to say. But Jennifer would be okay. She had personality. Was a live wire.
She spent much of her time trying to join the games of Danielle and Danielle’s friends. They slammed doors on her, or ran giggling away on longer, swifter legs. She would howl, but doggedly keep after them, rattling doorknobs or clumsily tagging behind as the group raced ahead of her. And sometimes, miraculously catching up, she’d chant and sing and parade around the older children, and act so antic that they’d laugh and soften and let her play with them.
St. David’s, where four-year-old Robert was daily escorted by one of his parents, was a beautiful school with Georgian-style architecture that suggested permanence and stability. It was also utterly different from the institutions Phyllis had attended as a youngster: Irish convent schools. Her teachers, black-garbed nuns, had focused on self-discipline and obedience as much as on academic subjects. The teachers at St. David’s, Catholic lay people for the most part, were gentle, lenient, and devoted to inculcating knowledge in their young charges.
Phyllis was pleased that she’d decided to send Robert there, even though it was far from home and expensive. But her life was not altogether happy. Around the time Robert started at St. David’s, Bob, who was a drinker—he had started using alcohol when he was a teenager—began drinking more heavily. Sometimes he wasn’t home when he was supposed to be home and sometimes he wasn’t at the places he’d said he’d be at.
His mother hit him with a strap when he was bad, little Robert told a teacher at St. David’s. The teacher thought that no doubt the mother was well-meaning, if a bit old-fashioned and strict.
Cynthia White, Robert’s steady babysitter, also found Phyllis a strict mother. But a superb one as well. She had a lot of rules, but they were sensible. Robert had to do his homework before he did any playing, he couldn’t watch a lot of TV, and he had to go out of doors every day, no matter how inclement the weather.
Cynthia admired Mrs. Chambers. And she was enchanted by little Robert, who was charming and polite and so obedient she didn’t have to tell him twice to put away his toys or go to his room and get ready for bed. But Cynthia was concerned about him. He didn’t see that much of his mother—she had started working full-time taking care of the aging Millicent Hearst, wife of the newspaper baron—and he had no friends. Was he lonely? Cynthia worried. And had Mrs. Chambers done the right thing in sending him to St. David’s? It set him off from the neighborhood boys, made him a bit of an isolate.
Still, Robert didn’t complain. He wasn’t one of those whiny, difficult kids. He kept most things to himself. Even pain.
One day he was climbing on the back of a wing chair. “Don’t do that,” Cynthia warned him. “It’s dangerous.” He didn’t listen, just went on climbing. A second later he tumbled to the floor.
“Are you all right?” Cynthia asked.
“Yes.” But then he retreated into his room.
Cynthia waited for him to emerge. But when after twenty minutes he still hadn’t appeared, she went inside to check on him. She found him curled up on his bed, straining to hold back sobs. Which took some doing, because the injury turned out to be no small affair. He’d broken his collarbone.
Sequins. Ribbons. Her mother’s high heels. In Merrick, four-year-old Jennifer was displaying a passion for dress-up and, once in costume, would strut and sing and spin around like a whirling human top.
Sometimes she was a bit too lively. The mothers of playmates found her hyperactive and difficult to control. One mother mentioned this to Jennifer’s father, and he suggested that when Jennifer visited she be given diet soda instead of Pepsi or Coke, because sugar overstimulated her.
But Jennifer’s frivolity served her well. It brought her attention, friends. One afternoon when she and her sister were visiting two boys, the elder of whom considered Jennifer a baby and ignored her, she took the younger brother aside, dressed him and herself up in makeup and funny costumes, and began cavorting around the room. The older boy, eager to reject her, nevertheless cracked up, laughed till he thought his sides would split. “You can be our court jester,” he said, and explained how kings kept attendants just to make them laugh.
In the summer of 1972, just before Robert turned six, Cynthia traveled to Ireland with him and his mother on a visit to Phyllis’s parents. The three Americans flew to Shannon, then took a trip deep into the Irish countryside, to the town of Bournacoula in County Leitrim, where the Shanleys lived and Phyllis had grown up. Leitrim is one of Ireland’s poorest counties, a long narrow spade of land that has a remote, forgotten feel to it. The Shanleys’ farm also, to Cynthia at least, seemed forgotten, a thing of the past. The farmhouse was a rambling four-bedroom affair. There was a paved road in front of it, but behind were pens for chickens and ducks, and beyond that, fields in which cows and horses grazed. Further still in the distance were desolate peat bogs. Phyllis’s father drove by wagon to the bogs and brought back the peat, and Phyllis’s mother cooked with it on a big blackened stove. She stewed and simmered on the stove’s surface, and baked loaves of delicious bread inside its ancient oven. She baked daily, telling Cynthia, “The bread’s not the same if you eat it when it’s old. Even a day old.”
The babysitter was awed by the amount of labor the aging Shanleys had to expend on tasks that took no time at all back home, where the flick of a knob brought fuel and bread could keep as fresh as new in the freezer. “Life is so hard here,” she said.
“It’s nothing, nothing at all,” Mrs. Shanley replied. “Why, just a few months ago we had to go upstairs to the bathroom to get water for doing the dishes. That or draw the water from the kitchen pump.”
It’s no wonder, Cynthia thought after the trip to Bournacoula, that Mrs. Chambers wants Robert at St. David’s, even though it means his having to travel so long every day, and his having no one his own age to play with after school. She wants him to make up for what she lacked. She has the American Dream.
By 1973 the Levins’ marriage was foundering. To some extent the trouble lay in their temperaments. Both were excitable and tempestuous. But they also had different priorities. Ellen Levin liked pursuing artistic and bohemian pleasures—she was “a leftover flower child from the sixties,” one of her friends recalled. Steve was sterner and more pragmatic, and increasingly he was focusing on his real estate business.
Eventually, the pair separated. Steve moved into Manhattan, and Ellen remained behind in Merrick with the two little girls. Jennifer was five.
Seven-year-old Robert was starting his religious instruction at St. David’s, studying under an energetic and thoughtful priest named Father Thomas Leonard. Leonard’s classes were crowded with shy, attentive, well-scrubbed faces. Robert was just one of the crowd. But the boy’s mother was another story. She always spoke up at parents’ meetings and made her presence felt.
She was, by then, daily leaving County Leitrim behind. She still spoke with a brogue and clung to the stern religious beliefs of her childhood, but she was rapidly becoming ever more Americanized—and in all outward manifestations an American of high social class. Shopping carefully and cleverly, often in thrift shops to which women like those she worked for donated their wardrobes when they were but a season old, she dressed with sophisticated East Side flair. When she entertained at home, she set her table with fine linens and china, just as the women she worked for did, differing from them only in that she purchased her wares in out-of-the-way secondhand shops.
