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The meeting of the excessive confetti committee is the kind of thing that makes you want to put a pencil through your eye.

Everyone—by which I mean the grim cabal of Everyone Who Matters—is sitting on the cut-pile carpet at Maribeth’s house, arguing politely over color schemes.

I try to remain focused on the intense appeal of paper streamers, but my thoughts keep wandering. I want to be home, in my bed, alone with my candle and the fascinating possibility of Marshall Holt.

I wonder if it’s too soon, if he needs more time to recuperate. If the sensation of my breath on his neck today made him blush because he was responding to me, or if it was just the result of physiology and hormones—if any other girl could have gotten the same reaction. I wonder if he exists in the way I think he does, or if he’s just something I’ve invented while I was busy trying to function normally. If he thinks of me at all. If the way he ran his thumb over my knee meant anything.

“Waverly, watch the edges—you’re drawing them crooked,” Maribeth says, and I lurch back to the task at hand.

We’re cutting up poster board for her paper-lantern centerpieces, which is mind-numbing.

Across the circle, Autumn is sharing her X-acto knife with Hunter Pennington. She keeps swatting at him with her ruler and he’s loving every second of it, offering her colored tissue paper and pretending to be wounded by her pretend disinterest.

I study Maribeth, trying to measure her reaction. In the glow of the recessed lighting she looks placid and pristine, but when I glance away and see her reflected in the glass door of the entertainment center, her expression is desolate.

The centerpieces are shaping up nicely. Autumn’s pattern is good, easy enough for even the wrestling boys to cut out and assemble. My lanterns are neat, sliding together with precise tabs and notches. Palmer’s look like angry, mutated beetles. Autumn’s are delicate, verging on exquisite. I know that by the end of the night, Maribeth will figure out a way to make her do them all.

Autumn taps her bottom lip with her pen, surveying the collection of cutout shapes spread across Maribeth’s carpet. “So, is the whole thing going to be a garden theme, or just the lamps?”

Palmer is the one who answers, looking bored and long-suffering. “It isn’t final yet. We’re still deciding.”

She and Kendry are clearly distrustful, but they haven’t been outright nasty yet. After all, Autumn is here with Maribeth’s blessing. Or at least, Maribeth’s lack of objection.

Autumn opens her mouth, presumably to make the carefully planned suggestion I outlined for her last week, but before she can get a word in, Maribeth cuts her off.

“Oh, but you know what I was thinking?” Maribeth’s tone implies she has just discovered a glorious unicorn. “We should have a school-wide vote, like we do for the homecoming court. That way, everyone will feel like the dance is theirs too.”

The way she says it is offhand, speaking with casual authority, so magnanimous, but really, she’s just trying to downplay the fact that we still haven’t come up with a theme on our own. That she hasn’t.

Autumn rolls her eyes, and not in a private way. And suddenly, I’m on high alert. I wonder if she even understands that her derisive faces are being broadcast to everyone.

“Or,” Kendry says, giving Autumn a scathing look, “do you have a better idea?”

I nod discreetly, just once, to show she hasn’t missed her opening. This is her window—her brief moment in time.

Autumn smiles beatifically. “I have a lot of better ideas. I could have a seizure and it would be a better idea. Look, you do not want to put the power in the hands of the people, okay? You’re just going to get three hundred write-in votes for My Dick.”

Whatever’s supposed to be happening right now, it is not this.

The girls all look scandalized, but Hunter Pennington and Chris Webb are snickering, punching each other in a way that suggests they would most definitely write in My Dick.

Maribeth opens her mouth to respond, but Autumn waves a languid hand. “Anyway, the theme is whatever. It’s not like it matters.”

Maribeth’s eyebrows jump so dramatically they nearly take flight and I wince. “Excuse me? The theme is the unifying principle for the whole thing.”

“I’m just saying, there’d be a better turnout at these things if they weren’t always completely embarrassing. We could actually do something decent for once, like Cult Classics or Hollywood Heroes. That way the outfits would be the theme.”

Maribeth sits up very straight, blinking innocently. “And showing up in costumes isn’t embarrassing? I’m sorry, but I feel like I’m missing something.”

Autumn charges on, completely undeterred by sarcasm or blatant hostility. “Think about it—if we do something with a really broad, dramatic theme, people will get to wear all kinds of dresses. The guys could choose their looks based on a hundred years of male leads, and they wouldn’t need ties if they didn’t want, or even jackets. I mean, it’s not like Marlon Brando wore a cummerbund in On the Waterfront, okay?”

The girls are eyeing her with acute distrust, but on the other side of the circle, Hunter is nodding like what Autumn has to say is actually relevant, and some of the wrestling boys look more alert than they have at any point aside from Autumn’s revelation that a school-wide vote could potentially involve their manly parts.

Maribeth, however, is deeply unimpressed. “Great, so they all dress exactly like they do every day? Excuse me, but what is the point then?”

“Oh, I don’t know. Maybe the point is just that it’s fun for once?”

I hold very still. It’s actually kind of amazing how fast this has become the worst possible version of itself. Everyone else is diligently assembling their lanterns, like if they make eye contact, they might get sucked in.

