The sun hadn't even thought about peeking its head out when they loaded up the carriages and the lead vehicle pulled away from Trevor's townhouse.
They were headed to Chatsworth, Trevor's country estate, located on the Scottish border. He had informed her that was where they would be married at his grandmother's insistence. Kristen wondered about the woman who seemed to hold so much power over Trevor. She couldn't imagine him ever bending to any woman's will.
Kristen felt awkward riding with Trevor . . . alone.
The others would be sent in another carriage that would follow theirs later in the day.
She looked at Trevor from beneath her lashes. A stranger! A perfectly good-looking, breath-taking stranger. But a stranger nonetheless.
Kristen realized she'd agreed to marry someone she really didn't know and definitely had nothing in common with.
She bit the side of her mouth as she watched Trevor write on his tablet. It seemed the man worked constantly. She couldn't remember seeing him idle since they had met. He was either jotting something down in his book or issuing commands. And look how he frowned at what he was doing! That kind of pressure couldn't be good for anyone.
But the man constantly worked.
He didn't seem to know how to do anything else, and Kristen realized he must have forgotten what enjoyment meant. How would she ever fit into his world? It was hard enough just to get him to talk, though, she had to admit, he always squeezed her into his routine if she needed him. But sometimes that wasn't enough.
He seemed to have built a wall around himself, and Kristen wondered why. Perhaps, he'd always been that way, but she didn't think so. Maybe something awful had happened in his past that had made him so withdrawn. She sighed as something stirred deep within her. Somehow, some way, she wanted to help him change.
Kristen was sure, one day, she'd find all her answers.
Restlessly, she shifted her weight and crossed her legs for at least the tenth time. She still hadn't gotten a response, and sitting here staring at him, even if she did like looking at the man, wasn't going to do anything but give her a bad headache. If she didn’t get Trevor talking soon, she’d be bored to tears.
"Do you always work?" Kristen's question came out sharper than she'd meant. At least, she'd gotten results because he laid the pad on his lap.
He looked at her as if she'd grown horns. "Most of the time."
"Why?"
"Because things needs to be done."
"All that work must be awful dull."
He didn't say anything; he just stared. How could she penetrate the deliberate blankness of his eyes?
"What do you do for enjoyment?" Kristen asked.
"Enjoyment?"
"Great!" She felt the screams of frustration at the back of her throat. "Ye don't even know what the word means."
"You're wrong." She didn't fail to catch the note of sarcasm in his voice.
"I do know the meaning of the word, and I'm sure I've had some enjoyable moments." He smiled, then continued, "I can think of a couple since I've met you."
Kristen blushed.
"Someone has to run my shipping business, though I do admit I've turned a good portion of it over to a gentleman you've not yet met. But putting business aside, I also have three houses to run and somehow all the 'enjoyments of life' got swept away when I wasn't looking." He frowned as his own words seemed to sink into his head, then he looked back at her. "I guess I haven't realized how much I work."
"'Tis never too late." She bent her head and studied her hands before shyly looking back at him. "Maybe we can change ye." She saw the heartrending tenderness of his gaze, and her stomach tightened.
Trevor stretched his arm across the back of the seat and pushed his papers beside him. "Then you'd be a miracle worker."
"Aye. But I do believe in miracles," she whispered, knowing how easily he could draw her to him. It was the way he looked at her that made her whole body turn to jelly. She blinked a couple of times, realizing the rocking of the carriage was making her sleepy. She tried to stifle a yawn.
"Would you like to sit beside me and perhaps use my shoulder for a pillow?"
She didn't hesitate a moment longer to take him up on the offer because she hadn't slept much at all last night. Trevor had been on her mind all night... especially those wondrous kisses that could make her forget everything else.
Moving beside him, she only meant to rest her head on his shoulder, but he draped an arm around her in a possessive gesture and leaned back himself. Evidently, he hadn't slept well either, she decided and smiled. Good. She didn't want to be the only one who had suffered.
Kristen, strangely enough, felt secure and comfortable as she shut her eyes. Then, it dawned on her that she felt much too comfortable. It would be so easy to get used to all this luxury and, perhaps, also this man. Every day he grew special to her in a way she'd never experienced before. The same questions always came back to haunt her: How long?
She decided, just as she felt the edges of sleep touch her, she wouldn't worry about the problem any longer. She had lived by her wits all her life, taking one day at a time.
So her decision was now made . . .
She'd take one day at a time and deal with whatever came her way.
Her dreams were so pleasant she didn't want to open her eyes. She dreamed of Trevor and those wonderful kisses he'd taught her, and how they made her head spin and her heart flutter. There was so much between them that she didn't understand, and she didn't want to be attracted to him. Again, the image of him kissing her floated before her eyes. She could almost picture his face hovering above hers as he lifted his lips. Desire and love floated in his eyes.
