“This is better than cable!” remarked Mrs. Grady, from her habitual perch by the window. Dani looked up from the stove. Something good must be happening two stories below on their normally quiet street. Dani briefly turned her attention back to the bubbling pots on the stove. Confident that her three meals were coming along nicely, she tucked unruly curls behind her ear and turned from the kitchen to join her neighbor at the window.
Below, two very muscular men with shirts removed, in deference to the fierce sun and brutal heat weltering up from the pavement, were wrestling an ugly sofa in through the double front doors of the building. Their lean muscles and trim waists twisted and flexed with effort. Dani’s face flushed with heat, a welcome change from her recent numbness.
“They can move my furniture anytime! Then again, I’m not sure my blood pressure could handle it!” Mrs. Grady cackled. Dani continued to observe the scene below. While the slick and straining bodies held her gaze, the implications flooded her thoughts.
“I bet they’re moving in the new tenant across the hall from us.” An empty ache spread through her chest as Dani was hit by the grief that she managed to keep just below the surface. “Well, across from me. It will be strange having someone else living there in my old place.” Her throat tightened at the reminder that she was living alone in Helen’s apartment now.
She returned to the kitchen, grasping for calm, trying to avoid sinking into her grief. She drained the pasta, mixed in the homemade marinara sauce along with some freshly grated Parmesan, and reduced the chicken soup to a simmer. At least managing to create three large meals at once required her attention. She spun too quickly and knocked a wooden spoon to the floor. With a huff of frustration, she threw the offending utensil into the sink.
“Are you OK, Sunny?”
“Yeah, sometimes it just hits me that she’s gone. That she won’t sit at your Wednesday night dinner again. That she won’t ever tell another crazy story about her service or her travels. That no one will be there when I open the door. It’s just hard.” Dani’s voice cracked and her shoulders drooped under the weight of her sadness.
“I know, sweetheart. I miss her too. She was my best friend.” Dani let herself be bundled into a hug, even though it was a poor substitute for the hug she missed.
“Mine, too. Now that she’s gone, I feel lost.”
“That’s normal, dear. After all, you practically gave up your life to take care of her these last six months.”
“What did I give up? A lackluster career in accounting and a dead end social life down in Houston? You know as well as I do, I didn’t belong there.” Dani shook her head. “No. I gained so much more, moving up here to help out. I met all of you, and got to spend more time with Aunt Helen. And with how quickly her health failed…well, I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else.”
The pancreatic cancer had snuck in under the radar, and when they found it, it was too late. It hit vicious and fast. She’d been home for Christmas when Aunt Helen broke the news. Now, it was June and she was alone again.
“I know she loved having you with her. You were the grandchild of her heart.”
Her grandfather’s sister, Aunt Helen, had never married. She had no children of her own, and had spoiled Dani and her sister like crazy as a result. Summer trips wherever Aunt Helen happened to be living that year, fantastic surprises from abroad, and boxes of massive navel oranges every New Year’s were her trademarks. And her stories! Dani had vivid memories of curling up at the foot of her chair and listening to her tell stories of her time in the Navy in her irreverent and slightly salty way. Dani let the fond memories roll through her mind.
“Remember how pissed she was when Dad brought up the idea of a nursing home?”
“Oh my goodness! I thought she’d have a stroke then and there, and save us another trip back to the hospital. She was not a woman to tolerate limits on her independence.”
That independent spirit was her trademark, and Dani hadn’t been able to stomach the idea of Helen losing that. When she had refused chemo and radiation, and begun to look at hospice care, Dani had offered to move into the vacant apartment across the hall and help take care of her. The move set her family at ease, and Dani felt blessed that she could help her surrogate grandmother wring every last drop of joy from her remaining days. They had visited favorite haunts and dear friends until leaving the apartment had become too difficult. Hospice nurses had come to handle Aunt Helen’s medical needs, and given Dani a few much-needed breaks. Just handling her personal care had become around the clock job near the end. So Dani had given up her month-to-month lease on the apartment across the hall and moved to Helen’s couch. Given the moving crew downstairs, she assumed her old apartment wouldn’t be empty anymore.
Aunt Helen was gone, and Dani was as lost as ever. Everything she owned was in boxes and shoved into corners. She was surrounded by the remnants of her aunt’s life, and it was difficult to see how hers could share the space.
