Abigail strode out her back door, passed her greenhouse and raised bed garden, and entered the maple orchard. In their late spring splendor, the trees spread bright-green branches above her but she didn’t stop to enjoy them. She traversed the hill to the privet at the edge of the wood and ducked through the gate that now hung open on rusty hinges.
For June, the weather was unseasonably cool, but it wasn’t the temperature that had her crossing her arms over her black slip dress. She rubbed her shoulders. The magnificent garden she’d planted, grown from the seeds she’d collected with her late husband, Oswald, was dead. One hundred years of work rotted brown at her feet, overgrown with native weeds.
“Such a shame,” she said to no one. She climbed the sand dune and entered the maze of cacti, now reduced to sharp brown skeletons. At the center, the burnt branches of the tree that used to house Oswald’s soul twisted like writhing black snakes. Burning the tree had been the only way to ensure Oswald could never be used as a portal again. The enchanted staffs were all that remained of what the tree used to be.
She approached the charred trunk and waved her hand over the base. Green vines sprouted from the earth and wrapped themselves around the dead bark. Crimson roses bloomed between the leaves.
“I’ve come to visit, Oswald. I need to talk to someone. I know you can’t answer me. Maybe you can’t even hear me. That’s okay. I’ll do the talking.”
With a flourish of her hand, a stump emerged from the sandy soil. She sat down, crossing her legs.
“I miss you, Oswald. I miss how simple it was when it was just you and me. You never knew what I was, but I loved you anyway.” She turned her face toward the sun, closing her eyes against the light. “And I think you loved me, too. But as much as I loved you, you loved the illusion. Who I was when we were together, was a lie.”
She stood and walked to the tree, cradling one of the roses in her hand. “When I was with you, a lie was a lie. Now that you're gone, everything is more complicated. I’m supposed to live like this illusion is the real thing.” Thumping her chest with her palm, she paced the sand. “I’ve had serpent skin for thousands of years. How is a person supposed to change what they are, for any reward?
“I used to think that there was something left in me from what I was before, something deep inside that still glowed like Gideon, but now I wonder. I wonder if there’s anything good or right in me at all. I wonder if my love for Gideon is really some sort of yearning for the innocence we once shared. I do love him, in a different way than I loved you, but just as real.
“Is love enough to change someone? It wasn’t for you and me. Love didn’t make you immortal or change the evil in my flesh. Love doesn’t make a person good. It doesn’t transcend our reality. It wasn’t enough to stop me from getting Dane into this mess or risking the lives of the remaining Soulkeepers.
“In the end, we are who we are, good or evil. If there is change, if you believe people can change, it’s because we choose it. We choose it for our own reasons. People say we come into this world alone and we leave alone. You may have left this world alone, Oswald, but I was left alone. I am destined to always be alone. What is asked of me is impossible. God says He will make me human, but only if I am already as good as human.”
She pounded her sternum with her fist as if she could make her heart start beating.
“This foul organ might as well be stone.”
Blood red and fully open, one of the roses caught her eye. She plucked the flower from the vine. A thorn dug into her finger but she did not bleed. She could not bleed anything but black Watcher blood. It would take more than a thorn to draw it from beneath her scaly shell.
Resting in her hand, she held the bloom out toward Oswald’s grave. “This rose has a better chance of turning into a butterfly and flying from my hand, than I do of making the right decision when the time comes.”
She shook her head and tossed the rose on the sand. “Now you know, Oswald. Wherever you are, you know exactly what I am. It was good talking to you again, even if you couldn’t hear it.”
In the blink of an eye, she was gone, out of the maze and back up to the house. She moved too quickly to be sure, but out of the corner of her eye, she could've sworn a crimson red butterfly stretched its wings and fluttered toward the sky.
From the porch of her gothic Victorian home, Abigail watched the Laudner’s Flowers and Gifts delivery van pull into her driveway. Malini and Jacob exited the vehicle and hurried toward her.