In 1974, when Robert was eight, Phyllis enrolled him in the Knickerbocker Greys, an after-school military drill group that taught discipline and patriotism to well-to-do boys and had come to be nicknamed the Social Register’s Private Little Army. She knew that the Greys weren’t what they had been. Once they were so elite that even some of New York’s richest boys could not join. Once they were a training ground for the city’s princes. Frederick Warburg and Cornelius Vanderbilt had been Greys. So had Nelson Rockefeller, John Lindsay, and Thomas Hoving. But things had changed. The most socially eminent families in the city had turned away from the group, and their defection, combined with the antimilitaristic sentiment that had swept the country during the Vietnam war, had made the Greys easier to join. Nevertheless the corps still drew its members primarily from Manhattan’s most exclusive private schools. Phyllis was aware of this, and she was eager to see Robert enter the ranks and make the right sort of friends.
Robert was nervous the first time he passed through the massive wrought-iron gates and majestic wooden doors of the fortresslike armory on Park Avenue in which the Greys met. For years he had seen older boys at his school wearing the Greys uniform to class, and he had dreamed of wearing one, too. But he had heard he would have to take part in a competition on the first day, and he was fearful he wouldn’t pass muster. He needn’t have worried. His first day went off without a hitch, he was accepted into the corps, and his parents bought him the coveted uniform. He began dreaming right after that, he wrote in a school essay, of becoming a sergeant. Sergeants got to carry swords.
Separation had hung heavy on Ellen Levin. She’d been stuck in the suburbs with their emphasis on nuclear family solidarity, and all the drudgery of child care had fallen on her shoulders alone. When Jennifer was around six, she decided to move to California. She’d heard that people lived differently out West. There were whole complexes inhabited by single people, or by divorced people living with their children. There were communes and colonies and carefree styles of life. She went to Los Angeles with her two little girls.
In L.A. she rented an apartment on a sprawling estate that was rumored to have belonged at one time to Rudolph Valentino. The estate was filled with separated parents, many of them writers, singers, and actors. They understood one another’s hardships and assisted each other with child care and domestic chores. Their companionship alleviated Ellen’s loneliness and maternal burdens. Soon she went to work, getting herself a job in an advertising agency.
The Greys met for drill twice a week, and throughout the year for dress reviews and outings to ballgames and army bases. Robert, at eight and a half, attended Greys functions regularly, and soon became an exemplary cadet. He learned to pivot and parade, march and maneuver. He learned to handle the sword he had dreamed of wearing. And, joining the group’s Saturday rifle club, he even learned to fire a rifle.
At the end of his second year in the organization, his parents decided—perhaps because they were spending so much time ferrying Robert to Greys events—to move to Manhattan. Phyllis found an apartment in a redbrick high-rise right on Park Avenue itself—just blocks from the armory. It was small, with low ceilings and few architectural details, and it was located in the least fashionable section of the fashionable boulevard—the mid-nineties, only a few streets south of Spanish Harlem. But Phyllis told friends her new address with a quiet but unmistakable pride.
She was still working as a nurse, but she was taking short-term assignments. Mrs. Hearst, for whom she’d worked exclusively for several years, had died. Phyllis’s hours were long and stressful. But the move to the city gave her more time to invest in her outside interests. She had always enjoyed organizational and charitable work, had been active when she lived in Queens in the County Leitrim Society, a group which raised money for immigrants from her home county. Now she began raising money for St. David’s, and she joined the Altar Society of the Church of St. Thomas More, which was near her new apartment.
Monsignor James Wilders, the priest of St. Thomas’s, came to know Phyllis well. He felt they had a great deal in common. He, too, had invested himself in the care of the sick and dying. Before coming to St. Thomas’s, he’d been the director of hospital chaplains for the Archdiocese of New York, a job that had put him in charge of Catholic priests at hundreds of local hospitals and nursing homes, and for years he’d immersed himself in helping patients and their families bear the prospect of death. The worst thing was the youngsters dying of leukemia. He always said to their mothers and fathers, You know, this isn’t easy, it’s a trauma, but the little one is going straight home to heaven without ever having done anyone any harm. The worst cross, you know, is for a child to grow up and bring disgrace and dishonor on the family.
At first in the city ten-year-old Robert was timid. Leaving the apartment, he stayed close to his mother’s side, often clutching her hand or a corner of her skirt. But in time he got used to his new environment and began going out on his own to meet boys he knew from St. David’s. When he was with them, he was sometimes shy, speaking softly and waiting till other boys addressed him first. But he wanted to be liked, and he made an effort to go where the other kids went, do what the other kids did.
After a while, Phyllis noticed with pleasure that he had made a sizable circle of friends in the neighborhood. He was popular, she told friends.
Billy Markey, a new student at St. David’s, also saw that Robert was popular, and hoping to be popular too, he considered inviting Robert and his friends to his tenth birthday party. He wanted to have them, but he wasn’t sure they’d come. They were different from him. He was a scholarship student and lived on the West Side. They were rich and lived on the East. He had just come to New York from a small provincial town. They had lived in the city for years. More, they smoked marijuana already. He’d seen them doing it in school bathrooms. It frightened him. But still he took the plunge and asked them. And to his surprise and pleasure, they came.
The party made Billy feel wonderful. He and his guests listened to records, played with his birthday gifts, gobbled cake and ice cream until they felt ready to burst. There was a lot of laughing and joking, and for the first time in months Billy didn’t miss his old school and his old friends. But afterward, when the party was over and he was straightening up his room, he noticed that his piggy bank had been emptied of its contents—twenty dollars’ worth of coins he had scrupulously saved from his allowance. He wasn’t sure who had taken the money, but he thought it was Robby Chambers or one of his close friends. He’d seen the group eyeing the bank.
One afternoon that year, Andy Lockheart, a ten-year-old who went to a different East Side private school from the one Robert and Billy attended, telephoned a friend of his. He’d gotten lucky, he said excitedly: he’d persuaded a man on his way into a liquor store to take his money and bring him out a bottle.
Andy and his friend had been drinking since they were eight, nicking shots from their parents’ liquor cabinets. But recently they’d started feeling that a shot here and a shot there was no fun at all. They’d wanted a whole bottle of hard liquor, but had been afraid to swipe one from their parents, so they’d taken to hanging around outside liquor stores wearing their neat little brass-buttoned blue blazers and politely asking customers to help them out. Everyone had turned them down, but today Andy had at last been successful. “I knew it would happen sooner or later,” he exulted to his friend.
“It figures,” Andy’s friend said, “this being New York.” Then he asked Andy what store he’d gotten lucky at. Andy told him it was a shop he’d heard about from some St. David’s boys, one of whom was a kid named Robby Chambers.
Billy Markey kept his distance from the boys he thought had robbed his piggy bank. But he couldn’t avoid them altogether. He was in some classes with them. He did sports with them. He was even in a school pageant with them. Robert Chambers has the best part, Billy sulked. He’s a Civil War general, all decked out in a uniform.
Billy himself was just a foot soldier. He was supposed to horse around and ruin the orderly march of a column of soldiers, and the general was supposed to give him a push to make him get in line and behave. When the cue came, Billy did the horsing around, and Robert did the pushing. But it wasn’t like a playacting push. It was a real hard shove. Robert’s trying to hurt me, Billy worried for a second. Then he thought, No, it’s more like he’s been drinking or smoking grass and he doesn’t know how hard he’s pushing.
