Thick Jay was in his underwear and a once-white T-shirt, bent over the coffee table, inflating himself with smoke from the glass bong, his back arching as he inhaled. When the hit had gone on a few seconds, he pulled the webbed filter from the end of the bong and sucked the rest of the smoke from the glass tube into his lungs. He set the bowl in the bong and fell back against the couch, letting loose a cloud of smoke. “Up at noon, stoned by one. Nothin’ like a little wake-and-bake, my friend.”
Chase looked up from his cereal. “Why you still use that thing, man?”
“I don’t know,” said Thick Jay. “Nostalgia.” He pushed a pizza box onto the trash-strewn floor to give himself more room.
Katrina came around the corner then, her hair already coming out of the braids she’d been building. “Jesus, Jay, you gonna take care of him or what?”
Jay cocked his head at the raspy whimpering from the back bedroom. “Yeah, I’m a little busy right now. You think you could…”
“No way, Jay. It’s your responsibility. I’m gonna get some cigarettes.” She went outside. Jay watched her go, then rolled his eyes at Chase.
Through the open front door another man leaned in, a guy in his thirties with long, scraggly hair, faded jeans, a black tank top, a backpack, and new running shoes. He gave a short wave. “Hey, man. What’s the special today?”
Thick Jay and Chase looked up together. Jay smiled. “You back already?”
“Yeah,” the guy said. “Whatcha got for me?”
“You smoke all that rock you got yesterday? What are you, fuckin’ iron lung?”
“Hey, I had a party.”
Thick Jay and Chase exchanged glances. “You get your invitation, Chase?”
Chase shook his head solemnly.
“Maybe we oughta go check,” Thick Jay said.
“Yeah,” Chase said. “I better go home and check my mail for an invitation.”
“Aw, man.” The guy with the backpack threw his arms up.
“Don’t get all shitty with me, man,” Thick Jay said. “You’re the one had a party with my rock and didn’t invite me. That’s fucked, my friend.”
In the surveillance van, Caroline rechecked the clip in her handgun as she listened to Gerraghty on the wire: “I got so fucked up I thought you were there.”
Sergeant Lane winced and looked over at Caroline and the other four detectives. Caroline shrugged. It was a good line. There was a brief pause on the other end of the wire and then the two suspects burst into laughter. Usually the wire was closed, with just one officer listening, but it drove Lane crazy wondering when to go in, so he began opening it up, having them all listen.
“No shit?” asked the older suspect, whom Gerraghty’s confidential informant had identified as “Thick Jay” Pringle, a Portland biker who dealt crack and methamphetamine from the house. The meth wasn’t a surprise; bikers had been dealing it in some form for forty years. Spokane was a meth town. But the rock cocaine was a bit surprising. Gerraghty was convinced that Thick Jay had been Burn’s source, and they had hoped to squeeze Burn to get to Jay, then squeeze again to get Jay’s source. With everyone dealing meth, crack was still pretty easy to trace, and Thick Jay seemed to be the only person with any sort of quantity.
“No shit, huh?” Jay’s voice came over the radio, “I told you, that’s primo stuff, man. Fuck you up, yeah?”
In the background, Caroline heard the hoarse whimpering of a dog. Crouched on the floor of the van, she shifted her weight, wishing this would go faster, so they could get in the house and cuff these idiots, and she could get back to the hospital to see her mother. What had the nurse said? A body has a way of shutting down.
“So you got anything else?”
Listening to wires drove Sergeant Lane almost as crazy as not listening. Caroline wished, for his sake, that this would go faster. After each exchange Lane looked around the van, trying to gauge their reaction, to figure out how it was going.
“Damn, man! You a fuckin’ smokestack!”
The other suspect, for whom Gerraghty had only gotten a first name, Chase, laughed appreciatively and repeated the line. “…fuckin’ smokestack.”
In the van, they waited impatiently, every scrape and cough that came over the wire putting them more on edge, punctuated by the faint, rhythmic whimpering.
“Christ,” said Solaita, who sat in the front seat of the van with binoculars, watching the house, “would someone let the fuckin’ dog out.”
They heard the screen door open. From the front seat, Solaita held up one finger and touched his chest, the sign that the woman who’d left earlier had returned.
“What’s goin’ on, Jay?” the woman asked.
“What do you think is goin’ on? A little commerce.”
It was quiet in the house for a moment and then the woman laughed nervously. “So can I talk to you a minute, Jay?”
Inside the van, they recognized the tone, and Sergeant Lane ran his eyes across the other SIU detectives, dressed all in black and body armor. Four cars of patrol officers were on standby, and Lane spoke quietly into his headset to move them into place.
“I wish you could talk for only a minute,” Jay was saying.
The girl was losing her temper. “You’re so fuckin’ stupid, Jay. He’s a cop.”
“Shit!” Sergeant Lane stood in a crouch and pointed at the driver, who shifted into gear and ripped across the parking lot.
Going by the book, Gerraghty tried incredulity. “You think I’m a fuckin’ cop?”
The girl laughed. “You arrested me six months ago. What, you quit since then?”
“Get down!” Gerraghty yelled. “Get on the ground!”