Lillian leaned out the driver’s side window. “Jacob, I know this is important, but John isn’t going to take any excuses for you missing dinner again. Malini, you need to check in at home, too, or things are going to get complicated.”
Abigail grinned. “Don’t worry. They'll be out of your hair soon enough. It seems both of your parents have won a two-week cruise to the Caribbean.”
“That’s convenient,” Malini said, exchanging glances with Jacob.
As Lillian backed down the driveway, all Abigail could think of was how ridiculous it was for God to send a couple of teenagers to stop Lucifer and his army. They weren’t ready. Not for this.
“Come in,” she said, holding open the door. She led them into her parlor and took a seat in the leather recliner. “In light of Dane’s impending death, I’ll dispense with the formalities. Malini, who do we need to bring in first?”
“I’m not sure.”
“What do you mean, you’re not sure? You’re the Healer. You have to know.” Abigail grabbed Malini’s wrist, shaking it as if the names would fall out like loose change. “You need to know. You need to know now.”
Jacob pushed Dr. Silva’s hand away. “Relax. Give her some air. We’ve been traveling for the last fourteen hours.”
The look Abigail shot him made Jacob lean away from her. She’d looked at him like this once before, when she’d thought he’d left the gate open back when the enchanted garden was alive and dangerous. She knew her expression wasn’t human and the message it sent was as clear as if she’d said the words out loud. I could kill you.
“She’s right, Jacob. This is my job,” Malini said, voice shaking. “When I say I’m not sure, I mean I don’t have a clear vision of our outcome. What I am sure of is we have to move forward. We could have better timing but Lucifer has forced our hand. We can’t afford to wait. We go tomorrow. I’ve decided we start with—”
“Stop, Malini. Don’t say it.” Abigail retrieved a piece of parchment from a box on the mantel. “Write mine on this. It’s enchanted to only appear for me. You never know who might be listening.”
Abigail slid the parchment across the table and offered Malini a pen. The Healer wrote the information on it, the ink disappearing into the parchment.
“Dr. Silva?” Jacob asked, tentatively. “I thought your house was enchanted. I thought Watchers couldn’t come here without being invited. How could anyone be listening?”
Turning her face toward the window, Dr. Silva gave a deep sigh. “My home is safe from Watchers, Jacob, but we’re not dealing with Watchers anymore. We’re dealing with Lucifer. I wish we hadn’t garnered his attention. Lucifer goes anywhere he wants to go, he looks any way he wants to look, and he listens and sees much more than you can imagine.” She rubbed her eyes, feeling more exhausted than ever.
Malini's golden stare fixed on Abigail. “Maybe so, but he’s not God. He may be able to do all of those things but he can’t do them everywhere at once. If he’s following me, he can’t be following you. You taught me that. We can use that to our advantage.”
Dr. Silva nodded. She held out the parchment and allowed her touch to pull the ink to the surface.
Tomorrow night, Ethan Walsh, Pauly’s Nightclub, Los Angeles. Go exactly at 1:15 a.m. He’ll be behind the bar. He doesn’t know what he is. Horseman Bridget Snow and Helper August Ward, 2 p.m., The Bean Grinder, Hot Springs, Arkansas. They’ll be expecting you.
She blinked several times, memorizing the names and locations, then crumpled the note and tossed it into the fire. The page ignited and turned to ash. “You’re right, Malini. Lucifer has his limitations, although I wish he had more of them.”
“The times I wrote on your parchment, stick to them,” Malini said. “Even if it’s not what you expected.”
“Of course,” Dr. Silva said toward the fire.
“Jacob and I will do our part. We'll check back in with you after your first mission,” Malini said.
Abigail nodded.
Malini motioned for Jacob to follow her and the two headed for the door without saying goodbye. Abigail heard the click as it shut behind them. She leaned on the mantel and rested her forehead on her crossed arms.
Lucifer had his limitations. Malini was right about that. He couldn’t be in two places at once, but he could make plenty of trouble for all of them. She pitied Ethan Walsh most of all. He had no idea what he was about to be pulled into.