In California, Jennifer was attending public school. She was as extroverted and irrepressible as she had been as a toddler, a little girl who loved attention and had no qualms about reaching out for it. One day she paraded down Hollywood Boulevard in a big hat and her mother’s high heels. Another day, visiting a restaurant owned by a friend of her mother’s, she played waitress, clearing tables and, not yet comprehending the principles of tipping, amusingly telling guests she hoped they’d return soon while at the same time handing them quarters.
She saw her father from time to time. She and Danielle went east to visit him during their Christmas and summer vacations, and he flew out to the coast three or four times a year.
He was doing well. His real estate business was flourishing. He was living in the East Sixties between Madison and Park avenues. And he had a girlfriend.
She was Arlene Voorhust, a young Catholic woman who had been widowed and had no children. Jennifer thought her beautiful. Not that her mother wasn’t beautiful, too. In fact, Arlene and Ellen Levin looked something alike. But Arlene was darker, slimmer, more glamorous. Jennifer admired her. But like many little girls who imagine when their fathers divorce their mothers that they have won the Oedipal battle only to discover they have a new rival for their father’s love, she also resented her.
When she was eight, Steve and Arlene married. The wedding took place at New York’s City Hall. Whether it was because Ellen Levin didn’t want her daughters to attend the ceremony, or because Steve and Arlene didn’t want them to, or because they themselves preferred to stay away, Jennifer and Danielle were not present at the wedding.
Robert grew tall and broad in the next year or two—taller and broader than most of his agemates at St. David’s or in the Greys. His face took on a new, almost mannish handsomeness, and his body, firmed up by marching in the armory, became strong.
He brought his parents great joy. He became an altar boy at St. Thomas’s and was confirmed there under the sponsorship of Father Theodore McCarrick, an up-and-coming priest who had been an adviser to Mrs. Hearst and with whom Phyllis had stayed in contact after the old woman died. He won a public speaking contest at St. David’s, earned several medals for marksmanship at the Greys, and was made a member of the group’s elite Honor Guard. The Guard, dressed in sparkling white trousers and braid-bedecked tunics, carried the troop’s colors at parades and public ceremonies. One day Ronald and Nancy Reagan were escorted by the Guard to a Woman’s Republican Committee luncheon at the Waldorf-Astoria. The presidential hopeful shook Robert’s hand.
Phyllis talked about her son obsessively. He was becoming in her eyes everything she had once dreamed a child of hers could become.
She herself was also becoming the kind of person she had once only imagined she might be. She had been invited to join the Greys’ fabled board of directors, a group that was, historically, composed of society women, even acquaintances of governors and presidents. But for years she had turned up regularly on drill days to take attendance and on review days to make sure the cadets’ shoes were shined and their purple sashes tied just so. And always she’d worked hard at using the wealthy contacts she made through work to get donations for the organization. She was an extraordinary fund-raiser, and the Greys had recognized this and wanted her on the board.
In the spring of 1979, a few months before Robert turned thirteen, the Greys went further, elected her their president. It was a dubious time to have won the title, for the group was suffering recruiting problems. But it was also an exciting time, as the organization would soon be a hundred years old. Elevated, Phyllis began working immediately on getting publicity for the group and on arranging the centennial.
In the fall, she opened her first presidential season with a luncheon at the “21” Club. It was a festive day. The cadet officers, Robert among them, wore medals and carried plumed headgear. Distinguished guests—Phyllis’s old friend Father McCarrick, who had recently been named a bishop, was one of them—made toasts, and board members and supporters of the organization gave inspiring or droll speeches. “The point is not to train these boys for social leadership,” a former president said, “but leadership for life.”
“What this really is,” a successful alumnus said, “is a tunnel leading into the old boy network.”
Ellen Levin had friends in the film community, and sometimes she took Jennifer and Danielle with her to parties at which they met Hollywood’s aristocrats. Producers and movie stars. The party Jennifer liked best was the one where she met Chevy Chase. He was so handsome. So funny.
One night some friends of Ellen’s who were sleeping over told Jennifer they’d take her to Disneyland the next day. In the morning she ran into their room and excitedly tried to rouse them. But they wouldn’t get up, wouldn’t move from the bed. They were stoned, she later complained to a friend.
For Bob Chambers, who was working now in the credit department of MCA, the period of his wife’s ascendancy in the Greys was a melancholy one. Although he had several times attempted to give up alcohol, and had even attended the acclaimed Hazelden Foundation clinic in Minnesota for a while, he had fallen off the wagon and begun spending his evenings making the rounds of neighborhood bars. One of his favorite bars was Sheehan’s, on Third Avenue.
Mike Sheehan, the proprietor’s son, was a detective with the New York City Police Department. He often dropped by the bar when he was on his way home from work, and one night—it was around the time Phyllis started heading up the Greys—he popped in and saw Bob Chambers there. He liked Bob. Liked the way he was a well-behaved drinker who didn’t get sloppy or pissed off but just quietly downed his scotch and watched the games on TV, or did crossword puzzles with a friend. Bob wore big muttonchop whiskers and looked so smart and did so many puzzles that Sheehan had dubbed him “the intelligentsia.” I’m gonna see how the intelligentsia is, Sheehan decided this night and, strolling over to Bob, said, “Hey, how’s it going?”
“Well, you know,” Bob said. “Okay.” Then he said something about his wife. Something about how he was having problems with her.
“Yeah, well, I guess the best thing is, you never get married,” Sheehan said.
Bob nodded, laughed.
He’s a really sweet guy, Sheehan thought. Most of the regulars are. And they follow my career as if they’re my fan club.
Sheehan had made the regulars real proud this year. He’d gone after a black kid over on Columbus Avenue and 108th who’d looked like he was up to no good, and when he’d pulled up alongside him, he’d seen the kid had a long-barreled .38 in his hand. Sheehan had pulled out his own gun, shoved it at the kid’s face and screamed, “You pull the trigger, I’m gonna blow your fucking head off! You wanna be a tough guy, go ahead and shoot me, but I’m gonna take you out, too, I’m gonna take your face right off.” He’d never been so tough in his life. Things like that just started pouring out of his mouth. And the kid had backed off, begun running. Sheehan had run after him and later, his heart pounding, tackled him, cuffed him, and brought him in. Then, lucky him, it turned out the kid was a guy the whole police force had been trying to catch for weeks, a guy who’d shot the city’s first female police officer.
Tonight Sheehan told Bob Chambers and the rest of the crew a few more of his adventures, and some of the guys told his parents, the way they always did, that they wished they had a son like him.
Bob Chambers didn’t say that. He never says anything like that, Sheehan thought. Maybe he doesn’t have a son.
“Go ahead and play,” Bob Chambers said to eight-year-old Chip Jones one afternoon that fall. Bob had agreed to babysit for the boy because Phyllis, who’d promised his parents that she’d do the job, was too busy. Bob had taken Chip to the local video arcade, where he’d changed several dollars into quarters, and now he offered the silver to the boy.
