The Divine Incarnation
Lord Yeshua and Lady Mary share the same birth, for they were both born of the womb of Mother Sophia. So it is with all who are anointed with the Supernal Light; they are born of the womb of Primordial Wisdom and are called children of Light. Thus, Yeshua and Mary share the same Mother and they share the same Father, the Living Father which is the infinite and eternal.
They are one soul of Light and one person of Light, though appearing as male and female. They come from the Light-continuum, entering into the world as Light-bearers, so that we might also know ourselves as souls of Light and persons of Light and remember our origin in the Supernal Abode. Yeshua and Mary are a man and a woman, fully human. Yet embodying the Light-presence, they are pure and holy emanations of Light and are more than human. So it is with everyone who is anointed with the Supernal Light and who embodies the Light-presence, they also become pure and holy emanations of the Light-continuum.
We may speak of the birth of Our Lord and Our Lady, and we may speak of their life stories, just as we may speak of our own birth and life story. Yet all of this transpires in a world of shadows and shades, the Truth and Light being within, yet ever beyond the appearance of this world. Indeed, this world is a play of light and shadow under the dominion of the demiurgos and archons, but the World of Supernal Light is within and beyond this world. The light and shadows in this world are but a dim reflection of the transparent Light of the Supernal World.
In truth, Our Lord and Our Lady are without father or mother, and they have no past. They are pure and bornless beings. They are the Light-presence at repose in the Light-continuum and the Light-presence in movement within the realm of ever-becoming; and thus so also are we who receive the Word and Wisdom of the infinite and eternal—we who look within to recognize and realize the Light-presence in us.
From the time of the First Coming to the time of the Second Coming, the Divine Incarnation continues to transpire. This Divine Being called Christos or Light-presence continues to be realized and embodied in human beings. Those who embody it are united with Our Lord and Our Lady, as though one body and one soul—hence the mystical body of the Anointed.
In the name of the Lord, St. Mary Magdalene said, “Our Living Father is Light and our Divine Mother is the Pleroma of Light, and the Aeons of Light52 are our brothers and sisters; and so it is with all the children of Light.” When the Lord was speaking to Nichodemus about those reborn of the Mother Spirit and Nichodemus could not comprehend the teachings of the Lord, the Lord said to him, “Very truly I tell you, we speak of what we know and testify to what we have seen; yet you do not receive our testimony. If I have told you about earthly things and you do not believe, how can you believe if I tell you about heavenly things?”53
Now here, we are speaking of the true mystery behind the appearance of Our Lord and Our Lady, and of the very heart of the Gospel of Truth, and we are speaking of the mystery behind our own appearance in the world. For this reason, Lady Mary would often say, “Look within and beyond the Lord to see the true image of Christ, and look within and beyond you to see the Truth and Light in yourself.”
The Light and the Darkness
Yeshua was born into the light and Mary was born into the darkness. Thus, when Our Lord and Our Lady met and entered into union, light and darkness were transcended and the True Light was revealed. Yeshua was male and Mary was female. Thus, when they united, male and female were transcended and the true image of the Human One was revealed, which is the true image of Light.
The duality of light and darkness, male and female, and all apparent opposites is the foundation of the dominion of the demiurgos and archons. Joining together all opposites in their mystical embrace, Our Lord and Our Lady put an end to the dominion of the demiurgos and archons, transcending it. This is the mystery of the love-play of Our Lord and Our Lady.
Some have said the Lord is the Soul of Light and Mary is the material body, which, when joined to the Soul of Light, becomes a Body of Light. This is a worthy contemplation, for the mystery of the body of the resurrection and the secret of the great ascension is contained within it.
The Beginning of the Gospel
Some have said that the birth of the Lord is the beginning of the Gospel. Others say that the beginning of the Gospel is the baptism of the Lord, which is the call for the Bride to return from her exile. Some assert that the Gospel begins with the first wonder-working act of the Lord, which was the entrance of the Bride into the holy land. Still others say that the Gospel begins when Our Lord and Our Lady meet and unite, because the Gospel flows forth from the love-play of the Bridegroom and Bride.
The masters of the tradition say that there is truth in all of these views, yet that, truly, the Gospel begins when we receive it and the Truth and Light is manifest in our own experience.
Baptism and Temptation
The baptism of Mary happened when she was in Babylon, for the baptism is the inner experience of Light descending from above. It was for this reason that the angel of John the Baptist went to Mary to call her in from her exile. When the Light descended upon Lord Yeshua in his baptism at the Jordan River, in the Spirit, John saw the Light descend on Mary also. Therefore, the prophet John recognized that Yeshua was the Messiah and that Mary was Kallah Messiah, the Anointed Bride.
When the Light descends upon a person, the darkness in a person rises up to oppose the Light, and a struggle ensues as the person seeks to enter fully into the Light-presence. Thus, when Yeshua was in the wilderness being tempted by Satan, Mary was also in the wilderness wrestling with the adversary.
