At the end of a long, silent ride, the Blaines arrived at a rambling white frame house once owned by Clarice’s parents, placed on a spacious meadow in Chilmark with a view of the Vineyard Sound through a cut in the trees overlooking the water. In his youth, this bluff had been Adam’s favorite place to watch the sunset with Benjamin Blaine. But now the site was marred by all that had come since, the most haunting of which was what had happened there the night Ben died.
Touching Teddy’s shoulder to signal that he wanted a word, Adam walked with him across the rain-dampened grass to the guest house where his brother lived and painted. At the door, Teddy turned to face him, worry showing through his quizzical smile. “I know that look by now, Adam—the indecipherable expression that conceals a cool brain at work. So the problem is?”
“A tabloid reporter named Amanda Ferris. The National Inquirer’s gift to journalism, and now to us. She’s after me, which means she’s after you.”
At once his brother’s tepid smile vanished. “I don’t even know her. But it seems that you do. Would you mind telling me how?”
Once again, Adam found himself regretting all he could not say, even to the brother he was determined to protect. “I prefer reminding you what to avoid—talking to anyone at all about our father or this inquest. If you hear anything about her, tell me. We need this locked down tight until the judge issues his report, and George Hanley decides what to do.”
Doubt clouded Teddy’s eyes. “You think they believed Jack’s testimony?”
“Not really. Their problem is that they can’t disprove it.”
Teddy looked at him more closely. “Do you believe it?”
“I know you didn’t kill him.” Adam paused, steeling himself to follow this simple truth with yet another lie. “And why would Jack volunteer this story if it weren’t true? Easier to say he was home in bed.”
Slowly, his brother nodded. “I owe Uncle Jack a lot.”
“You do.” Briefly, Adam smiled. “But then what is family for? Even this one.”
Pausing outside, Adam took fresh stock of the house he had salvaged for his mother despite Ben’s malice. It had been built in the 1850s: in the 1940s, a then-wealthy couple from Boston, Clarice’s parents, bought it as their summer home. Long before Adam and Teddy had played hide-and-seek in the woods and swum off the rocky beach below, Clarice had spent the best summers of her childhood in this house. As with many homes of this vintage, the porch that looked out at woods and ocean had been more generous than the rooms, a reminder that what was most compelling about the Vineyard lay outdoors. Adam could still remember the summer evenings when his mother and Benjamin Blaine would sit on the porch at night in moments of marital peace, talking or listening to the crickets.
But, like their lives as a whole, the space inside bore the mark of a dead man. Ben had knocked down walls to suit himself, and now the living room was large and open, filled with the comfortable furniture he liked and mementos of his travels—Asian vases, African masks, scrolls in Arabic and Hebrew. Amidst this sat the other remnants of Ben’s life—his wife and brother, Adam’s father. Sitting across from them, Adam could only wonder how it felt for Jack to be there.
It was to Jack’s credit, Adam supposed, that his sensitive eyes—though resolutely fixed on Adam—betrayed his shame at the concealment of his guilt, as well as the deeper truth that Adam’s mother also did not know: that Adam had protected him. But Clarice’s innocence allowed her to regard her younger son with a look of hurt and anger. Coolly, Adam said, “Go ahead, Mom. I hate to see you feeling repressed.”
“You know what it is. How can you humiliate me in public by being friendly with that woman?”
“Actually,” Adam corrected, “it’s worse than that. We’re having dinner tonight.”
His mother bridled. “Dinner with your father’s whore.”
Adam felt the familiar whipsaw of hurt and anger. “He wasn’t my father, and Carla’s not a whore. If it weren’t for her willingness to settle the estate, there’s a good chance you’d be out in the street, with nothing I could do for you. So you might save a bit of the gratitude you lavish on me for her.”
At this, Jack turned to Clarice, silently imploring her to stop. But Clarice did not see him. “Forgive me,” she told Adam stiffly, “but giving her three million dollars feels like gratitude enough. Beyond that, I expect more loyalty from a son.”