She’d always had trouble figuring out where she fit in. She’d been raised to believe she could be whatever she wanted. But what if she couldn’t figure out what that was? She’d bumped along okay until now, but she hadn’t really pursued anything with passion. After going to college in Houston, she’d accepted a job working as an accountant at a multi-national energy firm. It had been lucrative, but it hadn’t been satisfying, and her asshole ex-boyfriend even less so. She'd been sprinting on the hamster wheel and going nowhere. She had zero desire to hop back on. Coming home hadn’t been a hardship, but what now?
“Moving in was the best thing for both of us. She kept her freedom, and I gained my own. But now I have too much freedom. I have no job, no friends, and no idea what to do about any of it. And I’ve got all of her estate to handle…I keep losing hours at a time just holding an afghan she knit or rearranging the framed postcards from her travels.” The tears she’d been fighting to hold back ran silently down her cheeks.
“It’s a big job. Don’t rush it. You’ve got a lot to deal with. Losing Helen was hard on us all. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Come to our dinners. Talk to your friends. Bake her favorite desserts. Share stories of her that make you laugh instead of cry. It will get easier with time.”
The timer ding pulled Dani from her maudlin thoughts, and she bent to remove the shepherd’s pie from the oven. She set it aside to cool and quickly packed everything else into the fridge. At least her neighbors would benefit from her lack of a plan.
Dani turned back from the fridge, wiping the tears of frustration and grief from her cheeks. She had to shake things up and move on with her life. It’s what Aunt Helen had wanted, and she knew she had to live up to her end of the bargain. When Helen had agreed to let her come help, it was always with the understanding that when she was gone, Dani would take up the reins to her life and do something spectacular. Now if I could just figure out what that is...
“Well, Mrs. Grady, you’re all set. You’ve got the shepherd’s pie for Monday night, the spaghetti and meatballs for Wednesday, and chicken soup for Thursday. Make sure you nuke a vegetable to go with. I stocked your freezer today, so you should have plenty to choose from. Also, let Joe know that I left the fennel out of the soup this time, just for him. Tell everyone I said hi.” She gathered her things and moved toward the door.
“Are you sure you won’t join us, Sunny? I worry about you eating alone so much.”
The use of her aunt’s favorite nickname for her sparked a brief smile, but Dani shook her head. “I just...can’t yet. Maybe next week.” To be honest, she couldn’t stand to see the sadness in her heart reflected back in the eyes of her aunt’s friends. It was bad enough to feel it herself. “I’m going to go bake some cookies to welcome our new neighbor to the building. I’ll extend an invite to your dinner party on Wednesday, if you’d like.”
“The more, the merrier, I always say. And if he turns out to be a bachelor, send him over on Tuesday!” Still chuckling, Mrs. Grady closed the door behind her, and Dani waited to hear the bolt snick in the lock. She’d fallen into the habit of checking up on her neighbors when Aunt Helen had gotten too weak to do it herself. Making meals, listening for locks, dropping off mail, it didn’t take long and helped a lot. Sometimes it felt like those were the only things she accomplished in a day.
“I really need to change that,” she muttered.
Dani walked down the hallway, skirting past a pile of boxes left outside the door across the hall from hers. One of the moving men came out of the apartment for another load, and sent her an appreciative glance and smile. Dani ducked her head with a blush and quickly headed inside. Why hadn’t she said hi? Why on Earth had she blushed? She had to get out more, preferably with a male of the species. Shaking her head over her reaction and the dismal prospect of that happening any time soon, she pushed aside her worries in the kitchen, baking her famous dark chocolate chunk cookies for her mystery neighbor.
“I don’t know how you managed it, man.”
“Managed what?”
“You pick an apartment in what is practically an assisted living home, and end up with a bombshell across the hall. I got a place in the new high rise downtown, and my neighbor is the cat lady. Some guys have all the luck!” Seth plopped down on the couch that had just recently been shoved through the narrow doorway and into place. He stretched his arms up high over his head and groaned as his shoulders released their tension. “How many more trips do we have to make?”
“Two more trips with boxes, the TV, and then the mattresses,” Nick replied. He slicked his sweat soaked hair back from his forehead and flopped on the couch next to his buddy. “Tell me more about the bombshell.”
