Without Mama’s voice, the church choir sounds pathetic. It’s all Flor can do not to cover her ears. The islanders spread themselves around the mostly empty church, a family in this pew, an old lady in that one, the way Thomas breaks a cookie into pieces to convince himself he’s got more than he really does.
Flor prays for Lita. Prays for Mama.
Monday she stands in the school yard shivering. Mama would’ve checked the weather and made her wear her jacket, but instead she’s just got this flimsy sweater. Thomas wears shorts and two different-colored socks. He sits on a swing, pretending to smoke a crayon. Cecilia’s with the other high schoolers, but not really. How far away is her mind? Light-years, Flor can tell.
Still 11:16. Flor quit paying attention to that clock long ago, but today it makes her depressed. Time can’t stop—things are too messed up. Time needs to get going, move along and make things better. But the stubborn hands refuse to move. They haven’t moved in so long, some bird made her nest behind the hour hand.
There’s an expression “No man is an island,” but apparently eleven-year-old girls can be. Being a one-hundred-percent isolated person leaves you time to notice things you missed before, when your faithful friend was forever at your side. Flor sees Lauren Long laugh, then look pointedly at Cecilia. Sees her sister’s laugh come a beat too late. Sees Lauren’s snarky look bounce to the other two girls. Sees Cecilia flush and press her lips together.
She sees a distant flock of birds splatter the sky like dark paint. Sees Mary Long stop complaining about her allergies long enough to scream “Don’t!” when Larry Walnut walks by, minding his own business. Sees Larry stagger and look amazed. How can he possibly not know Mary is cuckoo for him? How can she possibly be cuckoo for him? Are they both blind?
Blindness was once a natural state. Dr. Fife says the first eye was little more than an optic nerve. Whatever that is. Eyes had to develop. Can some people’s eyes still be a more primitive variety? Can eyes still be evolving? Will future humans be able to see stuff we can’t? Like the insides of things. The hidden, secret parts?
Jasper would know. Flor peers across the road, where the lilac bush is uninhabited, unless you count the sparrows hopping among the dried-up flowers. FREE FILL DIRT says the cemetery sign. Flor’s read it a hundred times, but never thought what it actually means, till now. Her knees go weak. Her knee muscles seem to be deteriorating. She’s cold all through. Recess must be going on longer than usual, though how can she be sure, considering the stupid clock says 11:16 no matter what?
Flor turns around. Jocelyn Hawkins extends a hand.
“A fossil,” says Flor, and can’t help but add, “It’s horn coral.”
“No. It’s a shark tooth.”
“I don’t think so.”
“I found it. It’s what I say.” Casting a withering look, Jocelyn stomps over to her brother Joe, who’s using a small wrench to tighten bolts on the wooden climber. “Isn’t this a shark tooth?”
A quick glance. “Nope. Horn coral.”
“Oh.” She throws it in the dirt like a piece of trash, then scrambles up the climber. The red-and-blue lights work on only one of her hand-me-down sneakers.
“She wouldn’t believe me,” says Flor.
Joe shrugs. “Prehistoric roadkill is prehistoric roadkill.”
He tightens another bolt. His curls are wild and thick, and this must be where the word ringlet comes from—slide your finger through one, and you’d be wearing a shiny band. Suddenly Flor’s cheeks are the only part of her that’s warm.
“What are you doing that for?” she blurts. “It’s your father’s job.”
Come to think of it, she’s often seen him before or after school, hauling a ladder or carrying a mop and bucket. How much of his father’s work does he do? How much does he cover up for his dad? And why hasn’t she ever noticed before? To her surprise, Joe looks nervous, like he got caught at something. He changes the subject.
“Want to know a secret about Defoe?” he says.
“Sure.”
“She konks out at lunchtime.”
“She does?”
“She puts her head down on her desk and snores her big blockhead off. My dad’s seen her.”
“She’s pretty old.”
“Try prehistoric.”
“Archaic.”
“Antique.”
“Ancient.”
“Antediluvian.”
“You win,” says Flor, and Joe laughs.
“You’re nicer without that Sylvie Pinch around,” he says.
“What?”
“Okay, maybe you were always nice. But it was hard to tell, since you two were like a secret society or something.”
“Help! I’m stuck!” shrieks Jocelyn, and even though she’s just being a drama queen, he scrambles up to rescue her. Jocelyn throws her arms around his neck and presses her little cheek to his. For a girl in a Toledo Mud Hens sweatshirt, she manages to be very girly. Joe sets her on her feet, pats her head, and throws a rock at the clock tower. Jocelyn sticks her tongue out at Flor.
Later, Flor ponders whether that’s dried drool or milk on the corner of her teacher’s mouth. Mrs. Defoe is always on Mr. Hawkins’s case, directing him to burned-out lightbulbs or leaky faucets he’s neglected. Poor Mr. Hawkins. Out of school but still her minion. Maybe he made up the nap story, to get back at her. It’s not like adults are above bad behavior.
