1.Of all the books I have read so far about the Fitzgerald saga: Martine Jozan, letter to the author, January 23, 2003.
2.I liked [Jozan] and was glad he was willing: Sheilah Graham, The Real F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Grosset and Dunlap, 1976, pp. 61–62.
3.I tried to explain to her that we couldn’t do that: Trimalchio: An Early Version of “The Great Gatsby,” ed. James L. W. West. Cambridge, England: Cambridge University Press, 2000, p. 89.
4.They both had a need of drama: Edouard Jozan, interview by Nancy Milford (January 11, 1967), Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 112.
5.She had forgot all about that year: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, Princeton University Library (hereafter P.U.L.), cited by Sally Cline: Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2004, p. 40, also by Milford, Zelda, p. 360.
6.When one really can’t stand it anymore: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., also cited in Mil-ford, Zelda, p. 367.
7.All our lives, since the day of our engagement: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. A.C. Rennie, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 364.
1.The specialist to whom mama took her: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda, Sara Mayfield Collection, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa.
2.As long as I can remember and long before that: C. Lawton Campbell, “The Fitzgeralds Were My Friends,” unpublished essay, collection of the author, p. 11.
3.A lemonade and a tomato sandwich: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1950, p. 161.
4.Skated at breakneck speed down the Perry Street hill: Sara Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise: Zelda and Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Dell Publishing Co., 1971, p. 13.
5.She swam and dove as well as most of the boys and better than many: Eleanor Addison, “Why Follow the Same Pattern,” Columbus Dispatch. October 27, 1963, p. 4C.
6.Zelda lived just around the corner from me on Pleasant Avenue: Mrs. H. L. Weatherby, letter to the author, April 1963.
7.Even in those days, both of them had dash: Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise, p. 18.
8.We played hooky almost every day: Zelda Fitzgerald, interview by Sara Haardt at Ellerslie (1926), Wilmington, Delaware, now in the Enoch Pratt Library, Special Collections, Baltimore, Maryland.
9.I am in the world to do something unusual: Owen Johnson, The Salamander. Indianapolis, IN: Bobbs Merrill Company, 1914, p. 385.
10.She comes from somewhere out of: Johnson, The Salamander, p. 2.
11.The man I marry has got to: Johnson, The Salamander, p. 451.
12.Each salamander of good standing counts from three to a dozen props: Johnson, The Salamander, p. 15.
13.Going to be outstanding: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned, p. 147.
14.Alabama, you’re positively indecent said the tall officer: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s, 1991, p. 33.
15.I saw her as she had looked at that last Christmas dance were together: Sara Haardt, interview with Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 3.
16.Already she is in the crowd at the Country Club: Article in the Montgomery Advertiser, quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 15.
17.She had superb courage, not so much defiance: Sara Haardt, interview with Zelda Fitzgerald, pp. 1–2.
18.Cannot be considered above reproach: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Isabelle Amorous (February 26, 1920), in Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan, eds., Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 53.
19.Built like an Olympic swimmer [with] large, appealing bright brown eyes: John Peter Kohn Jr., The Cradle: An Anatomy of a Town: Fact and Fiction. New York: Vantage Press, 1969, p. 201. The title comes from Montgomery being called the Cradle of the Confederacy because it served as its first capital. A Montgomery native, Kohn received his law degree from the University of Alabama in 1925, and after serving as county attorney, became a judge and then member of the Alabama Supreme Court. He was a year and a half younger than Zelda and in the same social circle as Peyton Mathis and John Sellers.
20.One night, the police were questioning him about a naked woman: Kohn, The Cradle, p. 202. Kohn married Margaret Patteson Thorington, who, like Zelda, was a famous belle of her time, the modern version of a trophy wife. Her relative, Chilton Thorington, was the Sayre family doctor who was treating Anthony Sayre Jr. at the time of his breakdown and suicide.
21.They dared not take him to a doctor: Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise, p. 177.
22.In a hundred years I think: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Spring 1919), in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 446.
23.She was so drunk: Unsent letter from F. Scott Fitzgerald to Marjorie Brinson (December 1938), quoted in Scott Donaldson, Fool for Love. New York: Delta Press, 1983, p. 63.
24.They went up to the haunted school-yard: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2000, p. 40; also by Milford, Zelda, p. 360. Original documentation in Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., pp. 40–41.
25.There wasn’t any more compensatory: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things. Summarized by Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 41.
26.Always intensely skeptical about her sex: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned, pp. 234–35.
27.Have a date with you on Saturday: Note from Pete Bonner in Zelda Fitzgerald scrapbook, P.U.L.
28.Frankly, it all seemed such a gamble to her: C. Lawton Campbell, “The Fitzgeralds Were My Friends,” pp. 12–13.
29.I am very glad, personally, to be able to write to you that: Maxwell Perkins to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, ed., The Romantic Egoists: A Pictorial Autobiography from the Scrapbooks and Albums of F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1974, p. 53.
30.I am very proud of you: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in James R. Mellow, Invented Lives: F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. New York: Houghton Mifflin Company, 1984, p. 79.
31.I don’t want to think about pots: F. Scott Fitzgerald writing about Rosalind in This Side of Paradise, a character strongly reminiscent of Zelda. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1931, p. 180.
32.Darling—Mama knows we are going to be married someday: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (April 1920), Folder 12, Box 42, P.U.L., cited by Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 64.
33.Mrs. M. W. Brinson, (Marjorie Sayre Brinson) accompanied by her sister Zelda Sayre: News clipping in Zelda Fitzgerald scrapbook, P.U.L.
1.Next time you’re in New York I want you to meet Zelda: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Ruth Sturtevant (March 26, 1920), quoted in The Letters of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Andrew Turnbull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, pp. 458–59.
2.There was no luncheon after the wedding: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda Fitzgerald, W. S. Hoole Special Collections Library, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
3.Could play golf all day, dance all night: Shelly Armitage, John Held Jr.: Illustrator of the Jazz Age. Syracuse, NY: Syracuse University Press, 1987, p. 72.
4.I love Scott’s books and heroines: Zelda Fitzgerald, interview by Louisville Courier Journal (September 30, 1923), quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, ed., The Romantic Egoists: A Pictorial Autobiography from the Scrapbooks and Albums of F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1974, p. 112.
5.He was tall, dark, and tweedy: Jack Shuttleworth, “John Held, Jr., and His World,” American Heritage 16, no. 5 (August 1965), p. 29.
6.Loved each other, desperately: Carl Van Vechten, Parties. New York: Avon Books, 1977, quoted in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001 p. 89.
7.His pockets often bulging with her clever observations: An observation by Edmund Wilson, also noted by Lawton Campbell: “He, Scott, would hang on her words,” quoted in Campbell, “The Fitzgeralds Were My Friends,” unpublished essay, collection of the author, p. 20.
8.He danced her around the gilded edges of many fashionable hours: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things ch. 7, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder B, p. 235, P.U.L., cited by Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2002, p. 108; also cited by Linda Wagner-Martin in Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald: An American Woman’s Life. London: Palgrave MacMillan, 2004, p. 206.
9.Standing regarding her, very quiet: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1950, p. 243.
10.They interested me so greatly: George Jean Nathan, quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 71.
11.He said he had gained a lot of inspiration from them: Milford, Zelda, p. 71.
12.His business is the theater: Ernest Boyd, Portraits: Real and Imaginary. New York: George H. Doran Company, 1924, pp. 199, 201.
13.Most alluring to man is that woman: George Jean Nathan, “On Women,” in The World of George Jean Nathan, ed. Charles Angoff. New York: Alfred A. Knopf, 1952, p. 139.
14.To a man, the least interesting of women is the successful woman: Nathan, “On Women,” p. 131.
