On Saturday I surrounded myself with the case materials, pages and photos on floor, table and countertop. Whenever I felt about to drown in horror I’d retreat to the deck to suck down fresh air and let the sun beat some of the pictures from my brain. It worked until I shut my eyes.
I was trying to absorb every aspect of the case, true; but it was also true that I was hiding within the files and folders and pictures of torment. Ever since my arrival I had been postponing a call to my brother, Jeremy.
The call was not as easy as it sounded. Jeremy’s life was six years longer than mine, and more troubled. Our father had been a civil engineer renowned for brilliant responses to engineering problems, but he contained a pathological anger. When his needs were not met – someone late to the table, an errant glance, a report card less than exemplary – he’d fly into black and violent rages. His anger had focused on Jeremy, maybe because my brother physically resembled our father: fair and blue-eyed and with a loose and angular build. They also shared the same complex and brilliant mind, staring at a problem until it fell into components, then self-resurrected as a solution.
Our mother, simple and rural, had no concept of the situation. When the shattering rages befell our home, she would retreat to her sewing room, the machine’s high drone eclipsing my brother’s anguished screams and calls for help.
I had just turned ten when I suddenly became the choice for the anger, the beatings, the ranting, unintelligible lectures as I huddled in a corner, trying to push myself into the wall itself. And not only had our father selected me as the focus of his rage, his madness was seeping into every crack of our existence. Where weeks had once passed between rages, the horror now rang nightly through the halls. Another change: whereas our father had always threatened punishment, he was now threatening death.
“Get out here, you little bastard. I made you and I can kill you.”
Then, one afternoon beneath a blue Alabama sky, everything changed for ever. My brother Jeremy, sixteen years old, slight and sensitive and his face dusted with gentle freckles, lured our father into the woods, bound him to a pine tree and disassembled him with a carving knife.
“I never seen nothin’ like it,” I recall one ashen cop telling another on our rural front porch, police cars filling the long dirt driveway. “There was blood and meat ever’where. They found a kidney hanging up a tree.”
My brother sailed through the investigation. He soon left for college and a few years passed. Then came word that Jeremy had been implicated in the murder of five women, all with vague to startling resemblances to our mother. Given the mitigating circumstance – insanity – Jeremy was sentenced to life in prison.
Jeremy’s first break came when his case was noticed by Dr Evangeline Prowse, the head of the Alabama Institution for Aberrational Behavior. Intrigued by his penetrating intellect, she won his transfer to her institution, lodging him in a sort of maximum-security college dorm alongside some of the fiercest and most depraved minds to ever spring from human seed.
Jeremy prospered, eliciting friendships with hulking, insane murderers and drooling serial rapists, making it his hobby to understand their delusions and motivations, and thereby able to stroll inside their minds and make sense of the floor layout. And thus to control them, at least within certain bounds.
Then, a few years back and for reasons that may never be truly known, Dr Prowse arranged Jeremy’s surreptitious escape from the Institution, flying with him to New York City. Within days, all hell broke loose, and I found myself in Manhattan, where I discovered my brother’s past was more complex than anyone might think. And while not fully innocent of the murders, his participation was not, I felt, deservant of a life in a cage.
Eluding capture, Jeremy had recently reappeared in the guise of Dr August Charpentier, a retired Canadian psychologist now living in a remote mountain setting in eastern Kentucky and spending his days studying local flora, gardening, and charting financial news from around the globe.
Taking my laptop to the deck, I looked out over the cove, the wind still, the water blue and smooth as glass. I drew up my courage and Skyped Jeremy’s computer. A pause as the connection established. His face filled my screen, slender and delicate with large and piercing eyes. He remained in his Dr Charpentier disguise, longish hair and neat, professorial beard, both artificially gray. He wore a blue T-shirt, his chest broader than I remembered, muscle, not fat.
I forced a nonchalant smile to my face. “Howdy, big brother. How’s the weather up there?”
The blue eyes tightened to slits and the voice that returned was brittle and Southern and hissed through clenched teeth. “Where the hell are you, Carson? You’re not on Dauphin Island. Are those palms I see behind you? WHAT IS GOING ON? WHERE ARE YOU?”
Jeremy was near panic. Despite his repeated proclamations of being an independent spirit escaped from the system and living without the “shackles” of needing anyone, my brother seemed pathologically reliant on my structured world. My life had a pattern, the only one my brother knew, and I had broken it.
I sighed. “Calm down, Jeremy. Take a few deep breaths.”
“HOW CAN I BREATHE WHEN I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE YOU ARE?”
“I’ve experienced a few changes, brother. I’m in Florida. I live in Florida.”
“CHANGES? WHAT? WHERE?”
“Easy, Jeremy. There’s no shift in emphasis, only in location. I’m renting a house on Matecumbe Key.”
A pause as my words sank in.
“You’re still a cop?”
“Long story short: A person I knew with the Florida Bureau of Law Enforcement called and offered me a job as an investigative specialist in a new section at the FCLE. The politics at the MPD were wearing me down. Plus I called the Chief of Police some names on television, which didn’t enhance my prospects for advancement.”
“What of your old partner, Harry Nautilus? Did he finally turn on you?”
Jeremy had an odd jealousy of Harry, probably because he was my prime confidant. “Leaving him was the hardest part, but Harry is nearing retirement and in love with a woman named Sally Hargreaves. I expect to see them here any day, fishing rods in hand.”
“And the woman you were diddling … Holliday?”
“Um, that’s kind of …”
Up in the air? Put on pause? I’d wanted Wendy to come with me, she’d wanted to come with me. But she was into her first year as a Mobile cop and leaving wasn’t a smart move.
“You ran through another one, right?” my brother snickered. “Some things haven’t changed. You still have that ridiculous animal thing?”
“Mr Mix-up is staying in Mobile until I find a permanent place.” The new house seemed quiet without my rambunctious, multi-variety canine companion.
“So tell me about where you’re living,” Jeremy said. “Paint me a picture.”
Jeremy was calming down. He knew my new position on the planet and was programming it into his mind. I spent several minutes detailing the land and my immediate neighborhood, ending with a description of Dubois Burnside.
“It sounds like your dream home, Carson. Right down to having a corpse-dresser next door. You’re intending to buy the place?”
“Too expensive. Especially since I’m keeping the Dauphin Island house. I rent to tourists for a grand a week in season, eight in the off. The firm handling the rentals thinks I can keep it occupied two-thirds of the year.”
A pause as Jeremy absorbed the information and processed it through his fiscal mechanisms. “An income stream, then? Yes … that works. But it’s not enough to buy your little Eden in the Keys?”
“Not by a long shot.”
My brother understood finances, as he had turned to making money as a new endeavor. Three years ago, after a period of intense study of the stock market, he claimed the market had but two true states, blustering drunkard or scared child. Jeremy claimed gobbets of profit from this insight and I believed him, money too trivial for my brother’s lies. The stock market was simply a hobby at which his brilliant but unconventional mind excelled.
He leaned close to his camera, his face filling my screen. “I’ve got more goddamn lucre than I know what to do with, Carson. I can’t buy a Maserati, I can’t build a distinctive abode, I can’t do anything fun without calling attention to myself, which I mustn’t do, lest the constabulary take an interest in my existence. I’ll give you the money.”
“I thank you for your offer, Jeremy. But I prefer to make my own money, just like you do. Secondly, you can’t simply give me money. It would have to be reported.”
He stared at me for a long moment. “This event has been hard on me, Carson. Not knowing where you were. I realize I should see you more.” There was a strange flicker of mirth in his voice.
“What do you mean?” I asked.
He touched his mouse and disappeared.