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MARIUS BECOMES SO REAL AS TO GIVE COSETTE HIS ADDRESS
WHILE THIS SPECIES of dog in human form was mounting guard over the grating, and the six bandits were slinking away before a girl, Marius was with Cosette.
Never had the sky been more studded with stars, or more charming, the trees more tremulous, the odour of the shrubs more penetrating; never had the birds gone to sleep in the leaves with a softer sound; never had all the harmonies of the universal serenity better responded to the interior music of love; never had Marius been more enamoured, more happy, more in ecstasy. But he had found Cosette sad. Cosette had been weeping. Her eyes were red.
It was the first cloud in this wonderful dream.
Marius’ first word was:
“What is the matter?”
“See.”
Then she sat down on the bench near the stairs, and as he took his place all trembling beside her, she continued:
“My father told me this morning to hold myself in readiness, that he had business, and that perhaps we should go away.”
Marius shuddered from head to foot.
When we are at the end of life, to die means to go away; when we are at the beginning, to go away means to die.
For six weeks Marius, gradually, slowly, by degrees, had been each day taking possession of Cosette. A possession entirely ideal, but thorough. Marius felt Cosette living within him. To have Cosette, to possess Cosette, this to him was not separable from breathing. Into the midst of this faith, of this intoxication, of this virginal possession, marvellous and absolute, of this sovereignty, these words: “We are going away,” fell all at once, and the sharp voice of reality cried to him: “Cosette is not yours!”
Marius awoke. For six weeks Marius had lived, as we have said, outside of life; this word, going away, brought him roughly back to it.
He could not find a word. She said to him in her turn:
“What is the matter?”
He answered so low that Cosette hardly heard him:
“I don’t understand what you have said.”
She resumed:
“This morning my father told me to arrange all my little affairs and to be ready, that he would give me his clothes to pack, that he was obliged to take a journey, that we were going away, that we must have a large trunk for me and a small one for him, to get all that ready within a week from now, and that we should go perhaps to England.”
“But it is monstrous!” exclaimed Marius.
It is certain that at that moment, in Marius’ mind, no abuse of power, no violence, no abomination of the most cruel tyrants, no action of Busiris, Tiberius, or Henry VIII, was equal in ferocity to this: M. Fauchelevent taking his daughter to England because he has business.
He asked in a feeble voice:
“And when would you start?”
“He didn’t say when.”
“And when should you return?”
“He didn’t say when.”
Marius arose, and said coldly:
“Cosette, shall you go?”
Cosette turned upon him her beautiful eyes full of anguish and answered with a sort of bewilderment:
“Where?”
“To England? shall you go?”
“Why do you speak so to me?”
“I ask you if you shall go?”
“What would you have me do?” said she, clasping her hands.
“So, you will go?”
“If my father goes.”
“So, you will go?”
Cosette took Marius’ hand and pressed it without answering.
“Very well,” said Marius. “Then I shall go elsewhere.”
Cosette felt the meaning of this word still more than she understood it. She turned so pale that her face became white in the darkness. She stammered:
“What do you mean?”
Marius looked at her, then slowly raised his eyes towards heaven and answered:
“Nothing.”
When his eyes were lowered, he saw Cosette smiling upon him. The smile of the woman whom we love has a brilliancy which we can see by night.
“How stupid we are! Marius, I have an idea.”
“What?”
“Go if we go! I will tell you where! Come and join me where I am!”
Marius was now a man entirely awakened. He had fallen back into reality. He cried to Cosette:
“Go with you? are you mad? But it takes money, and I have none! Go to England? Why I owe now, I don’t know, more than ten louis to Courfeyrac, one of my friends whom you do not know! Why I have an old hat which is not worth three francs, I have a coat from which some of the buttons are gone in front, my shirt is all torn, my elbows are out, my boots let in the water; for six weeks I have not thought of it, and I have not told you about it. Cosette! I am a miserable wretch. You only see me at night, and you give me your love; if you should see me by day, you would give me a sou! Go to England? Ah! I have not the means to pay for a passport!”