15.The calling of a husband’s attention to a love letter addressed to his wife: George Jean Nathan to Zelda Fitzgerald (September 12, 1920), quoted in Scott Donaldson, Fool for Love: F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Delta Press, 1989, p. 68.
16.At present, I’m hardly able to sit down: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ludlow Fowler (April 16,1920), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 5, Folder 4, P.U.L. The cut on her tailbone caused by a broken bottle near George’s bathtub required three stitches.
17.In his biography on Fitzgerald: George Jean Nathan, “Memories of Fitzgerald, Lewis and Dreiser,” Esquire, October 1958, p. 148.
18.He also made love to Zelda: Arthur Mizener, handwritten note on Nathan’s response to Mizener’s letter of January 10, 1950, interview with Arthur Mizener by the author, Cornell University, Ithaca, New York.
19.Sweet Souse: What happened to you: George Jean Nathan to Zelda Fitzgerald (no date), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 5, File 18, P.U.L., quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 78.
20.The room was bedlam. Breakfast dishes were all about, the bed unmade: Campbell, “The Fitzgeralds Were My Friends,” p. 17.
21.You just watch that elevator: F. Scott Fitzgerald quoted in Milford, Zelda, pp. 73–74.
22.He is afraid of what she might do in a moment of caprice: Alexander McKaig diary (October 11, 1920), now in the possession of his nephew, attorney Robert Taft, Brighton, Fernald, Taft and Hampsey, Peterborough, New Hampshire, quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 89. In one notebook entry, Fitzgerald writes, “She looked lovely, but he thought of a terrible thing she had said once when they were first married, that if he were away, she could sleep with another man and it wouldn’t really affect her, or make her really unfaithful to him. This kept him awake for another hour, but he had a little fine deep restful sleep toward morning. In The Notebooks of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli, New York: Harcourt, Brace, Jovanovich, 1978, pp. 231–32.
23.I like you better than anybody in the world: Edmund Wilson, The Twenties, ed. Leon Edel. New York: Farrar, Strauss and Giroux, 1975, p. 55.
24.Suddenly, this double apparition approached me: Gilbert Seldes, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 97.
25.If she’s there, Fitzgerald can’t work: Alex McKaig diary (October 11, 1920), cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 100.
26.In taxi Zelda asked me to kiss her: Alex McKaig diary (April 17, 1921), cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 95.
27.I suppose I ought to be furious because you’ve kissed so many men: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned, 181.
28.Would have to make up her mind, whether she wanted to go into the movies: Alex McKaig diary (October 11, 1920), quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness is Wisdom, p. 98.
29.When I like men I want to be like them: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Notebooks of F. Scott Fitzgerald, p. 78, note 938, p. 146.
30.Went up to Fitzgeralds to spend evening: Alex McKaig diary (October 21, 1920), quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 99.
31.Seemed a little crestfallen: Edmund Wilson to F. Scott Fitzgerald (June 22, 1921), in Edmund Wilson, Letters on Literature and Politics 1912–1972, ed. Elena Wilson. New York: Farrar, Strauss & Giroux, 1977, p. 63.
32.I think it’s a shame that England: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Edmund Wilson, misdated by Andrew Turnbull as May 1921, quoted in The Letters of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Andrew Turnbull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, p. 326.
33.I’m glad it’s a girl: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby. New York: Scribner’s, 1925, p. 17.
34.She is awfully cute, and I am very devoted to her: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ludlow Fowler (December 22, 1921), quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 114.
35.The pictures prove to me that you are getting more beautiful every day: George Jean Nathan to Zelda Fitzgerald (May 29, 1922), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L, quoted in James R. Mellow, Invented Lives: F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. Boston: Houghton Mifflin Company, 1984, p. 151.
36.I certainly miss you + Townsend + Alec: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ludlow Fowler (November 1921), quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 85.
37.Zelda and her abortionist: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Notebooks, no. 1564, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L. Fitzgerald’s notebooks were a workshop for his ideas. He organized them in 1932 while he was living at La Paix outside Baltimore. The originals are at Princeton in two spring binders with alphabetized index separators and typed on white paper. They are organized into seven categories: conversation and things overheard, feelings and emotions (without girls) descriptions of girls, ideas, moments, what people do, observations, scenes and ideas.
38.Chill-mindedness of his wife: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ledger of F. Scott Fitzgerald, P.U.L.
39.It seems to me on one page, I recognized a portion of an old diary of mine: Zelda Fitzgerald, “Mrs. F. Scott Fitzgerald Reviews The Beautiful and Damned, Friend Husband’s Latest,” New York Herald Tribune, April 2, 1922, reprinted in Matthew Bruccoli, The Collected Works of F. Scott Fitzgerald. London: Wordsworth Special Editions, 2011, p. 388.
40.Withholding from her the first money she has ever earned: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Burton Rascoe (April 1922), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., quoted in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 100.
41.Are you going to act in The Beautiful and Damned : H. L. Mencken to F. Scott Fitzgerald (May 18, no year), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 9, P.U.L.
42.Three or four years ago girls of her type were pioneers: Zelda Fitzgerald, interview by Louisville Courier Journal (September 30, 1923), reprinted in Bruccoli, The Romantic Egoists, p. 112.
43.I’ve studied ballet: Zelda Fitzgerald, interview reprinted in Bruccoli, The Romantic Egoists, p. 113.
44.He is a typical newspaperman: Zelda Fitzgerald to Rosalind Smith, quoted in Lane Yorke, “Zelda: A Worksheet,” Paris Review. Fall 1983, p. 219.
45.Fascinated Scott in the Great Neck days: Ring Lardner Jr., The Lardners: My Family Remembered. New York: Harper Colophon Books, 1976, p. 164.
46.There was a porch on the side of our house: Lardner, The Lardners, p. 163.
47.Tilde and John did not forget Scott’s rudeness: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda Fitzgerald, W. S. Hoole Special Collections Library, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
1.John is like a man lying in a warm bath: Alan Tate, Memoirs and Opinions, 1926–1974. Chicago: Swallow Press, 1975, p. 72.
2.Tanned and beautiful, often wearing: Honoria Murphy Donnelly, Sara and Gerald: Villa America and After. New York: Times Books, 1982, p. 107.
3.She was the only woman I’ve ever known: Gerald Murphy, as quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York, Harper and Row, 1970, p. 124.
4.Violets and muguets (lily of the valley) and lilacs: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Sara Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise: Zelda and Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Harper and Row, 1971, p. 107.
5.Here’s a chance to become famous: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Trimalchio: An Early Version of “The Great Gatsby,” ed. James L. W. West, Cambridge, England: Cambridge University Press, 2000, p. 85.
6.She might dress like a flapper: Gerald Murphy, quoted in Donnelly, Sara and Gerald, p. 151, and Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 137.
7.It was all in her eyes: Gerald Murphy, quoted in Donnelly, Sara and Gerald, p. 107.
8.Scottie comes up to people when she meets them: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Notebooks of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 80.
9.I think St. Raphael (where we are): F. Scott Fitzgerald to Tom Boyd, in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 138.
10.Scott has started a new novel: Zelda Fitzgerald to Xandra Kalman (June 21, 1923), quoted in Linda Wagner-Martin, Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald: An American Woman’s Life. London: Palgrave MacMillan, 2004, p. 74.
11.I have begun life anew: Fitzgerald to Edmund Wilson (Summer 1924), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, p. 76.
12.Alabama was much alone: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 79.
13.All the young men fell a little in love with her: Edouard Jozan, interview by Nancy Milford, Zelda, p. 108.
14.She thinks I’m in love with every woman that I shake a cocktail for: F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise, p. 117.