This is true throughout the Gospel, for Yeshua and Mary shared the experience of every event in the Gospel and of every cycle of the eightfold initiation54 into Supernal or Messianic consciousness. Indeed, they were completely interdependent and interconnected and served to open the way to one another, each an integral part of the divine revelation. We cannot speak of one without also speaking of the other. They are one holy soul and one Light-presence.
Vision of the Sermon on the Mount
Lord Yeshua ascended the holy mount with Lady Mary. When they sat down, the disciples ascended to join them, both men and women disciples. The winds ceased, all clouds vanished from the sky, and the sun and moon shone brightly in the day. An electrical energy filled the air and peace entered into all who were present, a perfect clarity and peace in the heart and mind. Yeshua was like unto the Light, Mary was like unto a prism of Light, and all of the disciples were like rays of Light, both the men and women alike. It was an image of Rainbow Glory.
The image of the great angel Hua55 appeared in the sky, and Raphael stood in the east, Gabriel in the west, Michael in the south and Uriel in the north. A great luminous assembly of heavenly hosts filled endless space in all directions. Adam and Eve, the spirits of the patriarchs and matriarchs, and the spirits of all the prophets were present in the subtle dimension and all souls from future generations who would enter into the Light-continuum. A great Light-presence was within and all around Our Lord and Our Lady, and the Light pervaded the good earth, so that, as long as the Lord was giving the sermon, there was peace and joy throughout the world.
As Yeshua Messiah spoke, the hosts of earth and heaven worshipped in the presence of Yahweh, and the heavens and earth were united in mystical embrace. The Spirit of Yahweh was in Lord Yeshua and Lady Mary, for, united, they were the image of Adonai. The celestial dew of white brilliance poured down through the image of the great angel of the Lord and rained down upon all who were gathered. The fragrance of roses and heavenly flowers filled the air. It was as though the supernal image of Miriam’s well appeared upon the holy mount and living water flowed out of it, giving life and light to the people and the land. Indeed! It was the image of the Second Coming within the First Coming, the fulfillment of the law and the prophets. All of this was within and behind the words Lord Yeshua spoke on that holy day. The wise will understand the meaning of this, and the Holy Spirit will reveal the mystery to all who seek it.
It is said that, with ten holy utterances, God created the heavens and the earth and the human one. At the Sermon on the Mount, with ten holy utterances, the Anointed generated a new heaven and new earth and new human being, for the supernal perfection of the Second Adam was revealed. With Ten Commandments, the faithful were bound to the law, but with Ten Blessings, the Anointed set the elect free from bondage to the dominion of the demiurge and archons. Until the Living Word entered into the world and Daughter Sophia was uplifted and redeemed, the prophets could not receive the divine revelation in its purity. Always, the vision and voice were tainted and corrupted by the influence of the demiurge and archons. How else could the God of love, mercy, and compassion command war and vengeance or incite people to genocide and all manner of slaughtering of human beings and beasts without just cause? For this reason, the Word and Wisdom of God became incarnate, to deliver souls from bondage to the dominion of falsehood and ignorance. Thus, the Lord spoke the sermon of Light for all to hear and showed forth the true image of the Light for all to see who had eyes to see. Truly, the Transfiguration happened during the Sermon on the Mount, but there were none who had eyes to look and see it.
The world worships the dominion of the demiurgos and archons, but the elect worship the Alien God, El Elyon. The dominion of the demiurgos and archons was shattered on the day the sermon of Light was spoken; for those who listen and hear it are no longer the slaves to cosmic ignorance.
All of this the Lord spoke for Mary’s sake and all of this the Lord spoke in Wisdom.
Six Holy Women
Three women called Mary were the constant companions of the Lord: Mary the Mother, Mary the Old Woman, and St. Mary Magdalene. Three others were also with him much of the time and their name was Salome: Salome the Maiden, Salome the Wise, and Salome the Elder. Mary is a name connected to Marrah, the Bitter Sea, and Salome is connected to Shalom, Peace. Mem, which is the principal letter in Mary, is water. Shin, which is the principal letter in Salome, is fire. And we know that the Lord baptized with water and with fire and with the Spirit.
Thus, Yeshua walked always with the Depth of Wisdom and Depth of Peace, and these six holy women were present with him when he was teaching and initiating—the Matrix of the Living Word.
Now we may say that there were six emanations of Sophia through which the Living Word flowed: the Primordial Sophia, Great Mother Sophia, Mystery Sophia, Knowledge Sophia, Faith Sophia, and Love Sophia. All of these had their male counterpart in the Lord, Christ the Logos, and they were the Matrix of Space in which the Gospel transpired.
Mother Mary was the space of all Sophia and all who were called “Mary” were in her, Mary Magdalene was the display of all Sophia, and all who were called Salome were in her. Sophia emanates from Sophia, as the Daughter from the Mother; Logos is born of Sophia and is fulfilled by Sophia, and it is Sophia that Logos imparts.
Logos is the image of the Father; Sophia is the image of the Mother. In the Holy One of Being, there is no difference between Logos and Sophia, for they are one in the Supernal Crown.
