By thirty
the midriff thickens
to remind you
of the babies you never brought to fruition.
Satori is a deferred project.
By thirty
you begin to smell death
on dawn visits to bathrooms.
You know it’s a matter of waiting
until it’s whirled away –
the whispers, creamy with love, aromatic
with the attar of last night’s confidences
and the simple faith of early mornings.
By thirty
you accept that you’ll never shop duty-free
at Reykjavik airport.
You postpone the course in film history
to another lifetime.
You begin to rediscover
an insular passion for melted jaggery.
By thirty
you can almost smile
at the treachery
of friends, lovers, schoolteachers.
Perhaps by forty
you’ll forgive them.
By thirty,
you know you want to walk
away from ruined empires of fermented dream
towards lands vast and unchoreographed,
where every step ahead is adventure,
and every step ahead, anchorage.