Chip got going. The machine lit up and he made his moves and shot down a bunch of space ships. Then he looked around for Mr. Chambers, so he could show him his score. He wasn’t there. “He went outside for a minute,” the video arcade’s change-maker said.
Chip went on playing, but after a while he ran out of money. He stood around wishing Mr. Chambers would come back. After about an hour, when Mr. Chambers still hadn’t returned, he got a little scared. But then, there was Mr. Chambers. Big and kindly. “Let’s go down to the South Street Seaport now,” he suggested.
Chip thought it was a great idea.
They took the subway downtown, and Mr. Chambers bought him lunch in a restaurant. Then Mr. Chambers said he knew a bar in the area that had a model of the Titanic in it, and if Chip would just be patient and wait a bit, he’d go out, find just where it was, and take him to see the model ocean liner.
Chip sat in the resturant and played with the remains of his lunch. Mr. Chambers didn’t come back. Chip waited and waited. And then after a while, even though he was ashamed of himself, he started getting scared again. If anything happens to Mr. Chambers, he worried, I won’t be able to get home. I don’t know the way. But then at last there was Mr. Chambers. He looked a little flushed and he was perspiring heavily, but he was cheerful and as kindly as ever. “I’m awfully sorry,” he said. “I’ve been into all the bars, but I couldn’t find the Titanic anywhere.”
If Phyllis was dismayed by Bob’s drinking, she didn’t let it interfere with her life. She continued going to her nursing jobs and continued to throw herself into her Greys presidential duties, organizing outings for the cadets to the Columbia-Dartmouth football game, and to West Point, where they met a brigadier general and ate their lunch in the military academy’s mess hall.
She was well liked by the boys now officially under her command, but she could be very stern when they disappointed her, paraded poorly, or behaved boisterously. With Robert, she was sternest of all. When he failed to carry out an order, she would chew him out royally, criticize and humiliate him even in front of other people. One afternoon in the armory the mother of another Greys cadet witnessed one of these dressing-downs. Phyllis was scolding Robert about a purchase he’d failed to make. Her voice was icy, her words cutting. Robert, towering over her, listened silently.
Isn’t he going to defend himself? the observer wondered. My son certainly would.
But Robert merely eyed his mother blankly and kept on saying nothing.
Pressure. Demands. His mother’s expectations were grinding him down, thirteen-year-old Robert told a friend that year.
He had lots of friends by then, many of them girls. Girls liked his looks, his military bearing, and the mischievous, playful way in which he teased them.
One day a girl teased him back. She made fun of him verbally and then turned physical, prankishly kicking at his rear end. Robert responded to the humiliation with sudden explosive anger. He whirled around and grabbed the girl’s arm, twisting it so hard she felt it was about to break.
That fall—it was 1979—Jennifer, a gangly eleven-year-old with crooked teeth and limp hair that she tucked impatiently behind prominent ears, moved back East. Ellen had soured on California and decided to rent a small house in Manorhaven, a somewhat shabby enclave in the posh Long Island suburb of Port Washington. She enrolled Jennifer in the sixth grade of Manorhaven’s public elementary school.
Jennifer barely remembered Long Island, and she wasn’t happy about being a new girl at a new school. But she tried to find friends, flinging herself into the chore by making the first gestures. “I’m Jennifer Levin,” she would say, scribbling her phone number on a sheet of looseleaf paper. In a short while her efforts bore fruit and she was invited for sleep-overs and backyard swimming pool parties.
At the Greys, Robert’s proud record was showing signs of deterioration. By that autumn, he was a steady if secret drinker, accustomed to meeting his thirteen-year-old friends at an East Side bar where the proprietor allowed them to order drinks, or turning up at parties and dances with a flask of cheap whiskey in his pocket. Perhaps as a result of drinking, he had frequent bouts of vertigo at the armory. And one afternoon, while carrying the Greys’ cross at a patriotic service at the Presbyterian Brick Church, he passed out.
Parents who witnessed the event whispered among themselves that alcohol or marijuana might have caused Robert’s fainting spell, and hinted as much to Phyllis.
She said no, there’s nothing wrong with Robert except a touch of flu. And if she was angry at him, she readily forgave him when at Christmas he performed exceptionally well at the 99th Annual Review. She even wrote him a formal letter of congratulation. “You exemplify and demonstrate the fine values which make fine and good men,” the note said. “There is no greater compliment to apply to any man other than to say that he is a good man.”
One day that semester, Leilia Van Baker, a leggy butterscotch-blond twelve-year-old who went to a private school across the street from Robert’s home, visited him at his apartment. In the living room she saw a mammoth gloriously framed three-quarter-length portrait of him. The painting depicted Robert in a blazer, a snowy white dress shirt, and a striped tie. His brown hair was filled with highlights, his smile was radiant, his tapered fingers rested lightly on a chair back, and his tailored torso leaned gracefully forward. He looks, Leilia thought, exalted, like a young duke.
She stared at the painting. Robert began to blush. His mother had commissioned it.
Could he work with Robert on his prep school applications, Phyllis asked a friend that spring. Robert had his heart set on boarding school, she told the friend, particularly Choate, where a number of boys he knew were hoping to go. But the boarding schools had elaborate application procedures, and she felt the boy needed some manly guidance if he was to get his in on time and in the proper fashion.
Why me, why not Bob? the friend, John Dermont, asked himself. But he knew the answer. Bob was hardly ever at home, and when he was, he was less than alert. Dermont agreed to oversee Robert’s applications. Under his guidance Robert filled out questionnaires, obtained recommendations from teachers, and wrote an essay about why he might be an asset to a boarding school community. In the essay he concentrated on his participation in the Greys. “The lessons I have learned,” he asserted, “the development of good character, and the responsibilities of assuming command, will benefit me in boarding school and throughout the rest of my life.”
The application procedure went so smoothly that Phyllis asked Dermont to help Robert with an eighth-grade history essay as well.
Up at Choate, in Wallingford, Connecticut, the admissions staff was hesitant about Robert at first. The school, nearly a hundred years old, was one of the country’s most eminent college preparatory institutions and prided itself on being able to attract to its 500-acre campus the best and the brightest students. Robert had received enthusiastic recommendations from several of his lower school teachers, but his grades weren’t particularly good. Nor were his scores on the required Secondary School Aptitude Tests.
Still, the staff reasoned, the boy had been a member of the Greys, which had supplied Choate with a number of its finest alumni, and during his interview he’d come across as exceptionally well-mannered and charming. They decided to accept him.
The news stirred him. Made him proud. He was going on “to other things bigger and better than New York,” he wrote in the yearbook of a girl he liked. She had nicknamed him Romeo, and he signed with the nickname. Then he scrawled another goodbye on another page, and this time boastfully appended to his signature, “Romeo, The Great! The Sacred! The Fantastic! Forever Great! Nice Guy!”
