Losing Livie

Livie Killian moved away.

I didn’t want her to go.

We’d been friends since first grade.

The farewell party was

Thursday night

at the Old Rock Schoolhouse.

Livie

had something to tease each of us about,

like Ray

sleeping through reading class,

and Hillary,

who on her speed-writing test put

an “even ton” of children

instead of an “even ten.”

Livie said good-bye to each of us,

separately.

She gave me a picture she’d made of me sitting

in front of a piano,

wearing my straw hat,

an apple halfway to my mouth.

I handed Livie the memory book we’d all

filled with our different slants.

I couldn’t get the muscles in my throat relaxed enough

to tell her how much I’d miss her.

Livie

helped clean up her own party,

wiping spilled lemonade,

gathering sandwich crusts,

sweeping cookie crumbs from the floor,

while the rest of us went home

to study for semester reviews.

Now Livie’s gone west,

out of the dust,

on her way to California,

where the wind takes a rest sometimes.

And I’m wondering what kind of friend I am,

wanting my feet on that road to another place,

instead of Livie’s.

January 1934