Epilogue

The End Is Coming Running about Fifteen Minutes Late

(A cruise ship off the coast of Nova Scotia, late at night. Summer 2000. R. Eric Thomas, a nineteen-year-old wisp of a thing, barely a notion really, sits alone near a buffet that never closes. Eden as an island, on the sea, offering every possible culinary delight the ship’s chef has it in their budget to prepare.

It’s almost midnight. The sounds of the ship’s casino echo from a distance—the tintinnabulation of winning, the vacuum of losing. A door at the far end of the room opens and R. Eric Thomas, age twenty-seven, enters. R. Eric Thomas, at nineteen—hereafter called Nineteen for clarity’s sake—looks up but does not nod or wave for fear of seeming overly eager to an apparent stranger also roaming the high seas in search of all-you-can-eat king crab legs.)

TWENTY-SEVEN

I have some news.

NINETEEN

Sorry, is this area closed?

TWENTY-SEVEN

I have no idea. God, you’re skinny. What year is it? Is that a lobster tail? I’m famished. Why don’t you have more on your plate?

NINETEEN

I’m not that hungry.

TWENTY-SEVEN

That is literally the last time you will ever say that.

NINETEEN

Are you going to kill me?

TWENTY-SEVEN

Why would I kill you?

NINETEEN

We’re on a cruise ship in the middle of the night. That’s where these things happen. Also, you are talking to me and honestly that’s a little weird.

TWENTY-SEVEN

Don’t you recognize me?

NINETEEN

Why would I recognize you?

TWENTY-SEVEN

I’m you. Don’t you see any resemblance?

NINETEEN

To what?

TWENTY-SEVEN

To what?! My God. To yourself. Hello! I honestly thought this would be easier. Eric, I am you. From the future.

NINETEEN

Is this theater? Are you acting at me right now?

TWENTY-SEVEN

I’m R. Eric Thomas. Age twenty-seven. I’m you.

NINETEEN

That’s a stretch, Meryl. But okay.

(Another R. Eric Thomas, this one thirty-five, enters the room. He looks fine, thanks. He’s moisturized. It’s fine.)

THIRTY-FIVE

He’s not an actor.

NINETEEN

Well, not much of one. But give the guy a break. He seems like he’s had a rough go of it.

TWENTY-SEVEN

I can hear you, you know.

NINETEEN

I’m just saying, that extra-“medium” shirt isn’t doing you any favors.

TWENTY-SEVEN

Wow. Am I an asshole?

THIRTY-FIVE

Eric! We are both you. From the future. Isn’t this what you wanted?

NINETEEN

I wanted another one of those blueberry muffins that they served at breakfast, actually. That’s why I came up here. Do you know that you can eat from this buffet any time of the day or night? Isn’t that beyond? This is totally worth the price of the cruise. Not that I have any idea how much this cost. My parents paid for— Oh. My. God. Are you me from the future?!

TWENTY-SEVEN

I was never this much of a mess.

THIRTY-FIVE

You still are.

NINETEEN

All last year—I’m a rising junior at Columbia; but you know that, I guess—I would wish that a version of me from the future would come through the door and tell me what happens. It’s just been really hard and I wanted some help. Everything seems to be falling apart for me. It seemed really hopeless for a lot of it. I wasn’t even really sure I was going to survive it, to be honest. So it’s good to see that I get old.

THIRTY-FIVE

Oh Jesus.

NINETEEN

You’re a little late, though. I mean, the school year is over and my parents took me on a cruise, so it all works out. I’m not sure what you came to tell me. Actually, when I thought about what it would be like in my head, we were making out by now.

TWENTY-SEVEN

You’re a disaster.

NINETEEN

Accurate. So, it all turns out great?

TWENTY-SEVEN

No.

NINETEEN

Oh no!

TWENTY-SEVEN

Yeah, you’re going to drop out and things are going to get really sad for a long time.

NINETEEN

Why are you telling me this?!

TWENTY-SEVEN

You asked, dum-dum.

NINETEEN

What about you? The other one. Surely things get better by the time you’re around. What are you, like fifty?

THIRTY-FIVE

I’m thirty-five.

NINETEEN

Oh no!

THIRTY-FIVE

Things get better. You get married! To a man! You become a writer!