Representative Geraldine Ferraro, whose son John Zaccaro, Jr., had gone to St. David’s, gave the commencement address on the day of Robert’s graduation. From a podium at the Church of St. Thomas More, she reminded Robert and his classmates of all the advantages they had received and urged them always to remember how fortunate they were and give something back to society.
John Dermont and his wife, Barbara, were at the ceremony. They sat in a pew listening dutifully to the speeches and award presentations. Dermont grew drowsy. Then suddenly he heard that the next award would be for the eighth-grade history essay competition. He sat up straight. “Phyllis didn’t tell me when she asked me to help Robert with his history essay,” he whispered to Barbara, “that it was for a competition.”
“Sssh,” Barbara said.
Dermont didn’t quiet down. “If she’d told me, I’d never have agreed to help.”
“You only helped,” Barbara said. “You didn’t write it.”
“That’s not the point. I made research suggestions. Contributed ideas. If Robert wins, I’m going to have to tell the school.”
A moment later the winner was announced. Dermont was relieved to hear another boy’s name. “I guess I shouldn’t have worried,” he whispered to Barbara. “Because even with help, Robert probably didn’t write an organized essay. His porch light is off.”
In the fall Jennifer began at John Philip Sousa, a public junior high in Port Washington.
She wasn’t happy about the school. Port Washington had two junior highs, Sousa and Weber, and many of the friends she had arduously made in sixth grade were at Weber, because they lived in its district. She complained about being parted from her old companions, and complained too that Sousa was cliquish. “I don’t fit in,” she wailed to a friend. “I’ll never fit in.” But her social anxiety made her push herself forward, and soon she was hanging out with girls in the school’s most powerful clique.
One Sunday morning that fall, John Dermont’s breakfast was interrupted by an urgent telephone call. It was from Phyllis Chambers, who sounded on the verge of hysteria. “Robert’s down from Choate,” she said. “And Bob’s been drinking the whole weekend. He’s upset the boy.” She rattled on for a few minutes, and Dermont tried to calm her down. But she didn’t calm down. And after a while she said, “I want you to come over and put Bob out of the apartment.”
Dermont was startled. “That’s a pretty drastic thing to do to a man, to put him out of his home.”
“I don’t care. I want him out.”
Dermont hesitated. Bob Chambers was a big man. Not aggressive, but nevertheless big. If Bob was drunk, and he tried to get him to leave, there could be trouble. “What’s Bob doing now?” he asked Phyllis. “Is he intoxicated now?”
“No. But you’d better come right away.”
Dermont was moved by the distress in her voice and said he’d be right over. But as he was scrambling into his coat, he was as worried that Bob might agree to leave his home as that he might resist. “You can’t just throw a guy out of his house,” he said to his wife. “You’ve got to offer him an alternative.”
“Of course,” Barbara said. “But what?”
“Roosevelt Hospital,” Dermont remembered. “Call them and see if they’ve got a free bed in their detoxification unit. If they do, tell them to hold it.” Then he raced out of his apartment.
At the Chamberses’, he was let in by Phyllis and Robert, who quickly retreated to a bedroom, leaving him alone with Bob in the dining room. “I’ve got to use the phone,” he said to Bob, and dialed Barbara.
“Did you reach Roosevelt?” he asked when she picked up. “Do they have a bed?”
“Yes. I said you’d be right over.”
“Good.” Dermont hung up and began trying to explain to Bob why he was here. “Phyllis asked me to come,” he said. “She and Robert don’t want you here anymore.”
Bob stared at him with a face full of sorrow and incomprehension. “Who doesn’t want me here?” he asked.
“Your family,” Dermont said. “They want you to go. For your own good.”
Bob put his head in his hands.
“Don’t worry,” Dermont said. “We’re going to go over to Roosevelt Hospital. You can stay there a week, and then you can get into Smithers.”
“I don’t know,” Bob said. And he looked so uncertain that Dermont decided that Phyllis and Robert ought to talk to him now, too. Tell him that even though they wanted him gone, they still cared for him. He called Phyllis out of the bedroom, explained his plan about Roosevelt to her, and stood quietly as she told Bob what a good idea it was and that she only wanted him to leave because it would help him. Then he called Robert out. “Tell your father how much you love him,” he said.
The boy didn’t speak. Wouldn’t speak.
“You do love him, don’t you?” Dermont prompted. But still the boy remained silent. Was he angry with his father? Embarrassed? Probably a bit of both, Dermont thought, and remembered that Phyllis had said something earlier about how last night Bob had stumbled and fallen on Robert. “Come on, Robert,” Dermont coaxed the boy, still hoping he’d say something supportive to his father. But Robert just shrugged. Then, “All this fuss is taking too long,” he muttered. “I’ve got to be back up at school in a few hours.”
At that, Bob Chambers stood up. And a moment later he slammed the front door and was gone.
Fifteen minutes afterward, while Phyllis and Dermont were considering what to do, Robert skittered out of the apartment and began looking for his father. He searched for him in all his favorite bars. He tore through the neighborhood, going up and down the streets. But he didn’t find Bob, and a few hours later he returned to Choate.
The glitter of gold on red leaves when the first demure bursts of sun light on them, the silver foil of frost that wraps each sheath of grass. Autumn mornings in Connecticut were breathtaking. But after that weekend in New York, Robert rarely woke up in time to see them anymore. He had begun using cocaine and, enjoying the rush, was staying up late, only to drowse away his mornings. Years later, he would tell his parents that he’d never have used coke except for what he’d gone through that terrible weekend when his father had slammed out of the apartment. He’d wanted to blot out the experience, the memory, he said. But his initial explorations of cocaine may have had nothing to do with that painful weekend, may have been the result of cocaine’s new and widespread availability. Once a rare drug, it had become in the early 1980s easy to get, even at boarding school, even at Choate. Some Choate students would soon be financing the smuggling of the drug direct to the campus from Caracas.
Robert’s teachers didn’t know he was using cocaine, or so they later maintained. But they were worried about his absences from class. They alerted Tom Yankus, the vice principal, who called Robert into his office. “You’ve been cutting classes,” Yankus told him. “You’re heading for disaster.”
“I’m keeping up with the work,” Robert said sincerely. “My grades’ll turn out fine.”
“I have a favor to ask of you,” Phyllis wrote to Yankus early in December 1980. “Your student, my son Robert Chambers, enjoyed many years of active participation in the Knickerbocker Greys. On December 12, the group will hold its 100th Christmas Review. Robert, and a goodly number of other ‘old boys,’ have shown an enthusiastic interest in putting on their dress uniforms and participating in the review.”
For close to two years she had been working on the great event, and now it appeared that her son might not be able to witness her triumph. Choate seemed reluctant to give him time off in the middle of the term. She would have Bob with her, of course. Several weeks after she and Dermont had tried to get him to go to Roosevelt Hospital, Bob had returned home. But she wanted Robert present, too. So she described the event to the vice principal. And she invited him, too, using language that might remind him of his own patriotic past. “I believe that you saw naval service,” she wrote, “and our ceremonies may be evocative of that period of your life.”
