My Watcher halted and rotated in space like some fleshy balloon. Those huge eyes came towards me, dark, immense, the glare of the light-drenched sky reflected in pupils the size of saucers; at last, it seemed, my world was filled by that immense, compelling gaze, to the exclusion of all else – even the fiery sky …
But then the Watcher seemed to melt away. The scattering of distant constellations, the foamy galactic structure – even the glare of the burning sky – I saw them no more – or rather, I was aware of these things as an aspect of reality, but only as a surface. If you imagine focusing on a pane of glass before you – and then deliberately relaxing the muscles of your eye, to fix on a landscape beyond, so that the dust on that pane disappears from your awareness – then you will have something of the effect I am describing.
But, of course, my change in perception was caused by nothing so physical as a tug of eye muscles, and the shift in perspective I endured involved rather more than depth of focus.
I saw – I thought – into the structure of Nature.
I saw atoms: points of light, like little stars, filling space in a sort of array which stretched off around me, unending – I saw it all as clearly as a doctor might study a pattern of ribs beneath the skin of a chest. The atoms fizzed and sparkled; they spun on their little axes, and they were connected by a complex mesh of threads of light – or so it seemed to me; I realized that I must be seeing some graphical presentation of electrical, magnetic, gravitational and other forces. It was as if the universe was filled with a sort of atomic clockwork – and, I saw, the whole of it was dynamic, with the patterns of links and atoms constantly shifting.
The meaning of this bizarre vision was immediately clear to me, for I saw more of the regularity here which I had observed among the galaxies and stars. I could see – suffused in every wisp of gas, in every stray atom – meaning and structure. There was a purpose to the orientation of each atom, the direction of its spin, and the linkages between it and its neighbours. It was as if the universe, the whole of it, had become a sort of Library, to store the collective wisdom of this ancient variant of Humanity; every scrap of matter, down to the last stray wisp, was evidently catalogued and exploited … Just as Nebogipfel had predicted as the final goal of Intelligence!
But this arrangement was more than a Library – more than a passive collection of dusty data – for there was a sense of life, of urgency, all about me. It was as if consciousness was distributed across these vast assemblages of matter.
Mind filled this universe, seeping down into its very fabric! – I seemed to see thought and awareness wash across this universal array of fact in great waves. I was astonished by the scale of all this – I could not grasp its boundless nature – by comparison, my own species had been limited to the manipulation of the outer skin of an insignificant planet, the Morlocks to their Sphere; and even the Constructors had only had a Galaxy – a single star-system, out of millions …
Here, though, Mind had it all – an Infinitude.
Now, at last, I understood – I saw for myself – the meaning and purpose of infinite and eternal Life.
The universe was infinitely old, and infinite in extent; and Mind, too, was infinitely old. Mind had gained control of all Matter and Forces, and had stored an infinite amount of Information.
Mind here was omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent. The Constructors, by means of their bold challenge to the beginnings of time, had achieved their ideal. They had transcended the finite, and colonized the infinite.
The atoms and forces faded to the background of my immediate attention, and my eyes were filled once more with the unending light and star-patterns of this cosmos. My Watcher companion had gone now, and I was suspended alone, a sort of disembodied point of view, slowly rotating.
The star-light was all about me, deep, unending. I had a sense of the smallness of things, of myself, the irrelevance of my petty concerns. In an infinite and eternal universe, I saw, there is no Centre; there can be no Beginning, no End. Each event, each point, is rendered identical to every other by the endless setting within which it is placed … In an infinite universe, I had become infinitesimal.
I have never been much of a poetry buff, but I remembered a verse of Shelley’s: on how life, like a dome of many-coloured glass/ stains the white radiance of Eternity … and so forth. Well, I was done with life now; the covering of the body, the shallow illusion of matter itself – all that had been torn from me, and I was immersed, perhaps forever, in that white radiance of which Shelley spoke.
For a while I felt a peculiar sort of peace. When I had first witnessed the impact of my Time Machine on the unravelling of History, I had come to believe that my invention was a device of unparalleled evil, for its arbitrary destruction and distortion of Histories: for the elimination of millions of unborn human souls, with the barest flicker of my control levers. But now, at last, I saw that the Time Machine had not destroyed Histories: rather, it had created them. All possible Histories exist in the greater Multiplicity, lying against one another in an endless catalogue of What-Can-Be. Every History which was possible, with all its cargo of Mind, Love and Hope, had an existence somewhere in the Multiplicity.
But it was not so much the reality of the Multiplicity but what it signified for the destiny of man which moved me now.
Man – it had always seemed to me since I first read Darwin – had been caught in a conflict: between the aspirations of his soul, which were lofty without limit, and the baseness of his physical nature, which, in the end, might floor him. I thought I had seen, in the Eloi, how the dead hand of Evolution – the legacy of the beast in us – would in the end destroy man’s dreams, and turn his tenure of the earth into nothing but a brief, glorious glow of intellect.
That conflict, implicit in the human form, had, I think, worked itself into me as a conflict in my own mind. If Nebogipfel had been right that I had a sort of loathing for the Body – well, perhaps my over-awareness of this million-year conflict was its root! I had veered, in my views and arguments, between a sort of bleak despair, a loathing of our minds’ bestial casings, and a fond, rather foolish Utopianism – a dream that one day our heads would become clear, as if from a mass delirium, and we would settle on a society founded on principles of logic, self-evident justice, and science.
But now, the discovery – or construction – and colonization of this final History had changed all that. Here, man had at last overcome his origins and the degradation of Natural Selection; here, there would be no return to the oblivion of that primal, mindless sea from which we had emerged: rather, the future had become infinite, a climbing into an air of endless Histories.
I felt I had emerged, at last, from out of the Darkness of evolutionary despair, and into the Light of infinite wisdom.