NINETEEN

So, you both came back in time to tell me that things only get better-ish.

THIRTY-FIVE

And also to eat. I’m famished.

NINETEEN

Is this good news or bad news?

THIRTY-FIVE

It’s fine. I wish I could tell you all the mistakes you’re going to make that I really wish you wouldn’t make, but I don’t think it works like that. However, I think it’s important for you to know that you’re here. In the future. And it’s whatever.

NINETEEN

Wow. A glowing review.

THIRTY-FIVE

Maybe the next guy will have better news?

(Another Eric, age forty-three, walks through the door. Wow, has he been working out?)

FORTY-THREE

I do not have better news.

THIRTY-FIVE

(mouth full of food)

Oh no!

FORTY-THREE

I mean, it’s kind of the same thing. I hate to break it to you all, but life is a mixed bag.

TWENTY-SEVEN

Am I happy?

FORTY-THREE

I don’t know how to answer that question. Are there things that make you happy? Absolutely.

NINETEEN

More than there are now?

FORTY-THREE

Yes. Definitely. Life is better.

NINETEEN

See, it gets better.

(Another Eric, fifty-one, very rich, enters.)

FIFTY-ONE

I have bad news.

NINETEEN

Oh no!

FIFTY-ONE

Yeah, the future is very yikes.

THIRTY-FIVE

That’s a very expensive-looking suit, though.

FIFTY-ONE

Oh yeah, I’m rich as hell. But things are still sort of figuring themselves out.

TWENTY-SEVEN

How do you mean?

FIFTY-ONE

Uh, like destiny.

THIRTY-FIVE

(mouth full of food)

What are you talking about? The planet?

FIFTY-ONE

Sure. The planet. Things do not magically transform.

FORTY-THREE

How are the ice caps?

FIFTY-ONE

Drinkable. But we’re turning it around.

(Eric, fifty-nine, enters. Same suit, but worse for the wear.)

FIFTY-NINE

I have some bad news.

FIFTY-ONE

Oh no!

(Eric, sixty-seven, enters. Rich again!)

SIXTY-SEVEN

I have some bad news.

TWENTY-SEVEN

Does it ever get better?

(Eric, seventy-five, enters. In a caftan.)

SEVENTY-FIVE

Eh. It’s fine.

NINETEEN

What are you wearing?

SEVENTY-FIVE

It’s a caftan. Is that a lobster tail? I’m famished.

NINETEEN

Why?

SEVENTY-FIVE

I had an early breakfast. Plus, time-traveling really makes you work up an appetite. Is there drawn butter anywhere? It’s fine. I don’t need it. My arteries!

NINETEEN

No, I mean, why the caftan? Also, there’s drawn butter in a little urn over on the condiments station.

THIRTY-FIVE

Oh my God.

(Erics Twenty-Seven, Thirty-Five, and Fifty-One go to the drawn-butter urn.)

SEVENTY-FIVE

Why the caftan? The breeze for one. Also, who likes pants? Do you like pants?

NINETEEN

I do, actually. The right pair can really accentuate my butt.

SEVENTY-FIVE

You know what a caftan accentuates?

NINETEEN

What?

SEVENTY-FIVE

How happy your butt is to not be trapped in pants. Look at me: I’m basically lying in bed, wrapped in a blanket, but also upright. I am living my full Nancy Meyers–heroine truth right now. I haven’t worn a pair of pants in at least three years. You wish you could be me. Pass me one of those cookies.

NINETEEN

So, listen, I kind of just wanted someone to come back through time and tell me that if I came out, my parents wouldn’t hate me or that I’d graduate and get a job or that maybe one day I have a boyfriend. This is like an Eric conference and it’s a lot. Three of them are standing around the condiments station screaming about the woman from Destiny’s Child.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Do you not know Beyoncé?

NINETEEN

Yeah, I know Beyoncé. But why are they screaming about her? Does she do something special in the future?

SEVENTY-FIVE

Oh Lord. You have so much life left. (Pause. He looks at the doorway.) I guess I’m the last one through. Look, I don’t know what you want to get from this. Things are going to happen, some of them good, a lot of them bad. People will die. People will break your heart. You’ll disappoint people. You’ll disappoint yourself even more. You’ll try things that don’t work. You’ll dare to hope and sometimes that will be rewarded and sometimes it will be mocked. You’ll write a book and end it with a short play for some reason.