Though stung, Adam answered softly. “And I might’ve expected more candor from a mother. So let’s be candid now. For years you put up with my quasi-father’s affairs. You hate Carla because she’s the woman Benjamin Blaine took seriously. For you, the real tragedy is that he died too late for you to maintain the illusion of your marriage.”
At this, Adam saw his mother summon the willed self-control that had governed her life reassert itself. “To be wholly fair,” she responded in a more even tone, “the core of my difficulties preceded Carla Pacelli’s arrival here by roughly thirty-four years. The postnuptial agreement through which I gave up my rights in my husband’s assets—including the house he had bought from my father. The reason you were born in comfort instead of scandal.” She paused, concluding softly, “Or born at all. Everything else came from that.”
“Meaning?” Adam could not help but ask.
Though Jack placed a hand on her wrist, Clarice kept looking at their son, speaking with quiet vehemence. “If I’d terminated the pregnancy, Adam, my husband never would’ve known. Instead, on returning after four months away, Ben knew to a certainty that the child I was bearing wasn’t his. But I insisted on having you. Not for any religious reasons, but because you’re my son, and Jack’s son, and I wanted you to live more fiercely than you can ever understand. As a purely practical matter, you were the last thing I needed in my life. But this wasn’t a practical decision, unlike so many that I’ve made. I loved you before you were born, and I love you now.
“So, please, spare me the moral outrage about how Jack and I misled you. I could have ended your life before it began, and saved you all this disappointment. Little did I imagine that you’d end up blackmailing me, more or less, to help his mistress and the unborn child he favored over you and Teddy.”
It was a mercy, Adam supposed, that the last decade of his life had, so often, required that he feel nothing. “Then you made the wrong choice, didn’t you? It seems that I’ve been the agent of your problems before I was ever born, right to this moment. No doubt it’s rich with irony how poorly I’ve repaid you.” Seeing Jack wince, he paused to choose his next words with care. “I appreciate what you did, Mother—or at least tried to do. But my whole life was distorted by Ben’s ambivalence about me, and the rivalry between my supposed father and my real one. I can’t inflict our family pathology on another unborn child.
“Like you, Carla is choosing to have a child who is a result of an affair. Her son may be nothing to you, but he’s Teddy’s brother and my cousin. So I’m going to make a place for him in my life. That requires me to have a relationship with his mother. As much as you want me to hate her, I can’t—and don’t. If you resent me for that, try to remember that this boy will outlive us all. And outrun us, if he’s lucky.”
For an instant, Clarice looked wounded, and then her face closed. “Surely you don’t expect me to forget who this woman is. Let alone to accept her.”
Before Adam could answer, Jack turned to her. “None of us can forget any of this, Clarice. But we’re asking Adam to accept quite a lot. So he’s entitled to some forbearance on our part, including on the subject of Carla Pacelli. There’s enough for the three of us to sort out as it is.”
Watching his mother absorb this, Adam felt a deep ambivalence. Only Jack and he knew why his father was free to sit here. But Adam also remembered all the kindness Jack had lavished on the boy who had thought himself lucky to have such a caring uncle. Deeply, pointlessly, Adam wished never to have learned all that he had, and to love Jack still.
“Thanks,” he told Jack with a casual air he did not feel. “It’s not like I’m marrying her, after all.” He sat back, looking from his father to his mother. “Anyhow, we’ve got the present to worry about. As I’ve already told Teddy, there is a National Inquirer reporter lurking about, a particularly feral specimen named Amanda Ferris.
“Ferris will stir up all the problems she can, including with Carla Pacelli. You don’t want that, believe me. So there may come a time when you’re grateful that I’m in touch with Carla. After all, I’m the only member of this family who she’s certain didn’t shove the father of her child off a cliff. If only because I was in Afghanistan.”
Quite deliberately, Adam looked at his mother, not Jack. But he did not truly see either one; he was suddenly, unspeakably soul weary, and the spacious room felt claustrophobic. Without saying more, he got up and went to see Carla Pacelli.