Did he say something about love?
At that precise moment, Kristen came fully awake. Love would jar anyone awake, but that wasn't the case this time. Something was wrong with the carriage!
The carriage gave a sharp lunge, and she slid to the floor with a muffled cry.
"What the hell?" Trevor's voice boomed beside her.
"W--what's happening?" Kristen tried to stand but stepped on her skirt, which sent her sailing back into Trevor's arms. He held her close while the vehicle teetered on two wheels, then righted itself.
The carriage finally came to a jolting halt and voices, more than she remembered, surrounded the vehicle.
"Come on and get out, ye grace."
Trevor took Kristen by the arms and held her from him. "Kristen, do as I say," Trevor cautioned her. "I think we are about to be held up."
"You mean thieves?"
Trevor looked at her and managed not to laugh at her put-out expression. "Isn't that the pot calling the kettle black?"
"I resent that." She huffed past him as if he'd offended her. "'Tis not the same."
Trevor shook his head. If the situation wasn't so serious, he'd probably be laughing at her, he thought as he exited and put his feet on firm ground. But he was afraid the situation was very serious as he looked around the group of thugs.
"I see we've had a bit of luck, fellows. Looks like his worship is traveling with his lady. She should be good for a few dozen fine pieces of jewels."
"Well, that's where yer bloody wrong," Kristen quickly informed him when she was out of the carriage, even though Trevor squeezed her arm in warning. "So ye best be leaven'."
"She's got a mouth on her, that one does," the man standing beside the leader quipped.
Trevor decided he'd better step in before Kristen riled the four men pointing guns at them. Hadn't she noticed they were just a little outnumbered? Maybe he could have handled one man, perhaps two, but not four.
"She does have a bit of a mouth." Trevor broke the uneasy silence. "But the lady is correct. We are not traveling with valuables." He reached into his coat to grab his wallet. "Here is my money. We've nothing else."
"Isn't much." The leader spat. He was a good three inches shorter than Trevor. "Perhaps we'll just take the little lady for our troubles." The leader grinned. "I'm sure you can come up with more when we have the likes of her for collateral." He reached out, but Trevor shoved Kristen behind him.
"I don't think so," Trevor said much too calmly.
The bandit then made the mistake of striking Trevor, who responded with a quick right to the jaw. Kristen wasn't sure what happened next. Trevor grabbed the man and, in the process, shoved Kristen away. She fell against the carriage, bumping her head against the hard metal on the wheel.
A scuffle ensued all around her. The thuds of fist meeting with flesh echoed in her ears. She could see boots and dust. Men shouting followed by an explosion brought dead silence.
Kristen managed to get to her feet, pushing her long hair out of her face as she did so. When she finally got her bearings and looked around, she screamed.
Trevor lay on the ground.
He wasn't moving.
A bright red splotch on his right shoulder told her where the bullet had ended up.
My God, Trevor was dead!
Kristen didn't take time to think as she lunged herself at the bandit in front of her. “Ye bloody bastard, ye killed him." She became a whirling hellcat, and it took two men to pull her off their leader.
"You sure don't talk like no lady." The bloke managed to spit out. "But I bet someone would pay a nice sum to get you back."
"Then, ye should think again. I'm not worth two pence to anyone, and ye killed the only man who might have paid ye."
Her comment brought a resounding slap across the face. Instead of her collapsing in tears, the blow only made Kristen angrier. Earlier, she had filched a knife from one of the other men. In her scuffle, she grasped the handle and hurled it at their leader, landing it deep in the man's gun arm.
"You bitch!" He exploded, dropping the pistol to grab the blade sticking out of his arm. I'll beat the life out of you for this!" Realizing a little too late that he'd dropped his weapon, he bent down to retrieve it, but when he did, he saw the gun was now pointed at his face.
"Unless you want to die first, I suggest you let the lady go." Trevor's deadly voice let everyone know that he meant what he said.
Even though the leader complied, he boldly said, "If you kill me, my men will kill her. So I still have the advantage."
"I think not." Trevor cocked the pistol and slowly came to his feet, his eyes never leaving his victim.
Thank God he wasn't dead, Kristen thought as she watched him. He reminded Kristen of a cat stalking its prey.
Trevor's eyes flamed intently and his knuckles were white as he gripped the pistol. "I can always replace the lady, but you can't replace your life, now can you?"
That remark brought Kristen out of her stupor. She couldn't believe how casually Trevor could dismiss her. And she'd thought he might care just a little for her.