NINETEEN

Yikes. Seriously?

SEVENTY-FIVE

The important thing is you’ll live. Isn’t that really what you wanted to know? That’s the question, for all of you, “Do I survive to the end?”

(Pause)

NINETEEN

Yes.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Well, then I come bearing good news. You will not kill yourself today. Or tomorrow either. You will find a way to gather yourself up and push yourself into the next day. And sometimes that will feel like a blessing, sometimes a burden. But we will not go quietly into the night. We will not vanish without a fight! We’re going to live on! We’re going to survive! Today, we celebrate our Independence Day!

TWENTY-SEVEN

I think you got a little lost in there.

NINETEEN

Is all of that from the movie Independence Day?

SEVENTY-FIVE

The what? No, that’s all an original thought.

TWENTY-SEVEN

It’s objectively not.

THIRTY-FIVE

Bill Pullman.

SEVENTY-FIVE

What?

THIRTY-FIVE

Said that.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Doesn’t ring a bell.

SIXTY-SEVEN

At a certain point, you forget where you end and pop culture begins.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Well, who cares if I didn’t think of it. I meant it. Be inspired.

NINETEEN

This all seems depressing.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Okay, well, be depressed then. I could have stayed my ass in the future. You gonna finish that cake?

NINETEEN

Yes.

SEVENTY-FIVE

So salty.

NINETEEN

It just doesn’t seem fair. Like, what’s the point of going on?

SEVENTY-FIVE

Do you want to hear about all the good things? Or do you just want someone to coddle you and tell you there’s a happy ending?

NINETEEN

Isn’t that the same thing?

SEVENTY-FIVE

No! It absolutely is not. If you asked any of these versions of yourself around this room to stop screaming about Beyoncé and list what’s good in their lives, we’d be here all night. But you have this idea that what you’re headed for, what the world is headed for, is some sort of resolution.

NINETEEN

And I guess you’re here to tell me that it’s not.

SEVENTY-FIVE

At the end of the story you die.

THIRTY-FIVE

(mouth full of food)

Oh no!

NINETEEN

Are you here to kill me?

SEVENTY-FIVE

Eric. Get yourself together. No one is here to kill you…(Pregnant pause; he looks at the doorway.) Okay, yeah, no one is here to kill you.

FIFTY-NINE

You’ve gathered us all here today. It was a lot of work; I hope you know that. This excursion. I had to rearrange a lot of things.

THIRTY-FIVE

Oh, she’s busy! She’s a businesswoman in the future!

NINETEEN

So, that’s it? We live. We go through things. We die. For what?

SEVENTY-FIVE

You say you want a happy ending, but neither of those words is really what you’re searching for. For instance, you will not live to see a just world. But you will live to see acts of justice.

NINETEEN

And that’s good enough?

SEVENTY-FIVE

That’s extraordinary. Life will take your breath away. Life will— Oh! Chocolate éclairs! Grab me one of those.

NINETEEN

Wow, we really are unbearable.

SEVENTY-FIVE

You’re exactly who you need to be. Each of you. It may not feel like it; it may seem like it would be much easier being anyone else. You may look back at the person you were at one point and wish that you could instead be the person you are now at that far distant, unreachable point in the past. But you had to be who you were to get to who you are. Every page in the story is successive; they’re all numbered and bound like a book.

THIRTY-FIVE

(mouth full of food)

I’m a spoiler kween.

SEVENTY-FIVE

This one you have to just be present for.

NINETEEN

What you’re saying seems harder than life is supposed to be.

SEVENTY-FIVE

Well, I don’t know how it’s supposed to be for anyone else. The only story I can tell you is my own. And in that story, you keep turning the pages. That’s hope. We hope with words and we hope with deeds. And in so doing, manifest the things that we need, the things that fulfill us, the things that give us life when we fear that all is lost.

(A burst of smoke, a flash of light, a squealing horn. Another Eric, impossibly old, comes through the door.)

ERIC ANCIENT

I have some news.

(A confetti cannon explodes behind him.)

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