He threw himself against a tree which was near by, standing with his arms above his head, his forehead against the bark, feeling neither the tree which was chafing his skin, nor the fever which was hammering his temples, motionless, and ready to fall, like a statue of Despair.
He was a long time thus. One might remain through eternity in such abysses. At last he turned. He heard behind him a little stifled sound, soft and sad.
It was Cosette sobbing.
She had been weeping more than two hours while Marius had been thinking.
He came to her, fell on his knees, and, prostrating himself slowly, he took the tip of her foot which peeped from under her dress and kissed it.
She allowed it in silence. There are moments when woman accepts, like a goddess sombre and resigned, the religion of love.
“Do not weep,” said he.
She murmured:
“Because I am perhaps going away, and you cannot come!”
He continued:
“Do you love me?”
She answered him by sobbing out that word of Paradise which is never more enrapturing than when it comes through tears:
“I adore you.”
He continued with a tone of voice which was an inexpressible caress:
“Do not weep. Tell me, will you do this for me, not to weep?”
“Do you love me, too?” said she.
He caught her hand.
“Cosette, I have never given my word of honour to anybody, because I stand in awe of my word of honour. I feel that my father is at my side. Now, I give you my most sacred word of honour that, if you go away, I shall die.”
There was in the tone with which he pronounced these words a melancholy so solemn and so quiet, that Cosette trembled. She felt that chill which is given by a stern and true fact passing over us. From the shock she ceased weeping.
“Now listen,” said he, “do not expect me to-morrow.”
“Why not?”
“Do not expect me till the day after to-morrow!”
“Oh! why not?”
“You will see.”
“A day without seeing you! Why, that is impossible.”
“Let us sacrifice one day to gain perhaps a whole life.”
And Marius added in an under-tone, and aside:
“He is a man who changes none of his habits, and he has never received anybody till evening.”
“What man are you speaking of?” inquired Cosette.
“Me? I said nothing.”
“What is it you hope for, then?”
“Wait till day after to-morrow.”
“You wish it?”
“Yes, Cosette.”
She took his head in both her hands, rising on tiptoe to reach his height, and striving to see his hope in his eyes.
Marius continued:
“It occurs to me, you must know my address, something may happen, we don’t know; I live with that friend named Courfeyrac, Rue de la Verrerie, number 16.”
He put his hand in his pocket, took out a penknife, and wrote with the blade upon the plastering of the wall:
16, Rue de la Verrerie.
Cosette, meanwhile, began to look into his eyes again.
“Tell me your idea. Marius, you have an idea. Tell me. Oh! tell me, so that I may pass a good night!”
“My idea is this: that it is impossible that God should wish to separate us. Expect me day after to-morrow.”
“What shall I do till then?” said Cosette. “You, you are out doors, you go, you come! How happy men are. I have to stay alone. Oh! how sad I shall be! What is it you are going to do to-morrow evening, tell me?”
“I shall try a plan.”
“Then I will pray God, and I will think of you from now till then, that you may succeed. I will not ask any more questions, since you wish me not to. You are my master. I shall spend my evening to-morrow singing that music of Euryanthe which you love, and which you came to hear one evening behind my shutter. But day after to-morrow you will come early; I shall expect you at night, at nine o‘clock precisely. I forewarn you. Oh, dear! how sad it is that the days are long! You understand;—when the clock strikes nine, I shall be in the garden.”
“And I too.”
And without saying it, moved by the same thought, drawn on by those electric currents which put two lovers in continual communication, both intoxicated with pleasure even in their grief, they fell into each other’s arms, without perceiving that their lips were joined, while their uplifted eyes, overflowing with ecstasy and full of tears, were fixed upon the stars.
When Marius went out, the street was empty. It was the moment when Eponine was following the bandits to the boulevard.
While Marius was thinking with his head against the tree, an idea had passed through his mind; an idea, alas! which he himself deemed senseless and impossible. He had formed a desperate resolution.