Inspector Jaap Rykel breathes in.
‘How can you have lost him?’ he says, watching a coot scan for food in the canal below. The bird’s beak flashes white as it dives, leaving ever-expanding circles on the water’s surface.
‘Nah, we’ve got him again,’ says the voice on the phone. ‘Just a temporary blip at changeover.’
Jaap waits for the bird to reappear, marvelling at how long it can stay under, how long it can hold its breath. He turns and crosses the road, narrowly missing a determined woman on a bike. A small bug-eyed dog glares at him from the handlebar basket as it sails past.
‘How temporary?’
‘Couple of hours, but like I said, we’re on him now. No harm done.’
He hopes that’s true. Because the man under surveillance drugged and then murdered two people, and it’s taken him three stress-fuelled months of painstaking, and often frustrating, work to get to this stage.
He does not want a fuck-up.
‘Right, stay on him, and from now on keep me updated on every move,’ he says before pocketing his phone, wondering how a surveillance team, whose one job is to keep tabs on someone, messes up like that.
He reaches the station and punches in his code, waiting for the click telling him he can enter. He’s anticipating the usual cool blast of air against his face, but as he steps through the door he finds it’s even hotter inside than out.
‘Bit cold,’ he says as he walks past the desk sergeant, ‘maybe we could turn the heating up?’
‘AC crapped out about an hour ago,’ the desk sergeant says, wiping away tiny beads of sweat dappling his face. ‘Someone’s on their way to fix it. Believe it when I see it, though.’
Jaap takes two flights up, heat increasing with each step. The office itself, open plan and usually glacial, is no better. He walks over to his desk, nestled amongst several others at the far end of the oblong space, and avoids catching anyone’s eye, his mind on what’s to come.
Three months he’s been working this case, and late yesterday evening he’d finally, after laying it all out to Station Chief Henk Smit and getting the official OK, put in the warrant request. In the normal scheme of things, and given the severity of the two crimes involved, he’d get a quick response.
But here he is, the next afternoon, and still nothing.
He checks his phone again, just in case, and then his email. Aside from an Exciting Investment Opportunity and a warning that his Paypal account will be suspended unless he clicks this link right now, there’s nothing. No warrant. And no communication explaining why that might be.
Smit’s busy when he tries to reach him on the phone, his PA telling him he’s in a meeting for at least another hour, so he decides to go back over what he’d submitted, checking he hadn’t made some mistake which could be holding everything up.
On 3 May he’d taken a call leading to the first victim, Dafne Koster, a twenty-seven-year-old classroom assistant from Alkmaar. She’d been found in a field, hands tied behind her back, her head wrapped tight in cling film. Even though she’d tried to rub her face against the ground, the many layers of plastic had held tight. Worse, from footprints round the body it looked like someone had stood and watched as she writhed, her desperate attempts to get air into her lungs, trying to cling onto a life rapidly receding.
The investigation had been tough, all the usual avenues pulling blanks, and Jaap was starting to fear it was destined to be every inspector’s nightmare, an unsolvable case.
But that was before the second body turned up a month and a half later. Nadine Adelaars, twenty-two, a trainee printmaker from Zwolle. Her body was found on a stretch of land just south of the city, hands tied behind her back, duct tape wrapped round her nose and mouth. In and of itself that wasn’t enough to definitively link the two crimes, but a surprising detail emerged which went a long way to proving the killer of both women was the same.
Jaap leans back in his chair, his body full of that pre-arrest anxiety which he always gets, a density in his stomach which will only grow and grow until it’s over.
His phone rings – months ago on a long stake-out he’d set it as the Mission Impossible theme, a kind of meta-joke which no one seems to get – and his hand shoots out, knocking it off the table in his haste.
‘Yeah?’ he says once he’s retrieved it from the floor.
‘Just heard, warrant’s going to be issued,’ Henk Smit says. ‘Might as well head over there so we can move the second it does.’
As he puts the phone down Jaap wonders about the we not you, a small puzzle which is solved as he’s signing out an unmarked from the underground car pool and sees the door swing open to reveal his boss.
Turns out Smit’s junked his meeting and is coming along for the ride, the scent of a high-profile arrest too tantalizing to pass up.
Great, Jaap thinks. Just great.
The house, midway down a tree-lined street, is innocent.
It’s no different from any of the others – nothing, as far as Jaap can see, hinting that the four suburban walls house a man who in the recent past murdered two young women, stood over them as their lungs fought for air which wasn’t to come.
His leg’s got that going-to-sleep tingle, and he shifts, trying to stretch it out as much as the footwell allows. Beside him Smit digs at something under his thumb nail. If it was anyone other than Smit, Jaap might think they were nervous.