Three Holy Mountains
The Sermon, the Transfiguration, and the Crucifixion all take place on the holy Mountain of Initiation, and the wisdom of the three holy women called “Mary” corresponds to the threefold Mountain of Initiation. The Mount of the Sermon is Mary Magdalene, the Mount of the Transfiguration is Mother Mary, the Mount of the Crucifixion is Mary the Old Woman, and all of these are the holy womb. It has been said, “The womb and the tomb are one.” Thus, the empty tomb, which is the womb giving birth to the Risen Savior, is the union of all three Wisdoms.
St. Mary Magdalene is the first to glimpse the Risen Savior because the true sermon of the Gospel is spoken by him on the holy Mount of the Ascension, and she is the Wisdom of the Gnostic preacher.
The Magical Display
Yeshua showed many great wonders. He drove darkness out of the people and the land, healed all manner of disease, and extended the Fire and Light of the Supernal Abode, illuminating the world. He commanded the elements, walked on water, transformed water into wine, and fed thousands with a few loaves and fishes. All of these things he did to show the true nature of reality, which is fluid and ever changing and which is all a play of light and shadow, and all of it was the manifestation of his Shekinah consort, the Holy Bride—St. Mary Magdalene. Was it not all the magical display of Wisdom, and is this not the true nature of creation? For it is written, “The Lord founded everything on Wisdom.”
The Transfiguration
The purpose of the Gospel was the Transfiguration and Resurrection, which is the revelation of the truth of the Supernal Soul of Light. It was for the sake of this Light-transmission that the Living Word and Wisdom of God entered into the world. Everything the Lord did was for the sake of this. All along, his aim was to prepare the disciples to receive the Light-transmission, and Lady Mary was his partner in this great work.
When it was time, the Lord took a few of his close male disciples along with St. Mary Magdalene up on top of a holy mountain. He was transfigured before them into a Light-image, showing his close companions the Pleroma of Light and the Light-continuum. The men were afraid and wished to shelter themselves from the glory and power. Thus Peter asked if they could build tabernacles for the radiant Christos and the Light-images that appeared with him. Then the men fell unconscious, overwhelmed by the glory of the Truth and Light, but St. Mary Magdalene was not overwhelmed and remained awake in the Light-presence.
What the men beheld was merely the outset of the divine revelation. Because they fell unconscious, they did not receive the Light-transmission, and the Light-transmission passed to Lady Mary. She beheld the whole divine revelation, and she herself shone with visible glory. In their brief glimpse, the men thought Elijah and Moses appeared. In truth, it was Elijah and Enoch, the two masters of the ascension. Mary bore witness of the Light-images, though later the men would not believe her testimony.
First, the Lord showed Mary the Light-images in the World of Supernal Light, and then the heavens and earth in his Body of Light. Then he took her soul up in himself and revealed the Aeons of Light and Pleroma of Light, and the beginning and end of all creation, and the truth of the One-Without-End, the glory and splendor of which is the Light-continuum. She beheld the World of Supernal Light above, below, and everywhere in between, and knew it all within her own body as in the image of the Lord. Thus, the Transfiguration became the consummation of their mystical union, and they became fully one Light-presence in the world on that holy day.
Because Mary was with the Lord all of the time, shared the most intimate moments with him, and saw many secret wonders, she had beheld him shining with Supernal Light and show forth great mysteries many times before, things the men could not endure until the cross. Yet, it was on the holy mountain that he revealed everything, all at one time, and fulfilled his promise to pour himself into her. It was this that made many of the male disciples most jealous of all, for she walked with the full presence and authority of the Anointed from that day on.
The Lord swore the disciples who were with him at the Transfiguration to secrecy, though they were clearly shaken by what they witnessed. They came down the mountain dazed and silent, but the Holy Bride descended in holy awe and wonder; his love fulfilled such as no mortal man could fulfill it. She would later speak of this to her disciples, saying, “This is the love men and women seek to fulfill through mortal relationships, which is only fulfilled in the intimate embrace of the Spiritual Sun. This is the true yearning in the depth of every soul, and yet men and women fear it.”
Transfiguration of the Bride
Mary was also transfigured on the mount with the Lord. Yet like the Lord, she concealed the fullness of the Light-presence as she walked in the world, save when a soul was ready for harvest and desired to receive the living presence and power in full. Then, like the Lord, she would reveal the Truth and Light and impart the Light-transmission. One is Christian until one receives the Light-transmission from an apostle of Light, but one becomes Christed when the Light-transmission is received. When one embodies the Light-presence in full, one becomes Christ.
On the evening of the Transfiguration, Mary chose three inmost women disciples and took them to a sacred cave. Salome the maiden was among them, and some say Martha. When they entered into the cave, Lady Mary began speaking the mysteries of the Christos and the Supernal Abode. She was transfigured before them and shone with visible light and glory as the Lord did upon the holy mountain.
