realising

how much of the inside

is pure slush

the centre more wobbly

than marmalade,

more roiling

than suburban gutters in August rains.

And then later,

a long time later,

the quiet –

but for how long?

Is this what they call dum pukht,

a slow cunning Awadhi simmer

of hormone and nostalgia

and recycled need,

a deep churning

of juices

in the clay innards

of a sealed vessel,

plotting mutiny

one day

but not yet?