You wrote a collection of verses, brief and condensed, like your life. You told nobody about them. Your wife discovered them after your death in your desk drawer:
Ferns caress me
Nettles sting me
Brambles scratch me
The city hones me
The house welcomes me
The bedroom calms me
The enemy encourages me
Combat excites me
Victory leaves me indifferent
Day dazzles me
Evening soothes me
Night envelops me
Dominating oppresses me
Subjugating enslaves me
Being alone frees me
Heat bothers me
Rain closes me in
Cold awakens me
Tobacco irritates me
Alcohol tranquilizes me
Drugs isolate me
Evil surprises me
Forgetting is desirable to me
Laughter saves me
Wishing carries me
Pleasure disappoints me
Desire picks me up again
Friendship ties me
Love reveals me
Sex delights me
Accumulation tempts me
Keeping reassures me
Daring relieves me
The sun wearies me
The earth surrounds me
The moon moves me
Life is proposed to me
My name is passed on to me
My body is imposed on me
Television depresses me
Radio disturbs me
Newspapers bore me
Saints fascinate me
The faithful intrigue me
Priests disquiet me
What is unique surprises me
What is double resembles me
What is triple reassures me
Equilibrium maintains me
Falling reveals me
Recovery exhausts me
A single point hypnotizes me
A constellation scatters me
A line guides me
Time is lacking for me
Space is enough for me
The void attracts me
The basement repels me
The attic appeals to me
The staircase guides me
Talent charms me
Virtuosity fools me
Genius illuminates me
Prudence agitates me
Violence excites me
Vengeance disappoints me
Thirst bothers me
Hunger enlivens me
Eating puts me to sleep
The edge tempts me
The hole draws me
The bottom alarms me
The truth moves me
Uncertainty bothers me
Falsehood fascinates me
Gossip misleads me
Polemic enflames me
Silence redeems me
Obstacles raise me
Defeat hardens me
Success mollifies me
Error instructs me
Habit improves me
Perfection obsesses me
Offenses surprise me
Retorts come slowly from me
Contempt avenges me
Perdition tempts me
Irony neutralizes me
Affection redeems me
Faith rattles me
Fidelity suits me
Treason stabs me
Departures delight me
Voyages numb me
Arrivals revive me
Earth bears me
Sand slows me
Mud traps me
Euphoria dissuades me
Innuendo disquiets me
Neutrality convinces me
Sermons annoy me
Examples persuade me
Action vindicates me
Cleaning bores me
Tidying calms me
Discarding delivers me
The new attracts me
The old anchors me
Change animates me
Work fulfills me
Hobbies instruct me
Holidays sedate me
To know makes me grow
Not to know harms me
To forget frees me
Losing is bothersome to me
Winning is a matter of indifference to me
To play is disappointing to me
To deny tempts me
To affirm excites me
To suggest is enough for me
Seducing seduces me
Loving transforms me
Separating pains me
Clothing announces me
Disguises hide me
Uniforms efface me
Speaking commits me
Listening teaches me
Silence tempers me
Birth befalls me
Life occupies me
Death completes me
To climb is difficult for me
To descend is easy for me
To be stationary is useless to me
Homage obliges me
Oration touches me
Eulogy buries me
The flash blinds me
The beam dazzles me
The reflection intrigues me
Speaking identifies me
Shouting frees me
Whispering imposes on me
Humming rocks me
Intoning suspends me
Singing unfolds me
The beginning enthuses me
The middle sustains me
The end disappoints me
Goodness impresses me
Stupidity amuses me
Malice disgusts me
November upsets me
April refreshes me
September soothes me
Envy indisposes me
Jealousy moves me to pity
Hatred distances me
Yesterday wearies me
Sleep immobilizes me
Awakening attacks me
The millennium enfolds me
The century situates me
The decade decorates me
The hour rules me
The minute hurries me
Seconds escape me
Threats fool me
Anguish moves me
Fear excites me
Surprise displeases me
Improvisation harms me
Announcements buttress me
Traps seduce me
Liars fool me
Informers horrify me
The baroque sickens me
The gothic chills me
Novels enlighten me
Red irritates me
Black moves me
White calms me
The solo attracts me
The quartet sustains me
The symphony distances me
Rules serve me
Constraints stimulate me
Obligation extinguishes me
Dialogue binds me
Monologue imposes upon me
Soliloquy isolates me
The air penetrates me
The ground resists me
The underground smothers me
Rhythm leads me
Melody charms me
Harmony troubles me
Aquariums sadden me
Aviaries oppress me
Cages revolt me
Rain doubles me up
Snow enchants me
Hail stops me
My finger draws
My hand catches
My arm enlaces
My brain conceives
My eye guides
My body makes
The first time tempts me
Its sequel accustoms me
The last depresses me
Tiredness calms me
Lassitude discourages me
Exhaustion stops me
Constructing obsesses me
Conserving calms me
Destroying relieves me
Arriving changes me
Staying costs me
Leaving animates me
The group oppresses me
Solitude holds me
Madness stalks me
To please pleases me
To displease displeases me
To be indifferent is indifferent to me
Age overtakes me
Youth abandons me
Memory remains with me
Happiness precedes me
Sadness follows me
Death awaits me