The Equation of Time

Joshua Effiong | 360 words

Take: x = today, y = tomorrow, and k = time

 

Question I: What would you consider as constant

                  if all of these unknown variables wear

                  the memory of you?

 

Answer: Here’s the return of old habits. Of multiplying

                  nights & days to equal the number of times

                  I spent nursing the broken pieces of my past.

                  I teleport into childhood, and bathe in

                  its innocence. I unsee the clouds gathering in

                  my father’s eyes as they announce another

                  downpour of smith​er​eens. In my mother’s,

                  I recollect shimmers of her withered dreams.

                  I, fleshy strangeness, wrapped in naivety,

                  unperturbed by the world’s chaos.

 

Question II: If x = now, find y?

 

Answer: I, an offspring of a broken hymn stuck in

                  the diastema of my ancestors. I, an x with all

                  of life’s present tense, & the moon’s salty tears running

                  in my veins. every ar​te​ri​ole quakes with the

                  uncertainties of y, which is too big to feed

                  a clairvoyant’s delight. y, an amalgam of tomorrow

                  and now.

 

Question III: Interpret the expression y = kx

 

Answer: Like plastics obeying fire, I submit myself

                  to be scrutinized by time. I let the wind predict

                  the path I follow. I allow the things I can’t control

                  to providence. But, at constant time, tomorrow

                  is dependent on today. In this equation, everything

                  outlives time except memories.

©2023 by Joshua Effiong.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Joshua Effiong is a writer and digital artist from the Örö people of Nigeria. He is a a Pushcart Prize nominee, winner of Aster Lit’s Spring 2022 Award in Poetry, 2nd prize winner of Creators of Justice Awards 2021(poetry category), Finalist for 2021 River Heron Editors’ Prize and Semi-finalist for Jack Grapes Poetry Prize 2021. His poetry chapbook Autopsy of Things Left Unnamed was published in 2020. His work has been published or is forthcoming in Kalahari Review, Shallow Tales Review, Rough Cut Press, Madrigal Press, Titled House, The Indianapolis Review, Chestnut Review, Rising Phoenix Review, Acropolis Journal, FERAL, Augment Review, Ghost City Press, Hearth Magazine, 580 split, Wrongdoing Magazine, Vast Literary Press, Native Skin and elsewhere. Find him on Instagram @josh.effiong and twitter @JoshEffiong