Yankus did not accept the personal invitation, but he did grant permission for Robert to attend. Phyllis sent a limousine up to the school to bring her boy home. She always seemed to have money for treats like that for him.
On the night of the ceremony she was in her glory. She dressed in a pink Nipon frock and made her way prettily to the armory, which had been decorated for the Christmas season in a wealth of tinsel and poinsettias. Scores of important guests—among them Major General Robert Arter, commander of the U.S. Army Military District of Washington, D.C., and the Old Guard, the troops that paraded before visiting heads of state—had congregated in the cavernous halls. Phyllis greeted them, proudly eyed her ranks of meticulously attired junior soldiers, and gave an interview to a Town & Country reporter. “Discipline is still the main theme,” she said. “The teaching that is given in the Greys trains a boy how to walk properly, tall and straight. How to have respect for people both older and younger than himself, and how to accept responsibility.”
Robert, standing nearby, wanted to be in the magazine story, too. “The best part,” he spoke up, “is becoming an officer. Then you get to boss other people around. That’s a whole lot better than taking orders.”
Phyllis was not amused. “It’s a very tough world out there,” she said, cutting him off. “A boy who receives this training is less likely to fall by the wayside later on.”
The review was highly successful. The Old Guard’s fife and drum corps provided rousing music, and the boys paraded majestically. But afterward, when the guests made their way upstairs for dinner in the armory’s baronial dining hall, Phyllis’s triumph lost some of its gloss. Bob decided not to stay for the meal. Just as people were sitting down to eat, he disappeared for the evening.
At Christmas, when Robert came down for his school vacation, his father was once again not living at home. “He’s traveling on business,” Robert told a friend.
The holiday whirled forward. Robert went to numerous parties, and in the process caught up with numerous old acquaintances. One was a girl on whom he’d had a serious crush the year before. She was younger than he, still in grade school, and perhaps that made him feel secure, for he started seeing a great deal of her and confiding to her that he had problems. But although whenever he was with her he told her she was everything he’d ever wanted in a girl, he didn’t—like other fourteen-year-old boys she knew—get physical with her.
She didn’t mind. It shows he respects me, she thought.
Sometime that spring, Tom Yankus decided that Robert didn’t belong at Choate. He wasn’t taking school seriously. His room was a clubhouse. He hadn’t made up his missing work. Writing to Phyllis, Yankus informed her that the venerable institution didn’t want her son back for the next semester.
Phyllis was dismayed. She looked into other boarding schools. But eventually she decided to let Robert live at home and go to a private high school in the city next year. It was what he wanted.
That summer, bumping along twisting Spanish roads, Riply Buckner, an American prep school student, sat in a tour bus and stared enviously at Robert Chambers. Robert was two years younger than Riply, yet he was surrounded by girls. Some of them were even older girls. Riply wished he knew the younger kid’s secret.
He started talking to him after that, got to know him a little. The kid had been kicked out of Choate, which was sponsoring the trip, but they’d let him come to Spain anyway because he’d already paid his deposit.
Riply liked him. It’s not his fault all the girls have the hots for him, he decided. He just has this cool air about him, like he’s slightly superior to everyone else, and girls go for that. I do, too. It makes you think when you’re with the guy that it’s something of a privilege.
One night he went drinking with Robert at a noisy little tapas bar, where they downed beer by the liter. Then he and Robert sat talking on the roof of their hotel. From the roof they could see a moonlit panorama of red-tiled houses and vaulting church spires. Below was the deserted courtyard of the hotel. Robert was in an expansive mood. Words poured out of him. Riply tried to keep up, hoping he sounded witty and wise. But after a while he got the feeling that Robert wasn’t listening to him, was just asking him to be his audience. Still, he was pleased to be up on the roof with him.
While they were sitting there, Robert had an idea. There were big chunks of marble lying on the rooftop. “Let’s throw one into the courtyard,” he said. “Watch it explode.”
Riply got uneasy. But there was no one in the courtyard. Everyone was asleep. “Okay,” he said, “sure.” And he helped Robert heft a wedge of marble, poise it on the roof’s edge, and heave it down. It hit the stones below with a terrific noise and sounded, just as Robert had suggested it might, like an explosion.
“Let’s get another one,” Robert said.
Riply was frightened of throwing down another block of marble. Someone might hear. Come after them. But he was even more afraid of seeming less than daring. So he helped Robert heft another wedge and cast it over the roof edge. Then he helped him heft another. And another.
He and Robert hurled stones into the desolate night for a half hour. No one heard them. No one came. Then at last, manic energy spent, they left the roof and retreated to an exhausted slumber.
Trips abroad. Private schools for Robert. The occasional limousine. How did Phyllis manage? her friends wondered. They assumed that Bob’s family helped out. But they didn’t think they helped out to any great degree. If they had, Phyllis wouldn’t have had to work as hard as she did. She was always working. She put in twelve-hour shifts. Night shifts mostly.
In the fall of 1981, after his return from Europe, Robert began his sophomore year at Browning, an all-male prep school on Manhattan’s East Side that was less renowned than Choate but nevertheless prestigious. The reasons that Choate had asked him to leave were apparently not on his school records, for Browning’s assistant headmaster, Dr. Gilbert Smith, had no reservations about the new student, except for not being certain he believed the boy’s explanation of his departure from Choate—he’d said he simply wanted to be back in the city. Still, he seemed like a fine young man, his demeanor uncommonly pleasant. Smith decided to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Jennifer re-enrolled at Sousa. But she seemed to some of her teachers to be distinctly unhappy that term. Her schoolwork was poor. And while she wasn’t officially classified as a slow reader, she read less swiftly than many of her classmates and showed little interest in what she did read. More, she was on the outs with her clique.
One teacher, worried about her, took it upon herself to introduce Jennifer to her own daughter, who went to the town’s other junior high, Weber.
“I wish I could go to Weber,” Jennifer told her new friend. “The girls at Sousa suck.”
“What’s the matter with them?”
“They’ve been spreading stories about me.”
“What kind of stories?”
Jennifer wouldn’t say.
“My mother’s a doctor,” Robert told a friend that year. “My father’s the president of a record company,” he said to other friends. He was hanging out with a well-heeled group of city prep school students; and power, position, and money were important to them. He had friends who had been promised Porsches for their eighteenth birthdays, friends who lived in twelve-room apartments and weekended in the cold weather at their vacation homes in Florida’s Palm Beach, in the warm weather at their homes in Long Island’s luxury towns of Southampton and East Hampton. They were a sophisticated, a glittering set. They partied a lot, traveled by limousine to fashionable discos, and wore gold Rolexes with their jeans and T-shirts.
Drugs made their nights go round, their parties soar, their lively cliques click and keep clicking throughout the hours. They had no trouble getting drugs. One girl’s housekeeper sold cocaine. So did the tutor from whom some of them took private lessons. All that was necessary was money, and that most of the set, except for Robert, had in abundance.
