The Reverend Julio Orenia, World Famous Psychic Surgeon, was to appear in the auditorium of a girls’ school on the other side of Salinas. A fortnight before the show, at her mother’s insistence, Aunt Mary had procured tickets through a Lopez family connection. But now Lola Lovely’s early departure had left an empty seat. America watched me mischievously as she told me I was going. Only the day before she’d listened, bristling, as I denounced psychic healing as unscientific. I turned away to hide my excitement.
The school was an easy walk from the Bougainvillea but Dub insisted on taking his motorbike. Benny clamoured to ride with him but Aunt Mary wouldn’t hear of it, declaring instead that I was to go with Dub while Benny went with the others in a taxi. Being around Dub was the last thing I wanted at that moment and I opened my mouth to protest, closing it again almost immediately on glancing at Aunt Mary; she was rarely to be persuaded out of something once she’d made up her mind, and certainly not by me. Her voice was terse as she dispatched me to fetch a cab.
The afternoon sun picked out the planes and edges of Esperanza as I rode back with the cab. The world felt solid, defined. I rolled down the window to disperse the stale air inside the car. A fine breeze blew in from the direction of the jetty, bringing the smell of the sea with it as it stirred the leaves of Aunt Mary’s cheesewood hedge. I’d have enjoyed the walk.
Dub smiled sheepishly at me as he handed me a helmet. I felt Benny’s eyes on me and, turning, I held his gaze for an instant longer than I might have before. Since the news about his real mother, the household had carried on around him as if nothing had changed, Aunt Mary and America fussing over him and berating him in equal measure as they always did. For my part, I couldn’t help but look at him differently now, though I was careful not to betray it. Of course he was the same Benny as ever, but he was half the same substance as I, even if, like his brother, the rest of him was descended from what my own mother had always referred to as good stock.
The schoolyard was heaving and it was as much as we could do to stay together as we pushed our way inside. We were early, but most of the seats were already filled and there would be many people standing for the evening. People in wheelchairs lined the walls, crowds streaming slowly past them.
Aunt Mary walked straight to the front of the auditorium and along the first row, counting off with little nods of her head the number of seats for our group. Across the hard wooden back of each seat a strip of paper asserted in capitals: RESERVED. I removed mine, studied it for a moment. Next to me, Benny leaned back in his chair, crumpling his paper strip in his fist after barely a glance. He made to drop it on the floor, hesitated as he looked at mine still in my hand. He watched as I folded it carefully into my pocket. His eyes met mine and he flushed lightly. He pushed the ball of paper into his pocket and settled back into his seat.
Beside me, Dub scanned the crowd with a studied casualness. I looked around too, as much to avoid catching his eye or having to make conversation as out of curiosity, but I saw no familiar faces in the packed hall; people had come from far afield to see the reverend’s show.
The reverend walked onto the stage late but no one protested, for he was, immediately, a charismatic performer. He was smaller and much younger than I’d imagined and he had about him the impatient demeanour of the city dweller. He wore a suit, the jacket unbuttoned so that when he raised his arms, dark rings of sweat could be seen on his shirt under the lights. ‘Welcome,’ he said, ‘in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. You know,’ he continued, his voice like a game-show host, ‘it’s through the Holy Spirit that my healing occurs.’ Although the flyer had described it as a prayer meeting, his show was flamboyant. He rushed about the stage, his voice booming into a microphone. People continued to arrive after he’d started, sliding in carefully at the back, but he waved them forward without pausing in his speech, as if calling friends to join a picnic.
He led the audience through prayers and we sang ‘Holy Spirit, Truth Divine’, a hymn I didn’t know and mumbled along to. I heard Aunt Mary’s voice rise up, clear and sweet over the others, but even she couldn’t remember all of it.
Halfway through the hymn, I felt Dub shift in his seat and, turning, I saw Eddie and his associates settle themselves noisily at the other end of our row. They were all in suits. BabyLu was with them and she’d dressed up for the occasion, but demurely, in an outfit that wouldn’t have been out of place in church. I wondered how Eddie had conspired not to bring his wife.