The Light-images of Lilith and Eve appeared, and Sarah and the prophetess Miriam, and the great image of Grandmother Israel. A crown of twelve stars was on Our Lady’s head, she stood upon the crescent moon, and she revealed the World of Supernal Light and all that was to come to pass, even the mysteries of the Second Coming and New Jerusalem. The women remained conscious and awake, abiding in holy awe and wonder. When the revelation was complete, the women worshipped in the presence of Yahweh, and the eldest woman said, “Truly, you are the glory of the Great Mother and the redemption of all womanhood; you are the Mother of Life, Holy Wisdom. Blessed are you and blessed is the Lord, the Great Seth!56 Praise God Most High!”
When the women who were with Mary came out of the cave in the morning, their faces shone with visible light, so that for several days they had to conceal themselves. Mary returned to the Lord’s side. Embracing her, he said to her, “It is very good. Now all things must be fulfilled.” When he spoke these words, she knew what he meant. Soon after, he concluded his public ministry after raising Lazarus from the dead and tended only to those given to him by the Holy Spirit.
The Anointing of the Lord’s Body
There is much confusion in the holy books of the outer and unspiritual church concerning the woman who anointed the Lord’s body with costly perfume, but among Gnostics of the inner and secret order, there is no confusion at all. It was St. Mary of Magdal, his wife and consort. The telltale sign is that she let her hair down, which would only be proper for a wife and consort to do, though, even for a wife, it was a questionable act in those days if done in front of others.
A great mystery lies behind this action. It was an act of love and devotion, yet it was a magical act at the same time. In so doing, Mary made the Lord’s body the talisman of a holy sacrifice for the sake of the elect and the Soul of the World.
Born into a profane family, binding herself to the cross of the world and descending into the heart of darkness, Lady Mary linked the world and darkness to herself, so that, being uplifted, the Soul of the World and holy sparks bound in husks of darkness might also be uplifted. Though she was not killed in body, she was slain in her soul. Thus in her soul, she had died and been resurrected. So it is said that she opened the way for the death and resurrection of the Lord. When she anointed the Lord’s body, she linked his body to the Soul of the World and to all of the darkness that is in it, so that, crucified, all of the darkness should also be crucified and the spell of death put to an end, and so that the Soul of the World might be uplifted from the dominion of the demiurgos in the resurrection and ascension.
Thus, she acted as a priestess-queen preparing the body of a holy priest-king for sacrifice, his blood and flesh given over to the demiurgos and archons as ransom for those souls he sought to liberate from their dominion, and for the sake of binding the serpent in cessation. Thus, with him, she was making a holy sanctuary for the souls of the elect throughout time who might cleave to the Anointed and also become the Anointed.
This is a great mystery that only Sophia can reveal to a person, for through the cross, the Lord severed the cords that bound his disciples away from receiving the Light-transmission. More than a holy sacrifice for the dissolution of sin, it was the action of the divine revelation. Only in this way would all the disciples receive the Light-transmission in full and understand its true meaning. What could not be fulfilled by the Transfiguration was to be fulfilled by the Resurrection.
There was great spiritual power in the act of Our Lady anointing the body of Our Lord, yet also it was her offering him up and letting go of her Beloved—her own sacrifice, such as only a woman and wife would comprehend. The men who witnessed the magical act of Our Lady did not know what she was doing, but the Holy Mother who saw it understood, as did Salome the maiden and Martha.
The Conception of St. Michael
It is generally held that Our Lady and Our Lord conceived St. Michael, their son and the heir of the lineage of royal blood, on the eve of the Shabbat the week before the drama of the Passion and Crucifixion. Thus, at the Crucifixion and Resurrection, and while the Risen Savior appeared until the time of the final Ascension, Lady Mary was with child, having St. Michael in her womb. The Holy Bride had become the Holy Mother—the mother of a supernal humanity.
The School of St. Lazarus, however, holds a different view. According to St. Lazarus, St. Michael was conceived by the Risen Savior from a seed of light emanated into the womb of the Holy Bride. According to this Gnostic school of thought, St. Michael emanated from the heart-womb of Our Lady the instant he was conceived, not as a child of the earth, but a child of the Supernal Abode—hence the name Michael, which means “Who-Is-Like-Unto-God.”
Some have said that the Lady Mary conceived and gave birth to twins, a son and a daughter, and that the son emanated from her heart-womb and her daughter was born of her actual womb, the two resembling one another perfectly. Others have said that St. Michael was a hermaphrodite, being both male and female in one body, the actualization of the androgynous one, the Second Adam.
In any case, it is generally held that Yeshua and Mary bore children of their union, and that these children formed a lineage of royal blood, the holy blood of Christ being transmitted directly into the human life-wave, as well as mystically and magically through the rite of the wedding feast.57 This is one of the esoteric meanings of St. Mary Magdalene as the Holy Grail.
All of these views speak of the Mystery of St. Michael and the nature of initiations in the Gnostic Order of St. Michael.
Perfection of Pregnancy
It has often been said that, when a woman is pregnant, she is radiant and most beautiful, perhaps in the perfection of her beauty and power. This was especially true of St. Mary Magdalene, who, in the conception of her child, knew the Lord most intimately, for when she conceived, having the most intimate knowledge of the Lord, she became completely perfect. As St. Michael grew in her womb, she ascended from one state of perfection to another and from one glory of beauty to another, so that, giving birth to One-Who-Is-Like-Unto-God, she was the perfection of perfection, which is to say the Perfect Aeon58 of the world-to-come.
