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BECKETT

The weight of Jack’s body landed against me, pulling me down, protecting me.

Something exploded, a horrifying noise that swallowed all other noises.

Pieces of brick from the building rained down on the sidewalk, just inches away from my face. Jack’s chest covered my head. I couldn’t move to get a better idea of what was happening, how we were trapped.

Debris covered us. The world was dark, filling my lungs with dust and soot.

Somewhere, far away, a sound broke through again.

Imogen was screaming.

But I just wanted to lie here for a while, even though I felt like I was suffocating. It was better than the alternative: feeling the weight of the guilt of leaving Sage’s father behind. I knew it’d hit full force if we ever got out from under this rubble.

Sage would never forgive me. I had heard her howl inside the building at the top of those stairs. I know what it did to her to leave him behind.

Her father.

I’d never forgive myself.

If I’d been Jack, I could have carried them both. We all would have made it out alive.

If I were stronger, I could have done it with both of them.

But Jack wasn’t there.

It had only been me.

And that wasn’t enough.

I wasn’t enough.

I was never going to be enough.