TWO THINGS YOU need to know about me: I always dreamed about being a newspaper reporter, and I’m an orphan.
I was mostly raised in an orphanage, although I know from hearing one of the staff gossip about it that I had been adopted as a baby and then given up again when the childless couple who had wanted me so badly discovered that they were about to have a child of their own. The person who said that, who shall remain nameless here, said she thought that had to be the very worst, to be unwanted twice over.
The orphanage where I grew up was called the Benevolent Home for Necessitous Girls. I lived there until I couldn’t stand it anymore, which happened to coincide with the age at which most girls get itchy anyway, when they think they’re going to explode if they have to look at the same faces all day for another day and another day after that, when it seems as if nothing ever changes and nothing ever will, when every day is exactly the same as the one before. When you would (almost) literally give your right arm for something different to happen. There were days when I thought I would go crazy if I had to spend another sixty seconds surrounded by orphan girls and spinster women.
I know, I know. I should have been grateful. I had a roof over my head. I was fed three meals a day. I was given an education. In fact, you might say, being at a girls’ orphanage doesn’t sound all that different from being at a boarding school or one of those fancy so-called finishing schools in Europe. But those schools are for girls who have families—well-to-do families—whereas necessitous girls have no families. Plus, they’re poor.
Obviously and blindingly poor. So poor that the people of the good town where the Home was located—the town of Hope (I am not kidding)—looked on us with pity. And condescension. Along with self-righteousness and mistrust. Some of the women called us gypsies when we went into town, especially if one of the little ones acted up. When one of us (who should have known better) swiped some lipstick from the five-and-dime store, we all became little thieves. When one of us (who also should have known better) was caught smoking cigarettes with a local boy behind the old boathouse, we all became tramps. When one of us (expressing what a lot of us felt) refused to sing at the annual church women’s Christmas tea, where we were marched in to sing carols as a thank-you for the sturdy beige jumpers the women had sewed for us, every one of them cut from the same pattern, we all became ingrates.
I don’t want to give the impression that the entire town of Hope looked down on us, even though it sometimes felt that way. There were decent people, like Mr. Travers, editor and publisher of Hope’s one and only newspaper, the Hope Weekly Crier. When I finally screwed up my courage just before my sixteenth birthday to apply for a part-time job—he had advertised for a “Goings On” columnist—he gave me a chance. He had me write up a sample column and edit a news story, and then, to my astonishment, he hired me. I felt as if I’d won the Irish Sweepstakes. I was on my way. I had taken the first step toward my dream.
True, it wasn’t the most exciting job in journalism. My beat was wedding anniversaries, bridal and baby showers, graduation parties, garden parties, out-of-town visitors and any other social event that the host or hostess wanted everyone in town to know about. I gathered information by telephone, and I didn’t have to probe hard to get the facts I needed. All I had to do was talk to the host or, more often, hostess, who would eagerly tell me who had attended the event (we ran as many names as possible), what refreshments had been served, what entertainment had been offered and, in cases where it was deemed important, what the women had been wearing. I didn’t use my real name. Instead, at my request, the column ran with the byline Lizzie Cochran. In case you don’t know it, Elizabeth Cochrane is the real name of my all-time heroine and role model—Nellie Bly. (She dropped the e from her surname because she thought it looked better that way.)
I know it doesn’t sound glamorous. It wasn’t investigative reporting, and the events I covered were certainly not earth-shattering. But in a small town like Hope and on a weekly paper like the Crier, it was important to cover local happenings. If people wanted to know what was going on in the world, they could get one of the Toronto dailies. But if they wanted to know what was going on down the street, the Crier was the paper to reach for.
About the same time I got the job at the Crier, I started dating Johnny Danforth. He was a senior at the local high school. He was dreamily handsome, ruggedly athletic and financially well-off. I met him when we literally ran into each other as I was going into the grocery store and he was coming out. It was like something out of one of those romance novels that so many girls bought off the rack by the drugstore checkout. Our eyes met and we knew we were made for each other. At least, that’s how I felt. It was also how Johnny said he felt. He didn’t seem to care at all when I told him where I lived. Suddenly I was happy. My life had gone from misery to perfection in the blink of an eye. It stayed that way for a couple of months—until one of Johnny’s neighbors saw us together and told Johnny’s mother.
Mrs. Danforth grilled Johnny, and he, ever the dutiful son, told her everything he knew about me, including my job at the Crier. That incensed Mrs. Danforth almost as much as the fact that her son was seeing me, a girl of dubious parentage, on the sly. Then, to make matters worse for me, one of her friends was robbed shortly after the friend had told Lizzie Cochran about the lavish party she was planning for her sister. All the best gifts were stolen. Both Mrs. Danforth and her friend were certain that the robbery was Lizzie’s fault. They claimed that I’d tipped off some shady characters, who had then broken into the house and robbed it. They made a big deal out of the fact that I used a pen name. They said I was obviously trying to hide something.
The next thing I knew, Mr. Travers fired me. He said he didn’t want to. He said he knew it must seem unfair. (Seem?) But advertising revenues had taken a sudden dip, and if that continued, the paper would be in jeopardy. He didn’t mention any names. He didn’t have to. On top of that, Johnny dumped me. Not right away. Not the minute his mother started in on him. He had to stand his ground long enough to prove that no one told Johnny Danforth what to do. But he did dump me. He sort of tried to be nice about it. “Maybe we should take a break,” he said. “I have to concentrate on school.” But I knew what was going on. You bet I did. Which is where my story starts, in the summer of 1964.