This is the perfection of all who know the Living Yeshua most intimately, who rise from grade to grade, from light to light, into the Perfect Aeon of Light, and then bring the Supernal Light down and give birth to it in the world. It is said that all of the elect are born of the intimate knowledge between the Lord and Anointed Bride.
Yet, there is another mystery, more esoteric; for if Our Lady was transfigured and was a Woman of Supernal Light, what would be the nature of the child born of her womb? If Mother Mary gave birth to Yeshua but was not yet a Woman of Light, then what sort of man would St. Michael be, or would any child of Our Lady become? Some have said that the prophet among the apostles, St. John, beheld this mystery and wrote it in the Book of the Apocalypse. It is St. Mary Magdalene who is the Woman of Light, the Mother of the Elect, who is called the Mother of the Royal Blood. Of this secret mystery, we cannot openly speak. It can only be spoken to those who know it already and only if they are wise with the Gnosis of Bride Sophia.
The Dreadful Task of Judas
Many say that Judas betrayed the Lord, and this may be true. Yet, having seen the living presence and power of the Lord, why would anyone close to him turn against him? Some have said that it was hostility toward the Holy Bride, kindled by Peter’s venomous words, which caused him to betray the Lord. Others say that he did not betray the Lord at all, but that he followed the instructions of the Lord as a true and faithful disciple.
Indeed, it has been said that the Lord called Judas in secret one night, before the events that would transpire, and told Judas what must be done. He chose Judas because he was strong in his faith and close to the Lord and the Bride. Mary was witness to this, but later, when she testified to it before the male disciples, they would not believe her. After all, whatever the cause, the actions of Judas are perplexing, and it is easier to believe in evil than in good.
The Last Supper
Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene, along with the women disciples, prepared the upper room for the Last Supper. They arranged the room, prepared and blessed the bread and wine, lit lamps and burned incense, and consecrated the space as sacred and holy through their love and devotion. Lady Mary Magdalene led them in prayer and meditation. So the Spirit of Holiness came into the room and the Holy Shekinah dwelt in that place. When the Lord entered, there was light upon light; the sacred space shone with glory. The men and women alike partook of the Last Supper, and all were blessed by the Lord, the high priest of the order of Melchizedek who brought out the bread and wine of his body and blood.
Bread and Wine
The Holy Eucharist is called the wedding feast, because in it we celebrate our gnosis and union with the Living Yeshua. Yet, our mystical union transpires through the Holy Bride, St. Mary Magdalene; thus it is a celebration of the union of the Bridegroom and Bride, which is the true meaning of the symbol of the cross among Sophians.
Some say that the bread is the Lord and the wine is the Bride, on account of the invocation of the Holy Bride when the Lord transformed water into wine. Others say the bread is the Bride and the wine is the Lord, because the bread represents the presence and the wine the essence, and she is the living presence and he the secret essence. In any case, among Sophian Gnostics, the Holy Eucharist is a rite of the order of Melchizedek, and the bread and wine are symbols of Our Lord and Our Lady and the Supernal Grace that flows through them.
Night of Passion
There was great light and great darkness on the Night of Passion, the light of the blessing of Melchizedek and the darkness of the vision of sorrow and suffering of a world about to put the great Light-bearer to death. This was the experience of the men and women disciples on the night of Passion.
Those who cling to the suffering of the Lord and speak often of it may not be lacking in wisdom, for by way of suffering he taught the perfection of Love Wisdom, so that we might know how to love and how deeply the love of the Lord ran. Yet, it may be that there was no suffering. If the Lord was a pure Light-emanation, then only an appearance of an image was upon the cross and the Lord suffered nothing that is conceived of as his suffering. In any case, what the Lord did suffer was the rejection of the True Light by those who love and cleave to the darkness—and so the Lord suffers to this day, along with the Holy Bride in her rejection and exile.
On that night, when the men went out with the Lord to the Garden of Gethsemane, the women disciples remained in the upper room, keep-ing a vigil of prayer. St. Mary Magdalene led the women in prayer and meditation; they ran and returned, ascending and descending from the heights of joy to the depths of sorrow until the break of day. Of the male disciples, only St. John returned after the Lord’s arrest to keep vigil with the Mother, the Bride, and the women disciples, all of the men scattering in fear of their own death. Truly, within and behind the Gos-pel, the women were the foundation and enduring strength of the sacred circle. Always, they labored in prayer, meditation, and sacred ritual in support of the great work of the Anointed.
Many wondered why the Lord taught and initiated women alongside men. It was because he knew and honored the truth of womanhood and the great power that is in it. Because he loved and honored women, it is no wonder they were so close and faithful to him, even on the night of Passion.
At dawn, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Martha, and John went out to keep vigil with the Lord at Golgotha, though some say it was Salome the maiden and not Martha who went out.
