Lucas watched the Toyota until it left the parking lot, turning right onto Main Street before it was out of sight. He frowned, wondering why he’d been so worked up by the fact somebody was driving a propane tank home.
Yeah, propane could lead to explosions – he’d seen one or two of them in his time – but the woman had said she was a local, and he could see from the way she steered her car that she was a careful driver. It still didn’t stop his body from feeling as though he was on high alert. His blood pumping through his veins as if he’d just been on a long run.
Maybe it was being back in town that did it for him, but then he came back often enough – to visit his parents or to meet up with friends. In the months since Christmas he must have been in Angel Sands at least four times.
But those were only visits. Now he was home for two months, and he had absolutely no idea what to do with himself.
He glanced to the left again, at the empty space where the Camry had been. His thoughts turned to its driver, the woman who seemed determined to lift that propane tank into the trunk. He’d watched her wheel the metal tank out of Megassey’s, her nose screwed up with concentration when she managed to get the tank back onto its end. For a moment he’d hesitated, not wanting to interfere, reminding himself he wasn’t at work now.
But that’s not how he ticked; if somebody needed assistance, he gave it to them.
“Lucas Russell, is that you?”
Pulling his gaze away from the empty parking lot, Lucas turned to see Frank Megassey himself climbing out of a van and onto the blacktop. “Yes, sir, it’s me.”
“Your mom told me you were coming back.” Frank came to a stop in front of him, pulling his tattered blue Padres cap from his head, and folding it in his hands. “Told me you should be sending some business my way, too. I hear you’re fixing up the old cottage.”
Lucas had only been back in town less than two hours. He couldn’t help but be impressed by how fast the grapevine was working. “I’m gonna try,” he said. “I’ve got two months to refit it completely. I’m not sure if that’s enough time.”
“It’s a small place, it shouldn’t take that long.” Frank nodded at him, his eyes narrowing. “You’ll need a new kitchen, a new bathroom, and maybe some rewiring. I know a few good electricians if you need a referral.”
“That would be great.”
“And what are you going to do with it once it’s all refurbished?” Frank asked. “Sell it or keep it as a rental?”
“I’ve no idea, I haven’t thought that far ahead. I guess I’d have to talk to Caitie about it.” The thought of selling the place made his neck itch. Yet what good was it to them when he was living in White City and Caitie was all the way across the country in New York? Lucas wasn’t usually this sentimental over things.
“Well, no worries about that right now. Why don’t we go to my office and I can write down what we need to order in for you. I can arrange for it to be delivered straight to your place.” Frank inclined his head toward the hardware store, and the two of them made their way to his office, a tiny cubbyhole stuffed at the back. For the next twenty minutes, they discussed the pros and cons of plumbing systems and wiring, as Frank made notes on his order pad with his blue pen. When they finished, he laid it back down on the desk and smiled up at Lucas.
“Okay, you should have this all by the end of the week.”
“Thanks, Frank. I appreciate it.” Lucas smiled at him. Maybe there were some advantages of living in a small town. He was pretty sure he wouldn’t have gotten this kind of service in White City.
“Well that’s good, because I have a favor to ask of you.”
“You do? What’s that?”
Frank hesitated for a moment, drumming his fingers on the table in a fast rhythm. “It’s the Angel Day Fair in a few weeks. I could sure use your help on the committee.”
Lucas opened his mouth, but no words came out. Quickly closing it, he swallowed, and tried to think of a fast excuse.
Helping out with the Angel Day Fair was the last thing he wanted to do. It was Angel Sands’ annual day of celebration, a time to look back to the day the town was founded over a hundred and fifty years earlier. Even as a kid he’d found the fair a little too sickly sweet for his taste; he’d preferred to grab his surfboard and take advantage of the fact that none of the tourists were on the beach, riding the waves with his friends until night fell.
He hadn’t been to one of the fairs for years, hadn’t even thought about it. Maybe his mom had mentioned it from time to time, but even that was hazy.
“I…ah…” Lucas swallowed again. “What kind of help?”
Frank’s smile broadened. From the way the older man was looking at him, he must have thought it was a done deal. “You don’t have to do much. Just attend a couple of committee meetings and then help on the day of. I’ll probably put you on security. There aren’t a lot of young men like you on the committee.”