At a party that winter, a girl saw Robert rifling through the guests’ coat pockets. At another, the hostess came upon him opening drawers in her parents’ bedroom. Neither of the two girls challenged Robert. But they gossiped about the incidents.
“I’m not inviting Robert to my party,” a third girl told her best friend one night.
“You can’t do that,” her friend said. “He’s one of us. We go way back. Just tell people to be careful where they put their stuff.”
Early in 1982, Jennifer transferred to Weber for her last semester of junior high. Ellen Levin had taken a different, somewhat larger house on a street that was in the Weber district. It was a white stucco two-story house with an attic on top. The shingles on the roof were chipped and cracked. The lawn was small.
The Chamberses moved in 1982, too. Or at least Phyllis and Robert did, for at the time of the move, Bob Chambers was away. He’d at last decided to enter a rehabilitation clinic, this one out of town.
The Chamberses’ new apartment bore one of the most prestigious addresses in the city. It was on East 90th Street off Fifth Avenue, a few doors away from the Cooper-Hewitt Museum. They’d been able to afford the move because the modest building on Park Avenue in which they’d raised Robert had gone co-op, and they’d bought their apartment at the advantageous insiders’ price, then sold it at a profit.
The building Phyllis chose this time was elegant, its lobby tiled with black and white marble and ornamented with Italianate murals and glistening bronze sconces and chandeliers. The apartment itself was equally imposing. Once the library of the mansion, it had paneled walls and a fireplace. Phyllis took the apartment’s front bedroom and gave Robert its back one, a quiet private area that looked down upon the playground of an elite girls’ school.
Decorating, Phyllis concentrated not just on her apartment but on the public areas of the building as well. She wanted, she told her new neighbors, to make the lobby even prettier and to have the patch of earth in front of the house cleaned out and planted into a proper flower bed. The neighbors were slow to become involved, but Phyllis moved ahead, installing a luxuriant ficus tree in the lobby and hiring someone to plant impatiens in the sidewalk plot.
Having a good address and a beautiful place to live may have held unusual importance for her that winter, for, her presidency of the Greys over, she was devoting her fund-raising skills to a new cause. It was the Gold & Silver Ball, a major East Side charity event that raised money for emotionally disturbed and disadvantaged young people. On the strength of her Greys experience, she had been made a member of the ball’s executive committee and was serving on it side by side with dazzlingly rich men and women. Gloria Vanderbilt was on the committee. So was Donald Trump.
Dr. Smith had his hands full. All autumn, Browning had been plagued by a rash of vandalism and robberies. Graffiti had appeared on pristine walls. Lockers had been broken into and students’ wallets emptied. The losses and disturbances were minor, but they were the kind of thing that could drive a headmaster crazy, and Smith worried about them. He determined to locate the culprit or culprits forthwith and mete out swift punishment.
He didn’t think Robert Chambers was involved. Robert didn’t strike him as a troublemaker, though he hung around with some who were. No, Robert was weak, a follower. Not the fellow he was looking for. One of his good friends was. He called Robert’s friend into his office and, certain he had found the wrongdoer, expelled him.
He also alerted Phyllis Chambers to Robert’s unfortunate choice of companions. She responded well. Unlike other mothers to whom the headmaster had sometimes had to break unpleasant news about their children, she didn’t just pooh-pooh what he was saying but promised she’d keep an eye on her son. She must have her share of problems with him, Smith thought.
He was one of the few people to whom Phyllis communicated this impression. At around the same time the headmaster spoke to her about Robert, Phyllis was using her influence with the organizers of the Gold & Silver Ball to escalate her son’s social connections. She was urging them to put him on the charity’s junior committee, which helped plan the Ball, and where he could meet and share responsibilities with a von Bülow, a Uzielli, a Rockefeller. She said nothing to suggest that Robert would be less than an exemplary committee member, and her request was granted.
One wintry weekend when the remains of a long-forgotten snowstorm lay gray and greasy at the edges of the city’s streets, Robert went skiing at Gore Mountain in Vermont, The trip had been organized by Browning, but students from other private high schools had been invited to participate. Leilia Van Baker, the girl who had some years earlier marveled at the large romantic portrait of Robert that hung in his living room, was fourteen now and in the ninth grade at Miss Hewitt’s. She came on the expedition, along with a friend of hers from the fashionable academy. They and the rest of the group traveled by bus and stayed in a pretty hotel.
The trip was a voyage to freedom. The very air, smog-free and tinglingly cold, made the students look back on life in New York as a kind of prison, a place that had been suffocating them. They soared down the mountain, which glistened with powdery snow, and felt themselves to be almost magical creatures, capable of flight. The ecstasy of skiing continued on into the night, when they gathered around a fire to listen to music and talk. Robert and several of his friends had brought along bags of pot and huge bong pipes with which to smoke it. They’d also brought cases of beer and bottles of whiskey.
Leilia had a wonderful time at the impromptu party. So did her schoolmate. But after a while Leilia’s schoolmate disappeared. So did one of the boys. Leilia waited for her friend to reappear, but when after a long while she didn’t, Leilia went looking for her. Tiptoeing along a bedroom corridor, she opened doors. No sign of her friend. Then, in the dim light of one room, she saw a familiar figure. It was her friend, lying alone on a rumpled bed.
Leilia hurried toward her. Her friend didn’t move. She was dead still, her neck covered with hickeys and her face covered with vomit. “Help!” Leilia screamed. Afraid that her friend might have choked on her vomit, she turned her over.
In a moment other girls and boys poured into the room. “Call an ambulance!” someone shouted. Someone else did, and Leilia’s friend, comatose, was taken to a hospital.
The next day the group boarded a bus for New York. Leilia was gloomy. Her friend was all right. She hadn’t choked. But she’d lost her virginity, still felt sick from passing out, and was being kept at the hospital. As the bus started rolling, Leilia kept brooding about what had happened. Kept thinking that she, too, could have gotten so wasted that she might have had her first sexual experience in a stupor. Had it with a partner so stoned that when it was over he’d wander away, leave her practically at death’s door. She was furious with the boy who had seduced and abandoned her schoolmate. But she was angry at Robert, too. He and his friends had supplied the drugs and the booze.
Still, in the middle of the bus ride, Robert came and sat with her, and he was nice and comforting. Sexy, too. He made a pass at her. She didn’t respond to it, but she talked to him a good part of the way. And in the end she decided that what had happened to her friend hadn’t really been Robert’s fault but the fault of the group at large.
She forgave Robert and went on being his friend.
Jennifer went on a ski trip that winter, too. Her friends—as soon as she’d transferred to Weber, she’d made many—tried the trails at Plattekill in upstate New York. It was one of her first attempts at skiing, and she ended up spending a good part of the time tumbling into snowbanks.
