FOUND: THE SMELL OF GAS

A case can be made

for bookshops known to stock

vistas of desolation: long hills,

swamps, barren sand, the bone-white

charm of a lost wallet.

I like the fresher breeze,

the way you lift up your hands

and tell me you know where you are.


All this we burned or traded. The bills,

the paycheques. A stereo speaker, the new dishwasher.

A radio, always present like a limp body

at the bottom of one of the meaner lakes.

I should be grateful for the noise, the smell of gas.

If you’re smart you’ll dowse yourself in it

as if that was all there was…


But that wasn’t enough – we moved

off College, just north of the noise

trying to make sense of, not regret, exactly,

its copper trap, but the way a fluke bull’s-eye

in a dirty pub slipped by unproved.

It has its attractions, but.


We flicked our butts and later

crossed the whole thing out.