On stage, the reverend apologised that he wouldn’t be able to treat everyone who had come for healing that day; he hadn’t expected such a crowd. ‘You make me feel like one of The Beatles!’ he said. He announced that he would be holding clinics in a nearby chapel over the next few days where he would see anyone who came through the door. He called on the spirit messengers to guide his hands. The audience quietened. I looked around. People were smiling, swaying, some praying with their eyes closed, some still humming the melody of the hymn. Others were laughing, though nothing funny had been said since the Beatles remark. I looked back to the stage. The reverend seemed to stumble, his eyes rolled back so that the whites underneath were stark under the lights. He held his arms out to the crowd and asked who wanted to be healed. The air was immediately full of hands. I saw BabyLu crane round to look at the crowd. She didn’t raise her hand and neither did Eddie, but from their group Cesar, his face a little feverish, his lips still moving in prayer, raised his. As BabyLu turned back, she stole a glance at Dub but she didn’t hold his gaze, turning her eyes quickly back to the stage.
From near the back of the hall, a man was brought forward and helped onto the podium by the reverend’s ushers. He moved slowly, though he wasn’t particularly old, and he was extremely thin. His delight at being called up was evident and he reached out to grasp the reverend’s hand in both of his own, pulling it to his breast. The reverend opened his arms and hugged him. The audience, already far from quiet, stirred audibly at the sight. Even I was moved by it; it was hardly something a regular doctor would do. The man was made to lie on a table in the centre of the stage, his head resting on a Bible. The reverend started praying again out loud, something in Latin or what sounded like it. Overhead, the lights dimmed and flickered awhile before steadying. America cast a fearful look at the ceiling. The reverend seemed to sag and then straighten. He moved confidently now. He rolled his sleeves up, took a bottle from a side table and poured something into his cupped palm. He rubbed his hands together as he spoke softly into them, his eyes closed. He opened his eyes again and pulled the man’s clothing aside with one hand to bare his abdomen. Next to me, America hissed under her breath. Under the lights, there seemed hardly anything of the man but stark bony ridges. The reverend started to move his hand as if it were a knife, sawing the side of his palm back and forth in the air, then jabbing downwards with his index finger. He did this a few times, his face intent on the man’s flesh as if staring into the core of him, and then his hand plunged downwards and seemed to disappear into the man’s flesh. There was a gasp from the body of the audience. It filled the room and subsided again. The air felt electrified, like it did before a storm, and for a few seconds it was as if everything slowed down. A faint scent of coconut oil drifted out across the front of the auditorium. Then the hand was out and he was rubbing the man’s belly gently. The reverend held his hand out to the patient. It was stained with blood and clenched around something. He opened his fist, palm up. The audience leaned forward in their seats. The thin man stared at the reverend’s hand and then down at his own belly. The reverend slipped the object into a jar and held it up for everyone to see. It looked like a lump of meat. He dipped his hands into a basin of water on the side table, taking the time to clean them properly with soap. I saw America nod her approval; she was always impressed by hygiene. He asked the patient to stand slowly, carefully, in his own time, stepping forward to help him down from the table. He needn’t have; the man almost leaped down and beaming, pulled his shirt up to show that there was no wound and no visible blood, nothing in fact to indicate that any kind of surgery had taken place. ‘No meat,’ the reverend said to him, wagging his finger like a schoolteacher. ‘No sex, no alcohol, no fizzy drinks and no losing your temper for at least two weeks.’ A surge of laughter filled the auditorium.
The patient stepped down from the stage. I watched him walk back to his seat, into a forest of raised hands as people craned forward now to be healed. The reverend’s ushers moved through the crowd, selecting people, guiding them into a line along the periphery of the hall. One by one, young and old, they climbed or were carried onto the stage. One after the other, bits of flesh, clotted blood, matted hair, worms, stones, shards of glass were displayed like auction lots. The room grew hotter and the doors and windows were flung open. The sound of night traffic and hawkers drifted into the hall, interweaving with the prayers and chants of the reverend and his congregation. The air felt thick and urgent.