15.I don’t think she liked many people: Gerald Murphy, quoted in Donnelly, Sara and Gerald. p. 153.
16.The flying officer who looked like a Greek God was aloof: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., p. 364, cited by Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2004, p. 40, also by Milford, Zelda, p. 360.
17.I don’t somehow feel I ought: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, ch. 4, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., p. 2.
18.My establishment would be honored: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, p. 79.
19.As her eyes met those of the officer: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, p. 81.
20.My work’s getting stale: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, p. 97.
21.The French officer had quite a coterie of friends: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, ch. 4, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., pp. 7, 38.
22.It is twilight as I write this: F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in James R. Mellow, Invented Lives: F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. Boston: Houghton Mifflin Company, 1984, pp. 209–10.
23.Rene, who is twenty-three: F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Mellow, Invented Lives, p. 210.
24.Rich and free, they brought into our little provincial circle: Edouard Jozan, as quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 108, also in Wagner-Martin, Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald, p. 83.
25.A bit of an intellectual: Edouard Jozan, interview by Nancy Milford (January 11, 1967), Zelda, p. 50.
26.Really is criticizing Francis: F. Scott Fitzgerald, notebook entry 1474, Scenes and Situations in France, “Where the French Outclass Us” (December 1926), reprinted in Conversations with F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Judith Baughman. Jackson: University Press of Mississippi, 2004, p. 8. Edmund Wilson includes several of Fitzgerald’s notebook entries in The Crack-Up, a collection of Fitzgerald’s essays. New York: New Directions Press, 1945.
27.What chance has a smart young Frenchman: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins (October 10, 1924), in Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Andrew Turnbull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, p. 167, also quoted in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 82, and in Dear Scott/Dear Max: The Fitzgerald-Perkins Correspondence, ed. John Kuehl and Jackson R. Bryer. New York: Scribner’s, 1991, as a postscript to Fitzgerald’s letter about Ernest Hemingway.
28.His English was more adequate about love: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 92.
29.It didn’t seem to make any difference about what she wanted to do: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Milford, Zelda, p. 365.
30.I am half feminine, that is, my mind is: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Thomas A. C. Rennie, quoted in Thomas J. Stavola, Scott Fitzgerald: Crisis in an American Identity. New York: Barnes & Noble, 1981, p. 65, and in Milford, Zelda, p. 261.
1.Monday, 22 March 1915. One of us took out the candle and lit it: Edouard Jozan, handwritten journal entry, collection of Martine Jozan Work.
2.You’ll realize that it’s nothing serious: Jozan, handwritten journal entry, collection of Martine Jozan Work.
3.Weepy, watery flowers that might have grown from dead eyes: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 45.
4.I wouldn’t go to war unless it was in Morocco the Khyber Pass: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Notebooks of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1980, p. 312.
5.Fall like flies: Jean Hourcade to the author, November 16, 2005.
6.What do you expect, we are so handsome: Jean Hourcade to the author, December 11, 2005.
7.He drew her body against him: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, p. 86, quoted in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p 139.
8.It was an improbable affair full of passion: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 2, P.U.L., cited by Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2004, p. 40, also by Milford, Zelda, p. 360.
9.It was so low they could see the gold of Jacques’ hair: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 84.
10.Aren’t you afraid when you do stunts: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 88.
11.The plane had come out of its dive: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” McCall’s Magazine 63, no. 7 (April 1936), p. 54.
12.If things didn’t work out, there would always be the memory: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Milford, Zelda, p. 364.
13.All our lives, since the days of our engagement: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Thomas A. C. Rennie, as quoted by Milford, Zelda, p. 364.
14.I believed I was a salamander: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Milford, Zelda, pp. 175–76.
15.I haven’t seen a paper lately, but I suppose there’s a war: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1962, p. 39.
16.You must believe what you do is worth your time and energy: Edouard Jozan, as quoted by Martine Jozan in an interview with the author, March 22, 2003.
17.Long roads wound implacably up and over into pine fragrant depths: Zelda Fitzgerald, as quoted by Andrew Turnbull, Scott Fitzgerald. Grove Press, 2001, p. 136.
18.A shining beauty, a creature who overflowed with activity: Edouard Jozan, interview by Nancy Milford, Zelda, p. 108.
19.There’s a fruit store on our street: Frank Silver and Irving Cohn, “Yes, We Have No Bananas,” from the Broadway review, Make It Snappy, 1922. Sung by Eddie Cantor in the revue, it became a major hit in 1923.
20.David walked to the beach to join Alabama for a quick plunge before lunch: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 89.
21.Alabama and David and Jacques drove in the copper dawn to Agay: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 89.
22.Jacques drove the Renault: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 89.
23.What will you say to your husband: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 90.
24.When we are married: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A. P.U.L.
25.I could have annihilated: F. Scott Fitzgerald, speaking to Dr. Robert Carroll, quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, Some Sort of Epic Grandeur. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1981, p. 408; also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 140.
26.Jacques spoke steadily into Alabama’s face: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 91.
27.It was inexpedient, unexpected and miserable that she should be in love: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 365.
28.How could she remain: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, quoted in Mil-ford, Zelda, p. 365.
29.Feeling of proxy in passion: F. Scott Fitzgerald notebooks, nos. 466 and 765, F. Scott Fitzgerald additional papers, Col. 188, P.U.L.
30.Her affair with Eduard Josanne [sic] and mine with Lois Moran: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Mildred Squires, cited in Milford, Zelda, p. 222.
31.San Raphael was dead: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2 A, Folder B, P.U.L., p. 288.
32.One day the Fitzgeralds left and their friends scattered: Edouard Jozan, interview by Nancy Milford (January 11, 1967), cited in Milford, Zelda, p. 109.
33.Alabama could not read the letter: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 94.
34.Why do you keep those letters: Martine Jozan, interview by the author, July 7, 2006.
35.She so hardly spoke the language: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, ch. 4, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, P.U.L., pp. 288, 294.
36.He was not very interested in sex: Oscar Kalman, quoted in Jeffrey Meyers, Scott Fitzgerald. New York: HarperCollins, 1994, pp. 151–52.
37.Love is a funny thing: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, ch. 7, Col. 183, Box 2A, folder 8, P.U.L., quoted in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 426, note 69, also in Milford, Zelda, p. 367.
38.This is to tell you about a young man named Ernest Hemingway: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins (October 10, 1924), in Dear Scott/Dear Max: The Fitzgerald-Perkins Correspondence, ed. John Kuehl and Jackson R. Bryer, New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1971, p. 78.
39.She had forgotten all about this year of her life: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 360.
40.I feel old too this summer: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Ludlow Fowler, in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, p. 78.
41.Your wife doesn’t love you. She’s never loved you. She loves me: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby. New York: Scribner’s, 1925, p. 131.
42.Your wife does not love you. She loves me: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1962, p. 341.
43.I’m very sad, old sport: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Trimalchio: An Early Version of “The Great Gatsby,” ed., James L. W. West, Cambridge, England: Cambridge University Press, 2000, p. 89. This is an early and complete version of The Great Gatsby, the one Maxwell Perkins first saw and commented upon. Until its publication in 2000, it was virtually unknown. Besides Zelda, Scott, and Perkins, only a few members of Scribner’s firm had seen it, along with some literary scholars. The first two chapters of the first and second version are almost identical, but chapters 6 and 7 are almost entirely different.
44.Do you think I’m making a mistake: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Trimalchio, p. 84.
45.I would know Tom Buchanan if I met him on the street: Maxwell Perkins to F. Scott Fitzgerald (November 20, 1924), quoted in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 86.
46.Gatsby was never quite real to me: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins, quoted in Dear Scott/Dear Max, p. 87.