Her friends weren’t sure how much of her performance was lack of skill, how much of it a show designed to amuse them. She was always fooling around, always trying to make them laugh. One day she doused a slice of pizza pie with Parmesan, took a bite, then grabbed another girl and, holding her tight, breathed a mighty breath of strong cheese on her. The girl struggled to escape, and the rest of the crew broke into peals of laughter. Another time, a group of girls at her heels, she burst into a neighborhood fruit store and shouted at the surprised owner, “Your peaches suck!” The girls behind her fled, afraid of the owner’s wrath, but when Jennifer, panting, caught up with them, they hugged and kissed her and shrieked with amusement.
Her crowd consisted chiefly of girls from her junior high and a handful of older boys, high school students already. She didn’t think the boys found her attractive. She worried about her skin, which was freckled and sometimes blemished, about her height, which was greater than that of her girlfriends, and about her weight and her figure, stooping her shoulders to minimize her inches and dressing in loose baggy shirts to conceal her burgeoning breasts. But in fact boys in the crowd did find her appealing, and on occasion she went on dates with two of the best-looking.
Dates weren’t, however, what her group was really into. Not then. Not yet. Mostly, everyone just got together and hung out. During lunch period they met and ate their sandwiches in a secluded place they called “the dungeon,” a stairwell alongside a local church. After school they gossiped and told jokes in the playing field bleachers. And once in a while they cut classes, parked themselves in someone’s basement den, and smoked marijuana.
The day Jennifer tried it, she enjoyed it at first, laughed and kidded around. But afterward she acted confused, began running up and down a staircase, and cried that she was looking for something she’d misplaced. She couldn’t find it, or even explain just what it was.
“My pocketbook’s gone,” a primary-grade treacher at Browning told Dr. Smith one afternoon. “It was in my desk, and somehow it’s vanished.”
The teacher was agitated, and Smith tried to comfort her. “Don’t worry. We’ll find it,” he said. “I’ll help you.”
But although they searched high and low, the pocketbook didn’t turn up.
A week later, Dr. Smith picked up his office telephone to hear Phyllis Chambers’s voice. “I was going through Robert’s things,” she said, “and I found some credit cards. With the name of a teacher at the school.”
Smith called Robert into his office. “Did you steal that teacher’s pocketbook?” he demanded.
“No,” Robert said. He sounded polite and composed. “A friend of mine did. But I know where it is. I helped him hide it.”
“Where is it?”
“I’ll show you.”
Unabashed, Robert led the way to the fourth floor. There he pointed to an air-conditioning duct. Smith reached to the top of the duct and found the pocketbook.
What was going on in Robert’s mind? The headmaster, regarding him with curiosity, couldn’t tell. This boy’s got the quality of being behind plate glass, he thought. And he looks blank, looks as if he feels no anger at being implicated in the theft, no surprise, no emotion of any kind.
He didn’t hesitate. He expelled him.
Robert took the news casually. “Aw, preppies, the hell with them,” he told a friend. “Fuck the whole scene.”
It was different for Phyllis. Prep school was what she had always wanted for Robert. Prep school, and then the Ivy League. Now who knew what prep school would take him in. Certainly not the old established, highly competitive ones like Choate and Browning. Not anymore. What was to be done? That Robert had stolen in order to buy drugs must have been apparent to her, for she decided to send him to a drug rehabilitation clinic. No doubt she was hoping that once he was clean she would find a way to pick up the shards of her shattered dreams.
She didn’t want her friends to know about Robert’s drug use. She kept it quiet. But she packed him off to the Chemical Dependency Unit in Baton Rouge, Louisiana.
By February 1982, Robert was back from Louisiana. Early that month, Ronald Stewart, the founder and headmaster of York Preparatory, a coed school on the Upper East Side, received a telephone call from David Hume, the headmaster of St. David’s. “We had this really nice kid here,” Stewart heard Hume say. “He’s been at Browning. But he’s been unhappy there. Would you take him?”
Stewart, a garrulous and cheerful schoolmaster given to thoughts and pronouncements of Dickensian airiness, wasn’t surprised that his friend and colleague was asking him to take in a boy who was doing poorly at another school. York, which Stewart had founded only thirteen years earlier, did it all the time. If we only took the surefire successes, was the way Stewart looked at it, what good would we be doing mankind?
“David,” he said to Hume, “you got it.”
Of course, Stewart also interviewed Robert, met his mother, learned about the explusion from Browning, and looked over the boy’s transcripts from both Browning and Choate. They were unimpressive. But the IQ was adequate. It was 120. And Robert’s mother had a satisfactory enough explanation of why her son had run into difficulties at Browning. “He had trouble adjusting,” she said. “Because it was an all-boys school.”
Stewart accepted Robert.
After he did, he was glad he’d done so. He liked the way the boy regularly arrived at school dressed in a white shirt and blazer, the way he never seemed to need prodding to rise to his feet when adults entered the classroom, and the way he quickly joined the soccer team, becoming a star player.
Still, the new sophomore wasn’t entirely satisfactory. “Robert is a capable student,” Stewart wrote to Phyllis toward the end of the school term. “But he must learn to make a consistent effort.”
Jennifer finished her last term of junior high with a drama of betrayal and rejection. A classmate of hers had been flirting with one of her boyfriends, and on the last day of classes Jennifer got furious with her. “You’re a fat, slutty bitch,” she yelled, even though their teacher was present. Then she confronted the boy. “Did you fool around?” she asked him. “With her?”
“No,” he said.
But after that he started avoiding Jennifer, and she became convinced that he had lied to her. Rejection. It haunted her. She couldn’t put her hurt feelings out of her mind and wrote bitterly about the incident to a friend.
Summer arrived, hot and muggy. Phyllis got Robert a job with the Wall Street law firm Davis Polk & Wardwell. She telephoned one of the firm’s partners, a lawyer she knew because his son had been in the Knickerbocker Greys during her presidency. “Robert’s looking for a summer job,” she said. “Can you help him find one?”
The lawyer called the office manager, put in a good word, and soon Robert was running copying machines and delivering messages.
Jennifer went to summer camp in the Adirondacks. When camp was over, she moved once again—this time out of her mother’s house in Port Washington and into the home of her father and stepmother in Manhattan. Steve and Arlene were living now in SoHo, one of the city’s hot new real estate areas, a region where long-neglected cast-iron mercantile buildings were rapidly being converted into dramatic apartments, trendy boutiques, and avantgarde art galleries. Steve was managing numerous SoHo properties. And he had purchased and renovated an enormous loft for himself and Arlene, decorating it with exciting art and expensive furniture.
Jennifer’s move to SoHo was abrupt, and it surprised some of her junior high friends, who had always thought her fond of her mother. But years later she would tell other friends that her mother hadn’t looked after her properly, hadn’t given her the security and guidance she’d needed.
In Manhattan, Steve and Arlene created an area for Jennifer in the loft—a balcony room that looked down on the vast space below. They let her choose the colors and hang posters, and they got her her own telephone and answering machine. They also went with her to investigate city high schools. Visiting several, they settled on Baldwin. It was a West Side private school that was known for providing special help to students with learning disabilities. Jennifer had had difficulties keeping up with Port Washington classmates. The new school, the Levins hoped, would give her the kind of academic boost she needed.