Unseen, a bunch of sparrows irritate the world with their incessant chirping. A kid freewheels loosely past on a bike way too small for him, white earbuds snaking down his cheeks, his oversize cap on sideways.
‘I thought you said it was due any minute?’ Jaap says, following the kid till he turns off the road at the far end, disappearing behind a parked SUV with blacked-out windows and a bad scuff on the passenger door.
Smit shrugs. Because he doesn’t have to answer to someone he manages.
Leaves flicker shadows onto the pavement. Jaap watches them, suddenly convinced there’s a message to their flighty movement, if only he can decipher what it is.
Then he wonders why he always assumes there’s a mystery to solve, why he can’t just let it be.
‘Something funny?’ Smit asks.
Jaap’s turn to shrug.
He settles his eyes on the photo of the suspect, pinned squint to the dashboard between them. Francesco Kamp is mid-thirties, his name and curly black hair courtesy of his second-generation Italian mother, height from his Dutch father.
Where he gets the propensity to kill young women is anyone’s guess.
Kamp, a train driver for the NS, had a wife who died in childbirth just eight months ago, leaving him as the sole carer of their baby girl. It was through one of the social workers assigned to him that Jaap had got a feel for just how angry Kamp was. Jaap’s not a psychologist, but he knows first-hand how grief can unleash things you never knew you had inside. He’d been through the grieving process himself, his daughter Floortje dying two years ago, and if it wasn’t for Tanya helping him through it, then he doesn’t know what he might have done.
And now he and Tanya are expecting their first child together.
Sometimes he marvels at how fast things have happened between them, at how he’s now standing on the cusp of the rest of his life. There are days it makes him giddy. Others when the enormity of it almost makes him sick.
His leg’s tingling less now, and he tenses the muscles for a few seconds before releasing them. It helps, so he does it again. And again.
Their phones are stubbornly silent, and the sun’s bullying them from the sky. It’s starting to make Jaap feel smothered, suffocated. His finger finds the button, a little indent showing him which end means down, and he presses it, hoping for a breeze on his face, the cleanliness of it, a new beginning.
But the air outside is humid and still, a solid, inescapable presence. Even the leaves have given up and are now hanging limp, as if exhausted from their wasted attempt to communicate.
Smit’s phone buzzes. He takes it up to his ear, a puppet who’s just had a string jerked.
‘Talk to me,’ he says like this is his case, like he’s been the one working hours so long the days blurred into each other and he started waking at two in the morning terrified he couldn’t breathe.
Jaap tunes out. He should feel resentful of Smit’s intrusion, but really, what’s the point? The police force is at heart no different to any other organization. As in, you take the shit, your superior takes the glory. That’s just how it is, how it always will be, for ever and ever. Amen.
‘Halle-fucking-lujah,’ Smit finally says, hanging up.
Jaap takes a breath, expands his lungs and holds the air there, forcing calm, the pressure something to push against, anchor to, a moment of stability in an unstable world.
‘Let’s do it,’ he says, breathing out.
It’s way too hot for stab vests, but they pull them out of the boot anyway and Velcro them on. Smit inspects his gun, pops the clip and Jaap hears the double click as the slide’s pumped. Satisfied, Smit slams it back together with the heel of his hand. He checks the sight, like there’s anything he can do about it if it’s not right, then ends his virtuoso performance with a nod and a quick purse of his lips.
‘Been a while since you fired one of those?’ Jaap asks, hoping Smit gets the implication, you desk-bound bureaucrat.
Smit eyeballs him, is just opening his mouth to say something, when he’s interrupted by the whine of an engine pushed to the limit. Jaap’s head’s on a swivel, he sees a van from one of the major news networks sliding into the street so fast it’s close to two-wheeling. They watch as it straightens up, just misses a side-on with a parked car, and stops fast, front end dipping hard as the brakes bite.
‘You’re kidding. How did they know?’ Jaap asks.
Smit shrugs, rubs a small area on the gun barrel with his finger, as if there’s some dirt there which needs removing.
The engine cuts out.
Sparrows chirp.
Jaap suddenly sees the answer to his own question. He’s known Smit for over five years, so really he shouldn’t be surprised.
He hears the rumble and hollow reverberating slam of a sliding door and glances over towards the TV crew. They’re setting up, a woman reporter and a bearded guy hefting a camera on his shoulder, looking for all the world like a dirty jihadist readying a bazooka.
As the man turns Jaap feels like he’s in the firing line. He imagines cross-hairs on his chest.
From a parked car one of the surveillance crew gets out, starts ushering them back.
