For Kelley
In the dream you are gone
Every time
Not left
but mostly just erased
Your face flutters
Dances blurs
Approaches and recedes
I struggle
but can’t bring you into focus
For whatever reason
I let you get away
one phone call
One bloody phone call
Why didn’t I make that call?
you slip away
gravity pulls me under
Into an alternate universe
Where neither light nor love escape
A terrible what if
Consumes me
Till I wake beside you
And realize
I must have made that call