1.I could sleep with Zelda any time I wanted: Edmund Wilson, The Twenties, ed. Leon Edel. New York: Farrar, Strauss & Giroux, 1975, p. 297.
2.Zelda was not so loose, nor Howard so dangerous: Wilson, The Twenties, p. 298.
3.We’re moving to Capri: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins (February 18, 1925), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, P. 96.
4.A high white hotel scalloped around the base: Zelda Fitzgerald, “Show Mr. and Mrs. Fitzgerald to ____,” in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 422.
5.We’ve had a hell of a time here: Scott Fitzgerald to Harold Ober (March 1925), in The Letters of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Andrew Turnbull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, p. 355.
6.I feel this lack of complete realization: John Peale Bishop to F. Scott Fitzgerald, in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, pp. 167–70.
7.You are right about Gatsby being blurred and patchy: F. Scott Fitzgerald to John Peale Bishop (August 9, 1925), Matthew J. Bruccoli, ed., F. Scott Fitzgerald’s “The Great Gatsby”: A Documentary Volume. Vol. 219 of Dictionary of Literary Biography. Farmington Hills, MI: Gale Group, 2000, p. 183.
8.Zelda has been too sick for a long overland trip to Paris in our French Ford: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Roger Burlingame (April 19, 1925), in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, pp. 159–60.
9.The mouth worried you until you knew him, and then it worried you more: Ernest Hemingway, “Scott Fitzgerald,” in A Movable Feast. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1964, p. 12.
10.I did not like her, but that night I had an erotic dream: Ernest Hemingway, quoted in James R. Mellow, Ernest Hemingway: A Life without Consequences. New York: Da Capo Press, 1993, p. 291.
11.Of all the people, you need discipline in your work: Ernest Hemingway to F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Mellow, Ernest Hemingway, p. 436.
12.Nobody knew whose party it was: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 95.
13.Damn good looking: Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1966, pp. 29–30.
14.It was a constant merry-go-round for them: Scottie Fitzgerald Lanahan, as quoted by Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith. New York: HarperCollins, 1996, p. 39.
15.They went to Bourget and hired an aeroplane: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 96.
16.Honoria’s teacher is Madame Egorova: Gerald Murphy to Zelda Fitzgerald (September 19, 1925), quoted in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, p. 179.
17.There are dozens of pictures of my mother and father and me: Scottie Fitzgerald Lanahan, as quoted by Eleanor Lanahan in Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 28.
18.We have come to a little, lost village called Salies-de-Bearn: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Harold Ober (February 4, 1926), as quoted in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 135.
19.Whenever they fought, Zelda threatened to pack up and leave: Sara Murphy as quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 123.
20.We were swimming at the beach in front of the villa: Archibald MacLeish, in conversation with the author, Conway, Massachusetts, August 14–15, 1963.
21.Zelda was a finer wife to Scott than anyone else could have been: Archibald MacLeish, in conversation with the author.
22.One particular night we had driven over through the mountains: Archibald MacLeish, in conversation with the author.
23.At twenty-four in Europe, patient has a near peritonitis caused by an inflammation: Dr. Gross and Dr. Martel, included in Dr. H. A. Trutman’s medical report on Zelda Fitzgerald (June 1930), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 54, Folder 10A, P.U.L, quoted by Sally Cline in Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2002, pp. 260–61.
24.Zelda was a very extraordinary woman: Archibald MacLeish, in conversation with the author.
25.There were notches cut in the rock: Sara Murphy, as quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 124.
26.They collected people then as some collect pictures: Ernest Hemingway expands further about Gerald and Sara Murphy in “The Pilot Fish and the Rich,” in A Moveable Feast, New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1964, pp. 213–20.
27.Our life has gone to hell: Ernest Hemingway to F. Scott Fitzgerald (September 1926), quoted by Bernice Kert, The Hemingway Women: Those Who Loved Him—the Wives and Others. New York: W.W. Norton and Company, 1983, p. 179.
28.Zelda said that the way I was built: Ernest Hemingway, “A Matter of Measurements,” in A Moveable Feast, p. 162.
29.He told me . . . about their marriage: Ernest Hemingway, “Scott Fitzgerald,” in A Moveable Feast pp. 170–71.
1.This hotel is extraordinary. It is like living in London: Carl Van Vechten to Fania Marinoff (January 19, 1927), in Letters of Carl Van Vechten. ed. Bruce Kellner. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press, 1987, p. 91.
2.A breakfast food that: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, Some Sort of Epic Grandeur: The Life of F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1981, p. 258.
3.I can’t remember a thing he said: Lois Moran to Arthur Mizener, quoted in Richard Buller, A Beautiful Fairy Tale: The Life of Actress Lois Moran. Pompton Plains, NJ: Limelight Editions, 2005, p. 112, also in the Arthur Mizener Papers, Cornell University, Ithaca, New York, letters from Lois Moran to Arthur Mizener, 1948–1951.
4.My worship for him was based on admiration for his talent: Lois Moran to Arthur Mizener, in Buller, A Beautiful Fairy Tale, p 106.
5.The girls who mop the floors are beautiful: F. Scott Fitzgerald to his cousin, Cecilia (Mrs. Richard Taylor), quoted in James R. Mellow, Invented Lives: F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. Boston: Houghton Mifflin Company, 1984, p. 281.
6.The weather here makes me think of Paris in the spring: Zelda Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald, quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 128.
7.Everybody here is very clever: Zelda Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald, quoted in Mellow, Invented Lives, p. 285.
8.In California, though, you would not allow me to go anywhere without you: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith. New York: Harper Collins, 1995, p. 43.
9.Hollywood completely disrupted since you left: telegram from Lois Moran to F. Scott Fitzgerald (March 14, 1927), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col., 187, Box 51, Folder 12, P.U.L., also cited in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 190.
10.Darling Scott, I miss you enormously: Lois Moran to F. Scott Fitzgerald (March 1927), note written on eastbound train, cited in Buller, A Beautiful Fairy Tale, p. 139.
11.When you asked mother about Fitzgerald: Tim Young, Lois Moran’s son, as cited in Buller, A Beautiful Fairy Tale, p. 132.
12.Will you like me as a woman: Lois Moran, journal entry (November 9, 1928), quoted in Buller, A Beautiful Fairy Tale, p. 141.
13.My earliest formal education took place at Ellerslie: Scottie Fitzgerald quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 32.
14.Thank God you escaped alive: H. L. Mencken to F. Scott Fitzgerald (March 15, no year), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col 187, Box 51, Folder 9, P.U.L.
15.We used to have riotous parties at Ellerslie: John Biggs, quoted in Seymour Toll, A Judge Uncommon: A Life of John Biggs, Jr. Philadelphia: Legal Communications, 1993, pp. 98–99, originally quoted in Lee Reese, The House on Rodney Square. Wilmington, DE: News Journal Company, 1977, pp. 174–75.
16.From the depths of my polluted soul: Zelda Fitzgerald to Carl Van Vechten (May 27, 1927), quoted in Andrew Turnbull, Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Grove Press, 2001, p. 178.
17.Those delirious parties of theirs: John Dos Passos quoted in Thomas J. Stavola, Scott Fitzgerald: Crisis in American Identity. New York: Barnes & Noble, 1981, p. 59.
18.His drinking and frustration while at Ellerslie worried me: Rex Polier, “Fitzgerald in Wilmington: The Great Gatsby at Bay,” Philadelphia Sunday Bulletin, January 6, 1974, Section 4.
19.Spent one lost afternoon with him: Zelda Fitzgerald quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 249.