On the Way to Golgotha
Mother Mary, Magdalene, Martha, and John walked to Golgotha slowly, inwardly chanting the names of God and in prayer and meditation, though outwardly in silence. Joy had completely departed. They were in mourning, not for the Lord who had yet to die, but for the people, the land, and the whole world, bound to the dominion of the demiurgos and archons and to perpetual sorrow and suffering. It was not Satan that inspired those who killed the Lord; it was the archons. Yet they did not know what they were doing. Thus, the four mourned the plight of ignorance.
It would be impossible to speak the complexity of feelings and emotions in these holy persons on that day or during the three days that would follow—for there was layer upon layer of feelings, from human to heavenly knowing. So it was among all the disciples of the Lord in that darkest of times in their journey with the Anointed.
The Crucifixion
There are many tales of the crucifixion and many gradations of the Mystery. Yet in all of the tales, St. John is present, along with the Mother, Mary Magdalene, and a third woman. Thus, at the crossing, there is the Maiden, the Mother, and the Crone, the three faces of Great Mother Sophia. Though many would speak of the Living Father raising up the Son from death, according to the masters of the tradition, it was Mother Sophia or, as some say, God the Mother. That St. John was with these three holy women reveals that he was a devotee of the Divine Mother and Mother Spirit, and so when Yeshua was upon the cross, he said to the Mother, “Mother, behold your Son,” and he said to St. John, “Son, behold your Mother.”
Now others speak another mystery concerning these words. Some say it was the Christos speaking to the Holy Mother and the Christ-bearer, so as to say the Christos was not crucified; rather, it was the Christ-bearer who suffered the Crucifixion. Thus, the Mother of Christ is not Mary but is Mother Sophia or God the Mother. And so it is with all who are Christed, their Mother is Sophia and their Bride is Sophia, and all wisdom of the Ancient Mother is in them.
To have the mother of a son behold the crucifixion of her son or the wife and consort of a man behold the crucifixion of her husband and lover is surely the anguish of a crucifixion of the heart and soul. Thus also did the Mother and Bride experience the grief and pain of crucifixion on that day, and that grief and pain did not cease when the Lord breathed his last. It continued until the day of the resurrection, when their sorrow was transformed into joy and their hope affirmed.
The Holy Grail
St. Mary Magdalene brought the cup from the Last Supper with her to Golgotha. When the Roman centurion pierced the side of the Lord and blood and water poured out of the Lord’s side, Lady Mary put the cup to the wound and gathered some of the blood and water into it. When she did this, she was inwardly chanting certain divine names and prayed for the healing of the world, and thus she made and consecrated the Holy Grail.
The Grail remained in the custody of Lady Mary until her death. She used to teach the mysteries and sacred ceremonies of the Grail to her disciples. It healed every form of disease or wound, including the deeper wounds of the soul and spirit, and it granted long life to those who drank from it, among other blessings and boons. Some would say this Holy Grail exists even to this day, and those who say this often claim it is in the treasury of a secret society.
Though many believe in an actual and physical cup, many among Sophians would say that St. Mary Magdalene is the true Holy Grail, for it is into her that Lord Yeshua poured out the divine fullness of the Christ Spirit. Likewise, the Grail is often said to be the sanctuary of the heart of those who receive the Light-transmission and embody the Christ-presence. There seems to be some truth in all of these views.
Holy Relics
There are said to be two principal holy relics from the crucifixion—the Grail that gathered the blood and water flowing from the body of the Lord, and the lance that made the blood and water flow. Mary is said to have held the Grail in sacred trust, and it is said that Joseph of Arimathea obtained possession of the sacred lance. The powers of the lance are never openly spoken, let alone the power of the Grail and lance joined together—but it is said both holy relics continue to exist somewhere.
Lilith at the Crucifixion
It has been said that, when Our Lady anointed the body of the Lord, preparing him as a holy priest-king for his final journey, Lilith leapt out of her and into the Lord. When the Lord was upon the cross, Lilatu leapt out of him and she danced around the Lord upon the cross. Then, she made the top of his skull into a cauldron. Putting his body in it, she made heavenly ambrosia, which she served up to the hosts of heaven.
Then, once again, the Lord appeared on the cross. Lilith leapt out and danced, as before, and again made his skull into a cauldron. However, this time she brewed a strange concoction out of his body, mixing in bitter herbs and all manner of strange things. Then, she let out a yell and called all of the archons and unclean spirits to drink, and so they did.
One final time, the Lord appeared on the cross. Lilatu leapt out screeching and screaming and dancing wildly about, tore his body from the cross, ripped it into pieces, and threw them straight into the mouths of evil creatures and demons.
Thus, Lilith made an offering of the body and blood of the Lord three times, feeding all spirits and appeasing all spirits. Then the Lord appeared above the cross as a great Light-presence in the Jeweled Wisdom Body of Rainbow Glory. The Light poured out upon all living spirits and souls and upon the whole world, and all were satisfied and all were blessed. Thus, the Lord could pass through all domains above, below, and in between, gathering the sparks into his Mystical Body.