I looked at Aunt Mary. She was sitting upright, her hands folded in her lap. She looked composed, contained. She seemed attentive to what was going on, but her expression was closed; she might just as well have been listening to Benny give an account of a basketball match or America recount some kitchen calamity.
I saw Jonah move towards the stage. The sight of him jolted me. I’d been certain none of the jetty boys, my father included, would have been here; the price of the tickets, though not impossibly high, was certainly the kind of money one would think long and hard about spending. I noticed now how lean Jonah was, except for the increasingly conspicuous bulge of his pregnancy. When it was his turn, his belly yielded not the half-expected foetus but a handful of small pebbles the size of beans, which the Reverend trickled slowly into a jar with a sound like rain on an iron roof.
After a while, people started to leave. Here and there across the hall, they rose and moved away like twists of smoke from embers; those who had been healed, those who might only have come to watch and seen enough to assuage their curiosity, those whose children had become fractious or who were distracted by the smells from the food stalls outside. Several times Aunt Mary looked over her shoulder, considering, perhaps, how we might leave unobtrusively from the very front row. When we finally got up I saw that Eddie and his companions had already disappeared.
Outside, the air was pungent and smoky. The barbecue vendors were doing brisk business and, sliding between them, women sold corn on the cob, boiled eggs, coconut cakes from baskets on their heads. In the centre of the schoolyard, a ring of stalls displayed statues of Mary or Jesus, bottles of holy water, votive candles, prayer beads. I saw Johnny Five Course’s cart – a new notice taped to its roof read vegetarian option. Behind her brother, Jaynie parcelled up food without raising her head.
In front of me, Aunt Mary and Benny fell into animated conversation. I thought I heard Aunt Mary say the word cellular. I quickened my step but their voices were swallowed by the noise.
As we came to the edge of the crowd, Dub put his fingers in his mouth and whistled. Ahead of us a line of motorbikes leaned beneath a frangipani tree, slick with light from the school windows. Behind them, a group of men and women sat on a low wall. I recognised Earl.
Dub turned to his mother but before he’d even opened his mouth, she said, ‘Don’t forget Joseph.’ I was disappointed again; I’d hoped to walk back with her and Benny, listening in to their conversation. Benny pushed his hands into his pockets and said sullenly, ‘Joseph rode out with him,’ but Aunt Mary slipped her arm firmly through his. America, tired and impatient now, pursed her lips at the bikes before turning away.
Earl was the first onto his bike. In ones and twos the group pulled out of the school gates, crawling through the traffic and the mass of people spilling out from the sidewalks. We rode in a line to Salinas and then, as we cut through town, one after another the bikes peeled away again until only Earl and Dub rode on together past the edges of Greenhills to rejoin the coast road several kilometres to the south.
Earlier it had taken only minutes to get from the boarding house to the school. And, despite not having wanted to ride with Dub in the first place, as we’d slowed down to turn in at the school gates, I’d suddenly wanted to pick up speed and keep going, leaving the gates, the crowd, the noise and mess of Esperanza behind. Now, as we rode back, the black sea invisible to my right, the wind smoothing my hair away from my face, I felt an overwhelming sense of freedom, and suddenly I understood something so clearly that it surprised me. I understood that for these brief times of being on the road, Dub was not the son of Mary and Captain Bobby Morelos, the product of generations of breeding, in the same way that I too harboured the illusion of leaving my real self behind, far back amid the eddies of road dust, and flying forward to meet a future that was still ripe with possibility.
We rode on through the darkness and, after a while, it seemed as if an uncertain light shifted in the distance ahead. When we drew closer to Esperanza we discovered why: under a thick pall of smoke, the jetty was on fire.