20.Those little fish swimming about under a shark: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (early March 1932), Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda: The Love Letters of F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Jackson R. Bryer and Cathy W. Barks. New York: St. Martin’s Press, 2002, p. 154.
21.Zelda Fitzgerald is studying ballet dancing with an absorption and seriousness: Zelda Fitzgerald, interview by Sara Haardt, unpublished article, Sara Haardt Collection, Enoch Pratt Library, Baltimore, Maryland, p. 1.
22.I joined the Philadelphia Opera Ballet: Zelda Fitzgerald to Carl Van Vechten (October 4, 1927), quoted in Turnbull, Scott Fitzgerald, p. 179.
23.I really felt a little guilty dropping Zelda’s name: Harold Ober to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Bruccoli, Some Sort of Epic Grandeur, p. 273.
24.One of the objects that caught her fancy: Anna Biggs quoted in Toll, A Judge Uncommon, pp. 97–98, and Milford, Zelda, p. 136.
25.Start at six or seven o’clock in the morning: John Biggs as quoted in Toll, A Judge Uncommon, p. 98, and Reese, The House on Rodney Square, p. 174.
26.I knew there was only one way for me to survive my parents’ tragedy: Scottie Fitzgerald Lanahan, quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . . New York: Harper Collins, 1995, p. 71.
27.We want to go in May: Zelda Fitzgerald to Carl Van Vechten, quoted in Turn-bull, Scott Fitzgerald, p. 179.
28.Scott and I had a row last week: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Sara Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise: Zelda and Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Dell Publishing Co., 1971, p. 131.
29.First trip to jail, and dive in Lido: Facsimile of F. Scott Fitzgerald ledger book, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 209.
30.There’s no use killing yourself: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s, 1991, p. 138.
31.I’m twenty-eight years old and I’ve already got sweetbreads: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise, p. 131.
32.Two drinks puts him into a manic state: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Mayfield, Exiles from Paradise, p. 116.
33.Am going on the water wagon: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins, quoted in Ring Lardner Jr., The Lardners: My Family Remembered. New York: Harper Colophon Books, 1976, pp. 163–64.
34.There was nothing in the commercial flat except the white spitz of his mistress: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Mellow, Invented Lives, p. 325, and in Mil-ford, Zelda, p. 301.
35.Are you jabbering about oil: Ernest Hemingway, “Scott and His Parisian Chauffeur, ” in A Moveable Feast. New York: Scribner’s Sons, 1964, p. 211.
36.La vie de Naples n’est pas tres chere: Julie Sedova to Zelda Fitzgerald (September 29, 1929), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers. A.M. 20502, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 214.
37.Notre theatre est magnifique et il vous serrait tres utile: Julie Sedova to Zelda Fitzgerald, cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 214.
38.I have always felt that this frantic effort on Zelda’s part: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda Fitzgerald, Mayfield Collection, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
39.Diaghilev died; the stuff of the great movement of the Ballet Russe lay rotting: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, quoted in Alice Hall Petry, “Women’s Work: The Case of Zelda Fitzgerald,” Literature Interpretation Theory 1, nos. 1–2 (December 1989): p. 82.
40.We went (to) sophisticated places with charming people: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 156.
41.There were all sorts and varieties of strange fish swimming by the camera: Gerald Murphy, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 155.
42.I worked constantly and was terribly superstitious: Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 347.
43.I found myself saying hateful things to her: F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Tony Buttita, After the Good Gay Times—Asheville ’35: A Season of F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Viking Press, 1974, p. 170.
44.We might all four take that Compagnie General trip to Tunisia: Gerald Murphy to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 13, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 218.
45.I would almost rather she die now: Rosalind Smith to F. Scott Fitzgerald (July 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 54, Folder 11, P.U.L. also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 230.
1.It is a question of petite anxieuse, worn out by her work: clinical evaluation of Zelda Fitzgerald’s condition, Craig House file, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 745, P.U.L. Dr. Oscar Forel told Nancy Milford in 1966 that while schizophrenia had been his initial assessment of Zelda, his opinion gradually altered and she never manifested enough of the stereotypical schizophrenic symptoms to be diagnosed in that category. Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2002, p. 445.
2.I went of my own free will: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (May 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 42, Folder 57, P.U.L., also cited in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 255, and in Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda: The Love Letters of F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Jackson R. Bryer and Cathy W. Barks. New York: St. Martin’s Press, 2002, p. 84.
3.Two sisters have nervous breakdowns: Malmaison Hospital and Valmont Clinic patient evaluations of Zelda Fitzgerald’s condition, Craig House File, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 745, P.U.L. Dr. H. A.Trutman, Valmont Hospital Report, also cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, pp. 260–61. Also in this file is a résumé of the consultation between Dr. Oscar Forel and Professor Eugen Bleuler done on November 22, 1930. The Oscar Forel medical records at P.U.L., covering Zelda’s hospitalization at Prangins from June 5, 1930, through September 15, 1931, were prepared and translated from French into English by Mme. Claude Amiel under Dr. Forel’s supervision.
4.You must try to understand how dreary and drastic is my present position: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 266.
5.I am thoroughly humiliated and broken: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 263.
6.For too long, your wife has taken advantage of our patience: Dr. Oscar Forel to F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 179, and Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 286.
7.I beg you to think twice, before you say anymore to them: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Rosalind Smith (1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 53, Folder 14A, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 232.
8.You say you place the beginning of the change in her: Rosalind Smith to F. Scott Fitzgerald (June 16, 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 53, Folder 14A, P.U.L.
9.It was at this point that her smoldering quarrel with my father broke out: Scottie Fitzgerald Lanahan, as quoted by Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith. New York: Harper Collins, 1996, p. 45.
10.I know your ineradicable impression of the life Zelda and I have led together: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Rosalind Smith (June 8, 1930), in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 236.
11.Do me a single favor: Draft of a letter from F. Scott Fitzgerald to Rosalind Smith, unsent, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 231.
12.He would come back some day: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Babylon Revisited and Other Stories. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1971, p. 230.
13.At one point, when things were not going well with my father: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., pp. 46, 301.
14.She was concerned, quite simply: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 45.
15.Please don’t write to me about blame: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (after June 30), Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, p. 238.
16.I am a woman of thirty: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, in Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda, p. 97, and in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 241.
17.I demand that I be allowed to go immediately: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 42, Folder 65, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 24.
18.Shall I write to daddy that he should come over: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Fall 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 42, Folder 63, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 241.
19.If you think you are preparing me for a return to Alabama: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Fall 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 42, Folder 64, P.U.L.
20.He said it wasn’t even a question: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Judge Anthony Sayre and Minnie Sayre (December 1, 1930), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, pp. 202–4.
21.My marriage, after which I was in another world: Zelda Fitzgerald, summarizing the important emotional events of her life to Dr. Oscar Forel, psychiatric report (September 15, 1931), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 745, Box 1, Folder 2, P.U.L., quoted in Milford, Zelda, pp. 174–76.
22.Why do I have to go backward: Zelda Fitzgerald to Dr. Oscar Forel (November 1930), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 5, File 3, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, pp. 240–41.
23.Panic seems to have settled: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Fall 1930), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 42, Folder 64, P.U.L., also cited in Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda, p. 91.
24.I had a very nice time: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Box 42, Folder 41, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 244.
25.Here is where Scott and I lunched yesterday: postcard from Zelda Fitzgerald to her mother, illustrated in Eleanor Lanahan, Zelda: An Illustrated Life: The Private World of Zelda Fitzgerald. New York: Harry N. Abrams, 1996, p. 27.
26.We played tennis on the baked clay courts: Zelda Fitzgerald, Show Mr. and Mrs. F to Number—, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s, 1991, p. 429.
