Again I find myself alone, and ever
The same voice like an oracle begins
Its vague and mystic strain, forgetting never
Reproaches for a hundred hidden sins,
And setting mournful penances in sight,
Terrors and tears for many a watchful night.
Fast change the scenes upon me all the same,
In hue and drift the regions of a land
Peopled with phantoms, and how dark their aim
As each dim guest lifts up its shadowy hand [10]
And parts its veil to show one withering look,
That mortal eye may scarce unblighted brook.
I try to find a pleasant path to guide
To fairer scenes – but still they end in gloom;
The wilderness will open dark and wide
As the sole vista to a vale of bloom,
Of rose and elm and verdure – as these fade
Their sere leaves fall on yonder sandy shade.
My dreams, the Gods of my religion, linger
In foreign lands, each sundered from his own, [20]
And there has passed a cold destroying finger
O’er every image, and each sacred tone
Sounds low and at a distance, sometimes dying
Like an uncertain sob, or smothered sighing.
Sea-locked, a cliff surrounded, or afar
Asleep upon a fountain’s marble brim –
Asleep in heart, though yonder early star,
The first that lit its taper soft and dim
By the great shrine of heaven, has fixed its eye
Unsmiling though unsealed on that blue sky. [30]
Left by the sun, as he is left by hope:
Bowed in dark, placid cloudlessness above,
As silent as the Island’s palmy slope,
All beach untrodden, all unpeopled grove,
A spot to catch each moonbeam as it smiled
Towards that thankless deep so wide and wild.
Thankless he too looks up, no grateful bliss
Stirs him to feel the twilight-breeze diffuse
Its balm that bears in every spicy kiss
The mingled breath of southern flowers and dews, [40]
Cool and delicious as the fountain’s spray
Showered on the shining pavement where he lay.