“5’7”, blonde, stacked, but shy, ducked into the apartment across the way.”
“Maybe she just isn’t used to seeing bare chested men roaming the halls. Like you said, this building doesn’t exactly cater to the younger crowd.”
“I still don’t know why you picked this place. There are openings in my building. We could’ve been kings.”
“Now you get to be king all by yourself. You won’t have to worry about any unfair competition from this quarter.” Nick deflected his friend’s concern into the competitive insults that defined their friendship.
“Unfair, my ass! You know you’d be hiding in my shadow,” Seth replied, and it was on. Break time over, Nick and Seth heaved themselves up off the couch and headed back down to the truck for the last few loads. Carrying the conversation back out into the hallway, they continued hauling Nick’s few possessions into his new place. Thankfully the apartment was small enough that it didn’t feel empty with his lack of stuff. The small bedroom was now filled with a bed and dresser, and the living room/kitchen open space was just big enough for his hand-me-down couch and a kitchen table. Furniture shopping was not high on his to-do list.
“What does your mom think of your new place?”
“I could move into a dump, and she'd still be ecstatic that I came back home. Dad is already pressuring me to take over the business. That is much easier to accomplish with me close at hand. I think she wants to send my cousins over to renovate the place. Tile counter tops offend her. I keep reminding her it's just a rental."
"Are you going to do it?"
“What, get new counter tops?"
“No. Take over the business from your dad.” Nick hefted a box up on his shoulder, wondering what it would feel like to have a family that cared as much as Seth’s.
“Not right away. I want a little freedom first. I just got back and already they want me to jump right back into all that responsibility. No way. But eventually, yeah, that was always the plan, now that my days of ‘seeing the world’ are over."
"No one said you had to leave the sandbox.”
“If I never see sand again, it'll be too soon.”
“So instead you'll join your cousins in the general contracting business."
"They promised I could start helping with demolitions."
"That fits. You've always been good at breaking shit. Do they expect the house to still be standing when you’re done?”
“Shut up. Have I broken anything today?"
"Not much to break.”
The stacks of boxes and the few pieces of furniture Nick had kept barely filled the small truck they’d rented to move everything from his storage locker. After six years in the service, four of those deployed, first in Afghanistan and then in Iraq, Nick had left the Army when it came time to re-up. Years deployed hadn't left him much time to accumulate stuff. It made moving again pretty straightforward, if a little depressing.
Since Seth had gotten out at the same time and decided to move back closer to his family, Nick had opted to tag along. It wasn’t like he had anyone waiting for him to come home. He wanted to be near his buddy, but he also recognized his need for some private space to decompress. He knew the signs, the symptoms. Lord knew he'd been coached in how to recognize it in his men. He wasn't fine, far from it, but with a little down time he could put things right. He'd been able to keep his military mask in place, so no one suspected anything. He wouldn't be able to keep it hidden from Seth if they were roommates though. So, when he had seen the opening in a smaller building a bit further from downtown, he jumped on it.
“So, what are you going to do?”
“I’ve earned a little R&R. I’ve got enough in the bank to give me a few months to fat ass and figure that out.”
“Lucky bastard. Got anything in mind?”
“Nothing firm yet. A few hobbies. Anything that doesn’t involve PT at dawn or barking orders sounds good right about now.”
“Well, if you get desperate I can get you on a construction crew, but early starts and barked orders come with the territory.”
“Thanks. I’ll think about it.”
“Open offer. Just let me know. My dad would love to have a new face to harass.”
“Yeah, it sounds great.” Sarcasm dripped from his lips. “You just want someone else to be his whipping boy.”
He was looking forward to having some peace and quiet for a while. He had enough saved to buy himself a month or two of freedom before jumping back into the working world. He vowed to use it wisely.
They brought the mattress and box spring up last, which were of course the hardest to get through the doors and into the apartment. Nick cursed as he caught his knuckle on the outer door. The apartment building, built in the late 70's, lacked charm, but it did boast a swimming pool and a functional elevator. He was also grateful it had an available rent-controlled veteran housing unit. With a few muttered curses and forceful shoves, it was done. He was officially moved in. Nick popped them each a celebratory beer before collapsing back on the couch.