How could she have been so blind . . . so stupid? She'd even felt bad when she'd thought he had been mortally wounded. However, before she could voice her thoughts, the leader spoke again.
"But you love her. She's valuable to you."
He placed the gun barrel to the tip of the man's nose, and cocked the trigger. "All women can be had."
The last statement pushed Kristen over the edge, and she completely forgot they were at the mercy of bandits. "So that's what ye bloody think of me!
"I should have thrown the knife at ye instead of him. The only thing that saved yer bloody hide was I thought ye were already dead." She jerked free of the man's loosened grip, but stumbled and fell over her skirt before she could reach Trevor.
That was all Trevor needed. He shot both men, causing their not-so-fearless leader to turn tail and run.
He breathed a small sigh as his adrenalin seeped back down to normal. Hearing the sounds of pounding hooves, he looked to his left and saw his second carriage rapidly approaching with a full guard, so he wouldn't have to worry about the thieves any more, and he realized a little too late he should have had more guards traveling with them. He had hoped to make better time by traveling light.
He moved over, reached down, and pulled Kristen up by the arm. However, she didn't come up peacefully. She swung at him, and he jerked back. She barely missed his nose.
"Wait a minute, my little hell-cat." He stiffened as though she had struck him. "What, may I ask, has gotten into you?" he snapped out the words impatiently. "We were both just about killed."
"Ye bloody bastard. I don't know why I ever agreed tae be seen with ye." She tried to jerk her arm free. "Well, I will not be seen with ye no more. Ye can damned well take me back tae London, and get one of those other females ye boasted about tae help yer sorry hide out of yer predicament." She raised her chin with a cool stare.
"Now I see what has you riled up." He laughed richly. "I don't want any of the other females." He loosened his grip. "I want you."
"That's not what ye just said. Ye said I wasn't no more than a piece of dirt tae ye." She tried to hit him again, but he pinned her arms behind her back and stared down into her angry green eyes.
What spirit she had, Trevor thought. Her eyes glistened with fire, and he wondered if she would be just as passionate in his arms.
"If I had told them just how valuable you were to me," he stated softly, "then you would have been thrown across the saddle and hauled out of here, posthaste." He watched the play of emotions on her face. "Perhaps you didn't notice that we were slightly outnumbered?"
"Aye I did." She regarded him with a speculative, suspicious, gaze. "However, the number didn't seem tae bother ye none. Look how ye disposed of them."
He ignored her offhanded compliment. "Then maybe you've forgotten that I have been shot."
"Shot," Kristen almost whispered, realizing she had forgotten the wound during all the excitement. She'd even thought Trevor was dead a minute ago. She remembered the devastating hurt that had stabbed her chest when she thought she'd lost him. as she stared at him now, she realized she would have died if anything had happened to him. She reluctantly admitted that small fact to herself. Still--
She saw the light in his eyes reflecting a tenderness before he hid it from her again. She could feel his supple muscles tense.
"It would be very nice if you could stop the bleeding. Unless you want me to bleed to death."
"I thought they'd killed ye." Her voice cracked as she struggled with her emotions. She wanted to reach out and hug him to her as she did Hagan when he was hurt.
"Thought--or hoped?"
She frowned at him. He was fishing for some tenderness, but he wouldn't be getting what he desired. Better to let him think she didn't care. "Get back into the vehicle, so I can attend tae yer wound."
The other vehicle had finally reached them, and Kristen could hear Hagan running toward them.
"What happened?" He dashed up to his sister followed by Rebecca.
"Are you all right, mum?" Rebecca asked.
The guards surrounded the carriages. One of them rode closer. "Should we go after them, Your Grace?"
"No, stay with the carriages," Trevor instructed. "The damage has been done."
"We were held up. One of the men shot Trevor," Kristen explained as she pushed the victim toward the carriage door.
"Well, you shot him, too." Hagan quickly pointed out from behind her.
"Hagan!" Kristen's stern voice warned him. She didn't need to be reminded of what she'd done over and over again. "Go back tae the carriage, so we can get out of here."
Trevor glanced back over his shoulder. "You're right, Hagan," Trevor said. "Being around your sister isn't good for my health." Trevor's gaze returned to Kristen. "If I can remember back a few weeks, my body was whole and without a scratch." He cupped her chin before entering the carriage. "You're dangerous, lady. Very dangerous."
"Aye." She smiled, then added, "Ye were looking tae put some excitement into yer life. However, I dinna ken with putting more holes in yer body." The amusement died in her eyes, as she regarded him with searching gravity. "I truly am sorry. Perhaps yer right, I'm really not very good for ye."
Once they were in the carriage and it had begun to move again, he reached over and took her hand. "I'll be the judge of whether or not you're good for me. Now, if you'll kindly bandage my shoulder...”
