HOLDING ON

Green fingers

holding the hillside,

mustard whipping in

the sea winds, one blood-bright

poppy breathing in

and out. The odor

of Spanish earth comes

up to me, yellowed

with my own piss.

                                        40 miles from Málaga

half the world away

from home, I am home and

nowhere, a man who envies

grass.

               Two oxen browse

yoked together in the green clearing

below. Their bells cough. When

the darkness and the wet roll in

at dusk they gather

their great slow bodies toward

the stalls.

                         If my spirit

descended now, it would be

a lost gull flaring against

a deepening hillside, or an angel

who cries too easily, or a single

glass of seawater, no longer blue

or mysterious, and still salty.