‘Bad idea,’ Jaap says, nodding towards the reporters, the woman arguing with the surveillance guy.
He knows it’s not going to achieve anything, but he can’t help himself, can’t help needling his boss. Sometimes it’s the only way to get through the day.
But Smit, if anything, appears relaxed.
Relaxed as in, doesn’t give a shit.
‘It’s called media relations,’ he says. ‘Maybe you didn’t notice but they’ve been all over this case. Now we need to show them the resolution. And it’s better if we’re in control of them.’
Jaap checks his own weapon again, doesn’t say anything.
‘Yeah, I know you don’t give a fuck,’ Smit says, seeming to take offence at Jaap’s silence. ‘But that’s why I’m station chief and you’re not. From where I’m sitting I see a bigger picture.’
‘That management course you went on, how’d that work out?’
Now it’s Smit’s turn to be silent.
Jaap makes one more last-minute check on his gear, decides now is the time.
‘Stay in front of me where it’s safe,’ Jaap says as just across the street a woman steps out of the house next door to Kamp’s. She’s medium height, long brown hair tied in a high ponytail which bounces as she neatly hops over the low wooden fence and presses the doorbell. She has an apron on, dusted with flour.
‘Fuck’s she doing?’ Smit asks.
Jaap’s debating ducking back to the car or running forward, but before he can react the door opens, their target standing there in the newly opened gap. He’s obviously in the middle of some DIY, a screwdriver held in one hand.
He looks at the woman, then quickly, almost involuntarily, his eyes search the street.
Jaap and Smit don’t have time to get out of sight. Kamp sees them, and acts. He leaps forward, the door swinging closed behind him, and grabs the woman, spins her round so Jaap can see the shock and confusion on her face.
Then, as she feels the tip of a screwdriver touch her neck, it turns to fear.
Somewhere down the street a mower rips into life, a once familiar sound taking on a menacing cast.
Menacing because Jaap doesn’t want anything to tip the balance of Kamp’s mind, anything which could destroy the delicate equilibrium of the moment, spur him into making the wrong choice.
‘Take it easy,’ Jaap calls across to Kamp. ‘We can work it out.’
Out of the corner of his eye Jaap sees Smit, weapon out, edge one step closer. It’s been less than thirty seconds since Kamp grabbed the woman, thirty seconds in which he and Smit have got into position, backed up by the surveillance crew.
Kamp’s breathing hard, he seems more panicked than the woman he’s holding, the hand with the screwdriver trembling.
And Jaap knows that in situations like this, panic is a killer.
‘Just breathe,’ he says. ‘Breathe and it’ll be OK.’
Smit takes another step, thinking he’s out of Kamp’s field of vision. But somehow Kamp senses the movement and zeroes his eyes in on him.
Jaap thinks of the game they used to play as kids, the aim was to sneak up on someone and freeze in place when they turned. If they saw you moving, you were out.
‘Put it down,’ Jaap says, staying put for now. ‘Put it down, and we can talk.’
Kamp’s not stupid. He knows the score, knows he’s not getting out of this. Knows that the word talk is code for arrest-and-prosecute-to-the-full-extent-of-the-law-you-dirty-piece-of-murdering-shit.
Movement in the corner of Jaap’s eye. He risks a quick sideways glance, and sure enough they’re filming, edging closer to the action, the man supposed to be keeping them back focused on Kamp, his own weapon drawn.
In journalistic terms this is like winning multiple lotteries all at once. In police terms, it’s the exact opposite.
‘Go away,’ Kamp yells, the first time he’s said anything, his voice tight, ratcheting in his throat. ‘Go away or I’ll do it.’
He pushes the screwdriver harder, Jaap can see the dent it’s making in the creamy skin of the woman’s neck.
A drop of blood swells up as the tip punctures.
He tries to catch her eye, tell her with just a look that it’s going to be all right. She squints slightly, either telling him she’s understood, or in reaction to the pain, Jaap can’t tell.
He doesn’t want to take the shot, but his options are rapidly depleting. He’s close enough, Kamp’s head appearing over the woman’s shoulder, face unreadable.
His finger, flat against the body of his Glock, curls down to the trigger, testing the resistance gently.
So much can happen in a simple millimetre.
‘This is your last warning,’ Jaap says. ‘Put it down.’
Kamp’s agitated, his eyes jerking around, a cornered animal searching for escape.
Jaap takes a step closer, just to let him know escape’s not an option.
Kamp holds out for a few seconds more, then starts to lower the screwdriver. He releases his fingers, the tool clattering against the doorstep tiles. He shoves the woman hard, she stumbles and it takes her a second to realize that she’s actually free, that it’s not a trick. Then she rushes forward, into the arms of one of the surveillance team, who whisks her quickly away.