Her mind slides toward Mama. Who will not be there when they get home, standing in her usual place by the sink, chopping peppers and onions so fast the knife’s a blur. A small, invisible blade stabs Flor’s heart. On the phone last night, Mama told Flor to help Dad, mind Cecilia, and make sure Thomas changes his socks. She sounded stern but also strangely cheerful. Flor could hear the clatter of pots and pans in the background, Titi Aurora or Carmen or Gloria scolding and laughing. She strained to hear I miss you in Mama’s voice.
“Flor.” Mrs. Defoe is calling her up for sixth-grade language arts. On her desk lies a copy of Anne of Avonlea, by L. M. Montgomery. Flor has already read it. She loves the heroine, Anne Shirley, with her red hair, her pale (pale!) skin, her seven freckles, and her wild, free heart. It’s old-fashioned, the kind of book that makes Sylvie’s eyes roll up inside her head, but Flor found it wonderful.
Dried drool, definitely. Flor cuts her eyes at Joe, who clunks his head onto his desk and makes a soft but unmistakable snoring sound.
“I’ve assigned this book to every sixth grader for forty-four years, and do you know why?” Mrs. Defoe’s voice is hushed. Like she’s about to reveal a deep, meaningful secret. Flor tries not to look at the dried drool. She feels a drop of dread. Mrs. Defoe draws a breath.
“I first discovered it when I was your age. This book is the reason I became a teacher. Anne Shirley inspired me.”
This is sad. Tragic, actually. Anne Shirley’s eyes are always shining, her cheeks flushing, her hair streaming behind her in a torrent of brightness. Drab old Mrs. Defoe and lively, fun-loving Anne Shirley have nothing whatsoever in common. Well, they both live on islands, but there it ends.
Mrs. Defoe goes on and on about Anne and the torch of knowledge. Flor tries to hide her disbelief. Feeling sorry for an adult is so confusing.
“I liked it,” she says.
“You’ve already read it?” Mrs. Defoe looks offended. “Well, Flor O’Dell, you are about to reread it.” She hands Flor a sheet of paper obviously typed on a typewriter, that’s how old it is. How antediluvian. “Your six-hundred-word book report is due in two weeks. Follow this format without deviation.”
Joe unleashes a volcanic snort.
“Joseph Hawkins Junior to my desk,” Mrs. Defoe barks. “Once again!”
“It’s true,” Flor whispers to him, pointing at the corner of her mouth, and he smiles.
Mrs. Defoe tells Joe that despite his continuing efforts to appear ignorant and intractable, she’s not giving up on him. Joe shrugs. He’s a shrugger, all right. Who cares? is his message. It’s a useful one, considering what people think of the Hawkins family. Mrs. Defoe invites him to take a seat out in the hall.
But as he saunters out, Flor wonders if it’s all an act. A shell to ward off predators, like the trilobites had. Except they outgrew theirs, and had to cast them off, and wander around naked for a while.
Joe Hawkins and naked? Who let those words into her head at the same time? Flor slides down in her seat. Thank goodness only Sylvie can read her mind.
After school she and Thomas ride home together. His legs are so short and pudgy, she could easily leave him in the dust, but not today. Something about the trusting way Jocelyn looked at Joe makes her want to be nice, the kind of big sister you can count on.
Unlike her own.
Thomas begs to stop at the old quarry, where he’s forbidden to go alone, and even though Flor needs to pee, she says, in her new, kindly-sister voice, “Okay, just for a second.”
Standing on the rim, they see Dr. Fife and Jasper down there, hard at work. He’s pounding small stakes into the ground. She’s measuring, handing him tools.
“What are they doing?” Thomas asks.
“Excavating. They dig up stuff.”
That’s all Thomas needs to hear. Flor grabs him as he starts to butt slide down.
“Let go!” Another of his talents: the set-your-teeth-on-edge whine. “You’re hurting me! Let me go!”
Jasper looks up and waves. The half-empty sleeve of her big shirt flaps around.
“You’re spying on us!” she calls, shading her eyes.
Thomas squirms, but Flor hangs on. Is Jasper accusing or teasing? Flor can’t be sure, and besides, she still feels bad about the other night at the inn. She’s pretty sure Jasper doesn’t go around revealing her ABS arm to everybody—why else would she hide it inside those crazy-big clothes? For some reason, she trusted Flor. Who acted like she couldn’t wait to get away. Which she couldn’t. Only now she feels bad. Only not bad enough to go down there and be nice.
“I have to pee,” she whispers to Thomas.
“Go in the bushes!”
“Maybe you’re an animal, but I’m not.”
“My sister has to pee,” he hollers as she drags him away.