Lucas could bet his bottom dollar on it. “I’m not sure. I’m gonna be busy with the renovation, plus I’m volunteering for the Fire Department. Mitch Lakin might need me on call.”
“You are? That’s great. I’ll call Mitch and let him know you’re on the committee. We always have a firefighter on hand to help us with health and safety.” Frank clapped his hands together. “This is pure serendipity.”
“Yeah. It sure is.” Or bad luck. Tomayto-tomahto.
“Our first meeting is next week. I’ll give you a call with the details.”
The two of them stood, and Frank shook Lucas’ hand vehemently. “It’s really good to have you back in town, Lucas.”
It was? Right now Lucas wasn’t quite so sure about that.
“It was a good party, wasn’t it?” Chelsea asked Ember, as the two of them walked along the shoreline later that evening, their bare feet sinking into the wet sand. The sun was slowly setting into the horizon, painting the sky with a palette of oranges and blues. A few wispy clouds drifted above the skyline, their tips tinged with deep purple.
Ember loved the beach at this time of night. It reminded her of when she was a child, and their father would sneak her down for one last paddle before bedtime. After Chelsea was born, Ember had clung a little closer to him, surprised and perplexed by the closeness her mother had to the new baby. And he’d stepped up, the way a father should, making her feel special and loved. He’d shown her that her age gave her special privileges. That they could go on adventures that Chelsea couldn’t until she was older. He taught her that being a big sister had way more benefits than downsides.
She felt that keenly, now, as they meandered toward the boardwalk, the lights from the pier sparkling in the distance. She missed Chelsea when she wasn’t here, especially after her split with Will. There was a special bond between the sisters that made her heart feel full.
“It really was,” Ember agreed. “I think Mom enjoyed it, even if I caught her having a little cry in the garage earlier.”
Chelsea sighed. “She spends a lot of time in there, doesn’t she?”
“She says it makes her feel closer to Dad.” Ember wiggled her toes in the sand. “Though all it does is make her upset. I keep telling her we should clear it out, but she won’t.”
“It will be a hell of a job. I don’t blame her.” Chelsea raised her eyebrows. “There’s stuff in there going back forty years. He never threw anything out.”
Their father wasn’t exactly a hoarder, but he liked to keep old things. Empty boxes of appliances they’d long since stopped using, old collections of stamps, and maps that he hadn’t looked at in years. He’d kept them meticulously organized, in labeled boxes that lined the shelves, but there were still so many of them.
“Remember how Mom used to tell him to throw it all away?” Ember said, as they reached the shoreline. It had been Chelsea’s idea to come down to the beach, the way they used to when they were kids. To watch the sun sink down, and the curtain of night lift up. “Here’s her chance, and now she’s refusing to do it.”
“I guess people grieve in different ways,” Chelsea said.
“Yeah, they do.” A wave washed in, covering their feet as they walked. The water was surprisingly cold given the warmth of the evening. They were both still wearing shorts – though Chelsea had covered her arms up with a jacket, and Ember had pulled on one of her mom’s old sweaters before they left the house. “I just wish I could do something to help her.”
That was the hardest part. Dealing with her own grief was one thing, but watching her mother try to claw through it was another. A reminder of what happened when you lost somebody you loved.
Ember knew a little about that.
“I’m worried about both of you,” Chelsea said, turning to look at her sister. It was as though she could read Ember’s mind. “And if I’m being honest, I feel a little guilty as well. I’ve left you to carry most of the burden while I’ve been in Sacramento.”
Ember smiled, reaching out for her sister’s hand and folding it in her own. “You didn’t abandon us, you have work to do. And this isn’t a burden, it’s our family. Sometimes one of us will do more work, and sometimes the other will.” She squeezed Chelsea’s fingers before letting them go.
“But you’ve had so much to deal with.” Chelsea sighed, shaking her head slowly. “With Will leaving, and Dad dying so soon after. It must be awful for you.”
“It wasn’t that soon. It was two months later.” The breeze dancing in from the ocean was making her lips feel dry. She moistened them with the tip of her tongue, tasting salt on her skin.