27.Was the Madeleine pink at five o’clock: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, p. 238, also in Koula Svokos Harnett, Zelda Fitzgerald and the Failure of the American Dream. American University Studies, Washington: Peter Lang Publishing, A.C., 1991, p. 153.
1.I had a violent quarrel with Amalia this morning: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 43, Folder 49, P.U.L., also cited in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 250.
2.I feel like a person lost in some Gregorian but feminine service here: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (December 1931), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 43, Folder 39, P.U.L., also quoted in The Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 274.
3.The . . . material which I will elect to write about: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (April 1932), quoted in The Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, p. 291.
4.I do not seem to be strong enough to stand much strain at the present: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Spring 1932), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 44, Folder 7, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 255.
5.At no time have I been able to get any statement of the suspicious, paranoid ideas: Dr. Mildred Squires to F. Scott Fitzgerald (February 17, 1932), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 50, P.U.L.
6.Mrs. Fitzgerald does not accept any of the nurses’ suggestions: Dr. Mildred Squires to F. Scott Fitzgerald (February 17, 1932), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 5, P.U.L.
7.Our sexual relations have been good: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Mildred Squires, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 257.
8.This card was designed and printed by Mrs. Fitzgerald: Dr. Frederick Wertham, handwritten note on the back of Dr. Mildred Squires’ Christmas card, made by Zelda Fitzgerald, Frederick Wertham Collection, Harvard University, cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 258.
9.Please do not judge or if not already done even consider: telegram from F. Scott Fitzgerald to Maxwell Perkins, quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, Some Sort of Epic Grandeur: The Life of F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1981, p. 32.
10.It would be throwing her broken upon a world which she despises: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Mildred Squires, quoted in Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 222.
11.It’s very expressive of myself: Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz, in The Collected Writings of Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1991, p. 285.
12.Dans ces deux, il en fut ainsi : Marie de France, Lais, French Texts Service, new edition. London, England: Duckworth Publishers, 1966.
13.It is a pity that the publisher could not have had a more accurate proofreading: New York Times, October 16, 1932, news clipping in Zelda Fitzgerald’s scrapbook, P.U.L.
14.Mrs. Fitzgerald should have had whatever help she needed: News clipping in Zelda Fitzgerald’s scrapbook, P.U.L.
15.We had a mad-man’s ball today: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Spring 1932), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 44, Folder 9, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 265.
16.Scott likes it better than France: Zelda Fitzgerald to John Peale Bishop, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 258.
17.I had Scott and Zelda in my car: John O’Hara, “In Memory of Scott Fitzgerald,” New Republic. March 3, 1941.
18.I wish I had a whole lot of money: Zelda Fitzgerald quoted in transcript of Dr. A. C. Rennie, cited in Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2002, pp. 324–34, and Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 274.
19.I am incapacitated for helping her: Document from Zelda Fitzgerald addressed to Dr. A. C. Rennie, F. Scott Fitzgerald, Additional Papers, Col. 188, AM 10-10-32, Box 25, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 269.
20.In her subconscious: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. A. C. Rennie, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 188, Box 25, File 1, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 269.
21.She is working under a greenhouse: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Adolf Meyer (April 10, 1933), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 10A, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 272.
22.Your complaint of futility of our conversation: Dr. Adolf Meyer to F. Scott Fitzgerald (April 18, 1933), Craig House Files, Col. 745, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 273.
23.It is the great humiliation of my life that I cannot support myself: Zelda Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, p. 104, also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 275.
24.The evenings are so terrible: Taped conversation of the Fitzgeralds at La Paix, Sunday, May 28, 1933, 2:30 p.m., Rennie Transcript, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers. p. 82, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 274.
25.He made it impossible for me to communicate with my child: Zelda Fitzgerald, cited in Milford, Zelda, p. 325, also in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 328, in A. C. Rennie transcript, P.U.L., p. 11.
26.Zelda—had almost a hundred doctors: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, P.U.L., pp. 11, 12, also cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 328.
27.I can think, of—well, say fifty: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, p. 12.
28.As far as destroying you is concerned: Zelda Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, p. 6.
29.Why do you think you met Leger: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, p. 27.
30.If you write a play, it cannot be a play about psychiatry: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, p. 28.
31.I am so God-damned sick of your abuse: Zelda Fitzgerald, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 328.
32.A woman’s place is with the man who supports her: F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 329.
33.I don’t want to live with you: Zelda Fitzgerald, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 330.
34.I am perfectly willing to put aside the novel: Zelda Fitzgerald, Rennie transcript, cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 276.
35.Attack on all grounds: F. Scott Fitzgerald quoted in Scott Donaldson, Fool for Love: F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Delta Press, 1983, p. 86.
36.I am going to be a writer, but I am not going to do it at Scott’s expense: Rennie transcript, p. 88, also quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 276.
37.They don’t seem to think a lot about their children: Scottie Fitzgerald Lanahan, “Daughter of Fitzgerald, Aged 12, Criticizes Heroines of This Side of Paradise, Holds Flappers Fail as Parents,” New York Times, September 18, 1933, p. 17.
1.Already with Thee: Line from John Keats, Ode to a Nightingale, that continues, “But here there is no light, save what from heaven is, with the breezes blown through verdurous glooms and windy, mossy ways.”
2.Nicole did not want any vague spiritual romance: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1962, p. 323.
3.Barban came over behind her: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night, p. 301.
4.I only know what I see in the cinema: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night, p. 300.
5.He was one of those men who had a charger: F. Scott Fitzgerald, notebooks, note 982, P.U.L., also cited in The Notebooks of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1978, p. 151. Stallions bred for battles, tournaments, and jousts, these Medieval war houses were highly prized and expensive to own.
6.What made me so mad was that he made the girl so awful: Zelda Fitzgerald to Dr. Thomas Rennie, quoted in James R. Mellow, Invented Lives: F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald. Boston: Houghton Mifflin Company, 1984, p. 425.
7.Nicole is a portrait of Zelda: F. Scott Fitzgerald, character notes for Tender Is the Night. Additional information on Virginia Foster Durr’s accusation against Judge Sayre is found in Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise, fn 11, chapter 22. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2002; Jeffrey Meyers, Scott Fitzgerald: A Biography. New York: HarperCollins, 1994, pp. 44–45; and Virginia Foster Durr, Outside the Magic Circle: The Autobiography of Virginia Foster Durr, ed. Hollinger F. Barnard. Tuscaloosa: University of Alabama Press, 1990.
8.An achievement which no student of psychobiological sources of human behavior: Review of Tender Is the Night in Journal of Nervous and Mental Diseases, quoted in Matthew J. Bruccoli, Some Sort of Epic Grandeur: The Life of F. Scott Fitzgerald. New York: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1981, p. 370.
9.My reason for wanting to change: Zelda Fitzgerald to Dr. Adolf Meyer, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 5, File 7, P.U.L., quoted in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 285.
10.It’s so pretty here: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 44, Folder 30, P.U.L., quoted in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 286.
11.She suffered from fatigue, was mildly confused, and mentally retarded: Dr. Clarence J. Slocum to F. Scott Fitzgerald (April 11, 1934), Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 286.
12.It has been our observation that she tires easily: Dr. Clarence J. Slocum, letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L.
13.We try to have her rest as much as possible: Dr. Clarence J. Slocum, letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L.
14.I would not like to make even a tentative diagnosis at this time: Dr. Clarence Slocum to F. Scott Fitzgerald (April 11, 1934), Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 287.
15.They are so lonely and magnificent and heartbreaking: Zelda Fitzgerald to Dr. A. C. Rennie, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 289.
16.The exhibition, as she may have told you: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Clarence J. Slocum (April 2, 1934), Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 291.
