I suppose everyone in Joyce City and beyond,
all the way to Felt
and Keyes
and even Guymon,
came to watch the talent show at the Palace,
Thursday night.
Backstage,
we were seventeen amateur acts,
our wild hearts pounding,
our lips sticking to our teeth,
our urge to empty ourselves
top and bottom,
made a sorry sight
in front of the
famous Hazel Hurd Players.
But they were kind to us,
helped us with our makeup and our hair,
showed us where to stand,
how to bow,
and the quickest route to the
toilet.
The audience hummed on the other side of the
closed curtain,
kept peeking out and giving reports
of who was there,
and how she never saw so many seats
filled in the Palace,
and that she didn’t think they could
squeeze a
rattlesnake
into the back
even if he paid full price,
the place was so packed.
My father told me he’d come
once chores were done.
I guess he did.
The Grover boys led us off.
They worked a charm,
Baby on the sax,
Jake on the banjo,
and Ben on the clarinet.
The Baker family followed, playing
just like they do at home
every night after dinner.
They didn’t look nervous at all.
The tap dancers,
they rattled the teeth in their jaws
and the eyballs in their skulls,
their arms swinging,
their mouths gapping.
Then Sunny Lee Hallem
tumbled and leaped onto the stage,
the sweat flying off her,
spotting the Palace floor.
Marsh Worton struggled out,
his accordion leading the way.
George and Agnes Harkins ran their fingers over the
strings of their harps,
made you want to look up into the heavens for
angels,
but only scenery
and lights
and ropes and sandbags hung overhead,
and then there was me on piano.
I went on somewhere near the backside of middle,
getting more and more jittery with each act,
till my time came.
I played “Bye, Bye, Blackbird”
my own way,
messing with the tempo,
and the first part sounded like
I used just my elbows,
but the middle sounded good
and the end,
in front of the packed Palace Theatre.
I dropped right inside the music and
didn’t feel anything
till after
when the clapping started
and that’s when I noticed my hands hurting
straight up to my shoulders.
But the applause
made me forget the pain,
the audience roared when I finished,
they came to their feet,
and I got third prize,
one dollar,
while Mad Dog Craddock, singing,
won second,
and Ben Grover
and his crazy clarinet
took first.
The tap dancers pouted into their mirrors,
peeling off their makeup and their smiles.
Birdie Jasper claimed
it was all my fault she didn’t win,
that the judges were just being nice to a cripple,
but the harpin’ Harkins were kind
and the Hazel Hurd Players
wrapped their long arms around me
and in the sweaty dim chaos backstage
I ignored the pain running up and down my arms,
I felt like I was part of something grand.
But they had to give my ribbon and my dollar to my
father,
’cause I couldn’t hold
anything in my hands.
February 1935