In this way, masters of the tradition have indicated the Mystery of the Crucifixion, and they have generated a special practice for the adepti59 who seek gnosis of this Mystery. Thus, many teachings and practices have been generated from this legend among Gnostic Christians of the Sophian Tradition. It is said to have been a legend begun by St. Mary of Magdal.
The First Stigmatic
When the Lord was upon the cross, the stigmata appeared on the body of Our Lady. She suffered and bled as the Lord suffered and bled, and she wept for the world. Her robes became crimson with the blood of Christ, the Logos and Sophia, so that she was baptized in the holy blood of the Savior. It was a passion of love, even unto death and in death itself, for Our Lady also died upon the cross that day.
It was as though the whole world was passing away: visions of the End-of-Days arose, and all manner of dark and hostile forces assailed her, as though all of the sins and darkness of humankind fell upon her, as upon the body of the Lord. The heart of Our Lady was truly broken. In her heart and soul she knew the supreme mystery being revealed; nevertheless, as a woman she grieved deeply and as the Savioress she grieved yet deeper for the world and the plight of God’s creatures under the dominion of cosmic ignorance.
As the Spirit of the Lord passed through the gates of Hades and descended through the realms of Gehenna, so also did the soul of Our Lady. Yet in the world, she kept vigil at the tomb, waiting to gather in the sparks, all the while experiencing the stigmata in full. Thus, St. Mary Magdalene was the first stigmatic, just as she would become the first holy apostle of the Risen Savior.
We may speak of the suffering of Our Lord. Yet with her exile into the pit of darkness in Babylon, her experience of the stigmata, and her later rejection and exile to a foreign land, surely we must also speak of the suffering of Our Lady, which is reflected in the continued plight of womanhood in the world. Likewise, as much as the suffering of the Lord, we must also speak of the suffering of Our Earthly Mother and her good creatures, who continue to suffer the Crucifixion on account of ignorance.
The First Apostle of Light
Lady Mary kept vigil at the tomb of the Lord, arriving just before the break of day and departing just as the sun set each day. On one hand, she was in mourning, wearing an inner robe of black; on the other hand, she was waiting expectantly, for she knew the Lord would rise from among the dead. So it came to pass that it happened just as she expected it to!
On the third day, she arrived just as the sun was ascending over the eastern horizon and she found the stone before the tomb rolled away and the tomb empty. Only the death shroud remained, but the body of the Lord was gone. She went to bear witness to the other disciples, running all the way. The men did not believe her, so they went out to see for themselves, Peter and another disciple out-running all of them. They also found the tomb empty and realized Mary had spoken the truth. They went back to the other disciples and confirmed the tomb was, in fact, empty.
Mary returned to the tomb alone. When she looked into the tomb, she saw two great angels sitting where the Lord’s head and feet would be. She instantly recognized the angels to be the archangels of the Crown and Kingdom, though some have said that they were two other archangels. They said to Mary, “Look! The Beloved lives and you are, in truth, the Anointed Bride!” Just then she turned around. The Risen Savior was standing in front of her, and she recognized him instantly, for she had seen him in the body of glory and had beheld the great angel of the Lord.
In that instant, the soul of Lady Mary leapt out of her body, and the Risen Savior carried her with him in ascent, so that she should be perfect in the gnosis of the Risen Christ. Passing up through the domains of the archons, they were invisible. Passing through the seven heavens and the outer and inner chambers of the Palace of Lights, all the heavenly hosts bowed down in worship of the Living Father, the Spiritual Sun, and the Mother Spirit. The soul of Mary entered into the Supernal Abode. The Lord took his Bride into the bridal chamber, and she witnessed the repose of the Son in the Living Father. The Lord said to her, “Join with me, Beloved Bride, and abide in my Father’s repose.” But she said to the Lord, “I cannot, my Adonai, for many are the living spirits and souls that remain in bondage, and rare, as yet, is the Light fully embodied in womanhood. I am my Mother’s Daughter, and I must return. Let it be that I may continue to incarnate in a woman’s form until the time of the Second Coming, that, while you abide in repose, I might be set in motion.” Thus Our Lady spoke a vow in the Supernal Abode.
Then the Living Yeshua said to his Beloved Bride, “What you have spoken is the will of our Father, and surely it is the grace of our Mother in you. Let it come to pass as you have spoken it. You are truly Kallah Messiah, and the Light-transmission of the Second Coming shall be made perfect in you, all as you desire.” Then he said to her, “Come, my holy bride, let us be going.” He led her in descent, restoring her soul to her body. Then the Risen Savior said to Lady Mary, “Go, and tell our brothers and sisters I am coming to them shortly, and let them make ready to receive me.” Then Mary went and reported to the disciples all that she had seen and all that the Lord had said, though she did not speak of her vow or her more intimate conversation with the Lord. Although she spoke the truth to them, the men did not believe her until the Risen Savior appeared to them directly. Though the Lord chastised them for their unbelief, nevertheless, after the Lord’s ascension, most of the men would later reject the Holy Bride.
