PSALM 139:13–14
In the back of my mind lives this fear: What if I am not good enough? I know that when I look in the mirror, I usually don’t love what I see. My grades are average, and my athletics are way less than average. My idea of style is a T-shirt and jeans. I am just not someone you would walk by and say, “Wow! She is special.” I have struggled with this for a long time, always hating my imperfections and wondering what people were thinking of me. I found ways to lessen the fear, like skipping meals, wearing extra makeup and highlighting my hair, but it never went away. The more I tried, the more inferior I felt. I thought it would always be like that, but then one day I found myself discussing my feelings of inferiority with a group of my good friends. One of the guys looked at me and said, “I don’t want you to struggle with that. God doesn’t make mistakes.” I was amazed by how freeing those words were. I may not command human attention, but God thinks I’m worth His time. How cool is that? I don’t have to spend hours trying to look a certain way. I don’t have to wonder if I’m good enough and worry over all my imperfections. I just have to do my best, knowing that God made me the way I am for a reason.
Carmen Dockweiler, 18, Nebraska Christian High School, Central City, NE
Is it true You made me, God?
Made me just the way I am? I’m just not sure I believe it.
Help me to believe today, and feel it in my heart.