17.I get a pretty highly developed delirium tremens at the professional reviewers: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Mabel Dodge Luhan (May 10, 1934), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, p. 258.
18.About my book, you and the doctors agreed that I might work on it: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Eleanor Lanahan, Zelda: An Illustrated Life: The Private World of Zelda Fitzgerald. New York: Harry N. Abrams, 1996, p. 29.
19.I cannot see why I should sit in luxury: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 44, Folder 4, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 293.
20.You must realize that to one as ill as I am: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 44, Folder 46, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 293.
21.I do not feel as you do: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Craig House Files, 0745, Box 44, Folder 42, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 293.
22.I hope Mrs. Fitzgerald reached Baltimore safely and comfortably: Dr. Clarence Slocum to F. Scott Fitzgerald (May 19, 1934), Craig House Files, 0745, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 294.
23.You have always told me, that I have no right to complain: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (June 1930), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda: The Love Letters of F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, ed. Jackson R. Bryer and Cathy W. Barks. New York: St. Martin’s Press, 2002, fn 322, p. 86, also Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 298.
24.Mrs. Fitzgerald has been moved to a closed ward: Isabel Owens to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers. Col 187, Box 51, Folder 33, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 304.
25.He gave back to me both times a woman: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Harry Murdoch (August 28, 1934), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 51, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 299.
26.It is Dr. Meyer’s feeling that this present condition: Dr. A. C. Rennie to F. Scott Fitzgerald (May 27, 1935), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 53, Folder 14A, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 303.
27.My dear Scott, Poor Sara, I fear, is now gravely ill: H. L. Mencken to F. Scott Fitzgerald (May 30, 1935), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 53, Folder 14A, P.U.L.
28.It occurs to me that you alone knew how we felt these days: Gerald Murphy to F. Scott Fitzgerald (August 11, 1935), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 13, P.U.L.
29.You have been cheated (as we all have one way or the other): Sara Murphy to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, Box 51, Folder 15, P.U.L.
30.She began to look different as most people with mental illness: Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, The Daughter of . . . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith. New York: HarperCollins, 1995, p. 39.
31.Her present condition was a great shock to me: Rosalind Smith to F. Scott Fitzgerald (June 4, 1935), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 53, Folder 14A, P.U.L.
32.One of the saddest memories I have: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda Fitzgerald, Sara Mayfield Collection, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
1.As one student nurse recalled: More information about Dr. Carroll’s personality can be found in Jeffrey Meyers, Scott Fitzgerald: A Biography. New York: HarperCollins, 1994, p. 267.
2.She once became so possessive: Landon Ray, interview by the author at Highland Hospital, June 21, 1963.
3.An enthusiastic person with an active mind: Graphological analysis of Zelda Fitzgerald’s handwriting prepared by Dr. Robert Carroll for Mrs. Anthony Sayre, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L.
4.An institution employing all rational methods: Thirty-two-page prospectus for Highland Hospital, 1944, cover page, Duke University Medical Archives, Durham, North Carolina.
5.Now, the head doctor had devoted considerable research: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited in Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise. New York: Arcade Publishing, 2004, p. 310.
6.Knowing this, patients (mostly) suppress themselves: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (Christmas, 1939), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 48, Folder 1, P.U.L., also cited in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 316.
7.The benefits of scientific treatment have been strikingly enlarged: Dr. Robert Carroll, Highland Hospital Prospectus, p. 21.
8.I realize that I am at the end of my resources: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Harold Ober (May 1936), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, p. 330.
9.At Asheville, where much of the institutional atmosphere was lost in pleasant lodgings: Rosalind Smith, unpublished documentation on Zelda Fitzgerald, Sara Mayfield Papers, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
10.I left the hotel for the hospital this morning: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Zelda Fitzgerald (July 27, 1936), in The Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 440.
11.You don’t believe me, do you? I’m Scott Fitzgerald: Helen Northup, quoted in F in Wolfe’s Clothing, note reprinted from the University of Wisconsin Library News, in the Fitzgerald Newsletter, Micro Card Editions, Washington, DC, no. 19 (Fall 1962), pp. 102–3.
12.The choosing of what was then one of the five or six best-known rich girls’ schools: Scottie Fitzgerald quoted in Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith New York: HarperCollins, 1995, p. 76.
13.What I need is a substantial sum: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Harold Ober (May 13, 1937), in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 322.
14.There are so many houses I’d like to live in with you: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 316.
15.There would be episodes of great gravity that seemed to have no build up: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. Robert Carroll, in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 354.
16.He fell in love with her helplessness: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” McCall’s Magazine 63, no. 7 (April 1936), p. 8.
17.Are you by any chance interested in this French boy: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” p. 52.
18.You didn’t actually have to kiss him tonight: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” p. 52.
19.You were there, you saw: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” p. 52.
20.He had to decide now, not upon what was the truth: F. Scott Fitzgerald, “Image on the Heart,” p. 62.
21.The telegram came today, and the whole afternoon was sad: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Sara Murphy (January 1937), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 320.
22.I was to have lunch with Edmond Wilson: Carl Van Vechten, quoted in Andre Le Vot, F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Biography, trans. William Byron. Garden City, NY: Doubleday, 1983, p. 318.
23.I must be very tactful, but keep my hand on the wheel from the start: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald (July 1937), in Andrew Turnbull, Letters to His Daughter. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1965, pp. 25–26.
24.Don’t you know that drinking is slow death: F. Scott Fitzgerald, quoted in Billy Altman, Laughter’s Gentle Soul: The Life of Robert Benchley. New York: W.W. Norton and Company, 1997, p. 343.
25.So who’s in a hurry: Robert Benchley, quoted in Billy Altman, Laughter’s Gentle Soul, p. 343.
26.Let’s get out of these wet clothes and into a dry martini: Version of a comment made by Robert Benchley to Ginger Rogers in the 1942 movie The Major and the Minor.
27.I like to drink a martini, but only two at the most, three I’m under the table, four I’m under my host: Quatrain misattributed to Dorothy Parker, quoted in Bennett Cerf, Try and Stop Me. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1944.
28.The skin with its peculiar radiance: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Last Tycoon. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1995, published under Fitzgerald’s original title, The Love of the Lost Tycoon, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli, p. 73.
29.Not in his league at all: Robert Westbrook, Intimate Lies: F. Scott Fitzgerald and Sheilah Graham: Her Son’s Story. New York: HarperCollins, 1995.
30.Better take it now. It is your chance, Stahr: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Last Ty-coon: An Unfinished Novel. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1941, p. 136.
31.The police have just called telling me they’ve recovered my car: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald (June 20, 1940), in Letters to His Daughter, ed. Andrew Turnbull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1965, p. 132.
32.I don’t know how this job is going: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Zelda Fitzgerald, quoted in The Letters of F. Scott Fitzgerald. ed. Andrew Turnbull, New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, p. 144.
33.Stahr cannot bring himself to: F. Scott Fitzgerald, in Two Outlines, letter written on September 29, 1939, explaining plans for the novel, included in notes, The Last Tycoon: An Unfinished Novel. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1941, p. 164.
34.I hope you will find it possible to let things go: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Dr. R. H. Suitt (September 27, 1939), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 53, Folder 14 A, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 335.
35.I’m tanning myself and happy in such a fine heaven: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 47, Folder 7, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 330.
36.What is your actual address: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (December 1938), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 46, Folder 51., P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 331.
37.Janno had indeed learned a lot of things about minding their rules: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder B, P.U.L., p. 312.
38.If you can’t pay her board: Marjorie Brinson to F. Scott Fitzgerald (October 20, 1939), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Box 55, P.U.L.
39.The facts remain unchanged—that she has been mentally injured: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Mrs. Anthony Sayre (October 15, 1939), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, AM 20502, Col. 183, Box 6, Folder 24, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 336.
