gone, but still
in my heart

Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him;
I will surely defend my ways to his face.

JOB 13:15

When I was about nine years old, my dad was diagnosed with this blood disorder that I can’t even pronounce. He knew he wasn’t going to live very long. I guess he lived longer than he expected. When I was eleven, going on twelve, my dad passed away at age fifty-one. Thankfully, he had a personal relationship with Jesus. I can still remember what happened on that day. His death didn’t really get to me as much then as it does now. I get sad when I think about my wedding day and how I’m not going to have my father walk me down the aisle or have a father/daughter dance like many other girls I know. But you know what? He will walk me down the aisle because he will always be with me in spirit. But now, five years later, my mom is still single, and I think she’s starting to date. Since I still feel like my dad is with us, it’s hard to imagine my mom being with someone new. I wasn’t very happy with her dating at first, but now I think I am okay with it. I know it makes my mom happy and that makes me happy. If it wasn’t for God, I don’t think I would be okay with her meeting someone new. God reminded me that mom can’t be alone forever and that it’s normal for a teenage girl to not want her mom to date someone other than her father. My dad will always be with us, even if mom does marry someone new.

Megan Bordenkircher, 16, Nebraska Christian High School, Central City, NE

Father, I don’t want to let go of the people I love.
But I know sometimes I have to. Help me to be strong
and trust that You will take care of them.