“I can’t believe he didn’t come to the funeral.”
“I told him not to, remember?” Ember’s chest tightened at that memory.
“Yeah, well he should have come anyway.” Chelsea’s words were full of a grudge only a sister could hold. She’d been angrier at Will’s behavior than Ember had, ranting about him where Ember only felt numb.
She inhaled a deep lungful of ocean air. All this talk about loss was getting her down. “Well, it’s history now. Time to move on.” The corner of her mouth quirked up. “Things can only get better, right?”
“Have you ever thought of moving out of town?” Chelsea asked. Seeing Ember’s horrified expression, she gave a little laugh, then grabbed her sister’s hand. “Don’t screw your nose up. Maybe it would be good for you and Mom to get away from all these memories, make a fresh start. You could come to Sacramento. There are a lot of jobs there.”
Ember tried to picture herself living in a big city like Sacramento, being so far from the shore and the ocean. What would it be like to wake up to office towers and concrete every morning, rather than the sand and sky she was so used to? It had been strange enough when she went to university in San Diego. It had taken some time to get used to the sounds and the scale of the city, but even then she’d had the beach and the wide-open sky to fill her soul.
“And leave Angel Sands?” Ember asked, smiling at her sister to soften her words. “I can’t ever see it happening.”
Chelsea shook her head, her smile mirroring Ember’s. “No, I can’t either. You’re like an Angel Sands institution. They’d set up a search party if you left town.”
Ember laughed. “That doesn’t sound so flattering.”
“Shut up, it’s flattering as hell. People love you here, all your students and their parents. They rave about you.”
Yeah, well she raved about them, too. Ember loved being an elementary school teacher. She could never quite understand people who dreaded Monday mornings, because she always walked into school with a smile on her face.
Well, almost always. There’d been a few weeks when she’d thought she’d never smile again.
“Plus you have Brooke and Ally – they’d be lost without you,” Chelsea continued.
Ember’s heart grew a little bigger at the mention of her two best friends. They’d been at the party earlier – Brooke Newton had brought her son, Nicholas, and Ally Sutton had brought a keg of beer. They’d all grown up together, her ‘sisters from another mister’. Made it through grade school and high school, and then into adulthood without ever losing their closeness. If she went away she’d miss them as much as she missed Chelsea.
The sky was getting darker, turning the buildings that lined the boardwalk into a series of silhouettes. A movement to her left caught her eye. Somebody running on the beach – taking advantage of its emptiness the same way she and Chelsea were. The man’s rhythm was fast and steady, enough for him to put a distance between himself and the sisters before Ember had a chance to really look at him. All she could see was the strength of his body as he moved across the sand. Any sound he made was obliterated by the gentle rhythm of the surf.
“Jogging. Now that’s something you’ll never find me doing,” Chelsea said, her eyes following the runner the same way Ember’s were. “Cycling, yes. Swimming, why not? Running, ugh, no way.”
Ember smiled. “You never did like breaking a sweat.” She could remember a three-year-old Chelsea, her plump little legs working over time in an attempt to keep up with Ember. She’d shout and grumble until Ember would finally slow down and let her catch up.
“Why run when you can drive or cycle? It doesn’t make sense.” Chelsea’s tone was teasing, a welcome respite from their serious discussion. “Although from the looks of that guy, it’s working for him.”
Her words took Ember back to Megassey’s parking lot. To the man who was all muscles and no charm. She sighed at herself, at her reaction to him. She was better than that.
She didn’t want to think about that guy. The same way she didn’t want to think about Will, or her dad, or anything at all. She wanted to empty those thoughts out of her brain, and replace them with a calming nothingness.
“I’ll tell you what,” Ember said, kicking water at her sister’s bare knees. “Let’s show him how it’s really done. I’ll race you to the pier. Last one there has to buy the ice creams.” She’d barely finished her sentence before she was running, her bare feet slapping against the damp sand, her arms flinging out as her fingers clung to the straps of her sandals. The air pushed back against her, lifting her hair and rushing past her face.
“That’s not fair. You’re cheating again,” Chelsea called out. “And you know I hate running.”
But Ember was panting too loudly to hear.