CJ leans over the coffee table to whisper in my ear. “You look nice tonight,” he says. “Like that girl in the movie. Breakfast whatever. If we do Autumn’s theme, you should come as her.”

“Holly Golightly,” I tell him automatically, one eye still on the imminent disaster across from me.

Maribeth is sitting with her back very straight, clutching her composure by a thread. I wonder how much of her outrage is due to her sense that the dance-planning hierarchy has been violated, and how much is about the way Hunter keeps tugging on Autumn’s ponytail.

Her gaze shifts to me, eyebrows raised delicately, telegraphing Good work, Waverly. This plan turned out beautifully. “What do you think, Waverly?”

She doesn’t mean that. She means, You think what I think, Waverly.

“We could do something like Cherished Memories,” I say, in an effort to get Autumn back on track.

“Or even something that isn’t such a giant gaping cliché,” Autumn says. Her smile is incandescent, and I have no earthly idea what she thinks she’s doing.

I can’t even tell if her performance is malicious, or if she’s actually just trying to advocate for the dance she’d want to go to. But of one thing I am absolutely certain: her lack of cheerful acquiescence will not fly with Maribeth.

I adjust my face to look studious and helpful. “Or what about A Brief Moment in Time?” Because sometimes, you just have to scrap the original plan entirely and do what it takes to save lives.

For a moment, I think it’s the wrong suggestion after all. The effort is, at best, too little too late.

Then Maribeth softens. She smiles. “That’s good,” she says. “No, that’s really good. What if the favors were something with little clocks, or hourglasses, even?”

And like that, with the stamp of Maribeth’s approval, our theme is finalized in less than five minutes.

I shoot a look at Autumn that’s supposed to communicate my displeasure, but she isn’t paying attention. She’s gone back to her stack of centerpieces like nothing has happened, her hand resting on Hunter’s arm. They’re laughing together in short, muffled bursts.

When I ask her to come help me make some more lemonade, I lead her straight through the kitchen and out, dragging her into the vaulted entryway, away from the ugly little drama in the living room.

We stand facing each other by an extravagant arrangement of fake flowers.

“What?” she says. “Oh, come on. That was nothing—it was just a little tussle.”

I’m alarmed at her notion that a blowout of such proportions could be considered little. There is no such thing as nothing when it comes to Maribeth.

I can’t even fully articulate the level of investment Maribeth feels for her various social projects, so instead, I lean around one of the faux-Doric columns and point in the direction of Hunter and the cheery little stencil party. “Off-limits, Autumn.”

She shrugs, not looking particularly contrite. “I had to. She was about to cut me loose.”

“And you think draping yourself over her intended boyfriend will keep you here?”

Autumn leans closer, her tone confidential. “Now it’s a competition. She has to keep me around so she can win this shit in public. That girl is not the kind of person who’s into victory by disqualification.”

I raise my eyebrows. Autumn’s assessment is both uncharitable and entirely accurate. “Do you want to at least dial back the antagonism? A little?”

“Look, right now, all I want is to go home, watch TMZ, and eat a goddamn Pop-Tart.” She lets her head flop back and her shoulders slump. “Waverly, what are we doing here? This isn’t even fun.”

“I know it’s not fun,” I snap. “It’s never fun.” Which is a little bit of a lie because it wasn’t always like this. It used to be fun. In seventh grade.

Autumn sighs, resting her elbows on the decorative half wall. “Look, whatever. Make my apologies to Queen Crowdsource. I’m going home.”

She crouches and untangles her bag from the drift of purses and shoes piled just inside the hall. No one can withstand the monotony of extracurricular event planning and sanctimonious good works, but being vindicated in my hatred of construction paper isn’t as comforting as one would think. Even Autumn is less durable than she pretended.

“What are you doing tomorrow?” I say, although I’ve got nothing very tempting to offer. “We’re all going shopping after cross-country. If you want.”

“Sure, whatever.” Autumn shoulders her bag and starts for the gleaming marble foyer. Then she stops and turns back. “CJ’s right,” she says. “About the dress. You should look for something in black or navy, with a low-cut back and a Sabrina neckline in the front.”

“We’re doing jewel tones. Maribeth already picked out the corsage colors and got the barrettes and everything.”

I hate how compliant I sound, like letting Maribeth decide formal floral arrangements for me is some kind of compromise or concession, when really, I just don’t care. For the privilege of not having to expend a single particle of my being on hothouse flowers, it’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make.

Autumn smiles and shakes her head. “She wants jewel tones because she looks amazing in sapphire and turquoise. You need something more subtle. Something that looks totally conservative, and then, bang, they see you from a different angle and it’s not. Also, you need a different date. CJ’s really going to clash with your sense of intellectual superiority.”

I laugh, even though I’m starting to feel claustrophobic. I want to be home with my blankets and my candle. I want to be with Marshall.

Autumn stands in the doorway, just looking at me. She smiles and my throat constricts for no reason. Suddenly, I don’t want anything but to run and run and run.