40.Dr. Carroll treated his women patients, badly including Zelda: Dr. Irving Pine, interview by Sally Cline, as cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, note 26, ch. 14.
41.The proprietor (Carroll) has been implicated in a rape case: Zelda Fitzgerald to John Biggs Jr. (January, 1941), Col. 628, Box 2, Folder 11, P.U.L. Sally Cline elaborates on the issues of the case referencing several conversations with Dr. Irving Pine who told her that “Dr. Carroll treated his women patients badly and took advantage of them.” In Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald: Her Voice in Paradise, Arcade Publishing, New York, 2004, pp. 375, 376.
42.That life should once again have become desirable: Zelda Fitzgerald to the Highland Hospital staff, copy of letter in Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 187, box 48, folder 39, P.U.L.
43.This morning I have a letter from Dr. Carroll: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Mrs. Anthony Sayre, quoted in The Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan, New York: Random House, 1980, p. 587.
44.I do hope this goes well: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Zelda Fitzgerald (April 11, 1940), quoted in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, p. 442.
1.I won’t be able to stick this out: Telegram from Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L., also cited in Kendall Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom. New York: Ballantine Books, 2001, p. 340.
2.Disregard telegram: Telegram from Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, F. Scott Fitzgerald papers, P.U.L.
3.She has a poor, pitiful life: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Gerald and Sara Murphy (Summer 1940), quoted in F. Scott Fitzgerald: A Life in Letters, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli. New York: Simon and Schuster, 1994, p. 458.
4.I remember one she came to: Nancy Milford, “The Golden Dreams of Zelda Fitzgerald,” Harper’s Magazine, January 1969, p. 52.
5.They know that she simply cannot drink: Marjorie Brinson, quoted in Helen Blackshear, “Mama Sayre, Scott Fitzgerald’s Mother-in-Law,” Georgia Review, Winter 1965, p. 16.
6.Down here, the little garden blows remotely poetic: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ludlow Fowler (1946), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 5, File 4, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 34.
7.You saved me—Scottie and me: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Gerald and Sara Murphy, quoted in The Correspondence of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Matthew J. Bruccoli and Margaret M. Duggan. New York: Random House, 1980, p. 554.
8.Dr. Baer was waiting in the inner office: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Last Tycoon: An Unfinished Novel. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1941, p. 127.
9.No news except that the novel progresses: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Zelda Fitzgerald (December 6, 1940), in The Letters of F. Scott Fitzgerald, ed. Andrew Turn-bull. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1963, p. 131.
10.Take care of yourself: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (no date), Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 42, Folder 38, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 342.
11.Maybe you would be better off in this climate: Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Box 47, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 342.
12.You have two beautiful bad examples for parents: F. Scott Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald, quoted in Eleanor Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of .. . : The Life of Frances Scott Fitzgerald Lanahan Smith. New York: HarperCollins, 1995, p. 130.
13.It was terrible about Scott: Marion Meade, Dorothy Parker: What Fresh Hell Is This? New York: Villard Books, 1988, p. 299.
14.She wasn’t going to have him anymore: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, quoted by Nancy Milford, Zelda: A Biography. New York: Harper and Row, 1970, p. 367. Original documentation from Caesar’s Things, “The Big Top,” ch. 7, p. 14, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, Box 2A, Folder 8, P.U.L. A partially typed manuscript of 135 pages divided into seven chapters, begun in 1942 and worked on until Zelda’s death in 1948, it currently exists as a fragmentary manuscript in the Princeton University archives.
15.Just before New Year’s Eve, I suddenly decided to go to New York: Sheilah Graham, The Real F. Scott Fitzgerald: Thirty-Five Years Later. New York: Grosset and Dunlap, 1976, p. 219.
16.Of course I was upset that my father was dead: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., pp. 132–33.
17.I’m a Federal Court judge: Seymour I. Toll, A Judge Uncommon: A Life of John Biggs Jr. Philadelphia: Legal Communications, 1993, p. 23.
18.Jacob went on doing whatever it was that Jacob did: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Sally Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 142; Milford, Zelda, p. 361; and Linda Wagner-Martin, Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald: An American Woman’s Life. London: Palgrave MacMillan, 2004, p. 206.
19.One day she met Jacques: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Milford, Zelda, p. 364. This material also appears in Zelda’s last chapter of her unpublished novel, Caesar’s Things, in which her affair with the French pilot is told in greater detail than it appears in Save Me the Waltz, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, P.U.L.
20.There were lots of places to have champagne and hangovers around the garden: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, Zelda Fitzgerald Papers, Col. 183, P.U.L.
21.She kissed Jacques on the neck: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 150.
22.None of them in their fervor and necessity: Zelda Fitzgerald, Caesar’s Things, cited by Milford, Zelda, p. 367.
23.While I was conversing with them on topics of the day: Lawton Campbell, “The Fitzgeralds Were My Friends,” unpublished essay, collection of the author, p. 29.
24.I would not exchange my experiences for any other: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ann Ober, quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 373.
25.I feel guilty about having left notifying my mother until it was too late: Lana-han, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 150.
26.Giving Scottie away must have brought back memories: Zelda Fitzgerald to Ann Ober, quoted in Cline, Zelda Fitzgerald, p. 396.
27.The first day she would seem so well: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 86.
28.I wish that my realms of epic literature would spin themselves out to a felicitous end: Zelda Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald, quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 372.
29.John mentioned that it was time to catch the train: Anna Biggs quoted in Milford, Zelda, p. 375.
30.I have tried so hard and prayed so earnestly: Zelda Fitzgerald to Rosalind Smith, quoted in Jeffrey Meyers, Scott Fitzgerald: A Biography. New York: HarperCollins, 1994, p. 340.
31.I’m distressed Zelda does not improve: Mrs. Anthony Sayre to Scottie Fitzgerald (January 27, 1948), quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., pp. 179–80.
32.Today there is promise of spring in the air: Zelda Fitzgerald to Scottie Fitzgerald, quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, The Daughter of . . ., p. 181.
33.I was so glad you decided she should stay with daddy: Scottie Fitzgerald to Mrs. Anthony Sayre (March 19, 1948), F. Scott Fitzgerald Papers, Col. AM 20502, Box 25, P.U.L., also cited in Taylor, Sometimes Madness Is Wisdom, p. 359, and Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 181.
34.She couldn’t seem to give anything: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 253.
35.At last we have a baby to put down the incinerator: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 172.
36.A disorderly mind so packed with information: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 418.
37.I have developed a rather tough layer of skin over the years: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 337.
38.So, we beat on, boats against the current: F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, 1924, p. 182. What Fitzgerald thought they were “borne back to” were life’s pivotal events that forever change us.
39.It was a very cruel joke God played: Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 473.
40.It was never confirmed publicly within the family that Sara had lesbian relationships: Camilla Mayfield, interview by the author, and documented in the Mayfield Collection, W. S. Hoole Special Collections Library, University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, Alabama.
41.I have fallen into the universal opinion of people here: Tim Lanahan, quoted in Lanahan, Scottie, the Daughter of . . ., p. 343.
42.Let go of her hand, she isn’t yours: Tennessee Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel: A Ghost Pla y. New York: New Directions Publishing, 1983, p. 74.
43.You are reckless. You have a reckless nature: Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel, p. 37.
44.I know when to be careful but do you: Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel,
p. 36.
45.You know, I expected our affair to continue, no matter what the cost: Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel, p. 44.
46.What did happen to you? After you left that summer: Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel, p. 47.
47.Well, gradually, as such things occur to most living creatures, Zelda, I—grew old: Williams, Clothes for a Summer Hotel, p. 47.