Thus, the Risen Savior ordained St. Mary Magdalene as the first apostle, and as the apostle of the apostles. On account of her vow, it is said that she continues to incarnate in a woman’s form in every generation. The masters of the tradition say that she is here with us now, in this present generation.
The Appearances of the Risen Savior
It is said that the Risen Savior ascended and descended many times, even after the Great Ascension and Pentecost. Thus, the Risen Savior continued to appear to the apostles and disciples for many years after the resurrection. Many would say that the Risen Savior continues to appear to those who desire to receive him and who desire to receive the Light-transmission.
Of those to whom the Risen Savior appeared, it is St. Mary Magdalene to whom he appeared the most. Thus she received more teachings of the Risen Savior than any other apostle. It is often said that he continued to appear until St. Michael came of age, which is to say thirteen years and nine months, during which time he revealed many mysteries to the Holy Bride.
Perhaps the latter appearances of the Living Yeshua are the same as those during the initial years following the resurrection. Yet, in those years immediately following the resurrection, the True Gospel was given to the apostles by the Risen Savior, which is a Holy Gospel beyond what appears in the Bible of the outer and unspiritual church. Indeed, the Gnostic Gospel is the Gospel of the Risen Christ, of which the Gospels that appear in the common Bible are akin to a prologue. Thus, among Gnostics, there are secret and hidden gospels, and it is said that there are gospels as yet to be revealed before the Second Coming transpires.
The Bride in the Pentecost
On the day of the Pentecost, the men and women disciples closest to the Lord were gathered in the upper room—all who had been present at the Last Supper and when the Risen Savior first appeared. The women prepared the sacred space, as at the Last Supper, and the disciples gathered in prayer and meditation. Suddenly, a great fiery light appeared over the Holy Bride. It came to rest upon her and then divided into tongues of fire, which went out and came to rest upon the heads of every disciple present, both the men and women. She was the matrix below of the fiery-light presence above, and from her it passed unto all who were present. The men were driven out of the upper room by the Holy Spirit, but the women remained in the upper room with St. Mary Magdalene. They prayed and worshipped, sang and danced, and spoke of secret mysteries in the upper room all day and long into the night. Thus the women served as the matrix and generator of the Light that the men went out to extend, and the first apostle and Holy Bride was the center of the matrix of the Light-transmission. And so she is to this very day.
The Circle of the Bride in Galilee
The men who were apostles remained in Galilee after the Pentecost. Over time, one by one, they were sent by the Holy Spirit into various lands and among various peoples. St. Mary Magdalene, however, went to the hills of Galilee. Joseph of Arimathea, along with other disciples, went with her, though, mostly, it was women who were with her. There, for some time, she taught and initiated those who came to her, and a fairly large circle of disciples gathered around her. From time to time, a few of the men who were apostles would come to visit her and to inquire of the secret teachings the Lord had given to her, as well as to listen and hear the secret Gospel the Risen Savior gave to her. St. John, St. Philip, St. Andrew, St. Thomas, and St. Jude were those who would come, and once St. James also came; but by all the other male apostles, she was shunned and rejected.
There in the hills of Galilee, she gave birth to her child. She waited until he was old enough to travel, for the Lord had said to his disciples while he lived, “When I am no longer with you, turn away from Jerusalem, for there are many archons gathered about her, and she will soon become the haunt of demons and habitation of the beasts of the field and wild creatures.” This, Our Lady kept in mind, for she knew what was to come to pass in the place they put the Lord to death. Thus, she remained only a few years before departing to another distant land. While she was there, it is said she performed many wonders and taught many people the Way. Some say she lived and taught near a place called Safed, but no one truly knows where she stayed while she remained in the holy land.
The Mother and the Bride
Lady Mary and Mother Mary lived apart following the ascension of the Lord, yet in the Holy Spirit they were inseparable. Wherever the Bride was, the angel of the Mother was also present; and wherever the Mother was, there the angel of the Bride would be. To know one was to know the other; for in truth the Mother and the Bride are the same Wisdom.
Once, before the Mother’s ascension, Our Lady went to visit her. No one has ever said what they spoke about or what transpired when they met, but we are told that it was akin to the Transfiguration and the Light-presence became visible to those who witnessed their meeting. Shortly thereafter, it is said that the Holy Mother departed the world without having tasted death.
Here, we may speak quite clearly: The Mother-Bride is the redemption of true womanhood. Though ignorant men may reject God the Mother and the Holy Bride, God forbid that a woman reject her own Soul and Self!
52. A Gnostic term for Light-emanations, akin to the term “Sefirot” in the Kabbalah.
53. Gospel of St. John 3:11–12.
54. Birth, Baptism, Transfiguration, Crucifixion, Resurrection, Ascension, Unification, and Enthronement are considered the eight cycles of initiation in Gnostic Christianity; hence the eightfold initiation.
55. A name for the archangel Metatron, though often used to indicate the image of Metatron and Sandalphon as one Great Angel.
56. The term “Great Seth” is often applied to the union of the Lord and the Bride.
57. Gnostic term for the rite of the Holy Eucharist.
58. Perfect Light-emanation.
59. Advanced Gnostic initiates and elders.