“You’re really gonna live all the way over here, all by yourself?” Seth asked.
“Dude, let it go.” Nick’s frustration colored his tone. “I know it’s hard for you to believe, but I really do just want a little peace and quiet.”
A firm knock on the door interrupted his statement, and he grimaced. Really? People? Already? Probably someone complaining about the moving truck. Annoyed, he got up to answer the door, and swung it open before he realized he was still half dressed. His heart jumped to his throat, pulsing madly, choking any words of greeting that might've made their way out of his mouth. There stood the woman who had to be the bombshell, blond and brightly smiling. Her long, loose curls teased the face of an angel. Startling blue eyes, framed by long brown lashes looked at him curiously.
“Hi, I’m Dani Carmichael. I was looking for the new tenant. Is he or she here?”
Stunned by that smile, Nick didn’t immediately reply. His fingers twitched with a barely contained desire to reach out and touch. His heart thudded thickly in his chest, and his mouth disengaged from his brain, leaving him mute and gaping.
“I’m sorry, I just assumed when I saw you moving the furniture in. Do you know when they’ll be here?” Dani shifted, waiting for a response he couldn’t quite muster. Now he knew the meaning of dumbstruck. He watched a blush creep up her neck, and she looked past him, clearly hoping to find someone capable of speech.
“Nope, he’s here alright,” chimed in Seth. He came forward to shake Dani’s hand. “I’m Seth Valenti, and this is Nick. He’ll be your new neighbor, so if you ever need any help with your pipes or pickle jars, feel free to call.” Nick shoved him back and shot him a fulminating glare.
“Ignore him. He’s an idiot most of the time, including right now.”
“That’s alright,” Dani met his gaze again, and he just wanted to bask in her gaze. “Are you my new neighbor?”
He finally got his brain to sync up with his tongue.
“Yes, I’m Nick Gantry. Nice to meet you.” He finally remembered his manners and stuck his hand out to reach for hers, when he noticed the plate she was carrying. “Are those for me?”
She pulled her gaze down over his bare torso on the way to the plate of cookies in question. Each pause made his pulse leap.
“What? Oh! Yes, I made you some cookies to welcome you to my apartment. Um, that is, your apartment. Which used to be mine. So.” She handed him the plate quickly and shoved her hands in her pockets, and he couldn’t help but notice the way it highlighted the generous curve of her chest beneath her thin t-shirt.
“The shower can be a little wonky. If you don’t jiggle it right, you’ll end up with a cold shower. If you need anything or have questions about the building, just knock on my door. I’m home most days now. We’re a pretty close group of residents around here. Anyone would be glad to help if I’m not around.” God, she was cute when she was flustered and rambling. If she kept talking and he kept staring much longer, he was going to need that shower to run cold. Maybe he should ask her to come in with him and demonstrate the jiggle. He struggled to follow the words coming out of her mouth while that image completely derailed his concentration. “Mrs. Grady in 212 wants to invite you to a dinner party she’s throwing Wednesday night at six.”
“Huh? What? A dinner party? She doesn’t even know me?”
“She will after an hour at her table,” Dani grinned, clearly knowing more about this Mrs. Grady than she was letting on.
Dammit, that was a killer smile. Nick found himself nodding and agreeing to go, while under the influence of that grin. It shouldn’t be legal to ask questions wielding that kind of power. Here he’d been looking for a retreat, and he was already getting sucked out into the company of strangers. Dammit!
“Well, I’ll let you get back to unpacking. It was nice to meet you Seth, Nick.”
“Thanks for the cookies.”
Dani turned and quickly walked back into her apartment, setting her blond curls bouncing. Nick couldn’t look away, until she and that lethal smile of hers had made it all the way inside.
Seth commented from the couch, “Now I get it. You chose to live here to brush up your social skills before upgrading to a place like mine. That was tough to listen to, man. You didn’t even invite her past the door.”
“I didn’t want her to have look at your mug any longer than necessary. And I thought your building was full of cat ladies...”
As Nick razzed his buddy mercilessly and washed down the cookies with beer, his mind couldn't fully focus on the conversation. Blond hair, blue eyes, and that genuine smile danced through his mind, and he wondered when he'd get to see them again.