Grace Sisters’ Rehab Center
Boston—later that day
Johnny Givens took a deep breath, then pushed himself forward on the parallel bars.
The legs, newly fitted, felt unsteady.
That was the strange thing—they felt unsteady. He really did feel them, even though they were carbon fiber and fancy plastic and wires and circuits—not skin, not blood, not bones or nerves.
Fake legs.
But he could feel them.
Partly this was his brain making things up. His mind was substituting what it knew for the sensations that were tickling the nerve endings in the stumps. But there were real sensations. That was the marvel of the legs Massina and his people had invented for him. They were real legs. Almost.
“Keep going, Mr. Givens,” said Dr. Gleason. Gleason was the doctor in charge of his health, the head of a large team of surgeons and other specialists, therapists, scientists, engineers, nurses, and probably a dishwasher or two. Despite his other responsibilities, Gleason spent at least an hour every afternoon with Johnny.
The physical therapist spent three hours each morning, and four in the afternoons. Every moment sucked. Johnny called her Gestapo Bitch.
Not to her face. She looked like she could put him through the wall if he did.
“Use your legs to walk,” she commanded from the far end of the bars. “Move!”
“Easy,” said Gleason. “I don’t want his heart overtaxed.”
“He’s barely at sixty beats a minute. I’ve seen nine-year-olds work harder than this.” Gestapo Bitch shook her head in disgust. “Move, Givens, move! And put your weight on your legs. They’re not going to break!”
Givens put more weight on his left foot, pushing forward. He was a little kid, learning to walk again.
Was he ever going to really walk again?
“You’re doing really well, Johnny,” said Dr. Gleason. “Keep going.”
Johnny felt his hips swinging as he maneuvered down the bars. That was good—he was supposed to use his whole body.
Sweat poured down the sides of his face, down his back, across his neck. It flowed from every pore in his torso, from his arms, from his hands. Gestapo Bitch might think that he was barely working, but he knew better. He could feel the mechanical heart beating away.
It was interesting, though. It did increase its rate, but not nearly as much as a “real” heart would. It was very steady, measured, as if it knew better than the rest of his body what he needed.
As Johnny reached the end of the parallel bars, the sweat from his hands made his palms slippery. He decided to stop and wipe his hands on his shirt, needing to dry them. Steadying himself on his left side, he took his right hand off the bar and ran it down his right rib cage, the driest part of his T-shirt. As he started to switch sides, his left hand slipped. He quickly shoved his right hand toward the bar, but his momentum pitched him to the side. He tried grabbing the bar, but it was too late; he unceremoniously toppled backward, to the floor.
Son of a bitch!
I am never going to do this! Never!
Why the hell did God screw me like this? Why is he such a bastard?
“Are you all right, Johnny?” asked Dr. Gleason, starting over.
“He’s OK,” scolded Gestapo Bitch. “Get up and go back. You don’t stop until you get to the end. You stop, you do it again.”
Johnny didn’t move.
“Do you need help?” asked Gleason.
“He doesn’t need help,” snapped Gestapo Bitch.
Damn you, bitch!
Johnny reached up to the bar. Gestapo Bitch loomed over him and smacked his hand away. “Push yourself up with your legs. Use them or lose them.”
“They’re not my legs,” he told her.
“They sure as hell are. Push yourself up with your legs.”
“I hate you.”
“Good. Now push yourself up with your legs and stop being a crybaby.”
“I’m going to kick your ass when I’m better.”
Gestapo Bitch leaned in until her face was an inch from his. “I’m waiting for the day, Sissy Breath.” She straightened. “Now get on your feet.”