‘On your knees, hands on your head,’ Jaap yells as he starts moving forward. He steps up the path, past flowers and a fibreglass water feature desperately imitating rock, and reaches Kamp, waiting on his knees. Stepping behind him, Jaap goes for his cuffs, finds they’re not on his belt.
Fuck.
Smit whistles; when Jaap looks up he tosses over a pair. Jaap catches them one-handed and cuffs one wrist then the other. He hauls Kamp up. There’s a kind of damp heat coming off him, his whole body vibrating.
As they move down the path a baby starts crying from the house behind them. One of the surveillance crew heads towards the door.
Smit, now the danger’s passed, steps up and bear-mauls Jaap’s shoulder.
‘Good job,’ he says.
Jaap can see the camera crew moving closer. He glances at them, only they’re not playing the game, they don’t stop coming.
‘I’ll handle this,’ Smit says.
He turns and intercepts them before they get too close. Jaap knows it’s because Smit wants his face on the news, announcing they’ve finally got the killer, taking the glory.
But somehow he doesn’t care, he’ll leave the politics and media relations to Smit. All he feels, now he finally has Kamp, is a rising anger, surfing the wave of his adrenaline rush. He grabs Kamp by the upper arm and guides him towards the surveillance van.
They reach the back, out of sight of the camera, and Jaap opens a door and shoves Kamp into a sitting position.
He pulls out photos of each victim and holds them in front of him.
His phone’s going off in his pocket; he ignores it.
‘Why did you do it?’
It’s like his head is the same polarity as the photos – wherever Jaap places them Kamp’s face moves away.
A shadow precedes Smit appearing round the corner of the van.
‘Don’t do this here, we’ll take him back to the station. We need everything to be official.’
Jaap ignores him, his focus fully on Kamp.
‘Why did you kill Dafne Koster and Nadine Adelaars?’
The second name pings Kamp’s central nervous system; he jerks like he’s just been stung. His eyes swing round and catch the photos. From the house the baby cries out again, a long, high-pitched wail. Jaap’s phone stops ringing, then immediately starts again.
‘No … nononono … I only … not that one … not her.’
‘You killed both these women, you drugged them and then—’
‘Inspector Rykel, urgent call for you.’
One of the surveillance crew’s moved into his peripheral vision, tentative because he can see this isn’t the time.
‘Kinda busy here,’ Jaap says, eyes still on Kamp.
‘I know, but I’ve been told to tell you it’s really urgent. Like, drop-everything kind of urgent.’
‘Get it,’ Smit says. ‘I’ll take him back to the station, question him there, and the surveillance crew can seal off the house till patrol get here. Also, get Protective Services in for the baby.’
Jaap stares at Kamp, his face pale with shock, before pulling his phone out, the station dispatcher’s number on the screen.
‘I’m in the middle of something,’ he says, ‘so this had better be good.’
The reply’s a triumph of modern technology, Daleked beyond recognition. He starts walking away from the van, searching for better reception. He finds it and asks for a rerun. He can see a uniform walking out with the screaming baby in his arms.
‘Case came in, raised a flag.’
‘What flag?’ Jaap says, a cold sickness seeping through him. He only has one on the system. One which shouldn’t now be raised again.
‘Young woman found dead on a remote beach up on Vlieland. Died of suffocation, had been chased beforehand. Looks the same as your other two.’
‘Time of death?’ Jaap asks. For a split second he hears Kamp’s denial.
Not her.
‘Not official yet, but sometime round lunchtime today and—’
A gunshot explodes into the air. The world crystallizes for a fraction of a second. Jaap can feel the hard edges of his phone against his fingers. Everything’s still.
A second shot joins the first.
He spins round, races back towards the van. When he gets there Smit’s about a metre away, half-standing, half-crouching, his weapon held out in front of him. He can’t disguise the wobble in his arms, the loose panic in his eyes.
Jaap stops dead, his mind a kaleidoscope of conflicting thoughts.
Kamp’s body is sprawled on the road just behind the van, one arm above his head, the other stretched out like he’s directing traffic, cuffs dangling from his left wrist, one section undone.
Just out of reach of his hand, on the blistering tarmac, lies a gun.
Not a model used by the police.
As he gets closer Jaap can hear Kamp trying to say something, his breathing in overdrive.
‘I … I didn’t kill them both …’
Kamp’s whole body judders, he bites the air once with a strangled grunt. Then he’s still.
A wound on his chest blossoms like a time-lapse flower.
Something moves in Jaap’s peripheral vision. He turns to see his own face reflected in the cameraman’s lens, a red dot flashing just beside it.