Trevor was stretched out on the soft cushions of the vehicle, so it was easy to kneel down and looked at his wound. She tore open his shirt and winced at the ugly hole in his right shoulder. "The bullet will have tae be removed," she informed him needlessly. "But I don't think it has done much damage."
"Good. When we arrive at Chatsworth, Grandmere can summon the surgeon." He winced as Kristen placed a makeshift bandage torn from her slip against the hole. "I've instructed the driver to drive all night so we should arrive by mid-morning."
"We can't get help sooner?"
"Afraid not, sweetheart. We're in the country now and don't have the conveniences of London."
This wasn't the first time he'd ever used an endearment, but she knew he didn't mean anything by it, so she didn't bother to comment. Kristen tore long strips from her petticoat and started wrapping his shoulder. "I think I've stopped the bleeding for now."
"You are a very pretty nurse."
"Thank you." She smiled at him, thinking how helpless he looked just now with his head propped upon the cushions. However, she knew Trevor Claremont, Duke of Chatsworth, was anything but helpless. She'd seen just how dangerous he could be, but instead of being frightened, she found the thought intrigued her instead. Unfortunately, she had an odd hankering for the man.
"What are you thinking?"
She chuckled, then decided to lie. "I was surprised at how well ye handled yerself back there. Most men of yer rank are nothing more than dandies. They would have probably fainted dead away."
"I'm not most men, Kristen."
Her eyes darted back to his as she heard him whisper her name like a caress. She felt that familiar warmth that she experienced when he was near her, and she barely whispered, "I know."
Trevor pulled her to him with his good arm and tasted her honey-sweet lips. How could this one small woman block out every sensible thought he had in his head until nothing was left but her? When he slept, he could smell her fragrance. He could remember her touch. Hear the sound of her very feminine voice. She seemed to be all around him.
He was used to women always wanting something from him--his title, his wealth, always something. But this woman wanted nothing from him, but his protection, and that was only at his insistence. If it hadn't been for her brother and the threat of jail, he'd have lost her the minute he turned his back.
He felt as if he were holding a small bird in his hands, and if he opened his hands she might fly away. And that scared him more than he'd like to admit. Was his small bargain becoming more than he'd first expected?
All his tumbling thoughts brought out a tenderness in him he didn't know he possessed as his mouth slanted over hers. His wounded arm moved painfully to slide around her waist, and he deepened the kiss, pressing her lips until she opened her mouth and he found what he sought.
Raw pleasure--pleasure he'd seldom known--coursed through his body, and he drew away from the temptation, hoping to see wariness in her expression. But that wasn't to be. What he saw was a lust that matched his own as she moistened her lips, and he lost what little sanity he had left.
Kristen wondered why he stopped. And why did he look at her in such an odd way? She liked this kissing stuff he'd taught her, yet she felt something was missing every time they ended up like this with him staring at her in that most peculiar way.
Sliding her hands up his chest, she brushed his lips again and stared down at his smoldering eyes that appeared more grey than their usual bluish-green.
Again his lips molded to hers, and her head swam with a desire for something more as she innocently pressed her body closer to his. She needed to be near him. She needed more, even if she didn't know exactly what.
"Kristen, you'd drive a sane man crazy." The words tore from his throat.
His urgent whisper only made her body become more acutely alive and she whispered back, "Aye."
His long, lingering kiss felt wonderful, and Kristen returned his passion with unrestrained enthusiasm as her hands roamed over his body, feeling every muscle that lay like steel beneath his fine linen shirt. When his lips started down her neck, pausing on her ear, she shivered and, only then, realized that she now lay on top of him.
Trevor must have perceived the same thing because he looked at her and whispered. "Not now, sweetheart. I want to wait until the time is right, and I'm not so weak from a wound."
Embarrassed, Kristen had forgotten all about his wound and quickly glanced down to see the bandage had turned a dark red. "I'm so sorry." She scrambled to get off him, failing miserable. "You should have told me ye were in pain."
To her surprise, he grinned. "Oh, I was in pain all right, but not from my wound."
She quickly removed herself and frowned at his unusual words, not quite sure what he meant. What other pain could he be experiencing? She sat down across from him.
"You're too far away." He held out a hand to her, reminding her of a child. "Come back and let me rest my head in your lap."
Kristen did as he instructed. As soon as his head was settled in her lap, he closed his eyes and went to sleep, leaving her to stare down at the most handsome man she'd ever met. In sleep he looked so different, so lovable. She trailed her hand through his tousled hair, and he snuggled closer to her, causing her to smile.
She didn't deserve him.
And she couldn't come to need him.
But, just maybe, she would enjoy him . . . if only for a little while.