To the children, the bells meant it was lunchtime. Shrieking, they ran for the door and tumbled inside.
But to Lucy, they sounded like funeral bells, tolling the years of a life that was far too brief. Distracted, she went through the motions automatically, helping the children hang up their coats in the cubbies and telling them to wash their hands. Used to the routine, they were soon sitting at the table, waiting for Lucy to get their lunches out of the refrigerator and bring them to the table.
They thought it was hysterical when she gave Justin’s blue lunch box to Harry; everyone knew Harry had a Power Ranger lunch box. Their laughter roused Lucy, and she reluctantly returned to the here and now, letting go of Tucker’s death for the time being.
“Are you sure the Power Ranger lunch box is Harry’s?” she teased, peeking inside. “I see Oreos—I think it must be mine.”
All the children laughed, except Harry, who appeared a bit anxious.
“Oops, I forgot,” said Lucy, slapping her hand to her head. “I didn’t bring any lunch today. This must be Harry’s!”
With a big sigh of relief Harry took the box and opened it up. Like the other children he began arranging the contents on the table in front of him.
Lucy went into the kitchen to get the milk and grabbed a few graham crackers for herself. After she poured the milk she sat with the children, nibbling on the crackers. She noticed that they all followed the same pattern: first they ate their cookies and fruit, after a lively trading session in which one fruit roll-up went for a box of raisins and two Vienna fingers, then they took a bite or two out of their sandwiches and discarded the rest.
Lucy was tidying the table, sighing over the waste, when Sue returned without Will.
“They wanted to keep him for a while, to make sure he isn’t coming down with something, and I was afraid I’d never get away,” complained Sue, “but his mother finally showed up. She had to cancel ‘two very important meetings, mind you.’” Sue was a good mimic, and copied Steffie’s officious tone perfectly. Lucy almost smiled.
“Hey, what’s the matter?” prompted Sue. “You look as if something awful’s happened.”
“Barney came by with some bad news,” began Lucy, wishing there was some way to soften what she had to say. “Tucker’s dead.”
“What?” Sue didn’t believe what she heard.
“It’s true. She was found dead this morning. A neighbor noticed the front door was open and called the police. Barney came here looking for an address book, so they can notify her family.”
“Was it an accident?” Sue was struggling to understand.
Lucy shook her head. “They think she was strangled,” she said, her voice breaking.
“Oh my God.” Sue collapsed on a little chair, her long, elegant legs splayed out at an awkward angle.
Noticing the increase in the volume of the children’s voices, Lucy turned her attention to them. Two of the girls were fighting over the bride’s veil in the dress-up corner and Justin and Matthew were crashing toy wooden cars into each other.
“Okay, quiet down,” she said, rising to her feet and giving Sue’s hand a little pat. “It’s time for a story.”
Back in the familiar groove of their daily routine, the children gathered on the rug in the corner and sat cross-legged. Lucy settled herself in the rocking chair and opened the first book that came to hand. Afterward, she couldn’t have said what book it was, but it held the kids’ attention. Then, knowing the drill, they unrolled their mats and settled down for quiet time. Lucy popped a cassette of soothing music into the tape recorder and went back to Sue.
“Can I get you some tea? Something to eat?”
Sue didn’t respond, so Lucy put two mugs of water in the microwave to heat and raided the graham-cracker box once again. Hearing the ding, she dropped tea bags into the mugs.
“Drink this,” she urged Sue.
Sue took the mug with shaking hands. “I just can’t believe this. I was with her yesterday.”
“I know.” Lucy sipped her tea. “You know what I was thinking last night, when I was talking to Tucker? I was thinking how wonderful it would be to be young again and have my whole life ahead of me.”
Sue shook her head. “It’s not fair. She loved life—she had so much enthusiasm. Once I asked her if she didn’t get depressed sometimes, and you know what she said? She said she woke up every morning convinced that the day held something wonderful for her, and it was up to her to find that beautiful thing. It might be a smile from one of the kids, or a postcard from a friend, or a kitten…” Sue’s face crumpled as she dissolved into tears.
Lucy wrapped an arm around Sue’s shoulder and let her cry, grateful they were hidden from the children’s view by a bookcase. Raffi’s gentle voice drifted across the room. Finally, Sue’s shoulders stopped heaving, and she wiped her eyes with a tissue.
“I’m sorry, Lucy. I don’t know what’s the matter with me. It must be the shock.”
“You don’t need to apologize. You have a right to grieve.” Lucy wondered who else would be grieving for Tucker and remembered Barney’s visit. “You know, Barney was looking for an address book but I don’t think he found anything.”
“She had a bright pink agenda—you know, calendar, address book, your whole life wrapped up with a Velcro flap.” Sue sniffled and reached for another tissue.