The van veered down an alley, turned, and jumped onto the dead grass in front of the house, a house that Caroline saw and knew immediately with a precision drawn from so many other busts: They would find a couch on the porch, bedsheets on the windows, chipped-paint and primer-shake walls, gray roof shingles dissolving into dirt.
The back door of the van flew open and the detectives burst out, spreading across the lawn and up the porch. Caroline took the porch steps two at a time and was the third cop in the house, Gerraghty already having wrestled Jay to his substantial stomach, a knee in his back, screaming at him—“Hands out at your sides! Hands at your sides!”—as Solaita began the same process with Chase, who had the dumbest look Caroline had ever seen, as if he were contemplating his first tool.
A veteran of this kind of raid, the woman was on the floor with her hands on the back of her head, so Caroline passed her on to one of the other detectives and kept moving through the disgusting house, stepping around garbage into a hallway and then a bathroom in which the water apparently had been turned off. Caroline had seen bathrooms like this before, the occupants taking to shitting in the bathtub when the toilet was full. She covered her mouth and backed out of the room. “Bathroom’s clear,” she said into her microphone and kept moving through the house.
Beneath the yelling and wrestling from the living room, Caroline could hear the whimpering more clearly. The dog was in a back bedroom.
Caroline moved through the kitchen, a pan of cold macaroni and cheese on the table along with parts of countless other meals, sandwiches and bags of potato chips and beer cans. A diaper. “Kitchen’s clear,” Caroline said into the radio.
The back bedroom was off the kitchen and had been at one time a back porch or eating nook. Even before she turned the loose door handle, Caroline had a terrible feeling. The crying was clearer here, the smell precise, and before she stepped through the door, Caroline knew what she would find.
He was maybe six months old, lying on his side, running his fingers over the bars of his crib, his voice nearly gone from crying. He was naked, and Caroline could smell before she could see that he had been lying in his own waste for some time now. Someone had taped a pacifier onto his mouth but he had gotten it partway off and it hung from his cheek by a square of duct tape. His crying was steady and throbbing, like a record that’s finished playing, but keeps spinning under the needle. Caroline doubted the cry was for attention anymore. This baby didn’t know what other sound to make.
She grabbed a flannel shirt off a chair in the kitchen and returned to the crib, wrapped it around the boy, and lifted him from the soaked and soiled bed. He weighed as much as her purse. He didn’t seem to notice that he was in someone’s arms.
Caroline carefully took the taped pacifier off his cheek.
She held him beneath her chin and rocked back and forth, but he just kept crying. Through the kitchen and down the hallway, she could see the Kevlar-vested detectives wrestling with Thick Jay, Chase, and the woman. She opened her mouth to let someone know what she’d found, but nothing came. The baby lay limp against her shoulder, not hugging or resisting, just lying there. Caroline could hear her own breath in her head.
Sergeant Lane stepped through the kitchen, covering his mouth because of the stench. It took a moment for the flannel lump on Caroline’s shoulder to register, but when it did, the sergeant removed his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose. Her hand shaking, Caroline held out the tape and the pacifier. “I’ll call CPS,” he whispered.
While Sergeant Lane called Child Protective Services, Caroline looked for a bottle. There seemed to be no rhyme or reason to the cupboards—half-eaten chips and two black bananas in this one, a box of rice and a photo album in that one. No baby supplies anywhere. She finally found a bottle in the refrigerator, but it was empty, just stained with old milk, the rubber on the nipple old and flaking.
The whimpering hadn’t changed and so Caroline stuck her pinkie in the boy’s mouth, the way she’d seen her sister-in-law do when Chelsea was crying. He began suckling her finger, pausing every few seconds to rest, then starting in again on her finger. After a few tugs at this he stopped crying, and after a few more was asleep.
She walked gingerly through the house, trying not to wake the baby. The other detectives slumped when they saw what she held, when they recalled the whimpering dog. Caroline moved into the living room, where the suspects were laid out on their stomachs, being questioned. She pushed the clothes and garbage aside and set the baby down on the couch, taking the ratty flannel shirt away and replacing it with a T-shirt that would be softer on his little body. But without the feel of her, the baby began crying, more softly this time, reaching out with clawed fingers for her.
On the floor across the room, Thick Jay lifted his head at the sound. “Hey, what are you doing with my kid?”
Caroline didn’t even realize she had crossed the room. She grabbed one handcuffed arm, and with her other hand grabbed Thick Jay’s hair. She pulled equally on them and he screamed as he was lifted by the shoulder and the hair to a standing position. Detectives and uniformed cops came into the room and saw Thick Jay balanced on the balls of his feet, his face wrenched in pain. Caroline cranked on his arm and hair. She slammed his face into the fireplace. Jay’s knees buckled and he fell away from her. Caroline stood above him, still holding a patch of his curly brown hair.
Sergeant Lane and a uniformed officer grabbed Caroline and pulled her away, then shoved her in the direction of the front door. She lurched to a stop and stared at the clump of hair in her hand. The baby was whimpering again on the couch, as loudly as he had in the back bedroom. Finally, she dropped the hair and looked at Jay, whose nose was bleeding, but who otherwise appeared fine.
Another pair of hands pushed her in the back again, out the door, and Caroline found herself on the porch steps. She slumped down against the side of the house and listened to the rusty squeak of the baby inside the house.