“How big was it?” asked Lucy, going over to Tucker’s desk. The top was bare except for a plant, a small pink mitten, and a picture of a smiling middle-aged couple. Lucy picked it up for a closer look. Tucker had inherited her coloring from her mother, but her smile came from her dad.
“About like this.” Sue described a ten-inch square with her hands. “It was chunky, a couple of inches thick.”
“It wouldn’t fit in a pocket?” Lucy replaced the picture and slid the center drawer open. It was empty, except for a clutter of pens and pencils in the tray designed for them. Pulling open the top drawer on the side, Lucy noticed Sue had joined her.
“No, it was pretty big.” Sue peered in the drawer. “She’d only been here a few months. She didn’t have time to accumulate much.”
The drawer held only a bottle of Advil and a spare pair of panty hose.
“What brought her here?” asked Lucy, pulling open the middle drawer and lifting out a sweater.
“She’d finished two years of college and wanted a break. Her folks said OK, as long as she did something useful. I almost fainted when she walked in one day, answering the help-wanted ad. I never expected to get anyone with her qualifications, not for what we pay. But she said she didn’t need much money, she was living in her parents’ summer house on the coast road.”
Lucy raised an eyebrow. Smith Heights Road overlooked the cove and was lined with enormous, gray-shingled “cottages” belonging to wealthy old-line families who summered in Tinker’s Cove but lived in New York, Washington, or Philadelphia. Among them were a cabinet secretary, a prominent pediatrician whose name had become a household word, and the celebrated talk-show hostess, Norah Hemmings. Others were CEOs or lawyers or investment bankers.
In the bottom drawer Lucy found a well-worn pair of loafers, a handful of college catalogs, and a guide to hiking trails.
Sue picked up one of the catalogs and fanned the pages. “She was thinking of changing her major—she wanted to concentrate in early childhood education. I warned her it was a bad career move—low-paying, not respected—but she said she didn’t care. She said she loved working with kids.” Sue closed her eyes and took a deep, quavery breath. “She said she’d never been happier.”
Sue bent down to replace the catalogs in the drawer and gently shut it. When she stood up, her eyes were glistening.
“No sign of the agenda, here. And I know Barney didn’t take it. I would’ve noticed.”
“She usually carried a gym bag. She took a tai chi class after work. That’s probably where it is. We don’t need it, anyway. I have next-of-kin information on her emergency card.” She sighed. “I can’t let them nap forever. I’ve got to get them up. Would you call the police station for me?”
Lucy nodded. Sue stood up, then sat down, propping her elbow on the desk and resting her head in her hand. “Damn—I’ve got to find someone to replace Tucker.” She rubbed her eyes. “At Christmastime, no less.”
“Don’t panic. I can help out some. And I bet there are plenty of young moms who could use some extra Christmas cash.”
“We’ll see.” Sue didn’t seem convinced. She got back up and, walking slowly, went over to the bookcase and clicked off the tape recorder, reaching her hands high over her head. “C’mon kids. It’s time to get up—let’s see you all give a big stretch.”
While Sue led the children in their wake-up exercises, Lucy went to the phone and dialed the police station, asking for Barney.
“Did you find what you were looking for?” she asked.
“Nope. Not a thing.”
“Sue says she had a pink agenda, one of those organizer books, and she kept it in her backpack.”
“I’ll pass that along, but I’m pretty sure they would have found it if it was there.”
“Well, I can give you the information on her emergency card,” said Lucy, pulling out the file folder and opening it up. “Mr. and Mrs. John Whitney,” she read, trying very hard not to think of the smiling couple in the photograph on Tucker’s desk.
“Thanks, Lucy,” said Barney, when she had finished.
“Who’s going to call them?” asked Lucy. “Will it be you?”
“I hope not.” Barney sighed. He had knocked on too many doors late at night, bringing bad news. “I sure hope not.”
“Me too,” said Lucy, feeling a surge of anger as she replaced the receiver. It was bad enough the murderer had taken Tucker’s life, but whoever it was had done more than that. So many people would be affected: the little children in the day-care center who had come to trust and love Tucker; Sue would not only have to cope with her own grief, but she would have to find a new assistant; the police officers would have to struggle with their own emotions as they investigated the case. Everyone in town would be touched by this violent death in some way. Women who had walked alone at night without giving their safety a thought would now look uneasily over their shoulders. At home, they would be extra careful to make sure the windows and doors were locked at night. Children would be warned not to talk to strangers. No one would be able to rest easy, Lucy realized, until the strangler was caught.
She refiled Tucker’s emergency folder and snapped the cabinet shut, making a little vow to herself. Tucker’s murderer would be found and punished.